pairing: benito martinez x wife!black!fem!reader summary: He said just the tip. cw: 18+ mdni, p in v, unprotected sex, dirty talk (lwk) & wtv i wrote
a/n: i use lots of ‘—’ no it’s not ai
Benito had promised just the tip.
That's what he'd whispered against your mouth when he walked through the door, still smelling like the studio—cologne and that particular heat that clung to him after hours of tracking vocals. His hands had found your waist before he even kicked his shoes off, pulling you into his chest while your name fell from his lips like a prayer he'd been holding in all day.
"Mami, los niños—"
"Asleep," you'd told him, your own hands sliding up his arms, feeling the tension knotted in his shoulders. "Been down for an hour."
The groan that rumbled out of him was pure relief. Pure want. He'd pressed his forehead to yours and let out a long breath, his thumbs tracing circles against the fabric of your robe, that thin silk thing you'd thrown on after bath time, after story time, after the long ritual of tucking your babies in and kissing their foreheads and turning on their nightlight.
And then his mouth found yours, slow at first, like he was tasting you for the first time all over again. But you knew better. You knew that slow burn. You knew the way his hands tightened on your hips, the way his tongue swept past your lips, the way his breathing changed, shallow and hungry.
So when he pulled back and said it—just the tip, just a little, he'd be quick—you'd laughed, soft and knowing, and let him lead you to the bedroom.
Now you're on your back, your honey brown hair fanned across the pillow in waves, twenty inches buss down that cost a pretty penny and makes him go feral every time. His fingers are tangled in it, gripping the nape, tilting your head back so he can lick down your throat.
"Benito—"
"Shh, mami." His voice is rough, wrecked already. He's still half-dressed, jeans undone, shirt hanging open, that tattooed chest on full display. "Déjame cuidarte."
His hand slides down your body, palm hot against your stomach, then lower, past the waistband of your panties. You're already wet—you'd been thinking about him all evening, about the way he'd looked this morning, half-asleep and reaching for you before the kids came stumbling in. And when his fingers find your clit, you gasp, your hips bucking into his touch.
"Ay, Dios mío," he breathes. "Estás tan mojada. Todo para mí?"
"All for you," you manage, and he groans like the words hit him somewhere deep.
He pushes your panties aside, not even bothering to take them off, and you feel the tip of his cock pressing against you. Thick. Hot. That familiar weight that always makes your breath catch.
"Solo la puntita," he promises again, and you almost believe him.
Almost.
Because the second he pushes in, just the head, just a little, his eyes roll back and his hips stutter forward and suddenly it's not just the tip anymore. It's him sinking into you, inch by inch, that thick stretch that has you crying out, your nails digging into his shoulders.
"Benito— you said—"
"Lo sé, lo sé, mami." He's already breathless, already lost. "Pero te sientes tan bien. No pude— ay, coño—"
His hips press forward and he bottoms out, and you both moan together, a harmony of sound that fills the room. "Mmm, shit, Beni—
He starts moving. Slow at first, deep strokes that drag against your walls and make your eyes flutter shut. His forehead rests against yours, his breath hot on your lips, and every thrust is punctuated by a grunt, a whisper, a "puta madre" or an "ay, Dios" that tumbles out of him like he can't help it.
You can feel every inch of him. The way his cock pulses inside you. The way his thighs press against yours. The way his hand finds yours and laces your fingers together, pinning your hand to the mattress.
"Mírame," he commands, and you open your eyes. His are dark, blown wide, locked on yours. "Quiero verte cuando te vengas."
"Then fuck me like you mean it."
The grin that spreads across his face is wicked. "Oh, ¿sí? Así quiere ella?"
He pulls out, and before you can complain, he's flipping you over. Your knees hit the mattress, your chest pressed into the sheets, your ass in the air. You hear him groan behind you—a low, guttural sound that makes your pussy clench around nothing.
"Mira ese culo," he mutters, more to himself than to you. His hands land on your hips, squeezing, kneading. "Dios mío, mami. Este culo me va a matar."
He lines himself up and pushes back in, and the angle is different now, deeper, harder, hitting that spot that makes you see stars. Your mouth falls open, a sharp cry tearing out of you.
"¡Ay, coño!" he growls, picking up the pace. "Así— así— mierda, qué rico—"
The sound of him fucking you fills the room. Wet and rhythmic, skin slapping against skin. You're dripping down your thighs, soaking the sheets, and every time he thrusts you feel it in your throat.
"Beni— right there— fuck—"
"¿Ahí? ¿Ahí te gusta?" He pounds into that spot, relentless. His hand reaches around, fingers finding your clit, circling it in time with his strokes. "Dime. Dime cómo te sientes."
"So good— ahh— so fucking good, Benito—"
"Mmm, sí. Grita mi nombre. Quiero oírlo."
And you do. You scream it when he hits that spot again, your fingers gripping the sheets, your whole body trembling. "Benito! Benito!"
"Así, mami. Así."
He slows down, pulling almost all the way out before sliding back in, torturously slow. You whimper, pushing back against him, trying to get more, but his hands hold you still.
"Tranquila," he purrs. "Disfrútalo."
He fucks you like that for what feels like forever, deep and slow and deliberate, every stroke hitting places you forgot existed. Your legs start shaking. Your breath comes in gasps. You can hear yourself making sounds you don't recognize—high and desperate.
"Te siento," he whispers, leaning over your back, his mouth against your ear. "Te siento apretándome. Estás cerca, ¿verdad?"
"Yes— yes, Beni, I'm—"
"Ven conmigo. Vamos juntos."
He speeds up again, his thrusts losing rhythm, getting sloppier, needier. His breathing is ragged, his grip bruising, and every word out of his mouth is a curse or a prayer.
"Mierda— te quiero— esta pussy es mía—"
"Yours— fuck— all yours—"
"Dilo otra vez."
"All yours, Benito— ahh— I'm gonna—"
He hits that spot one more time—slap, slap, slap—and you shatter. Your orgasm rips through you like a wave, pulling you under, and you hear yourself screaming his name, a long, breathless "BENITO!" that echoes off the walls.
He follows right behind you, a guttural "¡Ay, coño, mami!" as he buries himself deep and spills into you, hot and thick, his whole body shuddering against yours.
You collapse together, a tangle of limbs and sweaty skin and ragged breaths. He's still inside you, softening, and neither of you moves for a long moment.
Then he kisses your shoulder. Your neck. The curve of your spine.
"Te amo," he murmurs against your skin. "Perdón por la mentira."
You laugh, weak and breathless. "You're not sorry."
"No," he admits, grinning against your back. "No lo siento."
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⋆.𐙚 ̊ pairings: blkfarmersdaughterreader! x Farmhand!rafe cameron
⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ warnings: grinding, smut, virginity loss pet names,possibly porn with plot? kies redemption, daddy used in a non sexual way, beyoncé, fingering.. Just sex man. wc:5.6k
୨ৎ authors note: a couple of people asked for a part 2, so here it is boo's! hope you all enjoy <3!
“Do we gotta keep sneaking around sweetheart, believe it or not the barn isn't a sexy place to hook up at” you giggle in his chest as he brings you closer to him. Hands on your ass as you stand in the barn with just a pair of daisy dukes and a sports bra. You and rafe has been sneaking around for around 3 months now. Time flies when you're being sneaky.
“Rafe, my dad..” you trail off and he just rolls his eyes before shaking his head and slightly distancing his body from yours. “Rafe don't do that, you know how it is already” you mutter as he begins putting back on his dingy white tee. He sucks his teeth before nodding his head “yea i know your scared to tell your father about us” you furrow your eyebrows before shaking your head
“no, im scared that hes not gonna wanna keep you here anymore hon, the big bad rafe cameron from obx corrupting his sweet innocent little girl, sneaking into his daughters room all times of the night” you wrap your arms around his shoulders and his arms instantly wrap themselves around your waist. “Sweet? Innocent? Not the way you be moaning my name sweetheart” he mutters before placing a loving kiss against your lips.
You swat at his chest before rolling your eyes “but i asked because i wanna take you on a date this weekend, me and you.” your eyes widen at his words and you feel your face heat up. “Rafe you wanna take me on a date?” you whisper into the chilly barn, you watch as confusion takes over his features “why wouldn't i wanna take you out baby?” he looks down at you and smiles.
“I dunno” you whisper before shaking your head dismissively, you look back to rafe and see his expression towards you. “Alright now you gotta tell me” he sits on one of the little stools that are kept in the barn. “Its nothing rafe, i just never been on a date before” you mutter before putting your head down in embarrassment. You hear Rafe chuckle before he picks your head up. “y/n i know your pretty ass ain’t embarrassed about not being on a date before” you look at him with those eyes and he feels his pants tighten. “Lemme be your first then, take you out somewhere real nice, make it worth the wait” he murmurs in your ear like he's dirty talking to you.
“Rafe..i would love to go on a date with you hon…but ill have to tell my daddy” you still look at him with them same eyes.
Fuck he wants you so bad.
“y/n, ill take whatever comes with it, i just wanna take you out..show you a good time” his hands make their way to your ass and you cant help but smile. “Alright beachboy.. I'll hold you to that.
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“Egh i dont know, kinda basic, it's your first date you should look prettier then the finest peach." You nod your head taking in her advice. You look to kie who's been texting her new talking stage ‘daisy’ for the last hour, not adding in her input. “Kie can you help instead of just sitting there.” you hear cleo snap before throwing a pillow at her. Kie looks at the both of you before rolling her eyes before finally paying attention. “You should wear the white jean shirt and shorts, red boots with the red bows.” kie says simply while looking between the options.
You look at the outfit before looking back at her “kie your a fucking genius” she gives a sheepish smile before continuing “keep the makeup natural, light undereye, lots of blush and natural lashes paired with your lip combo and youll be perfect She says nonchalantly before going back to her task. “Kie you might be an asshole…but you have some pretty good taste” kie laughs at your comment before sliding off your bed and walking over to your mirror. “Where is he taking you anyways?” shes looking at you through the mirror.
“I have no clue, he said it was a surprise…just for me to dress cute”. “y/n are you gonna fuck him?” cleo ask with a sly smirk before smacking your ass playfully. “Ugh, you think I'm easy huh?” you slap her hands before laughing. “No i dont think your easy…for him tho i think its a different story” you look over to them before sighing “you know the expression ‘bed chem’ right?” you look to the two girls and the stupidly nod
“i bet we’d have really good bed chem” kie looks at you both before smirking “save a horse, ride a cowboy” the three of you laugh before hearing a knock on your door. “Come in”
The door opens and rafe is at your door way with a stupid smirk before realizing kie and cleo in the room. “Didn’t know you had company sweetheart” he clears his throat before looking at your friends. “M’ rafe” he walks into the room and greets your friends, extending his hands for them to shake it. “Mr yummy in the flesh” cleo jokes before taking his hand and shaking it, kie looks at the two of them before stepping up
“ive heard about you..what you are” he looks at you before looking back at kie “ive got my eye on you” she finally shakes his hand slowly while looking him straight in the eye. The tension rises in your room and you decide to break it. “What's up hon” you walk over to him with that sickly sweet smile his hands instantly pull you closer, hands wrapping around your waist “your dad is ready to talk if you're ready” he whispers as he looks down at you. You look up at him and nod your head before looking back to your friends “ill be back ladies”
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“So you and my daughter have been sneaking around for months now?” you look over to your dad and frown “dad its not like that..” you shake your head and rafe rubs your hand to calm you down. “Heyward i hope you don't think I'm just using your daughter for anything, i really like y/n and i just wanted to take her on a date, no messin around” your father looks at the both of you before nodding his head “you have my blessing, no fooling around..and if i hear one bad thing im nipping it in the bud” he looks at you and rafe intensely and you nod your head while rafe mutter a “understood”
After the quick little talk with your dad you and rafe make your way back upstairs to your room, but before you reach your door you feel rafe bring you backwards into his chest, he presses light kisses to your neck making you squeal. “I told you sweetheart, your dad loves me already” you giggle before turning around to face him, you peck his lips and smile when you see smiling back at you your heart melts.
The two of you walk back into your room and you notice your friends was gone. The first thing you do is check popes room and you see kie and cleo lounging around with pope “wanted to give you guys some privacy, y’know to celebrate the blessing of your dad” cleo sends you a wink before cuddling up closer to your brother as he gags making you laugh before returning back to your room to see rafe sprawled out on your bed. You shut your door before walking over to your bed and sitting on the opposite side of rafe.
“Y’know we should be getting ready soon, its already 5PM, you said be ready by 8” you point out and rafe nods his head in agreement. “You're right, it takes you ages to get ready” you scowl at his unfunny joke before standing up off your bed. “Alright get out now” he looks at you before smirking. He stands up but before you know it your feet are off the ground and wrapping around his waist, a squeal emits from your lips as you begin to giggle.
His lips soon covers yours as you begin to passionately kiss, your arms wrapping around his shoulders for extra support. You moan out into the kiss breathlessly as you begin feeling needy. “Shh baby, your daddy is right downstairs. You look towards your closed door and sigh. “Rafe your a bad influence” you joke as you let your legs down from off his waist. You look back at him and a smile slowly makes its way to your face. “M’ wearing red and white, just so you know” you give him a sassy look before making your way to your door, opening it and motioning for him to get out. He looks at you before sighing and making his way towards the exit, but before he steps out he gives you a peck on your lips before making his way through the threshold.
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“Okay, have fun..but not too much fun” your dad waves as you both enter rafe’s freshly washed truck. The two of you look like a breath of fresh air, the perfect southern couple and that's what you feel like. Rafe hooks in his seatbelt then looks over to you “you look so fucking beautiful” he whispers before backing out the drive way, focusing on his driving.
“Rafee” you shyly whisper as you look out the window, the complement awakening the butterflies in your tummy. You feel his eyes on you as you fidget with your fingers and you feel your body heat up. “You look really good too, glad you decided to match me” you peek over to him and see the crisp white tee, blue jeans and a red baseball cap.
“Of course i look good” he jokes making you roll your eyes “but its because im next to you” you wholeheartedly laugh at his corniness “your cornier than corn on the cob.” your laughing subsides and he just continues driving
Once you guys get to your destination your eyes light up “rafe shut up, you did not!” he looks at you and smiles “yup, live music, dancing and booze.. Did a lot of research to find this place” he then pulls your face closer to his placing a peck on your lips before smiling again “come on, lets go”
The velvet porch was the hottest place to be on a friday night after work,the live music spilling out of the outside venue the smell of food and booze hits you as soon as you hit the entrance, the bouncer looks at rafe before smiling and dapping him up.
“Finaly made it and with a pretty little dime on your side” rafe pulls you tighter into his side making you smile. “Hi im y/n nice to meet you” you greet him with an extended hand, he takes it before bringing your hands up to press a kiss to it. “Ron, nice to meet you” you shy away from him slightly, not uncomfortably just respectfully.
“Lay off my girl ron” the three of you laugh before he lets you access into the club. “Y’know the bouncer?” you yell as he leads you through the club, his hand in yours as he leads you through the packed bar. “Of course I do, I know everyone important sweetheart.” He pulls you closer by your wrist so your bodies are against each other.
The song sweet honey buckin by beyoncé starts playing and you instantly get excited. Rafe sees and instantly catches your drift, the two of you start moving to the beat face to face. The smile on your face makes his cheeks heat up causing him to slightly blush ‘country boy till the day that im dead’ you whisper in his ear with a smile on your face.
‘This ain't Calabasas, we don't need highways’ you smirk as you begin two steppin hand in hand with each other. “Fuckin love this song” he speaks as he begins singing the lyrics too “reminds me of you” your face heats up and before you know it hes turning you around so your ass is pressed against him.
‘Never been ridin', baby?-Hop on my saddle’ his hands grip your hips controlling your hips and motions as he whispers those lyrics in your ear. Your eyes close as you begin to feel the music more. ‘Jiffy cornbread, booty corn fed’ you sing out loud as you grind harder against him now. You begin to feel him through his jeans now and his hands gripping you harder controlling your hips to his pace. You hear him groan before moving his hips against yours.
“So perfect” you giggle at the fact that you dont know if he's talking about you or your ass. “You're such an ass rafe” the song finally ends and you turn back around to look at your boyfriend who has a small pot on his lips. You laugh before placing a peck on his lips, smiling when you guys separate. “No, you have such a perfect ass sweetheart” he jokes, making you give him a sarcastic laugh. “Come on lets grab a-” before you can finish your sentence your hear your name called out in distance.
You turn around and you see Johnny McCain making his way towards you. You quickly look over to rafe who just haves his eye brow raised to you. Once johnny makes his way over he looks between you and rafe thinking. “I havent seen you in years, how've you been” he asks while bringing you in for a hug. You keep the hug friendly not wanting to cross any lines with rafe.
“Hey johnny, hope all is good, this is rafe” you motion towards your boyfriend and you smack his legs to make him extend his hand. Rafe looks at you before extending his hand. “Rafe, her boyfriend” he introduces before looking back at you with a slight smirk. “y/n the prude with a boyfriend? Never thought I'd see the day”. He jokes and you give him a fake laugh just trying to be polite.
“Maybe you know the old y/n.. This y/n is definitely no prude” you look over to him with wide eyes and before you know it rafe is leading you over to an empty booth, the two of you leaving johnny by himself. “I see why you beat his fuckin ass” rafe lets out a breath which makes you laugh. “Yea hes an ass” you mutter before looking up at the waiter whos asking you what you want to drink and eat.
“Whisky” the waiter writes it down before looking over to you. “Ill have a mango margarita please” you give the waiter a smile making him lightly blush. “And what do you want to eat?” he looks back at rafe whose pout made it back to his face. “Fried chicken, mac and green beans” he keeps it short, the waiter writes it down before looking back at you shyly “buffalo wings, mac salad and corn on the cob please” he writes it down and looks back to you before walking away. “Your too pretty baby, gotta lock you up and hide you” he mutters before looking at the people dancing.
