#sleeping helps

[angelmush]

your post (july 9th) abt being happy and content with your life made me so fucking happy wow

oh that's incredibly sweet!! i meant every word, i'm in a very happy place in my life at the moment. i still get horribly anxious about things sometimes but my baseline is consistently in the range of neutral to good, which is a foreign but welcome feeling :))

[zodiac-mage]

I think... I think I need to be honest about some things. Get some things off my chest if you will. I’m sticking all under a cut so nobody has to read it.

I’m not doing great. I’m finally having some sort of emotional meltdown.

Back in about June my family found out that my Dad has Stage 4 cancer. I kind of mentioned this before on one of my other blogs but I never really said anything at the same time. The doctors figure he has anywhere for 5 to 15 years left. There’s pretty much nothing they can do for him.

And I’m off living on my own for the first time, going to college even though I don’t even know if this is what I want to do with my life. I don’t even know if I’ll pass any of my classes. Even though I’m trying my hardest. I just don’t want to let my  parents down anymore than I already have. They have enough to worry about. I don’t want them to think I’m any more of a failure.

I’m a wreck. My anxiety is totally out of control. I don’t know how to fix any of this. I never thought I’d ever make it this far in life... Now that I have, I have no idea what I’m supposed to do. I’m tired all the time. I feel like nothing I ever do is right. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.

I know I need help. I just... don’t know where to start.

[creatingnikki]

Sometimes I say things that make me come across as stupid, silly, dumb, ignorant, arrogant, weak. But I don't care. I'm not going to stop saying those things if I feel like saying them. And I'm not talking about things that offend or insult people. If I ever said those things, I would care. I would not want to say them. I am talking about when I spill my emotions, when I pour my heart out, my pain out. I don't want to ever tell myself, 'Never mind' or 'It doesn't matter'. I never want to bite my tongue. Because the day I start doing that, I'll be a step closer to going completely insane, probably even killing myself. And that's something I can't do to myself. I have already done so many other wrong things to me. So I am going to come across as someone silly, as someone who does not have any filters and I am going to embarrass myself a couple million times. And that's okay. I am going to say it. And I am going to say it out loud. I'd urge you to do the same. Keeping it all in doesn't help. It never does.

[o-vishtay]

🩶

[lucifurrsbadger]

I feeling a little better. Now I'm like 75% sure im real again. Not transcending this plane of reality.

[starcofanboytrash]

Sleepness

Omg everybody needs this before they go to sleep it helps so much!! For those of you with a low self-esteem like me this also helps while helping you sleep!! Please give it a chance sometime!!!! http://youtu.be/dP1KkpQg1Rk

[littlefixations]

I feel better now. Somewhat better. lalala