#shitty personal post

[thujafantastica]

ya ya ya ya ya ya ya I just wannnnaaaaaaaaa belonnnggggg feeling all lost n junk scattered across the floor in the ghostly hours in the late spring wonder if I’m real

2017

[turbodup]

that feel when you come home from a long shift and the cat you’re sitting for slipped into a heavy diabetic coma

thought she was dead at first bc i’m a big dummy still on edge about it

[turbodup]

ok but i thought i was “granted amnesty” from this months ago why is the state still trying to collect $971 from me for a twelve year incident just let me live my life

[shockt0yoursystem-blog]

I've been gone, right? no doubt. I just played "don't find another love" for the first time since last year and my heart broke all over again. the fuck, @teganandsara???

[thatfilmkid]

I just want to be small

[your-trans-prince]

Maybe I smile and joke around all day. Maybe I still hit the gym for hours at a time. Maybe its just to hide how i really feel every second of the day. I am not okay.

[turbodup]

earlier tonight i was suckered into the age-old conversation that more or less went along the lines of “no matter what you may think (how you see yourself), you’ll always be a woman” and it’s just

i understand where this point of view is coming from but please understand it also wants to make me throw up and hide and wonder what the point of transitioning even is bc i’ll just be living a lie anyhow and even if i end up being able to pass or go stealth no amount of hormones or whichever surgeries will change the fact i’m born the way i am and not what i always wanted/thought i was going to be for at least three-quarters of my life and it’s just so upsetting and discouraging i’d love to kill myself and start over on a new life except i’m pretty sure that’s not how it works so don’t worry i’m mostly not suicidal i won’t

but what even is the fuckin point every so often i don’t want to have a sex or a gender i’m just dup who care

[eatyoursherbet-blog]

u know that it’s rlly bad if you still want to die even when you’re eating the best soft serve ice cream known to human kind