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After the two of you finish your food and drinks you hear another familiar song ‘cuff it’ by Beyoncé starts playing and you squeal before standing up and pointing to rafe slowly moving your hips. ‘Im in the mood to fuck something up’ you sing the lyrics making rafe smirk.
“Oh really?” his hand grabs onto your hips and he's on you in an instant. His lips make their ways to yours and you let out a surprised squeal. His hands rubbing all over your body making you moan into the kiss. ‘Till you see stars’ you whisper into his mouth and you swear to hear a whimper escape from his lips.
His eyes snap open and before you know it he's leading you towards the club's exit. Once you two get outside he's on you in an instant, his lips make their way to your neck making you moan out into the chilly air. “Rafe..car, take me home please”
Once the two of you make it back to the house rafe quietly leads you to his room and you sneakily follow him trying not to make any noise. Once you make it there and you're behind his door you try to look at his room but he's on you in an instant.
“Rafe, wait- wanna look at your room” he laughs before moving his lips down to your neck. Your eyes open and you look at his minimalist room, decorated with some things from home and some new editions, family pictures, beach boards, cowboy hats and band-dannas.
“y/n stop looking at my shit and get on the bed” he jokes into your neck while sucking a hickey into your chest. You push him off before scoffing “make me” you tease and before you know it your body is in the air and after that you're on the bed. “Oh ill make you honey, wanna know why? Cuz i need you so fucking bad right now” hes standing between your legs peering over you and you feel a surge of boldness take over your body. “M’ all yours cowboy” you mutter while looking in his eyes, your hands moving before you could even think, unbuttoning your top slowly while he watches you.
“Keep going” he mutters as he watches you slow down your actions but instantly pick them back up with his approval. “I thought you're supposed to do this for me?” you pout as the buttons fumble through your acrylics. “Baby if i do it, the shirt would be fuckin ruined, take your time..theres no rush” he then grabs a chair and sits it infront of the bed, your hands stop but he motions for you to keep going.
He sits in the chair and watches you continue your little ‘strip tease’ once all the buttons are unlaced he sees the frilly red lace bra that was hidden under your outfit. The red is striking against your brown skin and he can't help but let out a distinctive whistle.
“Where'd you learn to do that whistle hon?” you ask as you rise to your knees. “Ya’ old man taught me” he mutters and you move closer to him to hear him better. You see his hands balled up in fist and sitting on each of his legs. “You don't wanna touch me anymore?” you genuinely ask wondering why he was just sitting there staring but he slowly shakes his head in response. “sweetheart im trynna keep my composure because im gonna ruin you” he whispers that and your eyes widen.
You watch as rafe walks over to his tv, turning it on and let some random cartoon channel play before walking back over to you. He finally sits on the bed and a smirk is placed on his lips. “Take off your bottoms too, need to see the matching set” you give him those eyes before following his directions.
You slowly take off your little shorts and before you can say anything his lips are on yours and you happily accept him, his body between your legs as you lay on your back halfway naked. “Take your clothes off rafe” you mutter through the little pecks his places on your face lovingly.
You feel him chuckle against your cheek and before you realize he's back to standing up, yanking his shirt off shoulders and his buckle off his belt practically ripping it off. He pulls down his jeans and takes them off in an instant leaving him in nothing but a pair of white Calvin Kleins.
You stand back on your knees and move closer to rafe with pleading eyes. You slowly pick up your hand and caress his well built chest before letting the wander lower. Your hand lightly grazes over his bulge and you hear him suck in a breath. You take this as a sign to keep going so you take it a step further and you slowly bring down his boxers, inch by inch, teasing both you and him. Your eyes widen once you pull his boxers all the way down, he stands there proud with a smirk on his lips.
The pure size of him alone makes you nervous, and you swear that you see him twitch. “Come closer” he whispers and you do, you feel your adrenaline pumping and your hands begin to wander down to his cock. You grab it in your hands and begin jerking it in your hands slightly.
“Thought you didn't know what to do?” you shake your head at him and he laughs. “Rafe, please” you plead with him and he nods at you, he lays you down before putting his lips back on yours.
Your back arches into him as the kiss gets more aggressive you feel your bra being unclipped and you let out a breath as the cool air hits your breast. “Perfect tits” rafe whispers before kneading the flesh between his hands. You let out a light moan, egging him on to continue his motions.
After a few minutes of just kissing you feel him get harder against your heat making you grind your hips into his. “Please” you ask him, needing to feel pleasure from the man.
“what do you want?” he asks the girl beneath him. you mumble something incoherent making him plaster a nasty smirk on his lips. “you gotta be more clear babe…” he says going back down to ur neck. “i want you, inside…” you say with your voice just above a whisper.
you quickly feel him smile against your neck making you shudder. he picks his head up and looks you in your eyes, “you don’t want me to eat it?” you shake your head ‘no’ and he laughs, “you sure, cuz i wil-” you cut him off by kissing him roughly and whispering a ‘no’ against his lips. making him smile for the 100th time tonight. He simply flips you both over so now you're on top. you sit up a bit so you're straddling him and he immediately starts feeling on your ass making you whimper.
you feel as rafe get harder under you making you chuckle sweetly. “m’ all for you babe” he says before laying all the way down.his erect cock standing up in all its glory. You notice the pink mushroom tip leaking with pre-cum, the veins alongside of it pulsating with need. “you just gonna sit there?” the man asks while still laying down.
you quickly snap out of your trance and straddle his legs not wanting to get to action just yet. “use your fingers first.” you say to him so it won’t be as painful. He slowly sits up before opening his mouth a bit and placing his fingers in there. The scene was one you imagined before. you reached down to your breast and brushed over your nipples a few times before moaning. rafe takes his fingers out his mouth and motions for you to come to him.
you scoot closer to the man allowing him to flip you over so you're sitting in his lap. you feel his length pressing against your ass making you move your hips a bit earning a slap on your thigh. “Stop with the sneaky shit, you wanted to get prepped, so be patient.” he says before taking his wet digits and sliding them across your chest. leading them to each of your nipples, circling them both.“more” you say breathlessly while raising your hips. You were honestly wet enough to take him right now but you didn’t wanna miss out on this. He takes what you said and glides his fingers down until they reach your pussy.
they ghost over your clit making you shudder and look up at the man. “say please” he says while looking down at you. “Please hon” you say in an innocent tone making him scoff before sinking his fingers straight into your cunt. you moan loudly from the expected feeling of his thick fingers inside your cunt.
“shit rafe!” you exclaim while throwing your head back on his shoulder. he looks down at you while skillfully moving his fingers in and out of you. “rafe slow-fuck!” you shout out while your eyes roll to the back of your head. rafe picks up one of your hands and brings your pointer finger to his mouth and twirls his tongue around it. “m’ cummin rafe”
you say while gripping his thigh hard, ur definitely sure that you left marks. the man hears your pleas and indulges with your needs. You feel him start to rub your clit aggressively making you spread your legs wider making his fingers hit deeper inside.
rafe bends down a bit to reach your ear to whisper the word, “cum”. That's what pushes you over the edge, your legs start shaking and your eyes roll back aggressively. “rafe!” you scream his name out, making him smirk.
Once you come down from your high you open your eyes and slowly react to your surroundings. you quickly turn your head to look at the man to already catch him looking at you.
“I'm ready” is all you needed to say before he picked you up and turned you around to face him. “I want you on your back” he says while laying you back down. you look down and see his cock standing and ready to be used. “it’s all yours,” he says as he begins lining himself up with your entrance. you meekly smile and decide to get to work. you grab his cock with your hands and pump it up a couple of times making him groan. but before you put him all the way in you decide to tease him a bit by running his tip along your slit making him grip the bed sheets.
“stop playing” he says before striking a hard smack against your thigh. you moan from the pain and pleasure and decide to give the man what he wants. One of his hands grip your thighs while the other one helps you push his dick in slightly. “oh god” you sigh out from the stretch of the man. rafe decides to take matters into his own hands and grip your waist, sinking you down in one go.
“rafe” you whine out of plain and pleasure, his hands keep their place on your waist as he moans. “shit, so fuckin tight” he says as he keeps you still, not wanting to hurt you anyfurther . soon after you feel him start to move your hips in a circular motion making you grip his shoulders and grind harder. rafe looks down at where you're connected and his eyes roll back as he throws his head back. “shit babe, you feel that?” he asks before landing a hard smack on your thigh making you yelp. you look at the man and shyly smile before you bring him closer to you, his ears by your lips as you quietly moan out his name.
you smile innocently at the man who looks at you with admiration. “So fucking perfect” he says trying to move faster. “hon” you whine in his ear making him flush red and causing his hips to stutter. you feel his hand creep around your neck slightly adding pressure to your windpipe. “shit” you whisper knowing you cant be as vocal as you would like to. you bend your head down to latch your lips with his. His thrust never slows down.
“rafe, im gonna cum hon”. you moan out making rafe smirk. he quickly pulls out before placing his hands on your back before switching positions, rafe skillfully switches to doggy, hitting something deep inside you. “oh fuck rafe i’m coming” you cry out as his hands strike down on your ass.. you feel like your body is levitating, your vision goes white as your body aggressively shakes. “ shit-y/n” rafe says in your neck trying not to cum at this very moment but you're making it hard from him.
“stop fuckin squeezing me sweetheart” he says out of breath.after a few minutes you snap back to reality and realize he was still working on chasing his orgasm. You slightly move your body so your fucking back into him and whispeing in the air about how good you feel, rafe eyes instantly roll to the back of his head. His body visibly shudders, making you smirk. “fu-fuck baby” he moans as you feel his hot cum shoot into you making you loudly moan. he fucks his cum into you as he whispers praises into the hot and stuffy room. Soon after his body collapses on yours making you chuckle before rolling over so the two of you are laying side by side.
His eyes open and his hands brush some loose hair out of your face. “How was your first baby?” a smile takes over your lips and you nod “so good, thank you for taking your time with me” he nods before placing a kiss on your forehead. “Always”
+
After the two of you get cleaned up and situated you both lay beneath his navy blue comforter set with just underclothes on and sappy smiles on your faces when suddenly his fun rings making him roll his eyes and you laugh. He turns over and answers his phone with a gruff ‘hello’ you slightly dazed out as he talks on the phone, your body slightly aches as you lay against his chest. “See you then” those words bring you out of your daze and you watch as he hangs up the phone and sets it back on his dresser. “Is everything alright?” you ask not wanting to seem nosy, just curious. He looks back at you before nodding. “What are you thinking about sweetheart?” you see the smile on his lips and you give him a shy smile.
How you talk so sweet when you're doin' bad things
You heard a few knocks at your door. The sound bouncing off the living room walls, you sighed and hit the pause button on your remote. You got up from the couch and ambled towards the door, once you’d swing it open your eyes widened and you froze.
“What are you doing here?” You breathe out, Eren, your ex stood 6’2 with his hair pulled back into a ponytail. Some strains hovered over his face, he peered down with a glint in his gaze, “I’m here for my clothes,” he meekly replied, with his hand making way towards the back of his head. Rubbing at it sheepishly.
You scoffed and crossed your arms at his reply, “you don’t have any clothes here.” Eren nodded his head, objecting. “Yes I do, y/n.” His voice was soft and deep, you bit down on your lip and stared at him for a while before giving in.
You stepped aside allowing him to walk in, you shut the door behind him and watched as he ambled towards your room. Now you were glad, to be living in a one story house. You didn’t need to tail behind him, and making sure he’s not doing any bullshit. You could see your room from where you stood.
He left the door wide open, you saw him make a left turn the noise of stuff rummaging followed up. You begin to move towards the room, to see if he’s actually looking for his clothes and not trying to get something else from you.
You paused in the doorframe, and stared at him. He must’ve heard your footsteps because he stood straight not a mere second before you arrived.
He glanced over his shoulder, and then his body followed.
He ambled towards you and you do the opposite. “No,” you say just when he’s gotten close, “please,”He softly says, “I miss you.” He grasp onto your hands, using it to tug you towards him. Your chest collides with his and you angled your head up.
His forehead plastered against yours, the lip of his lips ever so gently graze against yours. You felt his breathing hitched, you took occasional glances at his pink lips, they look pink and soft.
When you looked up, his eyes were filled with desperation and sadness. " Please,” he asked again before peering downwards at your lips.
“Just one kiss, baby.” You nearly went weak from the pet name, you missed it and how easily and seductively he said it. You avoid eye contact with him, you’re breathing heavy now.
“Eren..” you whispered out, your lips slightly parted to release the heavy breathing, as were his but he had the opposite reason.
He wanted to kiss you, badly. He leaned slightly towards you, and you’d lean away. It made his heart ache, he missed you dearly and now it seems like a slap in the face.
“Baby.” You finally looked.
“Let me..” he doesn’t finish but his eyes flick down to your lips, before they flicked back up.
You closed your eyes and leaned in—your lips connected, it was passionate and warm until your tongue thrust into his mouth, causing him to groan. He leaned against you and it caused your feet to stagger backwards until you slammed against the wall.
A moan whooshed out. Eren’s hands mindlessly moved around your body. It was like they struggled to find a place to reside at; he tilts his head deepening the kiss. His hand slips in your shorts while the other held a firm grip on your neck.
He broke away, breathing heavily. “Take these off.” He said against your lips, while tugging at the hem of your shorts. You grinned and glanced up, “you take them off.” You whispered back before wrapping your arms around his neck. He took this as an opportunity, he quickly picked you off the ground and your legs automatically wrapped around him.
He carried you over to the bed, plopping you flat down on your back. He crawled above you, his necklace hanging above your stomach.
He stood on his knees between your thighs, he bit down on his lips while pulling your shorts off and then tossing them aside.
He nearly bottomed out by the small dampen spot on your underwear, he pressed his thumb against it causing you to moan softly.
“You’re so wet. Fuck.” He grimaced, his thumbs now going faster as the minutes passed. Your legs quickly latched around his arm, he quickly used his freehand and tapped it against your thigh.
Motioning you to unravel. He stopped and allowed you to drop your thighs, they went down momentarily.
Eren licked along his bottom lip before he bit it.
“You so sexy,” he says darkly while holding this lustful intense glance onto you. Your body instantly went hot from it—you’ve never experienced any kind of intense sensation before, until now. Until Eren. But things ended due to complications, but now..you’re rethinking it.
He doesn’t plan on removing the underwear anytime soon, seeing as he dropped down to his knees and stared intently into your crotch. He could see it pulsing behind the fabric, he lets out a chuckle before pecking his soft lips against the fabric.
Your breath stuttered from it. He continued to do so, this time his tongue rolled out and does a long, wet, warm lick against your cunt.
You felt the heat radiating through the panties, it caused a shiver to run down your spine. “Eren,” you whined out as your hand traveled downward to grip his hair, once they reached you tangled your hand around it and pulled his head up.
He breathes out like a dehydrated dog. His eyes were low and glazed over with hunger. His tongue still out as it desperately tried to get closer with your cunt, but you pushed his head back causing him to whine.
“Take it off.” You say, voice heavy and filled with aspiration. Eren doesn’t say a word, he instantly followed your demand and slid the underwear off and tossed it aside.
Before he could unbuckle himself, you sat up causing him to pause and stare at you—confusingly.
“Lay down,” you spoke just as you got on your knees. Eren stares at you, hesitating but he follows through.
He rest against the mattress, on his back with his arms propped up behind him holding him up. “What are you doin-hmmph.” He groaned out as he felt the warmth of your cunt against his sweatpants, you felt the bulge. It was big and thick. It made your mouth run dry, it’s always a shock whenever you see it.
You rolled your hips against him, slow and steady. Your eyes glare down with dominance before your hand found itself gripping his neck. He lets out a choke moan, he rolled his hips against you and you let out a groan.
“M-mommy,” he stammered through his soft moans, “d-don’t make me cum,” he glanced up through his heavy-lidded eyes, “please. I don’t wanna cum like this, I wanna cum in you.” He bit down on his lips, as he stilled your movement with his hand gripping your waist.
You leaned back and glanced down at his hands. You plucked them off one by one before leaning forward towards him. Your face a mere inch away from his, you leaned sideways towards his ear. You pushed away a strain, and your hips begin to continued the past.
“Don’t tell me what to do,” you whispered harshly yet softly, Eren whimpered under you. “I-I don’t wanna cum in my pants, again, please.” He pleaded through his whimpering and moaning. You ignored his plea and began to pick up speed, catching that warmth that spilled through your stomach and spreading lower. Your moaning gets louder as well as Eren’s who gripped onto your hips for dear life. Praying he doesn’t nut.
“Fuck!” He yelped, everything tightened and then moments later, you spilled onto him. Dampening the crotch area of his pants with your juices, you slowly lifted your hips, a strain of your juice that was connected to his pants and your cunt it was an amazing sight to see.
You glanced up at Eren, and wearily chuckled. “You wanna see her?” You questioned. He nods his head, he doesn’t utter a word. He stood quiet watching you intently, through his low hooded eyes.
You turned around slowly, your cunt faced him as you faced the wall. You leaned your hips rolled with intention, presenting yourself to him with a teasing arch that caused your lips to separate; giving Eren a view of your trobbing hole.
His hand instantly fell to your ass, each hand held their own cheek, his thumb then shifts downwards towards the crease of your inner thigh.
He pressed his thumbs against it and began to pull back, resulting with your lips spreading wider for him and he lets out a feral groan.
“Fuckk.” You chuckled but it was short lived, his fingers were lodged inside of you. His finger continually passed your G spot, he went faster and harder. You back arched and you began to fuck yourself on his finger, he grins and allows you to do so. But once he seen that all to familiar stomach clench he stilled your hips just when you were right there.
You whined before slowly cascading your eyes over your shoulder, Eren meets your glare with mirth in his eyes.
