Mar 3, 2014
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I shaved my legs tonight and they’re soooo smooth.
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Plus side
I shaved my legs tonight and they’re soooo smooth.
After binging like crazy my mind is always like "omg you failed. So keep eating junk." But today, I've eaten really well so far. It's so amazing to prove myself wrong. It's NOT super hard to get back on the right track.
Help!
My boyfriends 25th birthday is coming up (March 13th) and I want to do something special for him but I'm on a low budget. Ideas would be absolutely wonderful.
Confidence booster
Tonight I was at the bar with my boyfriend and a bunch of our friends. My boyf and I went to get more angry balls (fireball whiskey and Angry orchard cider) -- for those who don't know. & all of a sudden this guy comes up behind me and tries hitting on me. Like whaaaaat? Haha John (my boyfriend) was so mad but played it cool. So yeah. Even at around my heaviest weight, I get hit on at a bar.
Update
January started off okay. February wasn't the best. I wasn't as serious about my diet, about my workouts. March is a few moments away, and this time I'm going to try harder. Not get defeated as easily, and really start to learn self control!
Set Backs
Ate my feelings today. Still under how many calories I should eat in a day.. but oh my goodness. I forgot how food really can effect the way you feel. I only feel worse right now, where I'm sure if I had gone to the gym, choose different foods I could be shaking off this feeling. IDK.
I weighed myself at 362.2 lbs. I know why I’m so frustrated and blah, and basically feel like giving up.
I’m not doing anything. I haven’t been going to the gym. My eating has been ok at best. Yes the scale is still going down, but I guess I just really wanna see a 350 number on the scale.
My mom and step father are leaving for a week. Which means I’m on my own. I won’t have someone watching out for me. Except me. I actually have to be responsible. I actually have to be accountable.
I’m so scared. But I’m promising myself that when my mom is back next Saturday. Instead of being in the sixties I will be in the fifties.
Update
Today 2/17/14 was a pretty shitty day for me. Didn't wake up until 4pm. Didn't eat until 10. Was just down. Boyf and I have been having problems, I just feel blah. My friends are all 8 hours away. Around 4:30 though I weighed myself. Lost 2 more pounds making my total loss so far 15lbs. Which kinda made today a little better. Idk I'm munching on m&ms now and just watching Friday Night Lights. Hope tomorrow gets better.