Jan 17
sometimes, it feels like this.
sometimes.. like this:
when will it be like this?
I was triggered today. I don't know how to work through the trauma, it's too deep, too consuming, too soul wide.
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sometimes, it feels like this.
sometimes.. like this:
when will it be like this?
I was triggered today. I don't know how to work through the trauma, it's too deep, too consuming, too soul wide.
I just realized; I've never sought salvation. The most I've done is wanted to make sure if there's eternal punishment, I'm right there next to my husband.
lyrics my own, music made with suno.
Two of the lyrical compositions I wrote. The music is made by the suno app. I'm not in that place yet where I can play an instrument as I don't own one so apologies for that.
Yesterday. I took the spirit box to the shower and i heard "i love you" for the first time from him. Several times. I was not expecting to hear it.
Someone in the town I left far behind me told the main perp i moved and approximately where i moved. I know this because the same broken record i was hearing in that town for almost 2 years infiltrated about 7 days ago here. That stalker shitter that i cut contact with 5 years ago who put himself before my wheelchair up to the last days before my move on purpose. That stalkerish, psychic astral rapist piece of shit. Cursed be that person who told that shitter where i am. Four months without his broken records playing and im fucking sick of his whole existence all over again.
30 Days Challenge
13. Your favorite book
Had a hard week. Favorite book, huh. I have not been able to focus in on reading for over 20 years really. One of my favorites was a magical fantasy series from my teenage years. Kinda like harry potter but better. I barely remember anything about the series but I remember I couldn't stop reading all night. That's a pretty good tell the book series was something that I really enjoyed. The main character was female.
30 Day Challenge
12. Favorite TV series
Huh... I don't watch TV. I've watched some series on netflix but that's basically almost a decade ago. Guess there isn't one then. I do like in general fantasy, science fiction series.
