I have no words (Procedes to write many, many, words)
It's just now struck me that the murder of over two billion children was presented as a normal thing for my entire childhood. 'Cause my family taught me that kids were going to die in Armageddon, and that they all had it coming. I'm just enraged that this was a doctrine that people looked at and decided "Cool. This isn't messed up or indicative of a cruel god at all. Let's teach this to our kids". THIS IS A MAIN DOCTRINE. ONE OF THE CORE BELIEFS. I know that it's useful for getting children to preach to their classmates, BUT HOLY HELL HOW DID ANYONE ELSE IN THE ORG LET THIS SLIDE. The scope of the brainwashing needed to let this happen. Jehovah's role as a child murderer was a core for my recent apostasy, (Still won't let go of the she-bear incident) But I always felt that the instances of child murder in JW doctrine were kinda niche and distant from the main thoughts. BUT TONIGHT MY BRAIN CELLS ALIGNED AND OH BOY I HAVE HAD A REVALATION. It's the whole belief system. The whole thing hinges on God going out and having children killed. I'm dizzy. It's like a second awakening.