On Serendipity
Perhaps that's not the right word, considering the circumstances, but it's the best one I could think of for what l'll be talking about.
Over a year ago I lost my father. I've talked about it now and then. But not a lot.
My mother and I have never really gotten along. I don't think she's a bad person, and I think she loves me in her way, but she's done questionable things in the past.
I was closest to my father.
Now, some of my gods came into my life before he passed. (At least, if I remember the sequence of events correctly).
But when I lost my father, I could've never imagined that so many male gods- as officially as possible, in the case of the RPD- would stand up and say, "Hi hungry, I'm dad" (okay, probably more serious than that, haha).
Heru-wer was the first who stood out to me as "dad". I called him that basically from day one, though I doubted myself because it's the way I am. And as time went on, I believe that he was the big push encouraging me to get divined. I think he wanted to claim me as his daughter in front of both the gods and in front of me.
Ptah-Sokar-Wesir is a bit more mysterious to me because I have trouble discerning what's him and what's Osiris (who, as careful readers of my blog may know, I don't think of in a fatherly way). The clearest I've gotten him is in dreams and in times I really needed some clarity. He seems to be quiet in general- and still - patient- but he has told me through dreams that he considers me his daughter, and loves me with a father's love.
Manannán mac Lir I'm not entirely sure of. I suspect he is strongly in cahoots with Heru-wer, with whom he takes on a fatherly tone. But when he isn't coming with the Netjeru it's more of a "friend" feeling. It's hard to put my finger on.
And my Shemsu name, "Teritui", means: "I respect my two fathers".
I respect MY two fathers. There's almost a familiarity there. A belonging. A devotion. They're mine in a way, and I'm there's.
(Of course there are other children of my fathers, but I hope you guys get what I mean).
I lost one father (though he's technically an akhu I get the feeling he doesn't appreciate being included in Kemetic devotions), and gained like... three more at least.
And even though that won't bring my dad back, I do love that I have so many gods who love me in this way.
