#silverviolet

[kalinko]

i know i know. we all interpret johnny as charismatic rockerboy who fucks and doesn’t have crushes because that’s lame. but there is something beautiful about the idea of a silverhand who is simultaneously so emotionally suppressed but also so into V that it makes him ill. the guy who’s never chased anyone in his life is suddenly viscerally pursuing some rando while trying to stay nonchalant about it. has to drink himself half to death before he has the courage to speak to them. probably jerks off weird style about V and then immediately feels angry and humiliated about it. that’s the good stuff.

[kalinko]

thinking about how johnny is objectively very protective of V throughout their time together. yet the kicker is that he’s primarily protecting V from himself. every time he pulls her back from passing out, or asks if she’s feeling ok, or forces her into an operating chair, it’s his fault. he’s killing her. seeing as johnny struggles with self loathing, i cannot even imagine his internal monologue regarding that. they both try to frame it as johnny and V versus the engram but. i know johnnys gotta be thinking about how he’s doing this to her. i imagine the guilt eats him up from the inside out. like maybe it’s divine punishment for johnny living as a selfish bastard his whole life. now he has to watch the person he is closest to slowly die. and it’s his fault. and he can’t do shit about it.

[kalinko]

personally i think it is awesome how V slowly becoming johnny is disguised in the game. especially because it’s not malicious on either side. those two are just very intimate with one another. it’s only natural that johnny wants V to have his jacket, his gun, his deepest secrets. and V wants to take those things from him. out of respect and, dare i say, devotion. after all the whole engram thing is just a fantastic analogy about how you act when you’re in love with a person. it can be a beautiful experience for those involved but also terrifying. sharing your mind and your body, constantly thinking about their safety, or what you’d do when if lost them. sometimes veering into codependency. often veering into codependency. while paradoxically trying to fight for your own identity. not to mention your friends feeling happy for you, really, but also a little perturbed about you both being attached at the hip. seeing how you rub off on each other. how that you’ve merged music tastes and bad habits. and how you talk like him now, and that’s kinda… peculiar. but hey. you seem happy. so everyone can deal with your weirdo boyfriend if he helped you during your roughest times, right?

[kalinko]

anyway. whatever you do don't imagine johnny getting a new body and v feeling as if they have to protect him like they used to when the pair lived in the same brain. do NOT imagine johnny getting hurt on some job, and v having an absolute meltdown about it because it's always been their job to be a meat shield for johnny's consciousness. and do not even imagine everyone else being perturbed by the sight of v's freakout because they are painfully aware of how weird and codependent those two are.

[kalinko]

i think my favourite silverv angst thought is that their nightmares definitely merge into one another's. like, the whole "sometimes i wake up and think you're not there" monologue sparked this in me. and it must be crazy for v to go through some horrendous ptsd-induced war night terror where she's looking through johnny's eyes. or for johnny to relive jackie's death over and over and over every night through v's eyes. and sometimes it's an awful mixture of both. and then they wake up and v silently makes coffee and it's uncomfortable and neither of them know what to say. johnny frankly can't bring himself to make any snide remarks. they'll just have to stand in the shower until v's heartrate goes down.

[kalinko]

yeah anyway johnny silverhand is 100% into gunplay and he gets a boner whenever he sees v handling his pistol. send tweet

[kalinko]

in the context of a "johnny gets a body" au, i really love the concept of people in NC thinking v is dating a silverhand impersonator

[kalinko]

post-separation silverv are going to act like a theatre kid couple who are always in each others business and can’t stop making out and making everyone around them deeply uncomfortable. if you ship them you must come to terms with this.