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[sillyguyz4ever]

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[mentalillnessmouse]

(Sillyghost) I want to thank you for helping me a while back. I've since been diagnosed with schizophrenia and gotten help. I'm feeling a lot better. Thank you. Roboraptor answered my asks, I don't know if they're still active here? Anyways just want to say that it meant a lot to me at the time.

Hey there,

Thanks so much for your message. This means a lot to us and it truly makes what we do worth it knowing we’ve helped someone get the help they deserved. Roboraptor is not active with MIM at the moment, but I’m sure that they’d be very happy to hear that you’re doing better so I’ll pass the message on to them personally. 

Take care and feel free to message us if the need arises.

- Tea

[hauntedhistory-southafrica]

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[mentalillnessmouse]

(sillyghost 3/?) someone to come by my apartment once a week to help make it more liveable. I feel like I don’t derserve all this help, and like there are others out there who struggle more but who aren’t getting help. And im afraid that if I start taking medication I’ll lose my abilities both imagined and real. Im afraid I’ll forget how to realitytest messed up things and that I’ll never be able to get off the medicine. And I feel on some level like my world is gonna be flatter because as much

(sillyghost 4/?) because as much as I hate the anxietyinducing things im all about that magical thinking… I just don’t know. Sorry this was not quite a question. But maybe u can offer some advice on how to accept help?? Thanks <3 and in any case thank u for getting me this far..

hey there, 

i’ve looked and i can only find these two parts of your question? can you please resubmit if you remember what the full question was? 

thanks!

–kei

[mentalillnessmouse]

(sillighost again! pt 1) Okay so i went to see a psychiatrist, actually, I was recommended to go by the student councellors. He seemed nice enough, but the second session out of three, he brings up psychosis. I didn’t think this was relevant, I tried to explain, and he agreed with me. So I came a last time, and we talked about other problems, like how I believe I may have anxiety and ADHD, but he said “no” to everything, saying that “some people are just more lazy” and

(sillyghost pt 2) and “your anxiety is because of childhood trauma/negligence so it’s not real anxiety”. Still he asked if it was okay for him to write a letter to my doctor and recommend I speak to someone about childhood stuff etc. So I agreed. Then I got a letter from my doctor that she had gotten a letter from him, but I wasn’t so keen on going. Eventually I had to go for a physical reason, and she mentioned the letter. It turns out he recommended I be assessed for schizophrenia at the

(sillyghost pt 3) psychiatric hospital?? I was completely confused. How could he just lie to me for two hours? Is it even legal for him to mention something I haven’t given him permission to (re: confidentiality)?? And now I definitely never ever want to talk to MH professional again, it’s like he was trying to make me paranoid???? Is this normal behavior?? What on earth should I do.. I feel really cheated and paranoid. and confused. maybe my memory is not trustworthy. ugh why would he do that?

Hey anon,

I’m sorry that you had that experience. It wasn’t ok for your provider to lie to you like that, even if he was trying to help. You deserve informed treatment, and you didn’t get that with that psychiatrist.

I do think, though, that you should go for that assessment. I know that you don’t think you have delusional thinking, but your last ask did describe some things that could be seen as delusions. I’m not saying that they are, just they show some similarities. It’s worth at least going so that you can rule that out, if for no other reason.

I also doubt that the only reason for an assessment is to assess a specific disorder; it’s possible that that’s a specific specialty of the assessor he wants to send you to, but it’s probably a more general assessment.

What I think probably happened is that your psych heard what you had to say and thought that some of your beliefs sounded potentially delusional. He, not having expertise in disorders that could cause that, wanted to refer you to someone who could more effectively figure out if you’re having delusions.

My recommendation would be to get the assessment and to find a new psychiatrist. No matter what else, his comments about anxiety and ADHD were wrong and invalidating.

As for confidentiality, it sounds like you probably signed a form allowing him to communicate with your primary care doctor (which would have enabled him to send a letter). Once you signed that form, you lost control over what he was able to send. Ethically, I don’t think he should have sent the letter he did without explicit consent, but I think that what he did was legal.

Stay strong. You deserve competent, compassionate help.

–roboraptor

Edit: It may be possible to revoke permission, depending on circumstances. I would check out the laws in your area and the written policies of any clinician you have seen.