A low chuckle settling in the air, “You’re not going to cum, until I cum in that pretty cunt of yours.” Your stomach churned at his comment, you bit down on your lip and stayed quiet.
Your upper body lies against the bed while Eren kept your lower stable in the air by his grasp.
He used his free hand and pulled out his cock, it sprung up brushing your cunt along the way, you let out a moan.
Eren leans you forward slightly, to give space for his cock to stand.
He bit down on his lips, and does a slight tap against your cunt; seeing how your body jolts from every collision. “Eren!” You groaned rolling your hips against the thin air, Eren chuckled at your impatience.
“You want it?” He asks as he deliberately moves his cock back and forth against your aching bud, “hm?” He added. You couldn’t say a word, the friction was all too much. It felt amazing, Eren smirks seeing more juices slipping from your hole and dripping onto his cock.
He draw his hand back and strikes you on your ass, then gripping it roughly.
“You so fucking sexy, fuckk.” Eren grunted as he sent another strike, watching it recoil. You whimpered at the stinging pain, but your cunt gets hotter from every slap.
You couldn’t wait any longer, you were tired of his teasing. Ironic.
You pushed your hips back, his dick settling between your ass and you felt the throbbing and heat radiating off it. You bit down on your lip and slightly moved your ass side to side, Eren strikes once more before inhaling deeply.
“Shaking ya ass on daddy’s dick, hm?” He says as he watches it slowly come to a stop, you didn’t reply instead you whimpered.
Eren sents a stroke along his cock, his stomach caves before a moan slips out.
He grasp your hips and moved them above his cock, your dripping cunt merely inches away from his mushroom tip, he slowly impales his cock inside; your mouth grew wider and wider as the inches passed.
Eren sucked in his breath; feeling that tight cunt suctioning to his size. “So fuckin tight, fuck.” He grunted, you gripped onto his ankle and it caused him to pause.
You were breathless, you looked over your shoulder and glanced at Eren with plead sporting your eyes.
His head cocks, “can’t take it anymore, baby?” He questioned softly, you nodded at his question and it made him hum softly. He lifts your hips off, and it slips out with a gasp whooshing from your lips.
He fixed himself into a new position, this time he was on his knees and you remained the same. Eren taps his finger against your thigh, motioning you to arch it up, you weakly did and he grasp your hips.
“I got you, baby,” he whispered as he slowly slips inside, he leaned over his chest pressed against your back, and his mouth hovering near the shell of your ear. “Relax.” He murmured again, his voice low and steady.
Your bones seem to deflate as effect of his voice, “I-it’s too much.” You weakly objected as he was still sliding it. Eren leaned back up and glanced down, he chuckles.
“That’s not even half of it baby.” You groaned forgetting, once again, how much of a big man he was. He leaned forward, placing his chest against your back; his arms wrapped around your body, keeping a tight grip.
“Almost there, baby, cmon,” he grunts, feeling the warmth of your gummy pink walls. He pulled you up, your head lolled back onto his shoulder as he pushed his final inches up into you.
You both let out a gasp, and remained quiet for a moment. Eren allowing you to get the feeling of his cock nestled in your cunt. Momentarily, you peered at him; half lidded eyes filled with lust, your mouth parted slightly with drool resting on the bottom lip. “Go,” you whispered softly, his entire demeanor flipped.
He roughly pushed your upper body back against the bed and began to roughly thrust into your cunt, it came so suddenly, you didn’t have any time to react. You could only moan and blabber.
“Fuck I missed this pussy,” he moaned out as he held a tight grip around your waist, it’ll probably bruise by how strong his grip was.
One hand peeled away from your hip and found itself tangled in your hair, he tugged your head back away from the bed. He sent love bites going along your neck and stopping at your shoulder blades.
His breath heavy and hitched from every thrust, “Who’s been in this pussy?” He questioned going faster as he felt jealously rise in his blood, he didn’t know why; you never gave him any answer to make him feel jealous.
And that didn’t bode with him. He went harder, pulling his hips back slow and thrusting harder, he knocked the wind out of you, and he continued to asked the same question, this time his voice laced with jealously. “Answer me.” He snarled, you weakly opened your eyes, you stared at him upside down.
You attempt to shake your head, but due to the right restriction Eren had you swallowed dryly. “N-no.” You stammered, you see his expression soften but his thrust stay the same pace.
He drops your hair from his hand, “good.” He continued to chase that sensation, his stomach caved as your thighs shook violently on either side of him. “Baby, I’m about to cum,” he moaned out his head lolling back from pleasure, you gripped onto the end of the bed and screamed into the sheets.
Eren glanced down after hearing your muttered shouts, he grips the back of your neck and raised you up. “Don’t hid those pretty moans from daddy,” you do as he tells and granted him your beautiful moans.
Spit begins to trickle down your mouth and onto the sheets, “I’m gonna cum,” You yelped he goes faster and creates this low guttural sound, and it made your stomach cave. “Cum on daddy’s dick, cmon.” He encouraged sending strikes to your ass.
You do as he told and marked his dick with your juices, your back arched dangerously with your moans escaping loudly out your mouth.
Eren stilled his hips and painted your insides white, guttural groans emitting from his mouth. “Fuck,” he breathed out as he fell down with you.
You felt his dick still throbbing against your walls, you let out a soft sigh. You felt entirely weak, you couldn’t move. He pulled out with a moan emitting from both.
He plopped beside you, heaving.
You sat quietly in his presence, you hadn’t faced him yet. Until you felt the bed become emptier. You picked your head up, and caught Eren slipping into your bathroom. Second later you heard the water running, then it stopped.
Eren walks out holding a white rag, and pants. You started confused as to where he acquired pants, he grins to your confusion. “I told you,” he says as he pulls you towards him, “I got clothes here.” He smiles softly, while cleaning you up.
Vampirism, Vampire reader, mlm, interracial, religious themes, mention of homophobic family and mother, Jasper country as hell, Jaspers bi/gay awakening, blood, mention of murder, dead deer, pay gorn, readers powers are fluid manipulation, expect that. there is some masochist tendencies from Jasper, top reader, bottom Jasper, shy dom reader, power sub Jasper, lots of guilt, lots of sexual tension. Typical twilight anatomy hard skin, venom saliva, etc etc.
Jasper had no choice.
Your pulse was slipping away…fluttering like a trapped bird—and your breaths were no longer breaths but wet, ragged sounds, each one a countdown to silence. He hovered over you, torn between salvation and damnation, every part of him screaming to drink even as his heart broke at the thought.
“Forgive me,” he rasped, voice jagged with panic. “God, please forgive me.” But he had already had your limp wrist in his hand.
Then he bit.
His teeth tore through your wrist with terrifying precision, but this wasn’t hunting. This was begging. His lips filled with warmth, hot copper flooding his mouth, and for one burning second, instinct nearly won. This wasnt how he imagined to taste you, but deep down he was glad to do it in a…somewhat herotic way. One…two…three gulps was when he realized he had been doing too much, your breathing slowing with your heart. He could barely stop himself, but he forced his jaw loose, wrenched away before he took more than planned. All he needed to do was bite and that was it…. Venom dripped from his saliva into the wound as he clamped his lips shut and threw his head back, growling deep in his chest like a wounded animal. It took…everything inside of him…
Your body arched in his arms as the venom took hold. It burned like wildfire, streaking through your veins, racing to your heart. You tried to scream, but all that escaped was a wet, gargled cry.
It was agony.
Your chest felt like it was caving in; your lungs collapsed against the fire climbing through your ribcage, your bones knitting and breaking all at once. Every nerve caught fire. Your skin crawled as if molten glass replaced your blood. And worst of all was the helplessness, the awareness of Jasper’s panicked face hovering above you, smeared with your blood, the sound of him whispering “stay with me, please, stay with me” like prayer beads slipping through his fingers.
But darkness crept in fast, merciful and cold. As your body burned, your mind dimmed. Your last sight before blacking out was Jasper’s face twisted in horror, his hands shaking as he pressed them to your chest, trying to hold the life inside you.
Then headlights cut through the mist.
Carlisle and Edward found you on the roadside within minutes, the metallic scent already drawing them. Jasper knelt there, shaking, crimson-handed, whispering hoarsely, “I couldn’t let him die. I couldn’t.”
Carlisle crouched beside you, gaze already assessing the wreckage of your body. The broken ribs, the punctured lung, the slow but steady beat of a heart that would stop any minute. Venom was working, but without guidance, it would be chaos.
“Turn him to the side so he won’t choke on blood…he’ll survive,” Carlisle said calmly, though his voice had that edge Jasper knew well: urgency masked by practiced control. “But we’ll need to make it look like he didn’t.”
Edward glanced between them, his jaw tight, but said nothing. You didn’t notice him—didn’t notice anything. You were floating in fire, every flicker of your heartbeat cracking through your skull.
Carlisle carried you in silence, cradled like something sacred and breakable, while Jasper followed, wordless, a shadow in the storm. At the Cullen house, they laid you on a pristine white sheet in Carlisle’s study.
The transformation had only begun. Your body writhed even in unconsciousness, muscles locking and jerking as the fire ate its way through every vein. Your heartbeat pounded loud enough that Edward flinched. Jasper’s hands never left you, pressing against your chest, your wrist, anywhere he could feel that faint drum of life.
Carlisle worked quickly. A calculated dose of morphine dulled the outward agony, quieting the screaming, the thrashing, but it couldn’t stop the burn. It only masked it. Your body still shook occasionally, a faint tremor under Jasper’s palm, like a violin string vibrating under invisible fingers.
To the outside world, you were dead. When you didn’t return home that night your mother had dared to sleep a wink. She was on the verge of tears by how angry she was, wanting to curse you out and absolutely scared and worried about her sweet angel…when the sun came up and she was smoking her Newport on the balcony, your mother was called.
She absolutely didn’t believe it, thought it was something cruel joke someone was planning about her baby. But then they told her to go to the morgue to identify you.
The drive to the morgue was a blur of prayer and panic. By the time she stood under the cold fluorescent lights, hands shaking, heart hammering like it wanted to break her ribs, Carlisle was already waiting—white coat spotless, voice gentle as falling snow.
“Miss Jackson…” Carlisle whispered. “I’m so sorry.”
They pulled the sheet back only enough to show your face. Pale. Ashy. Lips split and bruised, cheek scraped raw. Your ear was torn where you’d hit the ground too hard. She didn’t want to imagine what was under the blanket. Her legs buckled. She pressed both hands over her mouth to keep the scream inside, the sound tearing her throat anyway.
“That’s my baby,” she sobbed, voice cracking. “That’s…that’s my baby boy.”
Carlisle steadied her with a doctor’s practiced touch, his golden eyes soft with something she couldn’t read. “I promise you,” he murmured, “he didn’t suffer long.”
A lie, beautiful and terrible. Because you were still suffering.
While your mother signed papers and left the building hollow-eyed, your body wasn’t left alone. Carlisle made arrangements—quick, quiet. A closed casket was prepared. Word spread fast in Forks: the new kid, gone in a tragic hit-and-run. The church ladies shook their heads, your basketball team left flowers at a locker you’d never open again.
But by then, you were already far from Forks.
But you were still burning. Still changing.
While Jasper kept vigil in Alaska, far from Forks’ prying eyes, he watched your features sharpen, your skin pale into marble, your heartbeat slow to a crawl and then vanish entirely. For three long days, he sat with blood drying under his nails, venom burning his own throat, watching you die—and knowing you’d rise again, not as the boy he had met, but as something else.
When the fire finally stopped, the silence was unbearable. Jasper thought, for a single horrified moment, that he’d failed. That your heart had stopped too soon. But no that couldn’t be the case, you were healed, the back of your head fused back together, the raw on your face smoothing back out, eye brow growing back fully, ear back to normal. You looked…good better than good. You looked….immortal.
Then your eyes opened.
The fire that had burned through your veins for three endless days had finally-finally broke. Silence fell inside you…a silence so complete it was terrifying. Your chest didn’t rise. Your heart didn’t beat. You didn’t even gasp for air…you just rose. You weren’t dead. You’d never felt more alive.
The first thing you saw was Jasper.
He sat motionless beside the bed in a dim, unfamiliar room,his jaw clenched, eyes still dark from the hunger he’d been fighting since the night he changed you. His hands were folded so tightly in his lap that his knuckles cracked.
You tried to breathe out of instinct, but that was a bad bad idea. Panic rose sharp in your throat as fire filled your esophagus, filled your gums with a sharp pain and your mouth filling with something that didn’t taste quite like you were dead for three days.. Everything felt too sharp, too bright. You could hear the creak of the floorboards two rooms away, smell pine sap through the walls, feel Jasper’s eyes on you like a weight.
“You’re awake…”
Your eyes snapped towards his, you could hear his gulp as his black eyes met your maroon ones, and as soon as you saw him… saw the real him- saw what he looked like in these new eyes, you snarled. Dangerous, you thought to yourself, nails digging into the mattress as you tensed up to defend yourself. Now that you could see… Jaspers scars were his most dominant feature. It was hard to take your eyes off his jaw and neck, teeth marks from something litering his skin with purpose.
He immediately caught your hostility, a wave of fear and danger smacking him in the face and it didn’t take even a half of second for him to push his powers towards you. “Y/n… calm down…” he whispered. You were stronger than him, way stronger, hungrier, scared and mean as hell. But he wouldn’t allow you to be a threat. This was what he was afraid of, that natural reaction you’d have of him after seeing him in a real light, of seeing him with all his scars and imperfections his vampirism only hid from his natures prey.
He could see you calming down, could feel you calming down. But most importantly he could feel your hunger, it made him hungry. he swallowed thickly as he slowly stood to his feet, carefully.
“Easy,” he murmured, voice so soft you barely recognized it. “It’s over. You made it through.”
But his expression betrayed him. There was guilt there, heavy enough to crush stone. His fingers twitched as if he wanted to touch you, then thought better of it.
“What…?” Your voice was strange—clearer, sharper, vibrating in the air like glass. You hadn’t even realized you spoke, you couldn’t even recognize your voice. You could barely even remember…what…what was even going on… one moment you were…home… and then…you’re here…
“You’re confused, I understand…you uh… hit your head…brain injuries take a little longer to heal… you might not get your memories back, Alice never did...” his stutter was unnatural to him, a human tick.
what?
You tried to stand up. The room blurred, not from dizziness but from speed. Your muscles obeyed before you even thought to move them. And that sound—his heartbeat, slow but steady, thundering in your ears like war drums…no, not his heartbeat. Someone else’s…something else’s… two different rhythms and paces. One fast and another slow.
Jasper was already moving, hand outstretched, steadying you by the shoulder before you even realized you’d launched toward the door. “Easy,” he repeated, firmer this time. “You don’t want to do that.”
Except every cell in your body screamed that you did.
His grip tightened, and for the first time you noticed how cold his hand was, how inhumanly strong. You met his gaze, black with hunger and trained—and there was something in it you couldn’t name. Fear. Regret. And something else that made your new senses sharpen even further.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
For what?…saving you? Changing you? Wanting you? You didn’t want to know what now, all you wanted was to eat, to run. You barely even recognized him, and you clearly weren’t in the headspace to try too.
You looked down at the hand on your shoulder, cold and firm, his grip steady as iron. Your new vision sharpened,every crease in his pale skin, every glint of light off the faint scar tissue etched along his fingers. Those red eyes of yours glared up at him, unfocused but burning, your body restless with the hunger that had replaced your heartbeat.
“Fuck out of my way…” you growled. The sound was raw, animalistic, deep enough to rattle the glass doors. You couldn’t even remember if your voice had ever sounded human before.
Jasper didn’t flinch. But he didn’t loosen his hold, either.
You slapped his hand away, more violently than you intended. It should have shattered his wrist. You didn’t know how strong you were yet. His arm jerked to the side, but he caught himself instantly, that soldier’s reflex never breaking.
And you were gone, pasting him in a blur, moving faster than wind, straight toward the open balcony door where the cold air hit your face like needles. Below, in the dark Alaskan snow, there was a sound no one else could have heard: the slick, wet rhythm of blood surging through a living body. Arteries pumping, veins singing. Your throat felt like it had been lit on fire. Two different hearts, left or right, you didn’t care.
You needed it. Now.
Downstairs, Tanya moved first, a streak of gold hair and fury, but Eleazar’s hand shot out across her chest, holding her back. “No,” he whispered, voice calm as snowfall. “We let Jasper deal with this.”
“He’s not ready, he might as well be a newborn himself-” Tanya hissed, but Eleazar’s gaze didn’t waver.
“He will be. If not, we intervene.” His voice was quiet, but firm enough to freeze even Tanya in place.
Outside, your feet barely touched the balcony railing before you vaulted cleanly into the night, landing on the icy ground like it was nothing. The scent was stronger now, curling through your nose like smoke. Something that smelt like nature, woody and earthy. Another that smelt Sweeter, fulfilling and delicious. You could see the hearts: beating somewhere beyond the trees, could feel it vibrating against the wood, the hardness of your skin, could feel it pulsing around you.
Jasper was already behind you. His steps were soundless, but you felt him there—closing in fast, a shadow faster than your own.
“Y/n!” His voice cracked sharp through the trees. Not a shout, not a plea—an order. The kind a commander gives to a soldier about to run off a cliff.
The hunger screamed louder than his words. Your muscles coiled to spring.
Then Jasper slammed into you from the side, the two of you skidding across the snow, ice exploding under your bodies. Like two clothed boulders smacking into each other.He pinned you to the ground, face inches from yours, black eyes burning with barely checked terror.
“Look at me!” he barked.
You snarled, teeth snapping, and Jasper saw the change in your face—the razor glint of newborn venom dripping from your lips, your pupils wide, almost feral. He knew that hunger; he’d lived it, bled with it, killed for it. And yet there was something else in your expression that scared him worse than thirst, pain. You didn’t understand what you were, what you wanted, or why every drop of blood within a mile sang your name.
