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[thewayitsmeanttobe]

My lil sister performing at lil Esplanade. Didn't know she's the chairman of her group SoundCard😮😀👏👏👏 Chekout their performance at @nypsoundcard in IG, twitter and youtube go go! #sisterlovee (at Esplanade Concourse)

[motsdeaj]

Communication 101

I think the most difficult part of being in my family is how much we rarely open up to each other about our personal lives.  Growing up, it was never a big deal, but now that I think about it.... I don't even know the story of how my parents got married and to this day, it still remains a huge mystery.  

I used to think it was because of the fact that my dad was a navy man and that was why he never opened up about any details of his past to me or my sister.  And as I grow older, I blame him for a lot of things when it comes to emotions and what not because it somewhat translates to the types of people my sister and I are: reserved at times and level-headed at most.  And even though my mom is the complete opposite, I feel that she's struggled to suppress who she really is over the years due to the fact that she's my dad's wife.  

But don't get me wrong! Being reserved at times and level-headed at most has made me into a pretty cool person, I think.  I just don't have that spontaneous free spirit quality some girls have all the time that some men find so attractive.  To be honest, it hasn't really affected me personally until now.  I have no idea why, but I have this fear that I'm too boring or too ordinary because I don't take any [dangerous] risks.  

ANYWAY. Before I get too off topic, this post is pretty much about the amount of emotion we Bernabe girls show, or the amount of times [if any] that we've tried opening up to each other.  

For the first time, I tried opening up to my sister about something going on right now.  I've been flirting with the idea of telling her because I rarely do tell her anything going on with my personal life... but I felt the need to because this thing going on is really new and exciting for me, but also very scary [in some way].  Nothing bad.. no drugs, alcohol, sex or whatever... it's just something very new to me.  Point is, i just felt like i needed to tell someone.  And although she is young, she's my sister.  I mean, isn't that what sisters are for? 

So i tried telling her, and when I attempted to, she completely wanted me to stop because she didn't want anything to do with it and she didn't want to know.  But i told her anyway.  I'm not sure how much she actually listened to, but I told her anyway at the end that I wanted to tell her because she was my sister and that if there was anything going on with her as well, I would want her to tell me.  

Perhaps it's the 6-year age gap between the both of us... I don't know.  I just wish the ability to communicate in my family was easy.  I mean, I could go on and on about more things, but I think communication is probably the worst thing I've noticed and have really been analyzing.  Yeah... I guess part of it too is because i'm a communication major, but I can't help it.  

Hopefully, as we all get older, we'll be able to grow and learn to open up to one another.  

Fingers Crossed. 

[calingoisland]

Panda shirt for da win(: @pream__ #panda #shirt #frommahlittle #sisterlovee #yee #paislypants #dontbejelly #jaykayy #nahbutreally #hahaa #whoreadstheseanywayzz (at SK's Castle)