#smyukwon

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

((Because I'm stupid okay? I'm sorry. I hurt the people I care about and I hate it. I told you why I did this, I don't have more reasons. That was just it. I'm stupid and an asshole and a bitch and anything else you want to call me, I'll take it. But you got mad at me for not knowing things I couldn't have known, you got mad at me for being shy and having zero confidence... You're like the girl that kicked me out for the same things when I visited her. I'm shy. I'm sorry, but can't change...))

(( No, you should have known that because it’s happened before. You’re not stupid. You just weren’t thinking.

I’m going to bed now. Please have a good night. If you feel like talking in the morning, cool, we’ll talk. Goodnight.

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

((I wasn't brave enough to tell you who I am because I didn't know if you even wanted to talk to me. So I thought that if I asked you to guess, you would start guessing people you like and people you wish you could talk to, and then if I was among those people, then it would mean you want to talk to me. I didn't know you would get this mad at me for that 'stupid game'. I just didn't want to risk that maybe you hate me and don't want to talk to me. Most people hate me...))

I wanted to talk to you and had missed you, as I had missed all my friends from Tumblr. I have been through a lot of really awful things in the past months that I really didn’t want to share on Tumblr so I acted like nothing was wrong when i came back, but basically i was conned out of about five hundred dollars and abandoned by that same person, who had promised to make my life all better; the same person introduced me to the guy who knocked me up. My life has basically been ruined and I came back to Tumblr hoping to reconnect with the people I missed so badly.

I couldn’t hardly remember anyone, okay? I knew the few people who had bothered to try to contact me while I was on hiatus. I literally forgot everyone else and everyone who did end up messaging me after I came back was like a blessing I didn’t think I deserved. I wasn’t expecting ANYONE to care that I came back, and the fact that a few people did was amazing to me.

So when you came up and were like ‘hey guess who I am’, I literally guessed the people who WERE ALREADY TALKING TO ME. Not even people I wished were talking to me, because I didn’t even consider the fact that there were others who hadn’t already noticed my return.

I’ve gotten mad at you for pulling this shit with me before, why wouldn’t I again? Why would that have changed? Why would I NOT still hate having my mind messed with and my feelings fucked with? Please don’t pull that pity bullshit with me, because you and I both know that this is just the repeat of a script we’ve played already a couple times before. Every time you’ve done this game I’ve been upset, except for the one time you were my nonnie and kept me from hurting myself… and that was because you approached the situation differently than this one, which has always succeeded in making me upset. Why did you think this time would be different?

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

((I'm sorry for making you confused and for 'making things more complicated than they need to be'. I hope you can calm down and please be happy soon. We're not friends so I won't bother you again. Please be healthy and take care of yourself.))

Oh

My God

So you are sonxxdongwoon. I didn’t know you’d deactivated. You and I have been down this road before. You’ve fucked with me and refused to tell me who you are, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. You’ve saved my life before but you’ve pulled shit like this too, and I just don’t understand why. You claim to want to be friends with me, I love talking to you when you don’t pull shit like this, and you KNOW that. Yet you insist on acting like a child and refusing to tell me what’s really going on, and then things escalate to this level!

Why would you do this? Why would you jeopardize our friendship for the sake of playing a stupid guessing game??

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

((There must really be a lot of people who fall in love with you if that didn't make it obvious. I really never wanted to hurt you, or be a bully, or a 'whiny bitch'. I apologized, and I'm doing it again. I'm sorry. You're a wonderful person and I was simply really happy when Tumblr put your blog on my dash, advising me to follow you. Because I always really liked you. I'm sorry for this all. I wish I never messages you, I didn't want to make you upset and make you hate me. I'm sorry.))

What

I

Okay now I’m just confused

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

((I didn't mean to upset you. And no, you didn't date this asshole that I am. I won't tell you the other accounts I have, but don't worry, we don't talk on any of them. And you already guessed who I was, I just think it doesn't matter anymore. You just said we're not friends, so I will wait for one more reply, if you even wish to respond, then delete this whole account so you won't have to deal with me anymore. I'm sorry for hurting you, I didn't mean to. Please forgive me if possible...))

