“We’re not having this conversation again.”
“Come off it. I’ll hear enough of that come morning. How about you try your hand at being supportive for once?”
A reproving “Prrrpt… mew,” whined up at him as the cat slinked across his shin, weaving around his leg and back again. Ser’s purrs were so loud the cat was vibrating. He peered up at him with those amber eyes, seeing more than a cat had any right to.
Edgar kicked out the chair and, gripping the table, tried to ease himself into it. His ribs and abdomen immediately protested the movements and he gracelessly dropped himself the rest of the way with a groan. Wincing, his grip on the table’s edge tightened as he endured the throbbing ache of the various injuries he’d sustained earlier that evening. Merlin’s balls, the night could’ve gone better.
Cracking his eye open, Edgar spotted the bottle of firewhisky he’d brought to the table. An arm hugged around his middle, cradling his ribs as he reached over the wooden surface, grabbed the bottle by its neck and dragged it close, grunting through gnashed teeth. The accompanying glass also skidded to a stop in front of him. Unscrewing the cap, he poured himself a generous amount and gulped down the whisky like its alcohol content had healing properties.
The near empty glass landed on the table with a clunk before Edgar poured himself another healthy dose of couldn’t-be-better. He breathed slowly to let the alcohol start to take affect, and also because his ribs bloody hated him and anything more than the shallow in and out hurt like hell. Chair still angled out, away from the table, Edgar’s absent stare at the hardwood beneath his feet was interrupted by the house-lion of a cat that took up post in front of him.
Ser stared at him with those flamey sunrise eyes, and he could see the wheels turning behind them. Body already tensing, Edgar’s arm lifted away from his chest so that he could hold a hand out to halt the big furball in his tracks. “Don’t even think about it, mate. You’re a metric ton of fluff and I’m--” Ser jumped up and landed right on Edgar’s chest. He finished his sentence with a wince and whimper. “Beat to shit. But, by all means, come on up.”
It hurt to laugh but he couldn’t help the sound as a grated chuckle bubbled up from his lungs. The oversized stuffed snow leopard was still purring violently as he rubbed his face against Edgar’s, who hissed and cringed at the flares of pain that shot off with the contact. Grumbling affectionate curses at the cat in his lap, Edgar’s smirk was faraway as he stroked his soft pelt then scratched his chin.
He could’ve died tonight. All things considered, how the night’s events had unfolded were as ‘best case scenario’ as it got. Edgar didn’t really consider himself a particularly fortunate bloke but, without a felix felicis, the only explanation for having survived the night with his hide in tact was dumb luck. Blast it all to hell, he was going to get an earful in the AM. There’d be a queue outside his door waiting to get a lick in for being stark raving mad.
With a shake of his head, Edgar stroked up to the soft tufts at the tips of Ser’s ears and sighed. “You going to help patch me up or just supervise?” When Ser goggled up at him, all unblinking and vainglorious, he hummed unsurprisingly at the cat. “I could do with a little less criticism from you, mate.”
After leaning in as far as his aching body would allow, Edgar pecked the cat between the ears. He planted his feet squarely on the ground then lifted his hips along with the maine coon up off of his seat with a grunt, fishing his wand out from his pocket. Once he settled with a sigh again, Ser was back to scrubbing their cheeks together while Edgar magicked his medical kit out from the cabinet in the loo and onto the table.
His many attempts to get Ser either onto the ground or the table were met with stubborn protest. The too-large-to-be-a-house cat kept jumping right back into place, and he’d fought enough for one night; persisting on a losing battle would take more energy than he had left.
Edgar had to work around the cat that refused to be parted from his lap. With the help of a mirror he cleaned out his cuts, smeared a healing poultice on them, then secured gashed flesh with butterfly bandages. All while Ser continued to purr like an engine working double time, curled up into a tight ball, comfortable as only a cat could be.
Even as he tended to his wounds, Edgar knew that he’d need to send Ted an owl the next morning. There was more damage than he could fix on his own and going to St. Mungo’s would ask too many questions he couldn’t answer. Better another Order member piece him back together than a Healer who’d have to record his injuries and their obviously made up causes.
As the adhesive of the last bandage stuck into place Edgar flopped back in his seat and slouched down against its back. His head fell back and he stared up at the ceiling, absent-mindedly stroking Ser while his thoughts circled back to the night’s events. The feeling that hollowed out his chest with the night’s memories wasn’t so much regret as it was an inexplicable kind of shame.
Shame not in having done the right thing, but in having strolled headlong into danger, knowing the odds were stacked high against him, without so much as calling for backup. He hadn’t thought, not about himself, not about the consequences, not about the people he loved or what he was fighting for. Edgar had seen them, their black robes and sharp hoods, metallic masks obscuring their faces, and he’d acted on impulse.
No. That was a lie, too. Edgar had acted in anger. Righteous, resolute, single-minded fury. Not on rotation to patrol tonight, he’d decided to take the scenic route home for the fuck of it. Somewhere along the way he happened upon them, a group of Death Eaters, tucked in the shadows of an alleyway as a muggle fumbled with their keys while closing up shop for the night. They’d waited for him to pass in front of the alley then done a snatch and grab.
Edgar had sprinted across the street after them, blood simmering at what he’d find in those shadows. The cowards outnumbered the muggle five to one. Even without their wands it wouldn’t have been a fair fight. But the tossers weren’t looking for fair, they were looking for easy and Edgar hated them for it. He didn’t know how he made it out of that alleyway with his life, much less in one piece. All he knew was that the aurors had five Death Eaters gift wrapped and ready for pick up when he disapparated his battered arse back home.
He’d been reckless and it’d almost cost him. There was a time when that might not’ve mattered so much, but Amelia still counted on him. And Xeno... lovely, beautiful, distracted Xeno. Who would protect them, care for them, better than he did? Well, there were probably a few people who could care for them better than him, but none would do so more passionately.
A younger version of himself had wanted to save the world and, years of countless mistakes later, his adult self still wanted to make a difference. As he held Ser’s face between his hands, thumbing over the cat’s whiskers, he mused that while he was busy saving the world, “Tell me, who’s gonna save me from myself?”
Ser’s eyes parted to reveal his sharp, intelligent gaze. The cat bobbed his head between Edgar’s hands, chirping a quiet, “Prrbpt,” in reply.
Scratching the big cat between his ears, Edgar hummed in understanding as he wrapped an arm around him and hugged his over-large body to his chest then stood with a groan. He helped Ser onto his shoulders and left the table with a muttered, “Come on, you cheeky bugger. Let’s let Xen know you’re putting me under house arrest until Amelia can box my ears for being a prat.”