This STUNNING piece of work comes from the amazing @thepoisonofgod and I am SHOOKETH at the details of him!! What a scoundrel! He is totally up to no good!! That devilish smirk! That FUCKING HAND!! And is that his target tattoo I spy?? I can't even with those textures, from the leather on his hat and jacket to his shiny pants lol, and even my husband had to comment on how cute his eye crinkles are (which I wholeheartedly agree!!) Fuck I'm lost in the sauce on him just fuckin LOOK!
Like his face is the prettiest thing I've literally ever seen but omg these little details!! That necklace! That jacket (I want to both be inside that jacket and to be wearing it I am so envious) but holy shit that compass??? Are you kidding me?!
In conclusion, I have been murdered to death and it's all Poisons fault. If you're interested in what this devious devil is up to, check out the fic he's based out of, Solisequious
I commissioned the lovely @miranhas-art to draw cyborg!Ezra from my Treasure Planet/Prospect crossover: Solisequious and oh my fucking stars LOOK AT THIS SMUG MOTHERFUCKER!! He's clearly up to no good but he looks so good doing it, can you blame him? I'm obsessed with all the little details in his outfit UGH I looooooove him THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
His eyes were glassy but full of undeserved pride, a weak smile tugging on the corners of his mouth. “If anyone can find her, it’s you, because that’s what the Hawkins family does.” His eyes flutter and shut, a small sigh -his last breath- leaves his lips.
“We… find… treasure.”
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Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4.9k
Summary: Delinquency seems to run in the Hawkins family, but so does a nose for treasure. When long lost family returns bearing ill-tidings and ill-begotten artifacts, will you follow in the footsteps of your grandfather's noble legacy, or will a charming cyborg lead you down a more unsavory path?
Content warnings: Death mention and death of a parent, sibling arguments, brief descriptions of wounds, liberal oc creation, morally ambiguous characters. Angsty start to a slow burn.
A/N: This is my first Ezra and my first crossover fic, so this has been very interesting to write! This series will have smut in it eventually, but this first chapter is just backstory, character introduction, and world building. Hope you're ready for an adventure, because we're headed for the stars!
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
Breathe in.
You held the gritty, sand-encrusted air in your lungs as the breeze that birthed it rushed up from the wide open canyon below, making your clothes billow and flap; an unneeded reminder of wings you did not possess. Unlike Icarus, who flew too close to Apollo’s heels, taunting the sun god with wings of wax and tallow, you were not here to challenge the radiant star burning brightly ever through the smog-choked air. No, you were here to romance it with your single blade of solar sailcloth, a family heirloom no less, the heat of noonday pulsating along the embedded wires in time with the racing of your heart.
Standing on the precipice of the vast quarry, the rough-hewn stone dropping far below you to where broken machinery and enormous, immovable boulders had met the fate you were hoping to avoid, you clutched your grandfather’s solar-board tightly, hoping it wouldn’t be for the last time. The wind whipped around you, seemingly strengthened by your final exhale, and with its passing,
You jumped.
Grit and gravel tore at your face and clothes as you fell, trying to rip your eyes from your skull and your skin from your bones. Hugged to your chest, the board’s sail snapped angrily with the rush, fire sparking to life along its hexagonal pathways as if the sun-god’s very fingerprints were burning themselves into the bright crimson fabric. Through your tightly squinted eyes you watched the ground eagerly fly up to meet you, its smile hungry, wide, and jagged. Closer, closer it came, until the sailcloth lit up like a comet, fully charged, rumbling with agitated anticipation for your command.
The cliff face sped beside you, the light from the Montressan afternoon dimming, dimming, becoming darker as the wall of granite swallowed the sky, the only witness to your doom as you would surely be dashed to bits on the rocks below.
But you, you knew better than that.
With a stab of your heel you kicked the aft-mounted propulsion engine to life, funneling all the fury of the stars into a jet of blinding fire, rocketing you away from the quarry walls at the last possible second. In your hands the sail’s boom bucked angrily, swelling with the power of the wind and sun, almost as if it were alive and hellbent on escape. You dug your heels into the fiberglass board, tilting the prow up and over the arm of a crane that had risen from the ground as if to swat you from the sky like you were nothing more than an insect; only to eat your flaming wake instead.
