#so fucking empty

[xix-alaska]

[psychoticmoth]

Nothing excites me, anymore.

[drjacobnash]

I was prepared for a statement from the official 1D account. Like emotionally I knew it would come eventually.

But I was not prepared for

"We love you Liam.

Louis, Zayn, Niall and Harry"

or "I want you to know that if Bear ever needs me I will be the Uncle he needs in his life"

or "Liam, I have found myself talking out loud to you, hoping you can hear me"

or "Liam lived wide open, with his heart on his sleeve"

I'm so emotionally fucked right now.

I don't even know what to do with all this sadness, despair, disappointment, anger.

I thought I'd moved on from One Direction but I didn't realise how much they were in my life. Like once upon a time this blog was nonstop 1D. They're every where in my life and I'm so used to it.

Now there's entire playlists I can't even look at, pressing skip cuz every other song is 1D. Random shit I think to myself. Recently, after everything that's come up, I was not a fan of Liam, but here I am devastated. Mourning a man I never really knew, who was a huge part of my life. He was so fucking young, and he needed so much help. I wish he'd gotten it. Holy fuck

[abuzd]

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[nevada1949]

i feel like absolute fucking shit