[mentalillnessmouse]

(p 1) (Please tag sillyghost! )It used to be that I'd say ”I don't wanna die” or ”don't stop beating” to my heart a lot when I had anxiety and it sort of helped because I kind of believe that works, but now my aunt told me ”the universe can't hear don't/not/etc)…. And that means I said the wrong thing over and over. And im really trying to compensate, but I feel like I have no idea how many times I've said it, and I need to believe it when I say it, so I can't just straight up sit down and say

(sillyghost pt 2) it 1000 times. And sometimes when I do this I just keep getting intrusive thoughts with sometimes the opposite. And sometimes stuff like ”if you don’t die somebody else will”, and then I feel so horrible for wanting to live, but I’m just so so scared of death I can’t not.. And now I get those either or things a lot, like I have a chance to change the outcome of something, but I have to choose between two things. Like I can make sure my brother gets a promotion, but then I’m

(sillyghost part 3) gonna get an almost-failing-grade or worse. Which is another thing. My grades have been getting worse lately (not because im off or anything, im just not smart enough for the level of academic endeavour I assume). And when I look at them I just. For a moment I feel I want to die. And that’s so toxic and I have to go ”I will live I will live I will live”… so I think my question is not really clear sorry. And this is way too long. Anyway I’m confused if this just means im

(sillyghost part 4) childish or if it’s a symptom of something. But I just feel like it’s a real thing, and it’s kind of a fair amount of precautions to take?? I have other questions but maybe i’ll ask them later. o.o this is already four oart, sorry!!!! You guys are amazing and it’s really cool how much work you put into the blog. I hope one day I can do something similar. Anyway, yeah. uhm. thanks for listening to me whining ^^“ (pls ignore the one off anon please please please delete it)

Hey anon,

I think your aunt was wrong with what she said. If it’s helpful for you to say “don’t stop beating” to your heart, say it. Maybe the universe is listening and helps you; I think that that very well could be the case. Even if it isn’t, it helps change your internal narration to something helpful.

Your life does NOT cause someone else’s death. That isn’t how life works, anon. There is a balance in life, and your life is an essential part of that balance, just like every other life.

Some of your thoughts, like feeling like you can change the outcome of something that you have no real control over, could be a sign of delusional thinking. If it’s happening fairly often, and it sounds like it is, I would recommend talking to someone about it and seeing if you can get therapy to make sure everything’s ok.

Sorry we took so long to answer! Your question wasn’t too long or a problem, and helping people is why we do this. You deserve support, and it’s great that we can be part of that for you.

--roboraptor

[mentalillnessmouse]

(sillyghost) okay sorry!! Despite my intention I think my previous ask came out unnecessarily distressed because of lack of punctuation. I'm perfectly fine waiting for your answer, don't worry about me! I was just worried that I might have written something hurtful to some of you somehow. I didn't intend to whine, rather I wanted to apologize! Please, keep doing your thing! I'm so impressed with your work.

(sillyghost) wow way to make me sound really ungrateful. Im so sorry! please take your time, im sorry!! xoxo

I didn’t think you were ungrateful at all! Sorry if I gave that impression. We care about you and definitely care about answering your question. I’m just sorry we’ve been backed up so much lately!

You have nothing to be sorry for, anon. We do this to help. We’re here for you to ask questions; we’re not going to be upset because you’re accepting the help we offer!

Seriously, you haven’t done anything wrong. Stay strong.

--roboraptor

[mentalillnessmouse]

(sillyghost) I'm sorry did i write something bad? i feel kind of paranoid and confused because it's taking longer than normal to answer my ask. i cant remember exactly what i wrote? did i include a question? or maybe i just whined. im sorry!! you dont have to publish this, just wanted to tell you im sorry if i wrote something bad or difficult for you. And it was way too long too. Im really sorry to have been difficult. please take care of yourselves. i read all your answers and you're amazing!

Hey anon,

Don’t worry! We’re just lagging behind with asks right now because a lot of mods are busy (I’m still supposed to be on hiatus, oops!). We will get to yours as soon as we can. 

It wasn’t too long! We have a limit of 5 parts because that’s how long an ask we’re willing to answer. You had 4 parts, so you’re within that limit.

We do still have some asks that are older than yours, but it should be answered pretty soon.

Sorry for the delay!

--roboraptor