Mining onworld had long since been deemed a task far below the stature of any sentient race, the arduous labour now belonging solely to the machines and leaving you as the only flesh-and-blood being to be found for miles. Flesh and blood, bone and sinew; soft, malleable things that would be splattered gloriously across the iron booms and steel shovels that you tore your path across, challenging the metal monstrosities to a game you were too cocksure to lose. You banked through the machinery, spiralled through a cloud of lung-clogging smoke, and boldy -no, arrogantly- scraped the keel of your board along an iron girder, the roar of your engine prideful and fierce over the whine of steel. Unstoppable, you crouched low on the board as if you were trying to become the wind itself, but you were not truly a creature of the air.
You were a creature of fire.
A one winged comet, you soared towards your ultimate goal: the enormous, slowly-turning gears of the Graveller, a monumental excavator, obliviously carving away at the quarry walls without a care in the world. House-sized buckets clawed their way into the stone, sending boulders spiraling down to the terraced ground below, but you weren’t watching the shovels, instead you focused on the turning of the gears. Between the supporting radial spokes flashed the openings of your salvation, or your destruction, seconds-long spaces that would casually crush your bones to powder with inanimate indifference if you missed your timing by even a hair.
You flew, a phoenix rising, towards the death-defying challenge, counting the blink of the passages in time with your breath, speeding faster and faster as you approached.
Open.
Closed.
Open.
Closed.
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
Breathe in
You snapped the solar sail closed, and with it yourself, becoming nearly flush with the board, spiralling like a bullet fired from a rifle between the unforgiving tunnel of steel; and from the grave, Icarus screamed and averted his ghostly eyes. The phoenix becomes the peregrine, exploding out the opposite side right as the bone-crushing gears bit down on your flaming tail, the mechanical beast starved for flesh this night.
Breathe out.
“Hell fucking yes!!” Whoops and hollers echo over the sound of cacophonous prospecting as you cheer yourself on, your fists and your sail raised in a prominent display of victory. Heart pounding, lungs burning with soot and adrenaline, you wiped the grit and grime from your eyes with the back of one wind-whipped hand, but once your vision cleared the whooping of a siren replaced your hard-earned cheers.
Busted.
“For fucks sake!” You shouted with callous disregard for the law enforcement droids approaching you, their stupid constable hats flashing red on their approach. “Did you at least see me beat the Graveller? Been trying to-”
“Miss-Hawkins,” one of the robots grated, it’s mechanical voice somehow dripping with pre-programmed annoyance. “You-are-being-detained-for-trespassing, -again.”
Lively music swelled up to the wooden rafters of the Benbow Inn over the sound of joyus chatter and delightful company. The Inn had long since been a favoured landmark on Montressor after it had been rebuilt, the original destroyed by a freak accident; though back in the day it was more suspected to have been arson. Regardless, the building was beloved by locals and travelers alike for three generations now, the pride and joy of the Hawkins family.
On the wall opposite the grand fireplace was a collection of picture frames, the clean glass reflecting with the faces of patrons, giving the photos of the deceased the illusion of being alive and ever-watching. The largest and most prominent was of a handsome man with dark brown hair and vivid green eyes, his white coat adorned in a swath of medals and awards for his years of service with the Royal Navy. Below the gilded frame a delicate plaque is inscribed with the name:
Jim Hawkins.
Over the crowd of customers the house matron made eye contact briefly with the image of her grandfather as she scuttled across the tavern, an armload of strange delicacies in each hand. “Here you are, Mrs. Fergle, a bowl of the house special: bonzabeast stew!” She beamed, placing the steaming bowl in front of the betentacled lady. “And an apalonian chowder, for the birthday boy!”
The squidling gurgled in delight before digging into the meal, making his cyclopian mother smile. “Thank you, Sarah, you know it’s his favorite!”
The woman with a name inherited from her great-grandmother smiled proudly before politely taking her leave back towards the kitchen. She got a fair distance from the more crowded side of the inn before she sighed and wiped the sweat off her forehead with the back of her hand. Looking back disdainfully towards the rear of the kitchen where the aprons are hung, she groaned audibly at the name of her little sister embroidered on the front of one still hanging. This was supposed to be Sarah’s night off, but, yet again, her coverage has fucked off for the night without so much as a note. “Where is that little brat?”
