Dec 23, 2025
i actually can’t emphasise enough how this is the perfect song to represent jane and becky’s dynamic, particularly in their episode together in season two. it makes me FERAL. FERAL. to think about. i have been planning for months to do a meta on this and. haven’t yet. but one day i will!!
like c’mon guys look how jane ives coded he is!!!!
#out.#spammed heretic about this this morning so i thought. now is the time to messily talk about it on the dash.#with becky as dan (the father) and jane as gabe (the son).#i have comparing been comparing gabe from next to normal to jane since i first watched the pro shot. specifically with gabe and diana.#if yall don't know n2n this song is basically about a father grieving his son who died when he was an infant.#gabe haunts the narrative in a way. he's portrayed as a ghost trying to connect to his family. but is actually a delusion of his mothers#mental illness. it’s too much to explain here but!!#father grieving son. finally admits he recognises him. has to deal with the aftermath of that.#and as for becky. the one who has always been there to look after her sister. the one who was kept in the dark. who didn’t believe. being#confronted with jane suddenly showing up at her doorstep. this girl so desperate for her family. for normal. not realising the extent of#what becky is dealing with. the guilt.#not able to understand or process her years long grief. that has suddenly changed.#it's easier to go on believing jane was dead rather than deal with the reality that terry was right.#that for the last fourteen years she's been laying flowers at a graveside for someone else's child.#(because she doesn’t know that tiny little body in the ground is a fake.)#jane showing up at the door and becky just. knowing that it’s her.#can't you just leave me alone? / why didn't you go with her?'#because becky doesn't want to have to cope with the guilt and realisation that the last fourteen years of her life has been a lie!#she was wrong!#‘i know you know who i am.’#‘i am the one who held you. i am the one who cried. i am the one who watched while you died.’#BECAUSE BECKY WAS THE FIRST PERSON TO KNOW JANE DIED. HAD TO WAIT FOR TERRY TO WAKE UP TO TELL HER HER DAUGHTER WAS DEAD.#THE ONLY ONE WHO HELD THAT LITTLE BODY BECAYSE TERRY REFUSED TO.#‘i know you told her that i’m not worth a damn.’#not that becky didn’t care about jane OBVIOUSLY. but this line alluding to becky trying to tell terry that jane wasn’t alive.#but yeah could literally connect every damn line of this song to something re the ives women.#did yall know i love the ives women.#!!!!!
