#shays scribbles

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Idk how to be casual my heart breaks out of my ribcage when you smile and explodes when you laugh

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Scribbling the little thoughts on love and stuff out of the brain and into words

Soulmates aren't for me in the way there's the One Perfect Person. But instead there are many hands of different shapes and sizes that fit so perfectly in mine and they hold on when things get rough. Where we give each other little squeezes of love and reassurance.

Where we go through the efforts of choosing each other, continually, unconditionally, intentionally. The contentment and serenity and delight of sharing space with each of those people who refill your cup just as you pour into them.

Soulmates in the way you have so many lovers and friends and things in-between that may not have names but certainly have a place. Sometimes things get tense because there is no such thing as perfect but the relationship is bigger than ego so rises above yet again.

The place where attention is the least of the needs, where connection is the priority.

Where you look at each other's greatest moments, lowest points, and everything in the middle and once again squeeze their hand to remind them you're still there and you will continue to be there

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Just in case no has said this to you recently.

It's okay to fail because that means you are one less mistake away from accomplishing your goal.

Your mind sometimes tells you things that aren't true, and its okay to remind yourself how great you are.

You aren't unlovable.

You are worth every single ”I love you”

You're allowed to be sad. No matter how many people say, ”keep going, you'll be fine” you're allowed to be hurt.

Just because your problems aren't big to someone else, doesn't mean that it isn't big to you.

Your feelings and emotions are valid.

Drink a glass of water and eat something

Don't forget to take any medication you may need.

Lastly, thank you for sticking around. This world is so beautiful and you deserve to see all of it. 🖤

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finally a proper pinned post

Welcome to the shitshow! It's MY shitshow.

Shay (she/ they; early 30s) a queer and emotionally damaged creature with lots of affection to go around. Usually found in the middle east, often visiting the uk

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I don't really buy into soulmates but I do believe you find home in the most beautiful places within the nooks of necks, bends of laughter, cracks of hearts, and secret giggles that no one else hears.

The home is shared between you and them, full of love and warmth and affection. Sometimes the homes have little pathways form between them when a few ones gather to share moments then become cherished. These are the most comforting spaces and where a soul finds itself tethered to delight.

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If only the weariness weighing down my bones could dissolve them instead.

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Slowly intertwining every part of me to every part of you until our hearts beat as one.

The shape of my shadow mirrors you and your eyes reflect my silhouette.

Others are faced with both of us even when presented with one.

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I miss the scent of them clinging to my lips and the taste of them on the back of my teeth. I miss the warmth of their laugh and the silliness in the sounds of our bodies. I miss the shape of them intertwined with me and the beats of their heart pulling me into cuddles. I miss the intimacy found in their arms and the softness of shared snoozes.