#sjbnote

[missgirlinred]

A while ago, i’ve been thinking that im so incompetent. In everything. And its actually breaking me and leads me to be hopeless. Siguro dahil, sobra akong naiinsecure sa kanya. Kasi she got everything I dreamt of. She became the titleholder of my dreams.

But when i watched this video, I realized something. Na kaya siguro ako natatalo kasi may maganda siyang plano sakin. May mas magandang opportunity na dadating para sakin. That He breaks me in order for me to glow. Na balang araw its my turn to shine. To show everyone what I’ve got. But i must work hard for it.

I will! I am going to make it!

[missgirlinred]

Clara, hindi biro ang pagttrabaho nila mama para sayo. Napakaswerte mo kasi nakakapagaral ka and malapit ka na magshs. As much as possible galingan mo para makakuha ka ng scholarship. Ateneo dream school mo diba? Kung makapasa ka man don make sure na magkakaron ka ng scholarship don. Masyadong mahal kasi yon clara. At kung di talaga kaya, its either UST or DLSU. And syempre apply for scholarship pa din. Push mo yon and kung kaya mo, have a part time job atleast makakatulong yon para sa finances mo. Clara, we need to work this out. Para sa future! Future Accountant. Future CPA!

[missgirlinred]

Napaginipan ulit kita fab. Kaya ba kita napaginipan kasi 2 years na nangyari simula nung first kiss natin? O baka iniisip mo rin ako? Namimiss mo ko? Kasi ako namimiss pa rin kita.

Ok na ba talaga ako?

[missgirlinred]

I feel so demotivated.

[missgirlinred]

To Fab

First of all, congratulations! You’ve made it! Im so proud of u. Your hardwork finally paid off. Im so happy for u sa lahat ng na-achieve mo. Good luck sa highschool life. Siguro last na pagkikita na natin nung march 29. If you’re happy, im happy too. Sorry sa lahat. Last nato. You will never see me again nor hear something from me again. I will let u go. This is good bye.

[missgirlinred]

You’re still my 11:11 wish and my 3am thoughts and my everyday love.

[missgirlinred]

Eto nanaman ako. Nagdadrama na naman. At ikaw na naman ung dahilan. Fab, ikaw pa rin tbh. Nalulungkot ako na parang wala talaga tayong pinagdaanan na para bang di natin kilala ang isat isa. At sobrang sakit lang na magiisang taon na din pala lahat ng nangyari satin. Mahal pa rin kita kahit parang wala nalang ako sayo

[missgirlinred]

After 5 months nagkausap ulit tayo. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam, at the same time may something na di ko maexplain. Tbh namiss kita ng sobra. Di ko aakalain na magkakausap ulit tayo ngayon. I miss ur voice. Ur eyes that stares at me. Ur lips and all. Im so so sorry for everything. Sana magkaayos tayo at magkaroon ng magandang closure. After all this time, i still love you. Im clear with my feelings. Fab, i hope u got home safe. This was the first time na nagsabay tayong umuwi. Although bumaba ka sa may kanto. U r a gentleman. Mas lalo pa tuloy kitang nagustuhan dahil pinauna mo ko na makauwi. I love you and i miss you. Sana maging tayo ulit. Pangako gagawin ko na lahat para sayo. Ipaglalaban kita kung sakali man may hindi sumangayon.