all the theories, the information, the physics and the metaphysics and all—that’s so fun, yes, and so wonderful, but you can’t think your way into a shift.
there is nothing in the world that will teach you to shift. no amount of knowledge of physics, philosophy, or spirituality will teach you. it’s not in neville’s book, not in any religious book, not even in the shifting community itself.
there’s no step by step, full proof method. there’s nothing to learn from the outside.
so give up that search. accept it. accept that this is you. it’s always been about you and within you.
When someone tells you “I got a surprise”, do you expect it to be given right away? Of course not. You wait for it, you let the momentum build up. If it was given right away, it would lose the magic, the expectation, the… surprise!
Shifting is sort of like that. I’ve been allowing myself to be open to surprises, to lose control and let the universe take the wheel. I feel my heart being open to this surprise, and whenever I wake up in here, I don’t consider that a failure anymore. Even if I’m frustrated.
Because if I really think about it, even when I think I’ve failed, I’ve actually made progress. Even the tiniest. And because surprises aren’t given right away, and you can’t really predict them, I keep myself calm and open to the possibilities.
But how are you gonna relax and trust if you can’t relax and trust? Well that’s what you must learn, then.
In order to shift you just have to “choose” to shift.
But how do you “choose” to shift if you don’t know how to “choose” to shift?
That’s what you’re learning.
So stop treating every attempt as failure. Stop pressuring yourself to just know something that you literally don’t know. Shifting is a skill, it’s something you align yourself to, something you understand. And even if “you’re always shifting because shifting is like breathing” then what you need to learn is to direct that shift. You’re learning to shift to your dr. So be patient with yourself. Calm down.
Yesterday I posted about David Lewis’ theory on the multiverse and how it relates to reality shifting experiences. These are the notes I’ve taken on the subject. The last page is the one in which I develop my theory of shifting, but it’s in Spanish. I’m gonna translate it here.
Lewis: to exist is to be an object in space-time.
My note: space-time unfolds in consciousness.
↳ demonstration: ‘consciousness’ is phenomenal experience. phenomenal experience is needed in order to have knowledge of the world. everything you know, you know through being conscious (aware, experiencing). This is a conundrum of philosophy and science. We cannot escape consciousness. We can’t know anything without consciousness, because being conscious is the prerequisite of knowing.
Question: shifting, a transference of information? Is consciousness not subject to laws of causality? → is consciousness a ‘bridge’?
My theory of Identity (my DR self vs my CR self)
Identity vs personality vs “being like” → my definitions
“being like” means being conscious of experience. It’s a term grabbed from Thomas Nagel and David Chalmers.
Identity: collection of facts that define the ‘self’ in a specific moment.
Personality: the “mode” of “being” (the ‘mode’ of the self, the manner of being).
Being like: unique point of conscious reference; the “indexical” experience of being.
indexical refers to a word that changes referent based on context. for example, “he” and “she” change point of reference based on who you’re talking about.
In context:
Me = personality + being like
Identity = world + me
How this relates to shifting: my identity changes when I shift. Me 1 (CR Self) and Me 2 (DR Self) have separate identities. We inhabit different worlds, therefore we are not ‘the same person’. We might even have slightly different personalities. However, what we share is a “me” (a self, a consciousness). I know “what it’s like” to be both of us. I know what it’s like being my CR Self and what it’s like being my DR Self. What connects us is shared conscious experience.
However, this shared conscious experience doesn’t happen simultaneously. I’m not simultaneously aware of my DR and my CR; this isn’t possible. But why?
My answer is: because attention is unifocal.
I can only “focus” on one world at a time. Attention is, then, a uni-focal navigational system. And here’s where that tiny little drawing of a computer and two monitors becomes relevant:
Computer: the self, me, my “what it’s like”; contains everything, processes anything, etc.
Monitor 1: CR Self (Identity 1)
Monitor 2: DR Self (Identity 2)
Screen: the “world”; any one of those realities (the “content”)
Mouse / pointer: attention
Question: does the brain contain consciousness? → reality contains the brain → the brain is data to reality → data is processed by consciousness → therefore, consciousness contains the brain, not the other way around.
The “loop” of reality:
experience is reality → reality contains world 1, 2, 3, etc… + me 1, 2, 3, etc… → consciousness is “me” → i experience reality
All this time it’s always been about crossing boundaries within myself and overcoming myself, it’s not even about shifting, it’s about allowing myself to shift, to experience what I want, to go beyond my fears and limitations.
Shifting was truly meant to find me because it was never just about my soul’s capacity to go beyond, it was also about the growth i’ve experienced and everything I’ve had to go through to simply say “fuck it, i’m somewhere else.”
I think one of the reasons I’ve convinced myself “I can’t manifest” is not that I can’t actually manifest it’s just that I’m not manifesting what I desire.
The line is very thin but it’s there. Every time I try to manifest something I truly desire, the opposite happens. And I think this is because deep down I feel a resistance towards that desire, as if I didn’t believe it could really happen to me. And honestly? I’m really tired of this. But I don’t know how to get past it. It’s very cemented in me, this skepticism of good things happening… *sigh*
During the hypnapompic state, I felt I was asleep in another room of my house. Despite waking up without opening my eyes, I felt the geometry of that room around me (it lays in the opposite direction of mine, and the bed is wider).
My spatial sense was so submerged that I was sure I was asleep there. Even when I realized that I was waking up and reasoned that it was a dream, my sense still did not acclimatize to the real geometry of my room.
The conclusion is that I probably shifted. My senses went against my reasoning; I was not in my room, even if I wanted to believe so. I think it is safe to assume that it was a mini-shift. It’s very ironic that it happened exactly when I decided I was gonna take a break.
