#shithust

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I am not fine *screams for help /nsrs (?)

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I have a feeling that im doing something wrong with my life

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big head sillies struggle hugging because they have big heads 🙏🎀🫂

me love you @ksopaz someday I will meet my mutuals and I hope not to choke them when we gonna hug

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if you miss me I recommend subscribing to my telegram channel. its fully on Russian but if I'll notice english followers I'll start translating everything to eng

t.me/HustParovoz

love you all.

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feeling existential crisis ,burnout and all-time exhaustion kicking in harder than I expected

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just stupid rambles, vent

i just realized that I envy most of my mutuals, like Sopa, Sid, Fonosai...don't get me wrong. I love them a lot, I love their artworks and creativity, they absolutely deserve all the love they receive...but I can't help but want this recognition. I know that they made hard work to receive that, I know thinking that way is egotistical, i know that I maybe don't even deserve what I have now, but I just want to be noticed. I don't want to be forgotten in the depths of the internet. I'm just a stupid child with issues, and who wants nothing more but to be noticed. I need to work harder but I just can't. I'm already on the verge of.. I don't even know. I don't know what to do anymore. I just don't. I don't.

upd: and especially i want to be noticed by my mutuals. I really need their... I don't know. attention? but I always got really happy when one of my mutuals likes my post or reblogs it, I can't help but feel...appreciated?

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I feel aggressive toward people like this.

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hi