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i kinda stopped asking for stuff for christmas at 18 bc it’s like …… i just want financial stability and a nice warm hug most of the time

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i never know what to do w my other hand

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hello lil fall leaves ˚✧₊⁎⁺˳✧༚

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10/29/2016

It has been 7 hours and I’m still in shock and genuinely happy. I met Calum and Ashton today, and I couldn’t be happier. Even though it was only for 5 minutes, since they were in a hurry to go somewhere, it still meant everything to me. I feel bad for holding them up but at the same time I truly truly appreciate them for hugging me and thanking me for wearing their merch and for supporting the band (I was wearing my 5sos tee). They asked if my friend and I wanted to take pictures but we didn’t wanna hold them up any longer. This sounds strange but I literally felt my heart drop to the bottom of my stomach when I saw Calum. I was so nervous and refused to walk near him but my friend wasn’t gonna let us miss this opportunity (thank you sam, I love you). After I was done hugging Calum, Ashton walked out of a store and I said “Hi, Ashton” and I was shOCKED when he turned around to say hi to me. He told me that he noticed me walking down the street which made me fucking happy and shocked. I was so starstruck and warmhearted when they were thanking me for wearing their merch so I just said, “of course and thank you for making great music” It may not seem like such a big deal to some, but meeting 2/4 of the people who, in a sense, saved you and brought light into the darkness of your life, really means so much to me. Just the fact that I got to quickly thank them for their music and hug them really made me happy and hopefully made them happy as well. To anyone who doubts that they’re ever gonna meet their faves, please don’t. It may seem like it never will, because I didn’t think I was gonna get to ever meet them, but it will, probably when you least expect it. Besides cashton, I met 3 of my favorite dancers this year which was such a great experience. Life is honestly so great and I don’t want anyone to ever think for a second that good things will never happen. Trust me, I know it’s hard sometimes to believe in that or to simply convince yourself that life is even the slightest bit of good, but hopefully my words will kind of change your perspective on things, if not I hope you find something that does. Despite the fact that life really does fucking suck sometimes, the universe will always find ways to make up for it.

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9/17/16 • the day I got my first tattoo. “outlast the ignorance” (outer space/carry by 5sos) this lyric means a lot to me, the song it comes from also means a whole lot to me. this song has really helped me through a tough time in my life and will continue to help me through the inevitable rocky roads in life. but the only thoughts surrounding my mind at the time were negative and dark ones. this lyric is a constant reminder to pull through the harsh things people might say or to fight against the constantly occurring negativity floating through my head. outlasting the ignorance, to me, is helping and allowing yourself to become a positive and optimistic person regardless of the situation you’re in. it’s a tough thing to do, it really is, but everyone needs something to constantly remind them that they’re stronger than they think they are….and this is mine. thank you @5sos for continuously shining a ray of light on my cloudy days

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slfl chula vista • 9/9/16 • the greatest night of my fucking life