“Get—off me—” You shoved upward and nearly unseated him from your lap. Maybe in another situation, a better one, this position would’ve made you realize that there was something between the two of you.
“Don’t make me hurt you,” Jasper growled, though his voice cracked halfway through. Not because he couldn’t—but because he’d rather die than do it. “Stay with me, you hear? You don’t want that blood. You want me to stop you.”
Behind his controlled expression, Jasper’s own instincts screamed—kill, control, dominate. It took everything he had not to sink his teeth into your throat to end the threat. But he wouldn’t do that. Couldn’t. He’d already damned you once. He had to remind himself that he wasn’t him anymore, he wasn’t with Maria.
He pressed a forearm against your chest, not enough to crush. Everytime you launched up he slammed you back into the snow, his lips at your ear:
“I’m not letting you do this. If I have to hold you here ‘til sunrise, I will.”
You heard that. And Oh you didn’t like that one bit.
This wresting lasted about two long minutes, trees being sacrificed, growls that sounded so animalistic the wilderness knew to stay far.
The snow exploded beneath you both as Jasper drove his shoulder into your chest again, snarling through gritted teeth, “Y/n—stop—!” His voice cracked—not from fear, but from the effort of holding you down.
You didn’t hear a damn word. You wanted the blood. That pulsing, rushing sound in the forest was louder than his drawl, louder than the thoughts slamming through your own head. You twisted your hips and threw him sideways with one violent kick, feeling his marble body skid across the ground. God, he’s heavy, but not heavy enough to stop me. Jasper was trying. But goddamnit if you weren’t every bit athletic.
Jasper lunged again, faster this time, pinning you with his full weight, his breath brushing your ear, his jaw clenched tight. “I’m not usin’ my gift on you again, not unless you let me—so quit fightin’ me!”
You growled, snapping at him, lips curling back over perfectly sharp newborn teeth. He didn’t flinch. But damn if he didn’t feel something strange coiling in his chest every time your face got close—every time you threw him off and he had to slam back into you, his hands gripping your wrists, his thighs braced to keep you from tearing loose. God help me… he thought bitterly, his voice a whisper even to himself. I’m wrestling a man I can’t kill, can’t hurt, and—hell, why does he smell like this?
The Denali coven stood thirty yards back, silent statues in the snow. Tanya’s golden hair caught the moonlight like flame. “He’s losing him,” she muttered. But Eleazar held his arm out again, unreadable. “Wait. Watch.”
You surged upward, forcing Jasper back an inch at a time, your strength shocking even yourself. His muscles strained, his teeth clenched so hard the sound cracked through the night. He could feel you vibrating with raw power. “Stop fightin’ me!” Jasper barked again, but this time, there was a thread of panic.
You didn’t stop. You got one hand free.
Your nails raked across his cheek,not enough to break him, but enough to make him jerk back—and then you slammed your palm flat against his face, fingers digging into his jawline nails clawing him before his marbled skin healed. Something strange pulsed inside you. Not thirst. Not rage. A quick feeling of panic.
Jasper’s body locked. His golden eyes rolled back white. For a horrifying second, you felt the venom in his veins slow, like you’d snatched the current of a river and squeezed it tight. His grip slackened completely. Then he collapsed on top of you, deadweight, lips parting soundlessly as if his breath had been stolen.
It lasted five seconds.
But that’s all you needed. You shoved him off, leapt to your feet, and sprinted toward the trees. The heartbeat was close now…so close you could taste it.
Behind you, the Denali coven moved to intercept, but they didn’t make it two steps before it hit them. A wave of numbness washed out of you like a shockwave, thick and invisible. Kate’s knees buckled first, then Tanya dropped to one hand in the snow, gritting her teeth. “What… is this…?” she gasped. Eleazar’s eyes widened in sudden recognition, even as he fell to one knee. “His gift… it’s affecting us too—”
You didn’t hear them hit the ground. You were too far gone.
The forest broke open into a clearing—and there it stood. A massive bull, grey hide glistening with frost, horns sharp as spears. It snorted steam into the night air, hooves grinding the ice, alone and unaware of what was coming.
Your lips curled into something between a smile and a snarl. It wasn’t human. It didn’t matter. The heart sounded just as sweet.
With one burst of newborn speed, you hit it like a wrecking ball, teeth sinking into the thick neck as the animal bellowed, hooves kicking, horns slashing at the air. The taste flooded your throat,hot, wild, brutal—and you drank deep, every nerve in your body screaming in ecstasy.
Jasper’s world came back in pieces. First the cold sting of snow against his cheek, then the acrid tang of venom on his tongue, and finally the ragged sound of you feeding. His vision cleared and, for a split second, he didn’t believe what he was seeing.
You were on the bull, knees braced against the ground, throat working in deep, greedy gulps. Your hands were slick with steaming blood, lips painted crimson, every guttural moan echoing through the silent clearing. The animal thrashed once, twice—then went limp. And still you drank, like you’d never be full.
Jasper pushed himself up, unsteady—not because you’d hurt him (impossible), but because you’d stopped him. You’d laid him out flat in five seconds. Him, Jasper Whitlock, who’d slaughtered dozens of newborns with his bare hands and hadn’t lost a fight since the Civil War.
The Denalis had regrouped around him at a cautious distance. Tanya’s golden eyes were wide as she watched you tear into the bull like paper, teeth ripping out its throat in a way she hadn’t seen in centuries. Kate crossed her arms tight, but even she couldn’t mask her awe. Only Eleazar spoke, his voice low and certain.
“Fluid manipulation,” he murmured. “Not just blood. Our venom, too. Maybe even water, if he trains.” His gaze flicked to Jasper. “You felt it, didn’t you? When he touched you?”
Jasper bit down on his jaw so hard he could’ve cracked his teeth. He didn’t answer. Didn’t have to. They could feel it rolling off him in waves…anger, fear, amazement…and, tangled somewhere deep in the mix, something sharper and hotter that made Tanya and Kate exchange a glance.
“Lord help me,” Jasper muttered under his breath. His fingers twitched like he couldn’t decide whether to keep his hands at his side or his hair.
Eleazar went on as if he hadn’t heard. “You’ve killed a hundred newborns stronger than average. But you’ve never seen anything like this. None of us have…”
Jasper stayed silent, eyes locked on you as you finally wrenched yourself free from the carcass, chest heaving with phantom breath. Steam rose from the fresh blood on your skin. You looked feral, radiant, terrifying.
He hated that his chest tightened at the sight. Hated that his thoughts stuttered for half a second as he remembered your fingers digging into his jaw, venom inside his own body freezing like a river turned to glass. Hated that every part of him wanted to walk over there and shake you until you listened—while some darker, quieter part just wanted to watch you feed. You were a fucking unit. His responsibility, his newborn
Behind him, Tanya shifted uncomfortably, wrinkling her nose at the emotions leaking off him. Kate made a face. “You’re broadcasting like a damn radio,” she muttered.
Jasper didn’t respond. Didn’t even glance at them. He just stood there, jaw tight, fists clenched, and watched you lick the blood from your hand like you’d been born for it.
The world was still tinted red when you finished feeding. The bull was nothing but a collapsed heap in the snow, its blood steaming on your lips. You barely had time to swipe your arm across your mouth like a toddler before a cold hand clamped onto the back of your shirt and yanked you off your feet.
“Enough.” Jasper’s voice was low, vibrating with fury, every syllable drawn razor-sharp. He didn’t ask, didn’t warn you—just dragged you back, boots cutting trenches into the snow.
You stumbled, legs clumsy with newborn strength, but didn’t fight him. Not because you couldn’t—you could—but because your stomach was rolling, turning inside out. He was hauling you like a misbehaving kid as the Denali sisters followed at a leisurely distance, amused golden eyes flicking between your bloody clothes and Jasper’s white-knuckled grip.
Your legs buckled. Knees hit the snow with a crunch, hands collapsing the snow and then the muddy grass beneath…and then everything came up at once—burning, choking.
“What the—ugh—fuck—” you spat between violent heaves. Chunks of old human food mixed with dark blood splattered the snow, foul and sour, like rot poured straight out of your stomach. You gagged again, body shuddering uncontrollably, cursing through clenched teeth as more half-digested sludge hit the ground.
Behind you, Tanya let out a snort of laughter she didn’t bother to hide. “Yeah,” she muttered to Kate, “don’t miss that part.” Kate smirked, wrinkling her nose at the rancid smell.
Jasper’s grip didn’t waver. He stood over you, glowering down at the back of your head, still holding that stretched polo collar in his fist. The shirt he’d put on you himself after cleaning your broken, dying body. The memory made his jaw flex. He’d seen you naked, he hadn’t wanted to (well…), hadn’t looked longer than a second—but it had cost him every ounce of control he had. Now you were kneeling in front of him, hurling blood and bile, and somehow you still looked dangerous.
“You done?” His voice was cold enough to freeze the steam rising from the dead deer.
Before you could answer, Eleazar approached, boots crunching quietly. He didn’t even flinch at the stench or the gore, didn’t spare the mess a glance. His eyes were fixed on you, bright and sharp with curiosity.
“You…” he said, stepping close enough that Jasper’s head snapped toward him in warning. “You’re going to be a challenge.”
You spat again, wiped your mouth with the back of your hand, and glared up at the blonde with feral red eyes. “What the hell is your problem?”
Eleazar ignored the edge in your voice, still studying you like a newly forged weapon. “A challenge worth the effort,” he continued softly. Then, glancing at Jasper, “Gotta keep the Volturi out of this. If they learn what he can do…” His mouth pressed into a thin line. “Welcome to our coven, Y/n.”
You laughed bitterly, coughing through the last dregs of venom-tinged vomit. “Whatever that’s supposed to mean…”
Jasper yanked you back to your feet like you weighed nothing, his glower never easing. “Shut up and walk,” he growled, shoving you toward the house, still gripping your collar as if you might bolt any second, all while you complained and groaned about your stomach- and muttering about how you couldn’t even remember what was happening.
The Denali sisters followed, still smirking, still whispering to each other about how this was the first time they’d ever seen him this rattled.
The water scalded, nearly boiling, but you didn’t even flinch as you sank down to your collarbones. Steam rolled off the tub, curling up into the air like phantom hands. The sharp tang of blood still clung to you, clung to everything, though Jasper had sprayed most of it away from your skin before letting you drop into the bath.
You sat motionless, your scarlet eyes locked on the rippling surface of the water, unable to shake the ringing in your ears. Your muscles twitched beneath your new marble skin, restless and strange, like your own body didn’t quite belong to you anymore. This is how you felt when you started doing protein shakes.
Jasper stood a few feet away, jaw tight, arms crossed as if that’d help him avoid looking at the fact that you were completely naked under that steaming water. But his gaze slipped more than once, lingering at your collarbone, the sharp line of your shoulders. His lips pressed tighter each time.
“You’re not dead anymore,” Jasper said finally, voice low, steady. Like he was afraid if he didn’t sound calm you’d spiral again. “You were. That accident… you weren’t gonna make it.” His eyes didn’t waver, but you could feel the weight of what he wasn’t saying. I couldn’t let you die.
You blinked at him, slow, the words not fitting together. “What the fuck does that even mean?” No seriously, what the hell is as going on.
“It means,” Eleazar cut in, kneeling beside the tub with the cool, careful air of a man handling a weapon, “you’re one of us now. A vampire.”
You laughed. Or maybe choked. The sound that came out of your throat was broken. “You’re both outta your minds.” You reached up, wiping water off your face.
“You think this is a joke?” Jasper’s voice sharpened, that Southern edge coming out. “That thing you just did in the snow? Takin’ me to my knees like I was nothin’? Humans don’t do that, kid.”
Your chest heaved, though you didn’t need to breathe anymore. Memories bubbled up, fragmented and hazy—your mother’s voice, soft as church hymns, but you couldn’t pin down her face. Couldn’t recall the exact curl of her lip when she scolded you. Just a void where she should have been, and it terrified you more than the two vampires staring you down.
“Your body is changing,” Eleazar continued, tone even. “The next year will be… difficult. The first week will be hell. Everything you ate as a human is still rotting in your system—you’ll keep purging until it’s gone. Your throat will feel like a hot brand every time you’re near blood. You’ll feel thirst like you’re losing your mind.” He held your gaze. “No killing humans. Not ever. If you want to survive this… you learn restraint.”
“Restraint?” you repeated, bitter. “You expect me to believe I’m some bloodsucking freak and then you’re gonna hand me rules? And let’s rewind a bit- how in the hell did I die- what exactly was this accident??” You sat up in the tub, trying to put everything together.
“Hit and run.” Oh.
And suddenly you were there again. Two bright lights heading towards you before it went…black.
“And It ain’t a choice,” Jasper said, his voice low enough to draw your eyes back to his. The muscles in his jaw worked as if he was chewing on his own restraint. “You do it, or the Volturi come for you. They don’t give second chances.”
The word meant nothing to you, but the venom in his tone did. Your hands clenched on the edge of the tub until porcelain cracked beneath your grip. Restrain, what restraint? And who was this Volturi ?
Eleazar didn’t react. He simply kept speaking, voice smooth and patient. “The Volturi is the closest thing we have to a law,” he said, answering the question you hesitated to say out loud. “You have a gift. You can manipulate fluids—blood, venom… likely even water if you learn control. That’s why you need to be hidden. If the wrong people find out, they’ll turn you into a weapon.”
A weapon.
You couldn’t even remember your own mother’s face. You couldn’t even remember what the hell you were doing the day you got killed.
How could you be a weapon?
The steam swirled thicker around you, and you realized your hands were shaking—not from the heat, not from fear, but from the raw, gnawing burn in your throat. You swallowed hard, but it didn’t go away. It was worse than thirst. It was hunger, deep and endless.
You looked between them, breathing hard out of habit. “I’m supposed to just… accept this?”
Jasper’s gaze locked on yours, steady, unreadable. “You don’t exactly got a choice.”
The first three days were hell.
Your body tore itself apart. At first, it was just vomiting: violent heaves that left blood splattered in the sink, streaking across the floor, coating your lips. Then it was worse. The rotten sludge of human food—every burger, every soda, every bite you’d shoved down in your last weeks alive—erupted from you like poison being purged. You cracked tiles in the Denalis’ guest bathroom just bracing yourself against the walls, snarling between curses as another wave hit.
Jasper never left the doorframe. Not once.
“I don’t need a babysitter,” you growled at him, teeth bared, crouched over the toilet as black-red bile poured out of you. “I’m not a kid.” Your attitude was worser than a 13 year old girl. Something that was expected to others, you were getting used to it.
“Sure as hell ain’t human either,” Jasper drawled, but his eyes stayed fixed on you, hands loose at his sides even though you could see the tension rolling off him. “You’re a newborn. Stronger than me if you wanted to be—and dumb enough to hurt yourself doin’ it.”
“Fuck you,” you spat, or tried to, though it came out with another violent retch.
You wiped your mouth with the back of your hand, straightened up in the doorway, and saw Jasper watching you again, silent and unreadable.
“You’re worse than a fuckin’ bloodhound,” you muttered, flicking on the sink to brush the smell of death off your tongue for the 3rd time that day.
“Someone’s gotta make sure you don’t fall apart.”
“I’m fine,” you lied, because everything about your body still felt wrong. Too strong. Too sharp. Too empty.
The Denali sisters didn’t help much. Tanya and Kate passed the bathroom more than once, catching whiffs of that stomach-turning stench, and laughed under their breath. “Don’t miss that,” Irina, who had just came back from Vancouver murmured, earning a chuckle from Kate. “That’s what I said.” Carmen wrinkled her nose and disappeared into the snow with Eleazar instead of hanging around.
By the fifth day, you stopped flinching from the heat in your throat. By the seventh, the purging slowed, then stopped entirely.
That night on the seventh day, after your first real hunt with him; two elk deep, your throat pleasantly scorched but no longer on fire, you and Jasper walked back toward the Denalis’ place, boots crunching in the snow. His eyes were golden again, the black hunger washed away, and for the first time he looked almost… at ease.
Then his voice broke the silence.
“Do you… remember me?”
It caught you off guard. You shoved your hands into your jacket pockets, snow scattering under your feet. “…kinda.”
“Kinda?”
“Yeah.” You frowned, staring at the tree line. “I remember… seeing you. Memories are foggy, can’t really see your face, can’t exactly remember specifics… I just know that we’re… friends. But I’m not sure how long we’ve been friends.”
Jasper’s jaw ticked as he glanced over at you. “… we haven’t been friends long, so I wouldn’t feel bad about the loss of memories,” he muttered , kicking a buried rock just to hear it skid over the ice.
But when you looked at him, you noticed the way his gaze lingered on your face, your new face. No acne. No bitten lips. No human scars. No heartbeat. No warmth. Still you… but not fragile.
“We can make new memories,” he said finally, voice low, unreadable.
You met his eyes, something in your chest shifting—a faint echo of a feeling you’d had before you died. Something you didn’t have a name for yet, still trying to figure yourself out.
It was subtle at first, like the faint pressure of water breaking against a dam. A feeling you used to bury deep under sermons, behind your mother’s cold voice and the unspoken rules of what a “good man” was supposed to be. You faintly remembered how it used to feel, that razor-edged panic in your chest if you looked too long at the wrong kind of pretty. A boy smiling in gym class. A teammate’s hand lingering on your shoulder. Your own eyes in the mirror, afraid to admit what they liked.
You used to swallow it down like poison, choke on it until it burned. Not me. Not like that. God, no.
But now… what did it matter?
You were…dead. Heaven wasn’t waiting. Your mother’s voice was a ghost you could barely recall. The weight of expectation…marriage, kids, church pews, legacy—was gone, left rotting in the ground with your heartbeat. What could they threaten you with now? Hell? Eternal damnation? You were already living something stranger than either. Realer than that.
