after all that bitching about the cost of snail living, i'm so glad i bought the water test kit, it's relieved so much anxiety i have about finding shiva dead. i also got a smaller siphon so that i don't feel like small water changes are so difficult. her parameters seem good, she seems okay, AND the water stopped being so cloudy, on its own. i'm still worried about how high the filter should be turned up, and i'm worried about some kind of nitrogen spike that i don't understand enough to prepare for, and i'm considering putting some java moss in there but i'm worried about that harming her in some way or ruining the tank vibes and also i'm worried about killing the java moss. i'm also worried about what if the calcium i put in her tank is secretly poison, and i'm also worried about if she's having enough fun. and i'm worried about what if the thermometer is lying. and i'm worried about her dying in a fire. i'm worried about various injuries she could incur while playing. i'm worried in the past i handled her too hard and she will experience deferred mantle collapse in the future. i'm also worried that the tank is just not big enough to be survivable for a long time. mostly i'm worried she's lonely