#so i stayed

[muffyblogs]

was staring at the wall contemplating the potential abolition of standard time. something in the past I've felt strongly about. but the only reaction I could provoke out of myself way "life sucks. in the future, life will suck in the dark"

[taexual]

wait i’m so interested about this ask!

since u chose another major even if everyone else thought you would pick languages, do you think it helped you keep the love for writing? bc i personally witnessed my friends lose love for a hobby or something in general bc they chose it as a major.. but what do you think lovelyyy? how was it for you?

oh, this is a great question, my love!!

i’ve seen that happen with my own friends as well! when a hobby becomes work, it sometimes ceases to be fun

i yapped so much, i’m putting the rest under a cut lol

honestly, i feel like it depends on the person? i might’ve also ended up turning away from writing if i’d studied languages, yeah. i generally have had beef with literature classes, like just hearing about them gives me a weird feeling. i feel like i’ve learnt a lot about writing intuitively, so hearing, ‘you must do this in writing’, if i haven’t already internalised it, feels off-putting to me. i like to do things my way or i’m not getting them done at all. and that’s kind of the whole point of writing for me, you have to enjoy it. and the only way i can enjoy it, is if no one’s telling me, ‘yo, so you’re gonna have to drop the semicolons and the em-dashes, and put a fucking period somewhere, because that sentence has run away from you’ lol. i like my long sentences, i like expressing a thought that has five sub-thoughts attached to it lol. and i genuinely like to read that in other people’s writing, too

((i’ve always told everyone that i enjoy it immensely when you’re reading, and you can tell from an unusual sentence structure or some funky word choice, that the author’s first language isn’t english. i ADORE reading the way a thought is expressed, after it’s been translated inside the writer’s head. i think i’m missing out on that a lot already, even without having studied languages, because english isn’t my first language either, but i’ve been writing in english for most of my life. so my thoughts and my ways of expression are already influenced by english grammar rules))

but there is also a downside to not studying languages when you’re interested in writing, and that’s mostly lack of time and inspiration, i think? among other things, of course. personally, i write about 90% of my free time probably. it doesn’t even have to be creative, it can literally just be making lists. but if i’ve got 5 different deadlines, and none of them have anything to do with creativity, i’m going to be suffering. like the creative energy is not going know where to go. one of the worst periods of my life was when i worked as the profession i’ve studied to become, so heavily criminology-related. i did not write shit the entire time i worked there. it sucked my entire soul out, i genuinely needed months to recover even after i quit. like i had no energy, no inspiration, no motivation. it’s honestly part of the reason why i had so much beef with criminology once i started to study it; it was so fucking uninspiring and boring. i only domesticated it in grad school, when i found my niche and was, actually, able to use some of my creative writing skills for literal science lol ((my thesis advisor’s biggest headache with me was that all my fucking thesis drafts exceeded the word count at least two times lmao. a girl likes to write, what can i say))

so yeah, i’ve yapped so much lmao

but in retrospect, i think i would’ve still liked to switch to languages. i’ve always loved learning new languages, and it would be interesting to write essays that are, at least, literature-related

(i do have to say, i am also influenced by the fact that my experience in uni has given me literal ptsd, so my head might just associate any major that’s not criminology with safety lol)

[stoppedatwilloughby]

I really don't mind my current job and it's a fine place, but holy FUCK i just had a meeting that was scheduled for an hour right before lunch that ended up running just shy of two hours. What the fuck. Why the hell is that considered ok here.

[softjeon]

I just was at a TXT fanmeeting lmao.

[jakeoettinger]

yo waddup i was only gone for like 3 days but i felt like i was gone for ever.. like what city STILL doesn’t have like solid cell service, and what airbnb doesn’t have wifi?? sorry i thought we were in 2018. i wasn’t able to watch the preds or kings this weekend and honestly?? i was like?? ok i get how spoiled and ridiculous i’m being but!! honestly.. just let me watch the hockey during playoffs man. 

[moonbyuls-gay-hand]

exactly

[she-lived-where-dreams-were-born]

the worst part is that i dont think she ever really wanted to hurt me or end with me becoming that codependent. but being long distance and barely having any time for anything else besides her and my studies really wore away at my identity didn't it

[the-gayest-show]

Where did your name, The Gayest Show, come from? Did you watch a show with a lot of gay rep, said "This is the Gayest Show!", then BOOM, that’s your Tumblr name? 😂🙏

LMFAO thats shockingly accurate lollll

I initially wanted to name myself after a specific show I was fixated on at the time, and then realized if my fixation changed (which it did, many times) i need a name to reflect that.

I tend to watch shows with gay rep or hc like half the cast as such, so i think thats where The Gayest Show was born and it stuck!