You didn’t give a damn anymore. About heaven. About being “right.” About fitting into the crooked mold your mother tried to crush you into. If you wanted to look at someone, you would. If you wanted to feel something, you would.
And right now, walking through the snow with Jasper Hale glancing sideways at you,quiet, sunken-eyed, his jaw hard and unreadable…you wanted to lean into this. Lean into whatever this was.
But what did he feel?
That was harder to read. Jasper’s face was stone, but his emotions weren’t. Even without his gift, you could feel the weight of it rolling off him like thunder. Guilt, first—so heavy it made your stomach twist, even though you didn’t need to eat anymore. He carried it everywhere, like he was afraid to set it down. You weren’t sure if it was guilt for turning you, or guilt for wanting to keep you close.
And under that… something hotter. A pull he didn’t want to name. Maybe couldn’t name. Every time his amber eyes lingered on you too long, you saw his jaw flex, as if he was grinding the thought out of his skull before it could take root.
You didn’t care about Jasper’s quiet guilt anymore. Not really. Sure, it sucked that you’d never see your mom or your cousins again—but let’s be real. Most of them would’ve bailed on you if they knew what you really were. If they knew what you’d been hiding from yourself. You were done twisting yourself into knots for people who wouldn’t have stayed.
It was time for new beginnings. Time to lean into whatever the hell this new life was.
So when Jasper tugged the book from your hands—carefully, like it might explode—and said, “Come on. Outside,” you didn’t argue. You just stood, brushing imaginary dust from your jeans, and followed him into the icy white expanse.
The Denalis stayed away. Just you and him.
The first hour was simple. Speed drills. Strength drills. Your reflexes against his. You matched him step for step, hit for hit, until he stopped pulling his punches and you both blurred through the snow in a flurry of limbs and gritted teeth. You were stronger than he wanted to admit…and he’d fought armies of newborns (he would take any chance to bring it up).
But strength wasn’t what Jasper really cared about.
He wanted to test your control.
And that… that was harder.
Your emotions were like gasoline now. Every spark a full-blown fire. Happiness made you dizzy. Sadness hollowed you out. Anger? Anger lit you up from the inside like molten metal. And…arousal—God help you—came fast, random, guilty as hell (embarrassingly). Testosterone 2.0, he called it once under his breath, smirking. You’d almost swung at him for that.
So Jasper pushed.
He taunted you. Sidestepped your fastest strikes. Corrected your form in a voice that was just this side of patronizing. “You’re telegraphing,” he drawled after throwing you face-first into the snow for the third time. “A newborn should be faster than this. You sure you’re trying?”
Your teeth clicked together. “I am trying.” You were never a fighter, never rough housed with male friends, never fought in school—straight As, basketball, church and studying. That’s all. You were soft. He was trying to change that.
“Doesn’t look like it.” He circled you like a predator, eyes sharp, waiting. “Anger makes you sloppy. You’ll never win like that.”
Something snapped.
You lunged. Not a practice lunge, not a measured move, but all speed and raw fury. All vampire. Jasper blocked, twisted, slammed you into the frozen ground hard enough to crater it. Snow burst up around you, glittering like glass.
“Focus,” he snapped.
“Shut up!” You roared, shoving him off with strength that surprised you both.
And that’s when it happened.
The pressure in your head changed—like a muscle you didn’t know you had flexed on instinct. The venom in Jasper’s veins stuttered, slowed, locked. For a heartbeat, he froze mid-stride, eyes wide, breath caught in his throat though he didn’t need to breathe. Immediately you thought: oh no not again, reaching out to catch him but it was too late. His knees buckled. He hit the ground hard, amber eyes rolling back for a split second.
The air around you crackled with something electric, something primal. You hadn’t even touched him. This wasn’t like the first time it happened, this time you were aware, this time you watched.
The pressure hit him before he understood it—like invisible hands in his veins, like someone had grabbed his entire nervous system and wrung it dry. His feet locked. His chest seized. He didn’t even have time to curse before his knees gave way and his brain went empty with numbness. For a split second he felt absolutely nothing. No emotions, not even his, not even his voice…
Jasper Whitlock…who had fought wars, slaughtered armies of newborns, commanded chaos itself…crashed to his knees in the snow like a damn rookie.
When he shook it off and staggered upright, there was something new in his face. Not fear exactly, not anger, but a dangerous mix of both… and something hotter. He was enjoying this, not that he’d admit that verbally. But his powers did, something mixed with excitement and lust flowing out of his pores and you felt every once of it.
You didn’t know it was coming from him, you shake your head, gently slapping your face. You just assumed it was your hormones.
And there you were. Standing over him. Not gloating, not smirking—looking almost guilty, like you’d tripped him instead of knocking him on his ass with a gift that shouldn’t even exist.
But Jasper wasn’t thinking about guilt.
Hell, he wasn’t even thinking about danger.
He should’ve been—because what you’d done was terrifying. You’d shut him down, body and venom, without even laying a hand on him. If you’d pushed harder, he wasn’t sure he’d be waking up at all. The idea should’ve chilled him to his core.
“Again,” he said, voice low, jaw clenched. “Do it again. I need to see how far this goes.” He didn’t give you time to argue or apologize.
He told himself it was just training, just strategy. He had to know the limits of your power before the wrong people found out. That was the excuse.
But when you shook your head like you were dizzy, slapping your own cheek and muttering under your breath, Jasper knew you were blaming your newborn hormones for the sudden rush in your chest. You didn’t realize it was him leaking into the air, radiating heat and thrill like a damn furnace.
And God help him—he liked that you didn’t know.
He tightened his fists, buried the rush in a soldier’s discipline, and barked again, sharper this time:
“Do it.”
You hesitated. His stance was different now—looser, hungrier. He wasn’t coming at you like a teacher anymore. He was coming at you like a soldier itching for a real fight. Your ass was starting to get nervous now. You might’ve been stronger than him at this moment, but you weren’t a fighter.
Your chest tightened. Guilt gnawed at the edges of your focus because you didn’t want to hurt him. But underneath that, something hotter, sharper, swelled in your ribs. Pride and male ego. You’d done what no newborn was supposed to do. Hell, what no vampire was supposed to do. You’d leveled Jasper Whitlock.
And he wanted more.
The next lunge was fast, too fast for a human eye to track. His boots carved up the snow, his hand darting for your collar. You felt his intent. Calm but coiled, predatory, even affectionate in its own twisted way. He wasn’t here to kill you, but he was here to test you.
That muscle in your head flexed again.
The venom in his veins jerked like a marionette string yanked too hard. Jasper froze mid-stride, expression flashing from feral focus to startled slackness. His whole body shuddered once, then folded like someone had cut his tendons. He hit the ground hard, face-first, snow kicking up around him. He was out.
This time you didn’t rush to catch him. You just stood there, chest heaving, watching.
What the hell am I doing? you thought. This guy saved me, and I’m putting him down like some kind of dog…
But the pride swelled again. You couldn’t help it. There he was, kneeling at your feet, amber eyes glazed like he’d just come out of a dream.
Because for him, that’s exactly what it was.
It’d been over a century since Jasper had slept—real sleep, the kind humans took for granted. But every time your power locked him down, there was a flash of it. A microsecond of quiet, like sinking under warm water. No guilt. No orders. No memories of blood-soaked battlefields. Just stillness.
And that—combined with the sharp, stubborn thrill of a fight he couldn’t win—lit something in him he hadn’t felt in decades.
He pushed up on one knee, swaying slightly, then spat snow from his lips. His laugh was low, ragged, almost disbelieving.
“Jesus Christ, kid…” he rasped, eyes bright and sharp now, no longer amber but filled black, as if he hadn’t hunted in weeks. “You have no idea what you’re doing to me.”
You blinked, unsure if he meant literally, your power or… the heat simmering between you two that he was leaking into the air again, intoxicating and impossible to ignore. You swallowed thickly, and looked away from him for a second. You had to calm down, you had to calm down, you had to calm down—
You were rock hard right now.
And you prayed he didn’t notice.
“Again,” Jasper ordered, voice rougher, like gravel dragged over glass. “Don’t hold back this time. Put me down ‘til I can’t get up.”
Oh he’s insane. You looked back towards him, watching as he brushed the rest of the snow off as if he wasn’t about to get dirty all over again. “Jas—“
“Cmon. Don’t be scared.” His fists were already in front of his face, boxing style, like he just knew he’d land a punch. Wrong.
Jasper moved like lightning, years of war and training carved into his every motion. His fists sliced through the air, his boots barely whispering against the snow, every strike meant to test your limits, not his. You didn’t use your powers automatically this time, no, you had a recovery period. You needed like- just two minutes because there was a lot happening right now and if you continued you would’ve made a mess of yourself.
You spent that recovery period dodging his hits as best as you could, but some landed. You quickly got a quick taste to realize he really wasn’t holding back as you grunted from the force into your stomach and you swore you felt your skin cracking and sealing back together.
He backed up with practice ease, your red eyes glaring up into his.
Then you gave him what he wanted.
That strange muscle deep in your mind flexed hard. You didn’t even have to touch him. The venom in his body staggered, locked up mid-flow. Jasper crashed to one knee, then both, palms hitting the snow so hard it cracked underneath. His teeth clenched, breath hitching out of pure instinct as if he’d been winded.
But this time… you didn’t let go right away.
You held it.
You felt every drop of venom inside him grind to a stop, like ice spreading through his veins. His eyes fluttered—not out of pain, but out of something dangerously close to bliss. A groan slipped from his throat, sharp and low, and it made something hot coil deep in your stomach, something you didn’t want to name. Then he crashed onto his stomach, eyes rolling back as if he went unconscious—which technically I guess he did.
For a full six seconds Jasper stayed there, trembling faintly, his body unresponsive except for the heat in his gaze when it finally snapped back into focus.
And damn it, he smiled. Not a wide smile. A dangerous, private one, the kind soldiers share right before going back into the line of fire because they love it too much to quit.
You stumbled back, shaking your head. “I…I need a break.”
Your knees hit the snow, slushy cold soaking into your jeans, but it didn’t matter. The world felt too sharp around the edges, your brain pulsing like you’d run a marathon you never trained for. Every time you used that power, it burned. Not in your throat like thirst, but behind your eyes, in your skull. You thought vampires didn’t have human traits like headaches, what the hell.
Above you, the grey Alaskan sky churned with heavy clouds. You leaned back on your elbows, breathless though you didn’t need to breathe, the deep heat in your stomach rolling like a second heartbeat. On top of this migraine… your body was still pulsing in heat. It was overwhelming, overstimulating in almost the worst way and you wished you could control your body.
Jasper wiped snow from his jaw with the back of his hand and took a few steadying breaths he didn’t need. You didn’t miss the faint tremor in his fingers.
From the ridge, the Denali coven watched in utter silence. Tanya crossed her arms, golden eyes amused. Kate smirked knowingly, whispering something in Carmen’s ear that earned her a sharp elbow to the ribs. Eleazar, of course, said nothing, but they caught the faint, knowing shake of his head.
Because they knew.
They saw the way Jasper looked at you. Not with fear, not even irritation, but something far more dangerous. A mixture of awe, challenge, and hunger that had nothing to do with blood. And they saw the way you, still new, still raw, didn’t notice it at all—didn’t realize you were feeding something in him no fight ever had.
Your head lolled back against the cold, eyes slipping closed. Can’t keep this up, you thought. He’s gonna run me into the ground. I’m not built like him.
“Don’t check out on me now,” Jasper muttered, stalking closer, his shadow cutting the grey light. “We ain’t done.”
“Speak for yourself,” you rasped, not bothering to move. “Feels like I’m pulling a truck with my brain.”
Jasper crouched, boots crunching, watching you with an unreadable expression that set your nerves on edge. Not hostile. Not gentle either. Something between predator and partner.
“You’ll get stronger,” he said simply. But his voice was rougher now, betraying how much he was feeling it. “And when you do… God help anyone that ain’t on your side.”
You didn’t reply to that comment. You were trying not to say anything stupid. He was too close right now. You smelt him too clearly, felt him even if he wasn’t a 95 degrees. You swallowed thickly with your eyes still closed, not brave enough to look at him right now. You twisted your hips uncomfortable, trying to pull the wedgie out your crotch without him realizing. If only you knew those were his emotions you were feeling right now, reflecting onto you and then right back to him, almost amplifying.
Jasper crouched in front of you, expecting some snark, maybe a shove, but instead… nothing. You just sat there, staring at the clouds like you were trying to will them into swallowing you whole.
That’s when he caught it. Not weakness, not laziness. The fine tremor in your fingers, the way your eyes struggled to focus when they fluttered open... The kind of exhaustion no vampire should be feeling.
“Hell,” he muttered under his breath. The fight bled right out of him.
“Alright.” He pushed up to his feet and reached for your arm. “That’s it for today.”
“I can go again—” you started, forcing yourself upright, but your legs buckled halfway through the motion. Jasper caught you without thinking, steadying you with an iron grip.
“Nope,” he said firmly, almost sharp. “You can’t.”
There was no pride in his tone now. No thrill of being challenged, no soldier’s grin. Just a steady weight of responsibility settling over him like wet snow. He slung your arm over his shoulder, practically hauling you up despite your weak protests.
“You’re done. I pushed too hard,” he admitted, clearing his throat like the words tasted sour. “That’s on me.” He didn’t even apologize to emmet when they fought.
You blinked at him, but didn’t disagree, just nodded.
As the two of you crunched back through the snow toward the Denalis’ house, the coven watching from their perch with unreadable expressions, Jasper kept glancing sidelong at you. He could feel the drag of your emotions; fatigue, frustration, and something else running hotter, deeper, right under your skin. Something he was responsible for.
And underneath his own calm mask, a quiet realization set in.
This was dangerous.
Not just your power, though that was a damn nightmare waiting to happen. Not just the fact that you could lock him up like a puppet and drop him to his knees without laying a finger on him. But himself.
The thrill. The way his own chest tightened when he thought about pushing you again, about feeling that sudden freeze inside his veins. It was addictive, and that made it reckless.
He cleared his throat again as the porch came into view, more to cut off his own thoughts than to get your attention. “We’ll take it slow from now on,” he said, voice low but steady. “Your control comes first. My pride can wait.”
You said nothing but a tired little grunt.
Later on,
The Denali house was quiet, snow muffling the world outside. Jasper sat on the edge of his bed, staring at his hands. Long, pale fingers still faintly aching from being forced to his knees earlier. He hadn’t felt aching like this in a long long time. Not since he was human.
He should’ve felt humiliated. Instead, there was that burn in his chest again, like old whiskey hitting an empty stomach.
Shit.
He raked a hand through his hair and leaned back against the frame, shutting his eyes.
He’d known. Of course he had. Hell, he’d known since long before his own heart had stopped beating. Back in the barracks, catching himself glancing too long when the other boys stripped down. That locker room back in Houston, just before everything went to hell, when you’d peeled your shirt off without a thought and he’d felt something old and dangerous stir in his chest.
This wasn’t new. It was just…inconvenient.
Feeling this way about you right now while he was actively trying to help you, to build you. It was inco-fucking-venient.
And Maria… God, Maria had scorched everything out of him. She’d taken and taken until there was nothing left but a weapon in her shape. No softness. No want. At least that’s what he’d told himself for a those 60 years after leaving her.
But you…
It hit him like a damn freight train. Raw. Unfiltered. That ridiculous collar still in his fist earlier, dragging you through the snow like an unruly pup, and all he’d been able to think was don’t look at his neck, don’t look at his mouth, don’t—
Jasper let out a sound halfway between a groan and a curse, pressing the heels of his hands against his eyes.
This wasn’t just attraction. It was hunger. Different from thirst, deeper than instinct. He needed you. Needed to be near you, to know you were breathing—even if you didn’t breathe anymore. Every part of him, soldier and monster both, was straining toward you like iron to a magnet.
You’re dangerous, he told himself. Not because of that venom-lock trick you kept hitting him with. Not even because you could make the Denali sisters collapse without lifting a finger.
But because you were waking up something in him he thought Maria had killed for good.
He wasn’t straight in the slightest.
And damn if it didn’t scare him how much he liked it.
The knock was soft, almost hesitant. Once. Twice. Then silence.
You dragged the towel tighter around your hips, still dripping from the too-hot shower that hadn’t even left a mark on you. The contrast of your cold skin and the hot water made steam leak from your body as you cracked your door open.
Jasper stood there like a ghost, lean and rigid, hands shoved deep in his pockets. His amber eyes flicked up to your face, down to the towel, then back up again so fast you almost missed it. *Almost.
“Sup,” you grunted, stepping aside without thinking. If he wanted to scold you again about “control” or “focus,” he’d have to do it while you found a clean shirt. You turned your back on him, water tracing paths down the planes of your shoulders, and started digging through the drawer.
Behind you, Jasper closed the door with quiet care. And then he just…stopped.
His eyes dragged over you like a starving man forced to walk past a banquet. Not in the careful, paternal way he’d been looking at you since you’d woken up as a newborn. No, this was something hotter, heavier, something he hadn’t let himself feel in decades.
The change vampirism carved into you was breathtaking. Even in the week since your turning, every line of you had sharpened, every motion had become lethal and fluid. Muscle flexed under your skin with a kind of inhuman precision, smooth and dangerous. Your complexion had taken on that otherworldly sheen, your warm undertones gone, replaced with something cooler and muted.
And then there was the mundane detail, droplets sliding over your back, catching on the silky black durag tied over your head, highlighting waves he couldn’t stop staring at.
Christ alive, Jasper thought, throat tight. What the hell are you doing to me?
You didn’t even notice him staring,still rummaging, muttering about where the hell your sweatpants had gone. But Jasper noticed every damn thing. The way you stood with casual confidence, the towel threatening to slip a little lower with each move. How the room smelled of soap and steam, your newborn scent wound through it, sharp and intoxicating.