She wasn’t expecting an answer, but one unfortunately came in the form of the front door nearly being broken off its hinges by the insensitive arm of one cop-bot. Between it and a second droid was you, looking like something a cat would have dragged to the doorstep, hair a mess and clothes as rumpled as the sailcloth tucked under your arm. Were you any less used to this scenario you would have paled at the steely stare coming from your older sister’s eyes, but instead you did your best to flash your most innocent shit-eating grin. “Hey...”
“You!!” Your sister seethed, her anger made more palpable by the sudden hush that fell over the crowded inn. She forced herself to choke down the rage boiling in her throat before re-addressing you, her bottom lip pulled tightly into a frown. “You… are supposed to be working! You told me you would cover my shift tonight! What the hell have you gotten yourself into this time?”
“Miss-Hawkins-was-caught-trespassing-at-the-old-quarry-and-flying-in-a-no-fly-zone.” The bot with its claws dug into your arm began, not giving you a chance to explain yourself. “Again.”
“Pfft, ‘miss’ Hawkins.” you bemused, rolling your eyes to distract from the sharp metal in your bicep. “You know my name, tin can, you could at least call me that instead of treating me like a kid.”
The bot’s red, triangular eyes swiveled down towards you. “We-might-stop-treating-you-like-a-kid-when-you-stop-acting-like-one.” On instinct you stuck your tongue out at the droid, and for a split second you felt as though, if it had a tongue of its own, it would be sticking it out at you as well. “Do-not-let-us-catch-you-there-a-third-time.”
You were rudely shoved forward into your home and place of work, stumbling but finding your footing quickly to try and remain cool in front of your audience. “Yeah yeah, don’t worry your circuits over it, you won’t… catch me there again.” You winked slyly, but the robots did not return the gesture since they didn’t have eyelids.
“Madame-Hawkins.” The second droid turned and addressed your fuming, cross-armed sister, using a more respectful title for her as a way of belittling you. “Do-try-to-keep-this-one-out-of-trouble. We-would-not-want-her-to-tarnish-the-good-Hawkins’s-name. Have-a-nice-day.” The condescending statement fell on deaf ears, earning a matching eye roll from both women, each disgusted that these robots thought one sister could control the other. The droids ‘tipped’ their mechanical hats before both of the officers turned on their wheels, rolling down the driveway and off into the darkening evening, chattering between themselves about how much of a pain in the ass the Hawkins’s youngest was and how unsurprised they were at the delinquency that ran in the family.
The goodie-two-shoes eldest, on the other hand, looked like she was nearing an explosion, and you did your best to swap your face over to one more pleading and innocent once you’d both made it back to the kitchen, out of sight and sound from the busy tavern floor. “Sarah, I-”
She put her hand up, silencing you with practiced ease. “Don’t even fucking start. Not only did you ditch me when you SAID you would be here tonight, but you also took grandad’s solarboard? Are you crazy?! That thing is a relic and a family fuckin’ heirloom, you’re so lucky it didn’t explode and kill you, but you know what, since it hasn’t, I just might!”
“She works fine, I fixed her myself, you know.” Grandpa Jim’s board shimmered in your hands when you leaned it against the kitchen wall, the last traces of starlight flickering out like embers on the wind. “The old girl needs some fresh air every once in a while.”
Though you were speaking about the board as if it were alive, your sister’s shoulders stiffened and slumped when she realized you were talking about yourself more so than the antique. She sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose between crinkled brows. “I know you don’t like helping me with the inn, but we promised dad-”
“You promised dad!” You barked before she could finish, a hateful tone snapping angrily from between your teeth and turning the conversation into confrontation. “I never even got to say goodbye before he left! Before he fucking abandoned us with this shithole tavern!”
“It’s not a shithole! I bust my ass keeping this place running while you go for joy rides and get arrested!”
“Detained.”
“Whatever! The point is we have to keep this place up and running for when dad comes back, so he sees how good of a job-”
“He’s not coming back!” You nearly screamed, tears already threatening to boil over from behind your eyes. “He left ten years ago, Sarah, he’s not coming back! Haven’t you figured that out yet? He’s probably drunk or dead in a ditch and you know what? I don’t care either way! He died the day he stormed out that door as far as I’m concerned, and it’s high fuckin’ time you grew up and realized that as well! We’re too old to believe in fairy tales.”
