May 17, 2019
you left. and she left. then they left.
seen from Australia
seen from United Kingdom
seen from Canada
seen from Brazil
seen from Poland
seen from United States
seen from Colombia
seen from China
seen from Malaysia
seen from Croatia
seen from Sweden
seen from Sweden
seen from Malaysia
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Russia
seen from Lithuania
seen from Malaysia
seen from Sweden
seen from United States
you left. and she left. then they left.
Today is a shitty day but I'm trying to let my head up 💪
Shitty Friday
Can today just end? It's been nothing but boring then when I try to do something I was trained to do, I was told I am wrong. I'm in freaking trouble again and it's not my fault.
On top of that my sinus headache is coupling with my migraine. And the hurricane on it's way isn't making things better.
I need a lot of alcohol rn. I might die at work today.
You would think Fridays would be the least sucky day of the week because FRIDAY, but you’re wrong...
Not this Friday. I’ve cried once already and yelled at the same person twice. I feel absolutely helpless in a situation I can’t fix. And I really just kinda wanna tear my hair out right now.
Why? You ask... I’ll tell you why.
My grandma has dementia and can barely walk, so you can imagine my shock and outrage right before I left for the shop this morning to discover that she’d somehow managed to drag an either bushel of unripened tomatoes into the house from the balcony and had placed several in the sink for washing. Thank god I was there to stop her or she would have ruined them.
But that’s not the worst part. No, the worst part was getting to the shop this morning absolutely famished expecting to find the food I bought yesterday to be in the fridge... SHE FUCKING THREW IT OUT! $20 worth of food that I could have eaten for 4 DAYS with money I’ve been struggling to keep. That’s 4 DAYS of meals I no longer have. And I’m so fucking pissed. I have literally cried because I’m so angry and frustrated that we can’t afford to put her in a nursing home so we’ve had to put up with this shit for 6 years. Six fucking years of her throwing our hard earned money in the garbage or down the toilet.
I’m tempted to start a GoFundMe in an attempt to raise enough money to get her better care than we can provide her, but I’m pretty sure it’s going to fall on deaf ears because of how often I’ve been ignored on Twitter, Facebook, and here. So I’m just going to vent it out, cry for what it’s worth, then try to deal with things as they come.
Anyway, there goes my appetite. I can’t even stomach the thought of eating right now, I’m so distraught.
When someone pulls their car over just to insult your physical appearance really brightens your day doesn't it?
God why am I so invisible to people...?
Friday I'm not in love, alone and drunk.