For a man who hadn’t slept in a century, this felt like the closest thing to dreaming.
“Need somethin’, cowboy?” you finally asked over your shoulder, holding up a pair of joggers in one hand.
The sound of your voice jerked Jasper back a half step, but his gaze didn’t soften. If anything, it sharpened, like a blade being honed.
“Yeah,” he said, voice lower than he intended. “Needed to talk to you. Face to face.”
But it wasn’t just talking he wanted—and he hated himself for it.
You didn’t look up, just yanked the joggers free and tossed them on the bed, still pawing through the drawer for a shirt. “About what? Training again? ’Cause I’m not doing round three with you today. I’ll drop dead.”
“You won’t drop dead. I fear it’s a bit too late for that.” You scoff at his dry joke. His bootsteps clicked soft on the hardwood as he shut the distance a little. “But that’s not why I’m here.”
Something about his tone made you pause. You turned halfway, towel slung low on your hips, water still tracing down your ribs. And Jasper—well, he swore he’d meant to keep this professional. Just walk in, say what needed saying, and walk out.
Except his eyes betrayed him.
They slid over you like they had a mind of their own…shoulders, chest, the sharp lines carved where there hadn’t been any before. Not gawking, not sloppy. Focused. Appraising. Like he was cataloguing every difference vampirism had etched into you. And with each step he took closer, it got harder to pretend he wasn’t looking.
“Then what?” you asked slowly, brows drawing together. “What’s got you looking like you’re about to… eat me or something?”
That made him freeze mid-step, but not back off. If anything, he smirked faintly at your choice of words, though his jaw stayed tight. “You ever gonna stop runnin’ your mouth?” he muttered, but there wasn’t any real heat behind it.
“You ever gonna tell me what the hell’s goin’ on?” you shot back, towel hand tightening just in case it slipped.
He should’ve laughed. He should’ve said it’s nothin’, just wanted to check on you, and left. Instead he kept walking until there wasn’t much space between you at all. You could see the amber rings in his eyes clear as day.
“I came to… make sure you’re settlin’ in,” Jasper said finally, but the words felt paper-thin, like he barely believed them himself. His gaze dipped briefly—to your throat, your collarbone, lower—and then snapped back to your face. “Make sure you’re in control.”
“Funny way to check,” you muttered. You could feel him lying.
That earned you a real grin, quick and dangerous. “I’m thorough.”
“Oh are you…”
“Mmm…”
The air between you felt charged, like during training when your power hit him and locked his body up, but this time it was all him, no venom-stutter, no blood-trick. Just… heat. The same heat you’d been craving since 15, freshman year of high-school.
“You’re staring, dude.” Your voice was half-joke, half-warning, a crooked grin undercutting the fact your knuckles went white on the towel at your hip.
Jasper didn’t even try to deny it. He just breathed out a laugh, soft, low, like it slipped past his teeth without permission, and kept on coming closer.
“Yeah,” he drawled, gaze unwavering. “Reckon I am.”
Neither of you said anything for a solid ten seconds. The silence wasn’t empty, it was loaded, humming with that dangerous charge that always came off him when his control thinned. You used the stillness to study him back: the hard-cut lines of his jaw, the faint puckered scars at his throat and down the side of his face, half-moons of venom bites you still hadn’t worked up the courage to ask about. You didn’t even know if you were allowed to.
Jasper leaned in first, slow enough to give you time to step back. But for the first time in eighteen years, you weren’t nervous. Weren’t scared. What was there to fear now? Who could beat you for it?
So you leaned in too. Met him halfway.
The kiss itself was barely a brush at first, nothing but a quick press of lips — and Jasper, disciplined as ever, tried to pull away fast, to pretend it didn’t happen. Heavy on tried.
Because your hand; bigger, stronger, solid as iron, slid up behind his neck. You caught him before he could retreat, fingers locking just below the soft hairline, and pulled him back in.
This time the kiss was deeper. Not neat, not patient. You didn’t care. And judging by the way Jasper exhaled against your mouth like he’d been holding that breath for a century, neither did he.
Jasper hadn’t planned this. That was the first lie he told himself when your hand caught the back of his neck and dragged him in again. He hadn’t meant to come here tonight, hadn’t meant to knock on your door, hadn’t meant to let his eyes wander over every sharp line vampirism carved into you…man who in the hell was he fooling!? He’d been thinking about this since the locker room. Since the barracks, even, back when his pulse still meant something. He’d just buried it under Maria, under guilt, under a century of pretending.
And now here you were. Steam still rising off your skin, water clinging to your collarbone. And here he was, losing grip on the same discipline that had kept him alive for decades.
Careful, cowboy . His own voice in his head, cold and strict, the one that used to train newborns and cut them down when they got too wild. But this time, he didn’t want to cut you down. He wanted to burn with you.
From your side, it was like seeing him crack open. Jasper, who’d been a wall of quiet command and clenched control, suddenly pressing forward, not pulling away. His hand came up, warm only from friction, not life, and braced against your jaw. Not rough, but firm enough to keep you from even thinking about breaking the kiss.
You realized, dizzy and sharp at once: this wasn’t new for him. This wasn’t confusion like it had been with you. This was a confession. He knew what this was, had known for a long time. You just happened to be the spark that lit it up again.
He broke first, dragging in a breath he didn’t need, forehead still pressed to yours. You could feel the tremor in him , not fear, not weakness, but restraint stretched so thin it might snap.
“Damn,” you muttered, voice low, grip still on his neck. “You’ve been holding that in a while.”
His eyes; gold haloing the black, flicked up to yours, sharp and unguarded. For once, Jasper Whitlock didn’t have a smooth comeback. Just the truth simmering in his chest, hotter than any thirst.
Jasper’s voice was a rasp, gravel dragged across silk.
“I need you—” his lips barely brushed yours as he spoke, eyes flickering from your mouth to your stare and back again. “I’ve been needin’ you—for a long time—” he swallowed hard, the venom thick, sweet-smelling in the air between you. “Hell, probably before you were even born, but I—” his breath hitched, the words breaking free like they’d been chained down too long, “I need you…”
Your laugh was low, breathless, almost disbelieving, and you just nodded, gripping his waist and dragging him flush against you. No more space, no more question of what this was. Both of you were stone-hard, your dick twitching underneath your towel while his strained in his sweatpants, breath coming too quick for creatures who didn’t need to breathe at all.
“Yeah?” you murmured, voice deeper now, almost taunting, but warm.
His jaw tightened, but not from anger. His hand shook once, then stilled, moving fast to the knot at your towel. The fabric fell almost too easily, and now you were completely naked. He had seen you naked less than a handful of times but this was different, way different.
You kissed him again before he could say another word, teeth clicking, lips bruising, and Jasper—Major Whitlock, soldier, killer, the one who never let himself slip—actually shuddered against you.
“Please,” he muttered against your lips, voice cracking like old wood under weight, “please, let me make you feel good…”
The words were almost a growl, a plea laced with command. Your fingers dug into his back, brows pushing together as his hips grind against yours, this pleasure completed new. You weren’t a stranger to kissing and touching but- this was a man… your man. And this is the first time you knew it would go farther than you ever did with any girl you’d break up with a week later to avoid the exact thing that’s about to happen-
“Please…” he whispered once again, snapping you out of that feeling of nerves and unsure. “Yeah…yeah…” you muttered, hands pushing up his shirt as he toed off his boots, kicking them off somewhere in your room. You breathed out. Eyes fluttering as you looked down at his pale sculpted body, this was the first time you saw him without a shirt on… and those bites did go further down.
“Damn…” it came out on accident. He huffed out a laugh, eyes glancing down your bodies, his cock twitching just by the sight of you. “Yeah… damn…” he leads you back to the bed, your knees hitting the mattress causing you to fall back on your elbows. You weren’t as shy as he’d thought you would be.
Your fingers fisted the sheets as you watched him slide off those sweats, eyes low and chest heaving as if you were a lion that just got done chasing prey. Your legs were spread, dick leaking already from the lack of touch, sitting right below your navel as his pants hit the floor right with his briefs. Shit.
His skin had been paler than you’d thought, yet his tip a wet mauve color. The same color that matched his nipples and lips. You couldn’t stop staring. He was carved by the Michelangelo himself, smooth hairless skin, veins— even though were empty with blood, were blue and bulging out of his lower abdomen and the base of his penis.
“First time seeing a man naked like this?” He asked, buttery in the silence as he watched you watch him. You didn’t know how to reply to that without making it awkward, a breathless laugh leaving your mouth. You settled on a nod instead. He should’ve expected that. This was his first time as well. “Other than naked boys in the locker room…” you trailed off as he smiled down at you, it was more of a lazy smirk.
“Wanna know somethin’?” He asked, yet you couldn’t even make decent eye contact. “What…” it came out as a whisper
“You’re not alone in this. This is my first time… with a man that is…All about making memories, remember?” And as he said this… god as he said this he was already crawling up between your legs. “Oh..oh really?..” this time there wasn’t a teasing edge to it as you asked, your legs parting to accommodate his body, you breath picking up, heaving as you felt his legs and thighs brush against yours.
“That does make me feel better…” you joked softly, and this time he laughed with you. “Oh…god…” you gasped out as his face brushed into your neck, his nose inhaling your new primal scent, his mouth opening to taste the side of your neck. “Ain’t no god here…”
His words sent a shiver straight through you, and for a second you forgot how to breathe—not that you needed to anymore. Those had been words that had went against your entire human existence…and you find yourself not caring. You felt yourself being free.
You felt him shift, braced on his forearms now, his weight pressing into you just enough to make the mattress groan. Every brush of his thighs against yours set your nerves on fire, every inch of his body heatless but electric.
“Jasper…” your voice cracked on his name, not out of fear but sheer disbelief at how close he was, how easy it was to let him in.
“Mm?” he hummed against your neck, lips just barely grazing skin—testing, teasing, lingering like he already owned the spot he hovered over.
Your hand, steady in a way your voice wasn’t, slid up the firm line of his back, tracing where old scars mapped his skin. “This… is insane.”
His lazy smirk deepened against your throat. “Welcome to the club.” He tilted his head up just enough to meet your eyes, his amber gaze darker than you’d ever seen it, pupils blown wide. “You gonna stop me?”
You shook your head before you even thought about it. “Do I look like I’m gonna stop you?” He huffed out a laugh before he leaned over to press his lips into yours, causing you to moan softly into his mouth. How were you supposed to act normal after this? How were you supposed to act sane as if you hadn’t tasted him, felt his tongue on yours, his cock grinding your thigh. Fuuuck.
Your hand slid lower on instinct, gripping his waist, pulling him tight— tighter-until you both felt it, him, hard and ready and no longer something you could ignore. Jasper groaned into your mouth, venom sweet on your tongue, and then his voice broke against your lips, desperate, unsteady:
"God, you don't know what you're doin' to me..."
Your hips twitched at that, a broken whimper leaving from your nose as you two rubbed against each other. This feeling was too intense, it was already overwhelming. “Jasper…”
“Im right here, baby…” *baby?? Oh my fucking god I’m about to come.
“Mm…” your head rolled back, eyes closing and brows pushing together as you just tried your best to concentrate to not come, to not grind your hips up too much but fuck it was just too much. And Jasper, he was already taking advantage of you.
His lips went back down to your neck, hand reaching up to cup your jaw. The air around you thrummed like a wire pulled too tight. His lips moved against your skin, not biting, just claiming, tasting you, as his hips shifted fractionally lower.
Your breath hitched. “Jas—”
“Shh,” he whispered, his voice breaking like it was costing him to keep it steady. “Let me…just let me…” His tongue, wet and surprisingly warm, flattened out and licked up your skin… and then he went down, further and further until your eyes snapped opened and you looked down at him with widened eyes.
“Jasper-I don’t know—“
“Just need to taste you…”
That shut you right up.
“Ain’t nothin’ to be scared of…”
Your hips twitched again, entirely on instinct, and his low laugh rumbled against your skin as if he could feel the frustration bleeding off you. “Easy,” he murmured. “Don’t fight it.”
You shakily nodded, the hand on his back coming up to rest on the back of his neck.
Then his hand finally wrapped around your length, a low purr rumbling in his chest as his eyes that shined from the warm light in the room looked into yours. Black to black, the red in your irises and the gold from his gone. And then he tasted you, tongue rolling out and licking the underside of your thick cock. Jaspers control cracked as that bitter sweet taste of your venom coated his tongue.
A sharp, broken sound tore out of your chest, half snarl and half whimper. Your hand shot down into his hair, meaning to push him away, or maybe pull him closer—you couldn’t tell which. “God, Jas—” you gasped, voice tight, head tipped back against the wall.
“riiight here” he growled against your skin without lifting his head, lips brushing up and down your shaft, words coming ragged now, more confession than tease. “Just you, just me…”
The sound you made at that, sharp, breathless, almost a laugh—seemed to undo something in him entirely. His grip tightened at your hip, his voice low and desperate against your skin. “Need you, been needin’ you—don’t tell me no now…” and then his mouth, so warm, so fucking wet, hugged your tip like a firm hand shake, suckling and and moaning around you as he tasted and took in your essence.
And whatever half-formed protest you had died right there, burning out in the back of your throat as instinct took over, your other hand fisting in the sheets. “Fuuuck, I’m gonna cooome…” you whimpered, cursing like you didn’t grow up in the church, like you didn’t do Bible studies Wednesdays and Thursdays. That seemed to fuel him even more, his eyes fluttering closed as his throat relaxed and took you in even more. No gag reflex, no struggle, just pure lust and need.
He didn’t even get half way down before your hand in his hair tighten and your toes curled. “Oh my gosh—“ your back arched off the mattress, your nut spewing into his mouth and he swallowed it up. You’re apart of him now, forever and always.
He pulled away with a soft pop, lips wet and fixed in a grin.
His back it the mattress with a soft thud and grunt, his pores extruding his lust, almost smothering you in the face as you bend down to burry your face in his neck to take a greedy inhale. “Mm… you smell so good…” you muttered, your voice vibrating against his neck causing him to groan softly at the tickling feeling. You were ready for him now, that first orgasm was just the preheat.
He seemed to be right where you were, his thighs widening. “Guess that woke you up hm? Movin’ real eager.” He huffed out a laugh, his hands coming up to spit on his fingers. A curse flew out your mouth as you watched him reach down, his fingers rubbing up and down his hole before one slipped through. “…oh god…” you said for the 100th time that night. This is the most erotic thing you’ve seen in all of your lifetime.
He was shameless and beautiful in a way that almost hurt to look at.
A curse fell out of your mouth before you could stop it. “Jas…” you said hoarsely, not even sure what you were asking for.
“Just watch,” he murmured, low and warm like honey. “Ain’t no need to rush.”
But your body didn’t agree. Every nerve felt coiled too tight, every second dragged long and thin. The hunger, the same gnawing that burned your throat for blood—was here too, deeper, more confusing. You were sure you’d lose your mind if you didn’t touch him.
The way he breathed out a shaky laugh at your expression made your chest twist. “What’s wrong, darlin’? Never seen anyone this worked up?”
“No—” you croaked honestly, shaking your head, “not like this.”
The words slipped out raw, honest, and they hit him harder than you meant. His teasing edge softened, eyes catching yours again as if to ask without asking. And you didn’t look away. He slipped in another finger, stretching himself out for you as his pants, lips parted.
Your hands gripped his thighs and pushed them further up, you couldn’t take it anymore, it was like watching the most seductive and personal porn ever and you never watched porn.
His fingers slipped out of him with a low moan and you didn’t hesitate to press your tip against his hole. Hands slipped around your hips and pulled you in closer causing your hands to reach up to grip the sheets above his head, and you swore you saw the light just for a second as your dick gets sucked up by his tightness. Your eyes closed tightly, your breath caught in your throat as he pulls you deep inside of him with a parted mouth. “Yeah, yeah just like that..” his breath hits your ear as he speaks to you.
His legs were around your hips now as you thrusted until he took all girthy inches, till your balls were the only thing seen. This wasn’t like being human. There was no guilt clawing up your throat, no flash of your mother’s voice spitting venom about sin and shame. If anything, the thought of her made you laugh breathlessly against Jasper’s throat. “You okay?” He asked you, his voice low and breathless as he tried not to be loud. Loud wasn’t in his nature…not yet atleast.
You nodded fast, licking your lips as he fluttered around you. “Trying…trying not to cum so fast…” you whispered almost pathetically and he huffed out a laugh, causing you to groan against his neck as his body squeezed yours. You pulled your hips back- slowly before pushing them back in, a small gasp catching in your throat as he groaned into your ear…
You paused, eyelids fluttering opened, and pulled back just enough to see his face. You caused that noise. You made him feel this way. He didn’t bother anymore with the reassurance, mostly because he could barely reassure himself as he watches your maroon eyes peer down at his lips. Your hips began to move in a slow careful rhythm, your faces mimicking eachothers as you fucked into him.
“Oh…oh fuck…” his moans weren’t as loud as you’d hoped, and that fueled something inside of you, something that itched your ego and curiosity. So you moved faster, your thighs clapping together louder, causing the bed frame to thump against the wall. “Oooh fuuuuck…” You bit down on your lips as you watched his eyes roll back, that same exact face he made when he was knocked out for those 5 seconds during training. There it is, you thought to yourself.
“Like that?” You whispered against his lips, wanting to taste the sounds he made, wanting to swallow them down inside of you. He nodded with a short whimper, honestly at lost for words at just how good you felt stretching him out. “Uh-Mh-…mmm…” he bit down on his lip, and if he could blush his cheeks and ears would be a blinding red from embarrassment.
You weren’t having that.
“Cmon… please… tell me how I’m doing…” you muttered, your hands release the sheets above his head, pushing his thighs against his chest even more, forcing his legs to unwrap from your back and hang limply over your shoulders. You were deeper now, your mouth needily taking in air in that habit you couldn’t break. He was losing his mind underneath you, and he—ironically preyed that the Denalis didn’t acknowledge what was going on under their roof.