Okay, so I went through my blog and searched your name. We have had ONE interaction on this blog, and that was when you were smleejoon’s pet, which I’m not even sure is still a thing. I know they have been out of commission for a while, so shrug. I think you also interacted with smtora for a bit, I don’t know if you still do that either, but either way you aren’t going to delete your fucking account because of me, because it’s not like I’m the only person you’ve interacted with.

Of course we don’t talk on any other accounts. LET ME REITERATE: I have not been on this account in MONTHS because I was going through some religious bullshit, which I did post about, and I did go on hiatus for. So don’t give me that ‘we don’t talk’ line, I hadn’t spoken to ANYONE in months. It’s not just you, you’re not special in that regard.

Once again you’re trying to guilt me into feeling like shit and I’m not going to fall for it. We’re not friends because I don’t consider people who pull this bullshit with me ‘friends’. People who do this to me are bullies, and I don’t make friends with bullies. I don’t put up with the bullshit of people whose only aim is to make me feel bad about myself or my actions.

If you want to delete your blog, fine, I don’t care because it doesn’t affect me. But don’t you dare put the blame on me. You’re being a whiny bitch and I literally do not understand why, because I DON’T KNOW YOU and therefore have no reason to care. If you just did the courtesy of telling me who the fuck you are, maybe I could figure out why I should care, but because you won’t do that, I can’t find any shits to give.

[lordofdarknessyami-blog]

((How was I even fucking supposed to know all that? That you're pregnant and stuff, especiallysinceIalwaysconsideredyouamale. It doesn't matter. Blame me if you wish, that's fine too. Just forget it all, I'm nothing. Just wanted to tell you that I'll never annoy you with my stupid feelings for you again because I'm trying to get over them and I have a truly wonderful girlfriend now. I wish you all the best. Don't stress about it. Calm down, forget this ever happened, and be happy. <3))

Oh my god, what.

I’m publishing this so that it can’t be used against me later for any reason, because this is a serious load of shit and I’m already sick of smelling it.

Did you literally start this for the sole purpose of upsetting me? Because that is seriously what it’s starting to look like.

No, you started messaging, what, ten minutes ago, excited to see me because you wanted to talk to me, maybe you missed me, I am really not sure because I’m not you, but it certainly wasn’t to ‘tell me you’ll never annoy me again’ or whatever bullshit. You are literally doing this right now in an effort to hurt me, so whoever you are you aren’t a friend. My friends know that if I say ‘hey, sorry, my memory’s fucking up, what’s going on’, they don’t bully me and intentionally make me feel like a complete and utter waste of space and also REFUSE to keep me informed in the situation, just to try to make me worse.

I tried to talk things out rationally with you and instead you continue to try to upset me, even after I specifically asked who you were, since you seemed so upset about the fact that I didn’t know. I put forth the effort to try to make amends and instead you are becoming more and more dramatic, culminating with this message. I’m not going to enable you any further.

Why should I care that you have a girlfriend? If I don’t know who you are, since you are refusing to tell me, I don’t know why I should care about that, not even a little. Congratulations, I guess? Were we romantically involved? I wasn’t aware that I still made habit of dating assholes who try to make me cry upon seeing me for the first time in months.

Get out of my inbox unless you plan on apologizing or revealing your ‘secret identity’ so I can block you on this blog and any other you might have.

THIS BLOG IS A DRAMA FREE ZONE NOW, GET THE FUCK OUT.

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sm-yukwonがあなたの投稿に返信しました:I have a lot of Oreos and coffee. Time to finally...

-sneaks in and steals your Oreos, leaving the coffee because it is too bitter and bleeh-

[Shock hits him first. He's speechless.

And then Tomoya frowns, standing and toddling along after Yukwon.]

Heeeeeeey, you!

[pijwook]

-waves shyly and hands you his notepad, hoping that you can read his messy handwriting- |Hello. Thank you for following back. I wanted to talk to you, but I'm unable to right now, I hope you don't mind this way of communication. I'm Yukwon.| -once sure you've read it, he bows respectfully-

/he tilts his head as he read the words on the notepad, a smile spreading across his lips/ This is fine. You can write and I can speak.