Sarah bared her teeth and stood her ground, rage making her into a force to be reckoned with. “You know why I still believe he’s coming back? Because that’s what parents are supposed to do, just like I took over the Inn like I was supposed to do, meanwhile you’re too busy being a little rebel to notice anyone else but yourself! Breaking laws and getting into fights! I’m shocked you haven’t been thrown in jail yet for the shit you pull! You’re too much of a handful, dick head, and that’s why he left!” Sarah balked the second the words left her mouth, watching in horror as they buried themselves like daggers in your heart. “Wait, I didn’t-”
Angry and heartbroken, you grabbed the solar board and crashed from the kitchen to the stairs that lead up to your room, your boots nearly breaking through the wooden floorboards in your furious haste. You didn’t own much, some knick knacks and memories strewn about the room, but they were so far back in your mind that they didn’t even register while you snatched your boogie bag off the hook behind the door and raced for the unlocked window. The glass threatened to break when you slammed it open and clambered out onto the roof, the first drops of an evening shower making the shingles slick.
Without sunlight the board was essentially useless, but it was the only remaining connection you had to your grandfather who died when you were just a little girl, and you had claimed it as your own no matter how much Sarah wanted to keep it on the wall mount above the mantle. Sliding down the slickening tile nearly put you on your ass when you slipped from the roof and onto the gravelly, soon-to-be-muddy driveway that led up to the Inn, and the second your feet obeyed you, you commanded them to run.
Where you were headed you didn’t know, but it had to be away from everything that broke your heart. From your heartless sister, that damned Inn, the bustling, obnoxious customers that drove you insane; but most of all from the photo of your father that adorned the wall a few spaces away from the grand illustration of your grandpa. He looked so much like him, you thought whenever you passed by the wall of frames, with his wild hair and intense, star-borne eyes. Those you had inherited from him, as well as the recklessness that seemed so unique to the Hawkins’s bloodline; your sister having drawn the lucky straw of taking from your soft-spoken mother.
You, on the other hand, like your father and his father, could not be so easily contained. Mercurial wings bore you down the drive towards the fingerling piers that jutted out over the shipping lane canyon, far below where the Benbow teetered on the seemingly bottomless ravine. More than once you had almost hoped that a fatal breeze would knock the tavern into the hole, taking your memories of a simpler time with it.
In the near dark and increasing rain you squinted your eyes and searched for a ship, any ship, just one that you could commandeer like you had done several times before in the past and fuck off for good. Holding a hand to your brow, you scanned for possible targets, but though the tavern was hopping with local patronage, not a single ship floated in the bay.
You felt your chest tighten and your breath quicken and heave, suddenly claustrophobic even though you were standing on the edge of the expanse. Trapped, trapped like a rat. “Fuck!” You hollered, nearly throwing the solar surfer in your rage. “Fuck!!” The rain seemed to empathize with you, increasing from a steady drizzle to a heavy shower and soaking your clothes through. With a groan and another shout of curses you begged the storm to take you away, to bring you a ship so you could chase the stars for yourself, to fulfill the true Hawkins’ family calling instead of getting swept up in that damn tavern like your parents had. Like your sister had.
The storm, ever listening, its tears mixed with your own as the water flowed down your cheeks, answered you justly.
-ka-BOOM!!-
High above you something exploded through the atmosphere, and for a moment you wondered if meteor season was early this year. Watching the fireball crash through the clouds, sputtering and coughing a thick plume of smoke in its wake, you were horrified to realize that the falling star was actually a falling ship.
There was nothing you could do but watch as it came down, your heart leaping disgustingly to your throat at the idea of the ill-fated ship and all its passengers being lost to the abyss, but a lucky explosion popping off the side of the doomed vessel knocked it onto a more amicable course. It hit the fingerling pier, screeching steel whining into the night as it skittered closer to the edge before grinding to a halt, and it wasn’t until the billowing flames scalded your eyebrows that you noticed you had dumped your board and ran headlong towards the wreckage.
With no concern for your own safety, you covered your face with the collar of your shirt and began kicking at the escape hatch before the fire consumed it, knocking the steel bulkhead out of the way and grabbing fearlessly towards an outstretched arm. Searing heat nearly scorched your face off when you dug your fingers into the singed fabric of their coat sleeve and yanked, dragging the stranger into the rain and away from certain death. You stumbled with them quickly away from the ship, getting just far enough away before the damn thing’s ionizers cracked and lit the bitch up like fireworks, turning the once star-worthy machine into a fireball of steel confetti.
