When her dad told her, she couldn’t believe it. It was too good to be true.
Summer Rose just… couldn’t be alive.
She was only alive in her dreams.
It had been a few months after she started Signal when the first dream happened. For years she’d understood that her mother was dead. Even with the aid of Huntsmen saving people, even the youngest of children were rarely a stranger to death. It was something everyone had to grasp when death could come at any moment. So was life in Remnant, even within the walled safety of the kingdoms. And yet… she saw her. Sitting there with her. Making tea for them.
Ruby wasn’t even sure it was a real memory. It couldn’t have been. She didn’t like tea when she was young. Yet every sip warmed her heart. She’d tell her mother about her day, her plans on her weapon… and sometimes Summer would respond. Give her ideas for new modifications.
Okay yeah, it was kinda silly to think that her mother was actually helping her. Weiss would have said it was just her psychic- psych? No, psyche? Yeah, that. Her psyche helping her out. Ruby wasn’t quite sure what all the specifics of it was, even now, but it had something to do with her mind helping her resolve problems in ways that made her feel comfortable. And tea with her mother was one of the most calming, comfortable things she could imagine.
But that’s all it was. Imagination.
But still. Seeing her, even just some patched up dream version of her. It was nice. She had dreams like that several nights in a row, and then it would stop. Only to return after a random amount of time. She… never told Yang about them. Didn’t want to worry her. She hid behind her smile; buried herself in her blueprints. In a way, she became serious about being a Huntress and grew well above her classmates due to this desire to hide it all.
A bit ironic, in hindsight.
The dreams had led her to visit her mother’s grave for the first time since they put it in. Training to be a Huntress… it had made her even more aware about the consequences of death in this world. And it… made her want to feel closer to her mother. Why did she always wear the cloak? Not because it was some sort of fashion statement. Because her mother wore one.
And when it was wrapped all tight around her it felt her mom giving her a hug.
She still had one of her mother’s old white cloaks. Dad didn’t even notice that she packed it away with her things when she went to Beacon. On nights she was couldn’t sleep… she would take the cloak and wrap herself up in it, silently conveying all of her troubles to her deceased mother, leaning on her for some much-needed support.
The first time she visited the grave after those dreams… she didn’t know what to say. She just knelt there in the autumn leaves, red cloak billowing behind her. She couldn’t say anything the next week she visited either. Or the one after that. The first time she spoke was when she competed the first version of Crescent Rose- well, the first successfully working version of it- and practically flew as fast as she could to show it to her mom. Her voice had been low and quiet, barely above a whisper. Laced with pride and sorrow. Pride in herself for using what she knew to design such an elegant weapon. Sorrow that her mother couldn’t truly see it.
She had another dream that night of her mother fawning over Crescent Rose during tea.
While she was away at Beacon, she couldn’t continue these weekly visits to her mother’s grave, so she had to find some other way to speak with her. Especially after she had another dream the night she arrived, her mother wishing her well with a tray of cookies along with their tea.
She woke up that morning craving her mother’s freshly baked chocolate chip cookies. Not even the school’s cookies would do.
Her first sleepless night at Beacon was the night after their Initiation. She knew her mother was a team leader and… well… didn’t think that she herself was good enough to be one. She was two years behind after all, everyone else should have way more experience than her… So, wrapped up in her mother’s pristine white cloak, she’d taken out her notebook and a pen and began to write.
You were right. The cookies aren’t as good here as yours are. But the rest of the food is pretty good… I certainly won’t go hungry here! Hehe…hehe… Today was Initiation. We had to find these relics in a Grimm-infested forest. I ended up being paired with this really arrogant girl who acted like she was the best thing since cookie dough. And I want to be her friend but.. I keep messing up. I bumped into her yesterday and made her explode… I interrupted her attack against some Beowolves… It was this whole big mess that led to her having to save my life. We ended up teaming up with Yang and her partner Blake- she’s super mysterious and loves books, you two would definitely get along well- to defeat a Giant Nevermore, so that was cool.
But then Professor Ozpin named me team leader and I… I don’t know what to do. I’m only 15. I don’t know the first thing about leading people into battle… And the stares I get… Everyone knows I’m younger. Pretty sure some boy said I was the youngest Beacon student in over a century. Everyone looks at me like I’m… Zwei dressed as Grandma Xiao Long. No, wait. He did dress as Grandma and he looked great. So. The opposite of that? Dangit, now I lost my metaphor.
I wish you were here to talk to me… I could really use your help.
But I should probably go to bed now. It sounds like Weiss is waking up and she’s gonna have a fit if I leave this light on too long.
She wrote letters just like that every week from then on, detailing her adventures at Beacon to her mom. It was… frankly the only way to cope with the stress. It was rough. It was so hard to play catch-up. Sure, she was a good student at Signal, but she skipped two whole years. How was she to know about the stuff they would have covered in History during those years? Sure she was still doing well in Combat- aside from Port’s written tests about his stories. Jeez, maybe if that guy actually taught them something useful she wouldn’t be calling him Professor Poop.
As Ruby approached the bedroom door, all of these memories and thoughts plagued her mind. It was the polar opposite of one of Weiss’ rants. With those, her mind just instantly emptied and she ignored practically everything. But here, it was like she’d become hypersensitive. She could feel every bit of her breathing, point out the small imperfections in the oak wood bedroom door.
In the end, she just forced herself to throw the door open.
She looked like seven bullheads had ran her over, but it was her.
Just as beautiful as she remembered.
Ruby hadn’t realized she was crying until the drops hit the wood floor. Quickly wiping her eyes, her shaky voice muttered, “I-It’s you? It’s.. r-really y-you?”
She bolted to the bed and immediately flung her arms around her mother. The tears fell like a dam had been broken, and in a way it was. All the tension built up from years of not being with her, all the emotion she’d been holding back… It all struck her happy mask like a single tidal wave, smashing her defenses with one forceful blow.
And the younger Rose’s voice was so soft, like a whisper in the wind, a single red petal falling to meet with the white petal already resting on the ground.
“Momma… I’ve missed you so much…”