“Yes yes yesss…” he could barely even understand what the hell you were telling him at this point, his brain overwhelmed as you tip touched his prostate. “I’m… I’m doing good? God Jas, you feel so damn good—I know I’m not gonna last…” you ramble on and on, your fingers at this point digging into his skin—and it hurt, it hurt so bad yet felt so good, he’d let you crack him as long as it was you. He couldn’t give a damn at this point as your hips pistols against his in that sloppy rushed way. “I’m gonna cum sweetheart, fuuck—keep goin…” his head fell back against the wrinkled sheets, eyes squeezing shut as his balls clinched with his release.
You were right behind him, the weight of your upper half pressing him into the mattress as your thrusts get even worse. “I’m right there Jas, can I— can I come inside you? Pleasepleaseplease,” you begged him at this point, because you knew you wouldn’t be able to pull out in time, you just knew. And damn, that was enough for him, just the thought of you coming inside of him caused him to twitch beneath you, his noises broken and embarrassed as he came over his stomach and chest.
Just the sight of his face contorting was enough for you. You couldn’t wait for his answer even if he tried. “Jasper, oh my—“ your mouth fell open as you basically fall into him, your cock borrowing so deep inside of him his hands reached up and dug into your neck and back—trying his best to hold onto something from this sensation pouring into him.
You eased back, slow and careful, like moving too quickly would break the spell or maybe shatter you both entirely. Your chest was heaving, Jasper’s hands still lingering on your back as if letting go would mean this wasn’t real.
The room was quiet except for the faint hum in the walls, your senses still thrumming from everything you’d just felt. You half-collapsed beside him on the bed, the mattress dipping under your weight, and for a long moment neither of you spoke.
You just stared.
His hair was mussed, a rare thing. A lock of gold fell across his forehead, his lips faintly parted as if words had been on their way but never made it. You could see every tiny scar on his neck, every mark that told stories you hadn’t asked about yet. His amber eyes were heavy-lidded, not from exhaustion, but from something else. Something you’d put there.
Holy shit. I just… with Jasper Hale.
It should’ve felt wrong, or scary, or something. Instead, it felt like the only thing in the world that made sense.
He didn’t smirk, didn’t try to play it off. He just looked at you like you’d been his all along. Like he’d been waiting for this exact moment, maybe since before you even knew what you wanted.
“…Well,” you muttered finally, because the silence was almost too much.
“Yeah,” Jasper said, voice low, rough around the edges. And then—he actually laughed. Just one soft huff of breath, but it made you crack a smile.
Neither of you said the words out loud, but it didn’t matter. The way his hand found yours in the space between you said it for both of you. The way he didn’t let go, not even after the quiet stretched on.
Whatever line you’d crossed tonight…it was gone for good. This wasn’t temporary. Wasn’t casual. In that shared glance, that stillness, you both knew: together wasn’t just a choice. It was a fact.
❛ dismiss me as a kid tell me i'm barely legal, but barely legal, is legal ❜
synopsis. new apartment, new start? y/n just wants to unpack her life one box at a time—but moving day gets a lot more distracting when her younger, rugged cowboy neighbor, yuji, decides to “help.” sparks fly, boundaries blur, and with the age gap and his dangerous charm, unpacking isn’t the only thing heating up in the apartment…
an. hii this is my first fic, i hope you like it, i'd loveee feedback
Boxes were stacked along the edges of the apartment like cardboard monuments to a life half-lived, neat in their arrangement but chaotic in their implications–a quiet testament to the life Y/N was trying to rebuild from scratch, piece by fragile piece. She wiped her hands on her jeans, the denim soft and worn at the thighs, faded from too many washes and too many days spent on her knees scrubbing floors or packing up memories she didn't want to carry anymore. The sunlight slanted through the windows in thick, golden beams, making the dust in the air sparkle like something precious, like tiny flecks of gold suspended in amber, and for a moment, she let herself breathe in the stillness, the quiet promise of a fresh start.
Then the sound of a door sliding open made her look up, her breath catching slightly in her throat.
He was leaning in the doorway, one hand lazily tucked into the pocket of his jeans–dark denim that clung to his thighs in a way that was almost indecent–the other holding a coffee cup as if he belonged there, as if he'd been invited, as if the space between them wasn't charged with the kind of tension that made her skin prickle with awareness. But his grin–the slow, cocky grin that spread across his face like honey dripping from a spoon–said otherwise. His eyes glinted with amusement, flecks of gold catching the morning light and making them look almost feral, almost predatory, and Y/N felt a heat she didn't expect creeping across her skin, settling low in her stomach like a slow-burning ember.
"You moving in alone?" His voice was slow, southern, easy–the kind of drawl that made every word sound like a caress, like a promise whispered in the dark. "That's… brave. Stubborn, even. Dangerous combo."
She straightened, lifting a box with deliberate strength, her arms flexing slightly under the weight, her jaw set in a way that she hoped looked confident rather than defensive. "I can manage," she said, her voice steady even as her pulse quickened. "I don't need anyone hovering."
He stepped further inside, not waiting for an invitation, letting the door click shut behind him with a soft finality that made the room feel suddenly smaller, more intimate. The sound echoed faintly in the empty space, and she was acutely aware of how alone they were, how the sunlight streaming through the windows cast long shadows across the hardwood floor, how the air smelled faintly of cardboard and dust and something else–something warm and masculine that she couldn't quite place but that made her stomach tighten with anticipation.
"Strangers, huh?" he said, his lips curving into that signature smirk, dimples appearing at the corners of his mouth like punctuation marks to his amusement. "I like strangers who talk back. Makes things interesting."
She glanced at him, brow raised, trying to ignore the way her heart was hammering against her ribs like it was trying to escape. "I bet you say that to all the new neighbors."
"Only the ones worth noticing," he said, his voice smooth as silk, his eyes scanning her like he was memorizing every line of her body, every inch of her face, every curve and angle and imperfection. His gaze lingered on the way her shirt clung to her waist, the way her jeans hugged her hips, the way a strand of hair had escaped from her ponytail and was curling against her neck. "And you, Y/N… you've got a spark. I'd notice it anywhere."
A faint laugh escaped her, breathless and uncertain, and she set the box down on the counter with more force than necessary, the sound sharp in the quiet room. "A spark, huh? And how would a spark like mine even catch your attention?"
He tilted his head, his hair–soft and pink-toned in the morning light, falling in messy waves that framed his face–catching the sunlight just enough to make him look almost angelic, though the mischievous tilt of his grin was anything but. "Maybe the way you handle those boxes like a general commanding troops. Maybe the way you didn't run the second I walked in." He paused, his eyes darkening slightly, his voice dropping to something lower, rougher. "Maybe the way you're looking at me right now, like you're trying to decide if I'm dangerous or just… tempting."
Her pulse quickened, her hands gripping the edge of the counter tighter, her knuckles going white with the effort of keeping herself grounded. "I handle things just fine," she said, but her voice came out softer than she intended, almost breathless.
"I can tell," he murmured, stepping closer, close enough that she could feel the heat radiating off his body, close enough that she could smell the coffee on his breath and the faint scent of cologne–something woodsy and warm, like cedar and smoke–that clung to his skin. The air between them seemed to thicken, to pulse with something electric, something alive. "But even strong people… like a little distraction now and then."
She froze, her breath catching in her throat as she caught the glint in his eye, that predator's smile that promised mischief and danger and something she wasn't sure she was ready for but couldn't seem to resist. "Distraction?" she whispered, her voice barely audible. "That's… tempting."
"Tempting?" He leaned a fraction closer, his voice lowering to a rough whisper that sent shivers down her spine, his southern drawl thick and deliberate, wrapping around each word like velvet. "Exactly the word I'd use. And if you think you're going to ignore me… well, you're gonna have a problem."
Her chest rose with a shaky laugh, her hands trembling slightly as she tried to keep her voice steady, tried to maintain some semblance of control even as she felt herself slipping, falling into the gravity of his presence. "Maybe I should. Maybe I should just… focus on the boxes."
"Focus is overrated," he said, shifting just slightly, his shoulder brushing against hers as he reached past her to lift the next box, the contact fleeting but deliberate, sending a jolt of electricity through her body that made her stomach flutter and her thighs clench involuntarily. Her breath hitched, and she knew he heard it, knew he felt the way her body responded to his touch, because his smirk widened, his eyes darkening with satisfaction.
"You don't give up, do you?" she said softly, her voice trembling despite her best efforts.
"Not on things worth having," he said, his lips curling into that signature smirk, his eyes never leaving hers, holding her gaze with an intensity that made her feel like she was the only thing in the world that mattered. "And I have a feeling… you're worth it."
The room was suddenly smaller, the air charged with something unspoken, something dangerous and thrilling and impossible to ignore. His gaze lingered longer than it should, the corner of his mouth twitching with amusement, and Y/N felt herself leaning into him despite every warning her brain offered, despite every instinct that told her to step back, to put distance between them, to protect herself from whatever this was.
"Alright," she said finally, her voice barely above a whisper as she let herself set the box down, her hands shaking slightly as she released it. "Maybe you can help with this one. But don't get any ideas."
"Just one box?" His drawl made the words linger like a promise, like a threat, like something she should be afraid of but couldn't help wanting. "Baby, I don't do things halfway."
"Halfway's fine with me," she replied softly, acutely aware of her own blush, of the heat spreading across her cheeks and down her neck, of how fast her pulse was racing, of how her body was betraying her with every breath, every movement. "Just… don't be overwhelming."
"Overwhelming?" His grin widened, dimples teasing, his eyes crinkling at the corners in a way that made him look boyish and dangerous all at once. "That's my specialty."
And just like that, he carried the next box without waiting, moving with an easy grace that made it look effortless, close enough that she felt every movement, every shift of his body, every brush of his fingers against hers as he set the box down. It was deliberate, teasing, a chase made of touches and glances, smiles and words too charged to be innocent, and she found herself unable to look away, unable to resist the pull of him.
"You're stubborn," he murmured, leaning just slightly closer, his breath warm against her ear, his voice dropping to something intimate and rough. "Makes me wanna chase you even more."
"And you'd better not get used to it," she replied, her voice low, trying to sound stern even as she found herself noticing the way his eyes tracked every movement, how easily he filled the space with his presence, how the room seemed to shrink around him until there was nothing but him and her and the tension crackling between them like lightning.
"Used to it?" he whispered, a glint of mischief in his eye, his lips curving into a smile that was equal parts charming and wicked. "I don't do used to, Y/N. I do want. And I'm very good at getting it."
And that was when she realized it–she didn't want to resist. Not really. Her heartbeat quickened in a way that was thrilling, frightening, and impossible to ignore, and she knew, with a certainty that settled deep in her bones, that the chase had begun.
The scent of pine and old paper filled the air, mingling with the faint smell of cardboard and the lingering aroma of coffee from the cup he'd set down on the counter, forgotten now in the wake of something more pressing, more immediate. Yuji hoisted a box labeled "Kitchen – Fragile" with an ease that made it look like it weighed nothing, his biceps flexing under the thin fabric of his t-shirt–a soft gray cotton that clung to his chest and shoulders in a way that left little to the imagination. The muscles in his arms rippled with the movement, a casual demonstration of strength that made her mouth go dry, and he didn't even breathe hard, didn't even break a sweat, just set the box down with a soft thud and turned to look at her with that same lazy, confident smile.
"You know," he drawled, his voice a low hum that seemed to vibrate in the air between them, "this ain't exactly my idea of a first date."
"Who said it was a date?" she shot back, though a smile played on her lips despite her best efforts to remain aloof, to keep her distance. She moved past him, pushing a heavy box of books with her hip, the effort bringing a flush to her cheeks and making her breath come a little faster. The box scraped against the floor with a dull sound, and she felt the strain in her thighs, the burn in her muscles, but she refused to ask for help, refused to give him the satisfaction.
"Didn't have to," he replied, a knowing glint in his eyes as he watched her struggle, his gaze tracking the movement of her body with an intensity that made her skin prickle with awareness. He set the box down with a soft thud, then turned, blocking her path, his shadow falling over her like a blanket, warm and encompassing, making her feel small and protected and trapped all at once. "The way you're trying to pretend you don't notice me… that's a dead giveaway."
She met his gaze, a tremor running through her body that had nothing to do with the physical exertion and everything to do with the way he was looking at her, like she was something precious, something he wanted to unwrap slowly and savor. "I'm noticing you," she said, her voice steady even as her heart raced. "I'm noticing you're in my way."
A low chuckle vibrated in his chest, the sound rich and warm and impossibly attractive, and she felt it resonate in her own body, felt it settle low in her stomach like a physical touch. "Am I, now?" he murmured, leaning closer, his eyes dropping to her mouth, lingering there with an intensity that made her lips part involuntarily, made her tongue dart out to wet them without thinking. "Or am I exactly where you want me to be?"
The air thickened, charged with unspoken possibility, with the weight of everything they weren't saying, everything they were both thinking but refusing to acknowledge. His hand, warm and calloused from work she could only imagine, brushed her arm as he moved to pick up another box, a lingering touch that sent shivers down her spine, that made her breath catch and her skin flush with heat.
Her breath hitched, her voice coming out softer than she intended, almost breathless. "You really are full of yourself, aren't you?"
"Only when I'm right." His fingers trailed down her arm, a feather-light touch that left goosebumps in its wake, and she felt her body respond despite herself, felt her nipples tighten under her shirt, felt the heat pooling between her thighs. "And I'm usually right about things like this."
They worked in a rhythm after that, a silent dance of boxes and glances, of movements that brought them closer together and then pulled them apart again, a push and pull that felt choreographed, inevitable. Each time he passed, his arm would graze hers, his shoulder would brush her back, his fingers would find some excuse to touch her–a hand on her waist to steady her, a palm pressed to the small of her back to guide her, a brush of his knuckles against her hip as he reached past her for another box. The accidental touches felt anything but accidental, igniting a slow burn beneath her skin that spread through her body like wildfire, making her hyperaware of every point of contact, every breath, every heartbeat.
The afternoon light softened as they worked, the sun sinking lower in the sky and painting the dust motes in the air with hues of orange and rose, casting long shadows across the hardwood floor and making the apartment feel warm and intimate, like a cocoon separate from the rest of the world. The windows glowed with the fading light, and the air grew thick with the scent of their bodies–sweat and cologne and something indefinably human, something primal and raw.
"Alright," she said finally, her voice a little breathy as she dropped onto a stack of folded blankets piled in the corner, her legs giving out beneath her with exhaustion and something else, something that had nothing to do with physical tiredness and everything to do with the tension coiled tight in her body, the anticipation that had been building all afternoon. "That's enough for today."
He straightened, wiping a bead of sweat from his brow with the back of his hand, the movement drawing her eyes to the way his shirt clung to his chest, damp in places from exertion, accentuating the lean muscle beneath, the hard planes of his abdomen, the V of his hips disappearing into the waistband of his jeans. He looked at her, his gaze intense, unblinking, his eyes dark with something she couldn't quite name but that made her stomach clench with want.
"You're tired," he observed, his voice losing some of its playful edge, softening into something more tender, more genuine, and she felt something in her chest tighten at the concern in his tone. "You push yourself too hard."
"I'm fine," she insisted, but her shoulders slumped, betraying her, her body sagging with exhaustion she could no longer hide. "Just… a long day."
He walked over, not stopping until he stood directly in front of her, his legs bracketing hers, his body blocking out the fading light from the windows and casting her in shadow. He reached out, his fingers gently pushing a stray strand of hair from her face, tucking it behind her ear with a tenderness that made her breath catch, made her eyes sting with unexpected emotion. The touch was feather-light, yet it seared, burning through her defenses like they were made of paper.
"Let me guess," he murmured, his thumb brushing her cheekbone in a slow, hypnotic movement that made her eyes flutter closed, made her lean into his touch without thinking. "You've been doing this all week, haven't you? Trying to prove you don't need anybody."
Her eyes searched his when she opened them again, a silent admission in their depths, a vulnerability she hadn't meant to show but couldn't seem to hide. "Something like that," she whispered.
"It's okay to need a hand, Y/N." His voice was a low rumble, laced with genuine concern, with a warmth that made her chest ache. "Especially when that hand wants to help you."
He sat beside her on the blankets, close enough that she felt the warmth radiating from his body, close enough that their thighs pressed together, the contact sending sparks of electricity through her nervous system. The scent of him–coffee and sweat and something uniquely masculine, something that made her want to bury her face in his neck and breathe him in–filled her senses, overwhelming her, making it impossible to think clearly. She could feel the steady beat of his heart, a faint rhythm against her side, and she found herself matching her breathing to his, found herself relaxing into his presence despite every instinct that told her to be careful, to protect herself.
"You're really… something else," she confessed, a soft laugh escaping her, breathless and uncertain.
"Is that a good something or a bad something?" His eyes crinkled at the corners, his smile genuine and warm, and she felt something in her chest loosen, felt the walls she'd built around herself start to crumble.
"I haven't decided yet," she said, tilting her head back against the wall, eyes closed, letting herself just feel for a moment–the warmth of his body, the softness of the blankets beneath her, the fading light painting patterns on her eyelids. "I usually don't let people… this close."
"Good." He shifted, his hand finding hers, his fingers lacing with hers in a gesture that felt both intimate and possessive, his grip firm and reassuring. "Means I'm special."
She opened her eyes, meeting his, and the light had faded to a soft twilight, the apartment bathed in shades of blue and purple, but his gaze still held that golden-flecked intensity, still burned with a heat that made her stomach clench with want. "Maybe," she whispered, her voice barely audible, the word catching in her throat. The air thrummed with a new kind of tension, a quiet anticipation that made her skin prickle with awareness, made her body hum with need.
