you know, and maybe im screwing everything up now, but a sad song just came up and its late outside and i have been far too lonely for far too long, there is something rushing through my veins when im accidentally touched, im sensitive to that kind of charged gaze i alway end up interpreting wrong, i draw curved silhouettes on the fogged shower glass, i leave my curtains open to look at forlorn stars from my bed, i long to be kissed, hard but not rough, or soft and heartfelt, i swear i bleed love and goddamn it theres no one there to bandage the wounds, only alcohol to disinfect, cheap wine that needs to replace the thrill of her sight, but where is that she, i rather be heartbroken than this ignored, I rather admire from afar and then at least feel my pulse, come and save me, to many gods have died in between my thighs, was i promised paradise but i never saw eyes blue enough to make me fall in love