#slightly stoned

[p0em-4-andria]

A lil fuzzy but hello ! 🦊😊

[kataalena]

[thegreatmariahgatsby-blog]

Just got home.  I’m going to make some icons and write a couple replies.  Yo!

[f4llen-4ngel]

Utah bound

Sitting in the back seat of the car, Heading to Utah with my three best friends. How'd I get so lucky? Going to party and play in the snow for four days!!!

[ohmyarda]

Here’s a quick and messy sketch of Celebrimbor. Haven’t drawn him in awhile and I missed our little forger scamp.

[aboutraintoo]

Just an itty bitty rant/ vomit of my thoughts. Putting things into perspective helps. There is nothing wrong with being sad and hurt. There is something wrong with projecting bad thoughts on to other people. So I'm not doing that, I could never do that. People are entitled to feel however they want. As far as the circumstances go, I couldn't have asked for a better ending to my relationship. I was in love. I am in love. But the world holds millions of opportunities to experience that same feeling again. After some self reflection, maybe I just need to find what I'm passionate about, do that, and the rest will fall into place. I mean, that's what I was attracted to in the first place. He was passionate, and I think that is really what I lack. Well, lacked up until now. For the first time in my life I was sure of something. I was willing to commit and I was completely passionate about that relationship. And that is honestly the best feeling I've encountered thus far. Now I need to apply that thinking and love and passion to every single area of my life. I've been thinking. Sometimes I think I regret it all. To have that feeling, and to have it just shattered. But, mostly I don't regret any of it. Without it, I wouldn't know how to apply it to other areas in my life and what it actually feels like. Maybe I sound slightly hung up on my ex. I know a lot of people dismiss my feelings as not genuine, but I assure you they are. I've been in other relationships (I even lived with an ex for several years) and all I can say was nothing came close to what I felt with my most recent ex after even our first date. There are other fish in the sea, and maybe not. I'm not desperate. I'm not in denial. I just know that people grow and change and some feelings come and go and others last forever. And maybe, years down the road, after a little growing up from both of us, those feelings will still be there and we have realized any other feelings were temporary sparks. Or maybe I'll move halfway across the country and find something even better. It doesn't matter. I'm just trying to say growth is growth is growth and I can't hold on to one plan nor completely cross it off after feeling what I've felt. For now I just need to work and cook and read and do things that make me happy. If I want to be friends with him I will and if I don't I won't. I think I'm finally done crying. Wow. That was really long and just total word vomit. I wish I weren't on mobile otherwise I would have sectioned it off as a "read more".