#snorting opiates

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Girl dinner~

About a dozen lines of 0xy mixed with tramad0l (roughly about 80/20) since I have a pretty high tolerance now... lol

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You a face or mouth chic?

I'm a fuckin' junkie! Lmaoo, what do you think, sir..!? I'm def a nose chick frfr, I need me some dope directly into my nose !! Idc if you put dem lines onto some hot girl's ass or boobs, or even on some hot guy's abs, v-line or dick, I will snort the hell out of those lines and lick every crumb of residue off afterwards; because we do not waste a single molecule of drugs in this household !! 🤪

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It's only 7:50 AM and I already feel so anxious that I need to fucking crush up some codeine pills and snort em to calm down... I realised I had a problem, but reality is only really hitting just now... addiction really is not something to ever take lightly or some "fun" and "quirky" activity people actively choose to participate in because they are happy about it, like some people tend to think... I know we got a choice, but it really feels like you have no other choice but to get high. It just sort of sneaks up on you, until it's too late and you're an addict.. Dope isn't called liquid handcuffs for nothing. I really wish I could either be high all of the time or just be dead because being sober is fucking unbearable. The anxiety is too much and it just keeps bugging me until I give in and get high

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I managed to score some dope so the wd is over again. Also idk I'll try to k-hole for the first time ever lol, I used k once with my ex and I was so out of it that I couldn't feel my legs (or my body, I felt out of my body) so I couldn't walk and he had to carry me to bed... is that considered being k-holed? Idk if it's even that amazing compared to being doped up and nodding hard but k is also pretty nice if you don't have dope on hand. Too bad k entirely fucks up your bladder, so I try to not do it too often...

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I put together & ordered a cute little kit for my dr00gz and my b00ze, so I have everything I need neatly packed away to take with me on the go so I never need go go without anything I need...

I'm totally not addicted btw...lol ^^"

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I know it's a bit late (but that's because I went a bit crazy with dope & alcohol so I literally passed out at like 1 january 3AM and woke up at like 1 jan 5PM 🤣): Happy New Years my fellow "just girls", landmine girls, enbies, bisexuals, gays, mentally ill, physically & chronically ill, neurodivergent peeps and/or addicts. Just all of the above and everyone else who has a hard time functioning. Just know that you are seen and I love every one of you!! I know I'm not that active at the moment, but if you ever need to vent and/or chat, I will try my best to answer and be there for you! Again a very happy and healthy belated New Year's to all of my lovely followers and mutuals!! I love y'all sm! Like I said; I went pretty hard, lol..! (I smoked a few pure blunts ((only full of weed, no tobacco)), drunk a few glasses of champagne, took a xan bar and ofc snorted my usual doses of h & tramadol mix with a few crumbs of fent) on New Year's in celebratory fashion, loool 😅🎉🎆🚌🍫🌬🍁🍃🍾🥂💊Ⓜ️🐲🤎🍯

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Tfw you're dopesick all day but you manage to score some more 🤪📶 also took 2 benzos 💊with this so I hope I can finally fucking sleep for once!

I'm not proud of this life, but this is how I'm coping and surviving rn.. addiction is a severe disease and I'm still in denial about it tbh to myself and to my therapist.. in my eyes it's only a problem if you shoot up,

But when I blow my nose, it bleeds from all the snorting. I hide it from everyone and I'm literally physically dependent now, get violently ill if I skip a dose or two. I really need to get help, but I'm not ready yet to let this security blanket go, it sounds pathetic but it's literally all I have to make it through atm..

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How long have you been on opiates? Ever plan ob stopping?

Tysm for the interesting question! ❤️ I had to quickly count back and calculate for a bit lol, but I think I started experimenting with opioid painkillers like tramadol at first as soon as I could get my hands on them and had proper contacts, around like the autumn of 2022 (I was 21 at the time.) And then it started quickly escalating towards stronger pills like Oxycodone & then to H and also Fent, in the timeframe of like a few months.. But I was abusing other things way before that: At around 16 I started abusing my sleeping meds: Zolpidem aka Ambien (not exactly a benzo, but a hypnotic) by snorting them to get high off them. I really don't know if I'm gonna be able to stop anytime soon... I honesty don't feel ready for that since drugs keep me from seriously hurting or even killing myself at the moment...