hi mason!! i hope youâre doing well! first off, thank you for answering so many questions and giving advice. youâve helped me and so many others in our shifting journey, and youâre so appreciated in this community đ
i was hoping to get some advice about something if thatâs okay. i have an s/o who also doesnât physically exist in this reality and sheâs never felt like an oc here, more like someone who just came to me one day and i knew my shifting journey had been leading me to her all along. i want to connect with her here and learn more about her, and while i have written her a letter and asked my tarot cards about her, i havenât channeled her yet and iâm scared to do so because i have so many insecurities in this reality. iâm terrified of her seeing this version of me and being disappointed/not loving me the same
before you channeled daeron for the first time, did you ever struggle with these fears? if so, how did you move past them?
Seeing you say all these things is like looking into a mirror and seeing my past self. I'm not even joking, I used to be exactly like you.
I was TERRIFIED, especially the first few months that I occasionally got to communicate with Daeron. With terrified I literally mean I threw up a couple of times before talking with him, because I was so scared.
I had this whole idea in my head that with my disability here, the fact I don't look the exact same, the way I'm just, like a temu version of my 'real' self, he could never love me the same.
This, combined with the fact that the only person who could channel for me was severely biased and toxic, and often twisted his words to make them sound more backhanded, made sure that the first while of me talking with him, or even just writing letters, was filled with so much fear.
Then I realised something. If I was in Daeron's shoes, and he looked different, or he was sick, or he just wasn't the same in every way, would I care? Definitely not. I'd think it's cute. I'd still love him, still support him. Because regardless of anything. That's my man!
So why would it be any different for him?
Why would it be any different for your girl?
She loves and supports you for a reason, she must care so deeply about you. Nothing in your looks, or your personality, or your being altogether will ever change that. She's not going to care whether you are bigger, smaller, taller, shorter, whether you have acne or scars, or anything else.
This is meant to be for a reason. I promise you, she's not going to care! Just channel her, have fun, be secure in your love. It took months off my chances with Daeron back then, and it stressed me out so much, all for nothing. It will all be okayđ