Another one bites the dust...
To never be remembered until the next time you scroll on some app with distracting pictures and text.
The story of the almost ex. There lies secrets between new strangers who were once lovers locking eyes and seeking avoidance at the same time.
A cautionary tail told to every girlfriend in the group chat, starting with, "Biiiiiittttcccchhh guess who I saw the other day!"
A glance that lasted a few seconds but reminded you of a good summer and smoke sessions in empty parking lots.
We didn't intended to have these complex feelings. It was supposed to be just sex. Until we stopped having sex and fucked up and just chilled.
I can feel the first time you asked me to come over and watch something. A tag line for booty calls, but this night was different. You played our favorite anime I laid my head on your lap assuming my favorite position to get things started. For you to stroke my hair and actually watch the show.
Once finished you said you wanted to hold me. Of course I was disappointed, but how could I refute. It was the first time we locked eyes without lust. It was the most gentle you've ever been. I didn't need that. Not from you.
You knew I wanted to avoid intimacy. No kisses. No softness, just fucking. Cussing myself out for having those long conversations about my hopes and dreams I admit I fucked up. Became vulnerable with you fucked around and even felt safe with you.
Next morning after no sex you fuck around and give me a kiss on the forehead. Calling me beautiful. Felt my pussy and it was wet, but you wasn't new to this. Kissed me and told me we gotta do this differently. Less frequently if you decide to not give me your heart.
I was pissed did this ninja just extort love with threats of no dick. Unforgivable and shooketh at the same time. One mis step and found myself masturbating for weeks.
I would never admit that I was starting to grow feelings too. I just brushed it off as another one biting the dust.