Jan 11
(this is a piece about disability, and always being too tired or in pain to do anything, no matter how badly you want it. looking on at the people and things you love and just not being able to join in, a perpetual "maybe tomorrow". i will almost never be able to do anything beyond a certain threshold, and neither will so many others.)
#sltm.kra#wwe slept on our arm weird on friday aand we were in cconstant agony the entire day. mmissed most of a thing we signed up for.#ffollow that up with waking up yesterday to our friends mmeeting up and being too tired to try and sslip in.#nnot to mention our leg joints being terrible.#iit sucks! it sucks tto be tired and in pain all tthe time and i will likely only gget worse.#ii've made as much peace with it as i ccan right now. bbut sitting there unable to do aanything but cry for an hour and a hhalf of the even#and wwatching the time pass by knowing we llikely wouldn't get to do anything. was vvery sobering.#tthere is the life we've always wanted. mmaybe tomorrow we can catch another glimpse.#eenough rambling from me ahheh. ii'm sleepy.