His thumb stroked the back of her hand, a slow, hypnotic movement that sent shivers up her arm, that made her breath come faster, shallower. "You're thinking too much," he murmured.
"I think a lot," she admitted, her voice trembling slightly. "It's how I survive."
"Survival's one thing," he said, his voice dropping to a near whisper, rough and intimate, his breath warm against her ear as he leaned in closer. "Living… that's another. And you, Y/N, you deserve to live a little."
His lips brushed her temple, a soft, exploratory touch that sent a jolt through her body, that made her gasp softly, her eyes fluttering closed. The kiss was gentle, almost reverent, and she felt something in her chest crack open, felt the last of her defenses crumble under the tenderness of it. She didn't pull away. Instead, she found herself leaning into him, drawn by an undeniable current, by a need she'd been denying for too long. His hand moved from hers, cupping her jaw with a gentleness that belied the strength in his fingers, his thumb tracing the line of her chin in a slow, deliberate caress. His eyes held hers, a silent question burning in their depths, and she found herself nodding, giving him permission without words.
"Yuji," she breathed, the sound a soft plea, a warning, a surrender all at once.
"Just Yuji," he confirmed, his voice rough with desire, thick with want, and then he closed the last inch between them, his lips meeting hers in a kiss that stole the breath from her lungs.
It was a slow, tender kiss at first, tasting of coffee and something wild, something untamed and dangerous. His mouth moved with practiced ease, gentle but insistent, coaxing a response from her that she gave willingly, eagerly. Her lips parted on a gasp, and his tongue met hers in a soft, electric dance that made her toes curl, made her fingers dig into his shoulders as she pulled him closer, needing more, needing everything. She felt herself melt, the careful walls she'd built crumbling under the weight of his touch, under the intoxicating rush of his presence, under the sheer overwhelming rightness of being in his arms.
His arm wrapped around her waist, pulling her closer until no space remained between them, until she was practically in his lap, her breasts pressed against his chest, her thighs straddling his, and she could feel the hard length of him pressing against her core through the layers of denim separating them. Her hands found his shoulders, clutching the fabric of his shirt as the world outside the apartment faded, leaving only the warmth of his skin, the intoxicating rhythm of their breaths, and the sweet, insistent pressure of his kiss.
The kiss deepened, shifting from tentative exploration to urgent necessity, from gentle to demanding, from sweet to filthy. Yuji's hand left her jaw, trailing down her neck with deliberate slowness, his fingers tracing the line of her throat, the hollow at the base of her neck, the ridge of her collarbone, sending a shiver of pure electricity across her skin that made her arch into his touch. A low, guttural hum escaped his throat as she responded, her fingers tangling in the soft hair at the nape of his neck, pulling him closer, demanding more, needing to feel every inch of him against her.
The world had narrowed to the space between them, a charged bubble of heat and breath and desperate need. She felt the steady, powerful thud of his heart against her ribs, a counterpoint to the sudden, frantic rhythm of her own, and the sound of their breathing filled the quiet apartment, ragged and uneven. The blankets beneath them offered a soft friction as he shifted, his weight pressing her gently back, guiding her down until she was lying beneath him, his body covering hers, solid and warm and impossibly right.
"You taste like everything I've been waiting for," he murmured against her mouth, the Southern drawl roughened with desire, thick with want, and she felt the words settle in her chest like a brand.
"Don't talk," she whispered, the words catching on a breathy moan as his lips left hers to trail down her jaw, to find the sensitive curve beneath her ear, to suck gently at the skin there in a way that made her hips buck involuntarily, made her thighs clench around his waist.
His hands were knowing, confident, tracing paths beneath the hem of her shirt with a deliberate slowness that made her want to scream, finding the soft skin of her stomach, the curve of her ribs, the underside of her breasts, eliciting a sharp intake of air from her that made him smile against her neck. The last vestiges of her hesitation dissolved into a sweet, heady surrender, into a need so overwhelming it felt like drowning, like falling, like flying. She arched into his touch, an instinctive movement driven by a hunger she hadn't realized she was starving for, by a desire that had been building since the moment he'd walked through her door.
With an economy of movement that spoke of experience, of confidence, he pulled back just enough to look into her eyes, his own dark and brilliant with a focused intensity that made her breath catch, that made her feel like she was the only thing in the world that mattered. There was no cockiness now, no teasing smirk, only profound desire and a question she answered with a desperate urgency, her hands pulling at his shirt, tugging it up and over his head to reveal the lean muscle beneath, the smooth expanse of his chest, the hard planes of his abdomen.
Fabric surrendered to necessity, to impatient hands and desperate need. Her shirt joined his on the floor, followed by her bra, and the cool air of the apartment met heated skin, a startling contrast that heightened the senses, that made her nipples tighten into hard peaks that ached for his touch. He buried his face against her neck, inhaling deeply, his breath hot against her skin, his hands mapping the curves and valleys of her body with reverence and hunger, with a thoroughness that made her feel worshipped and devoured all at once.
A soft, breathless gasp escaped Y/N as his lips found the sensitive spot beneath her collarbone, as his tongue traced the line of her sternum, as his teeth grazed the swell of her breast. The feeling was intoxicating–this complete, focused attention, the way his touch demanded her presence, her passion, the way he made her feel like she was the center of his universe. She felt the hard line of his muscle against her softness, the delicious friction of skin on skin, the heat of his body seeping into hers. Every nerve ending seemed alight, humming with anticipation, with a need so intense it bordered on pain.
"You are exquisite," he breathed, the words heavy and real, not a charming platitude but a statement of fact, and she felt tears prick at the corners of her eyes at the sincerity in his voice.
She reached for him, her hands exploring the contours of his back, the sheer strength coiled beneath the smooth skin, the way his muscles flexed and shifted under her touch. A fierce, possessive joy surged through her, a primal satisfaction that he was here, that he was real, that he wanted her with a consuming, beautiful intensity that matched her own.
The pace was slow, deliberate, each touch an exploration, each kiss a confirmation of something unspoken but understood. He moved with a confident patience that drove her wild, that made her want to beg, to plead, to demand more even as he gave her everything. His mouth traveled down her body, leaving a trail of fire in its wake, pausing to worship each breast, to suck her nipples into hard, aching points that made her cry out, to kiss the soft skin of her stomach, to trace the line of her hip bone with his tongue. He drew out the pleasure until the tension in her body coiled tighter and tighter, pulling her toward a fever pitch, toward a breaking point she both craved and feared. Her soft sighs turned into breathless little cries as he continued his masterful exploration, as his fingers found the button of her jeans and worked it open, as he slid the zipper down with agonizing slowness, eliciting an answering low, gravelly groan from him when he discovered she was already wet, already soaked through her panties with need.
The feeling was overwhelming, a tidal wave of sensation that swept away the boxes, the move, the past, leaving only the present–the scent of him, the heat of their bodies entwined, the glorious, shared anticipation of what was to come. Her jeans joined the pile of discarded clothing, followed by her panties, and then his jeans and boxers, until there was nothing between them but air and want and the electric charge of skin on skin.
He positioned himself above her, his eyes locked on hers, his weight braced on his forearms, his body a solid presence that made her feel safe and desired and utterly consumed. There was a final, silent moment of connection, a heartbeat where the world held its breath, and then he finally moved to join them, to slide into her with a slow, deliberate thrust that made her back arch off the blankets, made her mouth fall open on a silent scream.
A sudden, sharp "Ah!" escaped her lips, the sound quickly muffled by his kiss, a sound of pleasure and shock and overwhelming fullness as the world tilted and spun, as he filled her completely, stretched her in a way that bordered on too much but felt so impossibly right. The connection was deep, consuming, an undeniable answer to the loneliness she hadn't realized she carried, to the emptiness she'd been trying to fill with boxes and new apartments and fresh starts. The rhythm began, urgent and ancient, a dance as old as time, driving them both toward a shared summit, toward a peak they could only reach together.
The apartment was filled with the sound of their ragged breathing, with the soft, rhythmic slap of skin against skin, with the wet sounds of their bodies joining and parting and joining again. Her gasping moans mingled with his low, encouraging words, with the filthy things he whispered in her ear–how good she felt, how tight, how perfect, how he'd been thinking about this since the moment he saw her, how he was going to make her come so hard she forgot her own name. She felt herself clinging to the edge, the intensity building, building, coiling tighter in her core until she thought she might shatter from the pressure, from the overwhelming pleasure that threatened to consume her entirely.
A drawn-out, shuddering scream tore from her throat as the orgasm crashed over her, as her body convulsed around him, as pleasure so intense it bordered on pain ripped through her in waves that seemed to go on forever. It was quickly followed by Yuji's deep, explosive cry, by the feeling of him pulsing inside her, by the warmth of his release filling her as he collapsed against her, heavy and trembling, his body shaking with the force of his own climax. They lay tangled together, slick with sweat, their hearts hammering a frantic, shared beat against the quiet of the twilight room, their breathing slowly returning to normal as the aftershocks faded.
He shifted after a long moment, propping himself up on an elbow, looking down at her with a soft, possessive smile that made her chest ache with something she wasn't ready to name. He leaned down and pressed a gentle kiss to her forehead, tender and sweet, a stark contrast to the raw intensity of what they'd just shared.
"See?" he whispered, his voice still thick with spent passion, rough and satisfied. "I told you focus was overrated."
I wanna see more Hazbin x black reader fics!! I DO NOT CAREEEE how 'niche' you could say Hazbin is, I want to be a weird black girl who like freaky little animated chaacters and I want them to like me back and I want to be able to embrace my poc-ness in a fic !!!
I understand the 'black reader' concept is still fairly new but gah damn! Im tired of reading a hazbin fanfic and seeing 'Your hair, its striking blonde'— like JEEZ?! Yall seen the reporter lady in there with CLEAR Kinky/Curly hair why cant I be like her?
Thank you for coming to my ted talk
Yall been watchin the new season of Hazbin? The songs are way better than the snippets on tiktok made them seem
a phonecall from that handsome man and his daughter!
part two .ᐟ mini series
.ᐟ dad!nanami (+ little nobara) x mom!black!reader .ᐟ fluff
YOU STOOD BEHIND SKYLAR as she sat in front of her ipad at the kitchen table. she had barely been convinced to change out of her school uniform—the seven-year-old more eager to get the confirmation to video call her new friend and chat about whatever kids did.
it had only been a day, mind you.
there was a smile on your face as you watched her click on the contact and press the ‘facetime’ option. nanami had texted a few minutes earlier to confirm that nobara was free to chat.
the ipad rang as you both waited, looking so identical in the camera. sky’s micro locs were down over her shoulders while you had yours in a ponytail with a few falling in the front to frame your face.
nobara picked up after the third ring, seemingly at a table herself, as she beamed brightly into the camera. her father was sitting beside her with matching hazel eyes. “sky!”
“nobara!” your daughter was just as bright. they waved to each other with mirroring smiles.
“hi nobara.” you greeted sweetly. her eyes shifted to you and she waved again. “hi sky’s mommy!” she was in a baggy hoodie that made her hands look like paws as they moved, her hair up in a little ponytail and all her bangs down instead of slightly put away like they had been at the park.
sky still had the biggest grin on her face as she looked at her new friend, brown eyes gleaming in the light that shone over the kitchen table in your apartment. her long-sleeve shirt flowed, matching lounge pants on her frame.
before the two could get swept away in their conversation, nanami moved so he was more in the camera. half his face leaned down beside his daughters as he looked at you and sky and let out a polite greeting. “hi,”
you smiled along with your daughter. “hey, how are you?”
his lips pursed before he responded dryly, “happy to be assisting with this phone call, you?”
with a shrug and soft laugh, you gave your answer, “i’d say the same. not much has changed since yesterday.” he nodded in understanding as he looked at your face through the screen.
what a fine ass man, you thought to yourself.
“sky, your shirt is so pretty!” nobara commented, breaking both you and nanami’s gaze.
sky beamed as she spread her arms to show the shimmering shirt better, “thank you! my mommy got it for me.” she giggled when her hand accidentally bumped into you during her effort to pose for her new friend.
“sorry mommy.”
you giggled along with her and shook your head, “you’re good, pooks. let me get out your way.”
and with that, you waved goodbye to nobara and her father who were still both in the camera. “bye, guys.”
they both mimicked your actions, nobara way more enthusiastic in comparison to her father. “bye-bye, sky’s mommy. thank you for letting me talk to her!”
she was such a sweet girl. “oh course, honey.”
nanami got up from his seat beside his daughter with a soft grunt, “i should leave them to talk too.”
you were amused as you continued to stand beside your daughter, watching the man on the screen. “yeah, it’s girl time now.”
he chuckled as he responded to you. “she would’ve kicked me out the kitchen anyway.”
and with that, you had left the two girls to talk to one another. your plan was to start on dinner and do some work, maybe even tidy up a little bit. anything to keep you out the way of your daughter and her friend, but close enough to monitor as well.
you just couldn’t help it. you loved watching her go through girlhood.
some time later, as you prioritized on pan frying seasoned chicken thighs, you tuned back into the conversation the seven-year-olds were having with one another.
“i want a doggie, but my daddy says he doesn’t know. but, i think if i ask santa, he’ll get it for me this year. daddy will just have to understand.” nobara rationalized on the ipad.
sky nodded along in agreement. “yeah. he can’t go above what santa claus says. that’s like, against the rules or something!”
then she turned to you as if to confirm. “right mommy?”
you hummed as you thought about it, opening the oven to check on your garlic roasted green beans. “hm… santa claus would probably take an adult’s word before a child’s just to be safe. if your dad tells him he’s iffy about the dog, it might not come this year, honey.”
nobara pouted at that, eyeing you through the screen as you walked up behind sky sporting a sympathetic smile.
“ugh, that sucks,” she mumbled. you held back the amused snort that wanted to slip past your lips and instead walked back over to the stove.
the homemade mashed potatoes were practically done, just waiting for a little more cheese—because you two couldn’t help yourselves with your dairy consumption. the chicken thighs were cooking perfectly and the skin was getting crispy in the pan just the way you liked.
you nodded to yourself. another good dinner for the books.
the girls continued to have their conversation. up until you were finally plating dinner for you and sky.
nanami’s voice was heard from the device then, deep and gentle. “pizza?” he asked nobara, fixing her ponytail a bit as he waited for her answer.
she nodded enthusiastically at that, looking up at her father happily. “yes!” and she turned to sky who had scooted back from her ipad a bit to let you place her plate down in front of her.
“i have so much pizza left! my uncle got us, like, 10 boxes of it yesterday.” nobara informed sky, a greedy smile gracing her little face as she watched her father start heating some slices up for the both of them.
“10 boxes of pizza?! is your uncle rich?”
nobara nodded her head. “yes, uncle toru has a lot of money! daddy says it’s… uh… nepoism?”
“nepotism,” he gently corrected from behind the screen. you smiled at it as you placed your own plate on the table, right across from sky.
“what’s that?” sky asked curiously, thanking you as you filled her cup up with her favorite juice. she grabbed at one of her green beans on her plate and took a bite, chewing as she watched her new friend try to explain the definition of a word she barely knew herself, it seemed.
you grabbed your own drink as you listened in.
“uh… i think he, like, was born that way. like his mommy and daddy are rich so he’s rich too. right, daddy?” she asked the man.
nanami answered her right away. “that’s pretty much it, no-no. good job.”
she beamed at the praise, her teeth on display in the camera.
he continued on, shuffling being heard on the device. “nepotism for uncle toru is him having the ability to be a businessman like his dad, simply because that’s his dad and he has connections. like if you ran a unicorn-washing business and you let me be the financial officer.”
both girls giggled at that. a unicorn-washing business sounded so silly!
“wait… what’s a financial officer?” nobara asked, head tilting curiously.
“maybe like, a police officer that’s financial?” sky tried to answer, her own head in a curious tilt.
you laughed as you swallowed your bite of food, “they’re pretty much in charge of where the business money goes.”
both of their mouths opened in understanding, a chorus of ‘oh’s ringing in the air.
amusement was in your tone as you spoke again, “shout out to sky’s dad for teaching something new. ‘nepotism’ and ‘financial officer’.”
you heard his dry chuckle before he responded, “trying to broaden the vocabulary the best i can.”
“i’m gonna talk to mrs. nella about this tomorrow. she’s gonna love my new word!” sky nodded in satisfaction.
you smiled at her. “i’m sure she will, pooks.”
and as much as you loved the atmosphere, you also understood it was getting to be time to wrap it up. “how about we let them go and have their dinner? it’ll be time for you to start getting ready for bed after you finish up.”
sky frowned at your words and put her fork down, eyeing her friend on the screen. “already?”
you snorted. “you two have been on the phone for almost three hours. that’s pretty decent, my love.”
“but we’re having such a good time!” nobara pouted in reply and you couldn’t help how your smile got bigger.
oh these two were going to be a handful together, huh?
“and i completely understand. i swear i do! but it’s dinner time, and almost bed time. you two should eat and get ready and then we can call back to say ‘goodnight’. how does that sound?” you rationalized.
nanami chimed in, “i think that’s a good idea.”
you smiled, taking another bite of your food as you watched your seven-year-old pout. she sighed a bit as she looked at nobara. “okay nobara, i’ll call you before bed.”
nobara’s tone was just as pouty. “okay sky, bye-bye.”
“enjoy your pizza!” you called out. “we’ll talk to you later.”
“thank you, sky’s mommy. enjoy your dinner too!”
“goodbye,” nanami’s voice came in, sounding closer to the camera. their pizza was probably done being reheated. “i’ll make sure she calls you before bed.”
nobara chimed in immediately. “promise!”
sky nodded in return. “me too!”
and the girls said their goodbyes one more time just for good measure.
ugh they’re so cute i’m obsessed with them all. little nobara and dad!nanami just HITS. plus reader and sky are the ultimate mommy daughter duo. happy belated mother’s day to her <3