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You know what...
I'm perfectly content being single on Valentine's Day. It means that I don't have to put up with childish bullshit. Seriously. You are 27. Or near that age. Don't tell my father I am the problem. You look ridiculous.
Ex rant. Sorry. But seriously. All of my followers can be my valentines this year. If you want a legit valentine from me, let me know. <3 <3 <3 <3
Lord, give me strength
My hardcore procrastination doesn't come from thin air. In my current frustration, I can see clearly that I procrastinate and distract myself from productivity because the task I need to do overwhelms and intimidates me. This is the only class I push off doing the work for because the teacher scares the crap out of me. Class discussion always makes me uncomfortable because she expects us all to be experts (or so it seems) when answering her questions and talking, NO MATTER how much she says we can say, "i don't know". Usually, I can bear this kind of atmosphere at AU, where you just have to be uber smart and know everything, but for some reason I can't get over myself in this class. Especially in the online discussion posts and this paper, I just get all chocked up when trying to say anything because I'm in constant fear of being wrong. If academia is trying to promote learning, why do I feel like I have to know everything already BEFORE I enter the classroom?
There is obviously something very wrong when I have to ask myself why I'm not smart enough. I know that's not how I should be thinking, so is this merely my own pride issues at fault? A fear of failure?