Cold rain pelted against you and the stranger who was slumped in your arms, coughing maddening amounts of soot from their lungs. You dragged them towards an embankment on the road, setting them down in the muck so the rain could put out the residual smoulders that flickered along their wide brimmed hat and tattered old coat. “Hey, you alrig-” You started to ask, grabbing their hat before it lit their hair on fire, but in doing so you felt your heart drop through your boots at the sight of a familiar face underneath. “Dad?!”
“SARAH!”
The door to the Benbow was nearly blown off its hinges for the second time that night. Your sister, broom in hand, turned with a snarl marring her lovely features towards you and the near-corpse you were hauling through the door on the back of a makeshift gurney, dragging red sailcloth through the mud. “That was fast, don’t tell me you already hit someone?”
“Fuck you shit for brains! It’s dad!” You quickly pulled your wounded father from the sullied solar-surfer and tossed him into the closest chair. “Water! Sarah, get water, fast!” Sarah was about to rip your head off for ruining her mop job when she saw that you were telling the truth, that her long lost papa had finally come home. She paled, the blood draining from her face, and it took another bark from you to get her ass in gear. “Hey, dad, what happened? Who did this to you?”
Your sister returned with a cup of water and tried to push it to the man’s lips, but he refused. “‘M’not.. I’m not gonna… here.” He stammers, drawing something from his pocket and thrusting it into your hands. Slowly, almost deliriously, he smiled up at you from under his rain-and-sweat soaked hair and mused: “Papa wasn’t the only one who knew where to find gold.”
Confused, you looked to see what you’d been given, hoping you would find answers but only found more questions. In your hands you now found a star chart and a clear, ovoid-shaped gemstone that glittered with a small golden center in the light of the hanging chandeliers. Sarah furiously swiped the map from you before you could get a good look at it, balling it in her fist. “The fuck is this!? You’ve been gone for a damn decade for what? For this?! You can’t possibly be ser-”
“Sarah, sweetie I know, and I’m sorry but… I had to…The Inn looks so nice...”
“I’m calling Dr. Doppler!” Sarah, in tears, screamed and raced for the phone, leaving you alone with your estranged parent.
He took your hand, making you cringe from the bloody, sticky burns on his palm. “Chickpea, I’m sorry to show up like this’n dump this on you, but you have to find the queen before… before the cyborg does.” He clawed his other hand into the collar of your shirt, drawing you towards his ashen face. “You can’t let the cyborg find the queen!”
Horrified, you shook your head, hopelessly fending off fresh tears. “Queen? Cyborg? Dad, what are you talking about?! I don’t understand!!”
His eyes were glassy but full of undeserved pride, a weak smile tugging on the corners of his mouth. “If anyone can find her, it’s you, because that’s what the Hawkins family does.” His eyes fluttered and shut, a small sigh -his last breath- leaves his lips. “We… find… treasure.”
The morning after your father died found you still awake and exhausted, sitting in one of the tavern’s booths while the coroners were finishing up. In your hand you absently turned the strange jewel you’d been gifted over and over, running your thumb across its smooth surfaces. You’d never seen anything like it, but you guessed that it must be worth something to the right person. However, to you it merely served as a worry stone, something to ground you after the trauma of the night.
“Are you alright?”
The sound of a question caught you momentarily off guard. Looking up with eyes drier than they should be, you were greeted with the warm contenance of Dr. Tillie Doppler, one of Amelia and Delbert’s quadruplets. Though she bore the same face as her mother, her wild auburn hair was distinctly from her dad’s side, as was her inquisitive personality.
“Peachy keen.” You lied, leaning back heavily against the bench seat where the first dappled motes of morning sunlight were leisurely making their way through the window. You shook your head, “It doesn’t make any sense, Til. Haven’t seen him in ten years and suddenly he just drops out of the sky? And for what? Not to see his daughters, obviously.” You scowled at the shiny rock in your palm, letting it shimmer in the dawn. “What’d’ya think this is, anyway?”
The Felinid took the stone from you gently, tweezing it between her dainty claws while she adjusted her glasses. “You know I’m not entirely sure, but if I had to make my most educated guess, and I am educated, I would have to say that this right here is aurelac, though nobody’s actually seen aurelac in this part of the galaxy in well over three centuries. They’d been believed to have gone extinct.”
“Extinct? But... it’s a rock.”
