#sin is nonbinary

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I'm still trying to recover from the discussion I had yesterday about not having kids because I don't feel strongly that I want them and the thought of bringing a child into the world to have them feel unwanted or even resented seems like a horrible thing to put a human being through

Nevermind that I don't identify as a woman, my anatomy gives me dysphoria, and pregnancy is like body horror for me

I was told not having children is "the most selfless thing a woman can do"

Like...... what

There is so much to unpack in that statement and I don't even know where to start

[magicmadeofstardust]

Being nonbinary and practicing witchcraft is a weird, murky fog to navigate. I still don't know what to call myself.

I'll see a post that says the word witch is for everyone regardless of gender, and the next post down identifies witch with the concept of womanhood. The word is open to me and closed to me at the same time. In some ways it feels right, but as an afab agender person, describing myself with that word also feels intensely dysphoric a lot of the time.

I don't really know what I am, but it's okay for now. I'm on a spiritual journey, and it's mine.

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The doctor said I was neurotypical

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Names are hard lmao

Trying to look at plant-related names but most of the ones I like are way too traditionally "girl" names

High up on the list rn are

Indigo

Aspen

Aster

I like Aster because it's plant AND space-related, but it sounds kinda feminine to me (like Astrid I guess?).

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Gender euphoria: someone said "thanks man" to me in party chat

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Anyway yall can roast me if you want but it's physically painful and also cathartic to watch Adachi because even though I'm aro ace it's just that frustrating sense of WHAT AM I FEELING? I DON'T KNOW!!

And the more you figure it out the scarier it is, but it's also super freeing.

I feel like even if you're not mlm or wlw this show is so goddamn relatable because we've all been through the "what am I feeling?" and "is it ok for me to feel this?" and "if anyone finds out about this I'll be rejected" pain train.

It's the queer experience my dudes.

[subtract-me-from-your-heart]

Lol this old man called me "young fella" when I was checking in at one of the tents

First time I've ever been misgendered as a dude

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Look I don't hate straight people but they're on thin fuckin ice