“i’m so proud of you.” she is here to make lukas feel good about himself
@silentsiing / song memes / accepting
it surprises him to the point of dropping the letters he’d clutched onto so desperately.gloved hand extends upwards towards his face , shaking while he feels tears well upin his eyes. he feels both , incredibly heavy and light at the same time. how long hashe wanted to be told that ? too long , it feels like. and for a moment he can’t help theshaky breath he exhales — nor can he help the tears finding their way across his cheeks. what he can help , though , is the other hand trembling and extending towardrhoslyn like a drowning mans hand would reach out towards a ship in the distance.
except he’s nowhere close to drowning , unless one counts the tears he can’t help. itis the first time he’s cried for himself and it feels shameful — but also kind of relieving.all his life he’s worked endlessly to better himself even without knowing how. it didn’tmatter if he even knew what to do ; all he knew was that he’d wanted to be the best version of himself he could be. and then he’d run away and isolate himself. to gain allthe affirmation he’s ever needed felt like a hit straight in the jaw. if only his family hadbeen like that before it had been too late and before he’d ruined his own childhoodchasing ideals he knew nothing about other than he was too far from the to achieve.
❝ a— are you … did … did you … mean … did you mean … me ? ❞
he curses the frailness of his voice , despises the desperation for another piece ofpositive reinforcement as though it was the source of his life. but he can’t help it ; cannot stop the sudden grin on his face , the way his face accomodates to a sincerity inraw emotions he’s not felt in what feels like an eternity. like a heavy weight lifted off ofhim he reaches out his hands to carefully rest on her shoulders — gentle in every wayjust in case she didn’t want the contact — in elation. he doesn’t know what comes over him but what he does know comes over him but he can’t help but hug the other ,lifting her up in the process but still mindful enough to not put too much strength into it.( he remembers how his father almost accidentally snapped his spine — kind of. )
❝ you’re … you’re not joking ? you’re really serious ? thank— thank you ! ❞