@solarfreckled {x}
A silent rideshare and copious amounts of black tea recentered his thoughts. A few long stretches eased most of the soreness in his calves. By the time Gaara clocked in for his night shift he had chalked up the entire strange encounter to a temporary lapse in judgment, the need for comfort and company sabotaging his efforts towards something resembling independence, and put it out of his mind for good.
Until he couldn't.
Until in the middle of restocking shelf A-19 he glimpsed a flash of gold-auburn hair and blinked twice before recognizing the pile of doormats for what it was.
Until, on his walk home, whiff of cologne shook him with the reminder of soft sheets and softer skin against his.
Gaara was not stupid. He knew he merely yearned for that which he had lost, scrabbling for purchase on any pale imitation offered to him; in this way he felt like a drowning man surrounded by faulty life rafts. For when he woke gasping in the dead of night, sweaty, exhausted, sickly-sweet cramps coiling the pit of his stomach like hot irons, it was not Lux's name on his lips. He had admonished himself with each keystroke he thumbed into his phone, and did not expect a reply.
Fate had other ideas in store.
Gaara recognized, staring at his notifications, that alcohol impaired the senses, reduced a sane man into toddlerhood or worse. On a more instinctual level, he knew these texts coming from the same mopey, conflicted drunk who had stumbled into him three nights before required a level of social subterfuge that left him whiplashed in the dust.
And like the lonely, husklike gremlin he was, he crawled back for more, the way he knew he always would.
[to: Lux] I got home safely
[to: Lux] I didn't realize it was your birthday. I didn't mean to ruin your plans with your family