“True, it is a rock, but a rock produced by an animal, much like how an oyster makes a pearl, though the process by which this pretty pebble is made is vastly more obscure. Oh what I wouldn’t give to know where this had come from! It would be the crown jewel -pardon my pun- of the Doppler Archives.” Tillie’s cat-eye slits had gone wide with excitement, and it took her a moment to return the stone to you. “You said there was a map as well?”
You huffed and looked to your exhausted, bedraggled sister, asking her with your eyebrows for the crumpled paper you knew she had. Sarah nearly growled before giving it to you, her fury only mildly abated since the previous evening. Thanking her sarcastically, you smoothed the wrinkled parchment over your thigh, grumbling at the ridiculousness of it. Who charts on paper anymore?
Eyes like moons, Tillie took a corner of the map with you and helped you smooth the paper out over the tabletop, using the aurelac as a paperweight. The map depicted a well-worn image of the Etherium, with carefully traced lines leading your eyes along the ether currents. It was a familiar picture, one that you’d studied ever since your grandpa first put a telescope to your eye, so you knew right away that a circle in the corner didn’t belong. “Do you think this is where the aurelac came from?” You asked, pointing at the insignificant mark that could just as easily be a coffee stain.
Tillie crinkled her kitty nose, bringing her glasses closer to her eyes. “I’m not sure, might just be a booger or a spec of dirt…” She thoughtlessly moved the aurelac out of the way to get a better view, pushing the gemstone into a beam of sunlight streaming in through the window. The aurelac glowed with the radiant light of the dawn, throwing a sliver of sunshine over the parchment that shimmered with something unseen.
“By the stars, look!” Tillie exclaimed, grabbing the gemstone and holding it up to catch a better sunbeam, turning the aurelac into a prism that bathed the map in gold. Suddenly the once-plain paper was awash with hidden text written in some kind of indelible ink.
The map of the Etherium had been transformed into what appeared to be a topographical map of a planet’s surface, the word Bakhroma written on the bottom. Your collective eyes followed a gilded line drawn over what you guessed to be dense jungles and high cliff faces leading to an X scratched haphazardly over the terrain. Next to it was an image drawn by a different hand, more carefully, almost lovingly so, of a fat, six-legged creature that seemed to be wearing a spacesuit.
“You can’t tell me that’s not a treasure map, Til! X marks the spot!” You shout, strengthened by a second wind. “Dad went looking for treasure just like grandpa did when he went to find Treasure Planet, and I bet if we followed this map it would lead us to wherever the aurelac came from!”
“Pfft, ‘Treasure Planet’…” Sarah seethed, her tone even more hateful than it was the night before. “You really believe that grandad went on some wild adventure with bloody pirates to go find a planet full of gold?! Those were just stories! Fairy tales. They weren’t real. ” She threw her hands up and stormed over to you, her eyes flinty as daggers. “You know what is real? Dad! He’s real and whatever that is got him killed!” The light caught briefly in the mist forming in her eyes for the umpteenth time since the storm passed. She stomped her foot and crossed her arms defensively. “I can’t believe he would do this to us! And I can’t believe you would be just as stupid as he is, though I guess I shouldn’t even be surprised.”
“Yeah, you shouldn’t be.” You fired back, mimicking your sister's hand-on-hip stance from before. Sarah started to argue, but unfortunately for her, you’d learned a thing or two about scolding, and cut her off with a raised finger. “I’m sick and tired of pretending like there isn’t something more outside the Inn, and I’m sick and tired of living in the great Jim Hawkins’s shadow. We’re not supposed to be tavern wenches, Sarah, we’re supposed to be treasure seekers, and damn it all that’s what I’m gonna do! I’m gonna find the aurelac queen!”
“Oh please, just yesterday you were getting arrested-”
“Detained!”
“Shut up! You’re a rebel and a delinquent, and one of these days your dumbassery is going to get you killed! What makes you think for one harebrained second that you can go ~galavanting~ across the Etherium looking for space rocks that may or may not even exist by yourself?!”
“Pardon me…” Tillie, ever polite, finally cut through the bickering Hawkins siblings. “But uh, Sarah is right, there’s not a snowflake’s chance in hell you’ll survive a space voyage on your own. There’s man-eating whales and space-borne parasites, and not to mention pirates of course…” She said, counting off on her fingers to your dismay. Your sister’s ever-contorting expression had slid into a vile smugness that you would’ve loved to wipe off her face with your fist, but Tillie coughed quickly before a new argument could start. “That’s why I will be going with you!”
A/N: I am SORRY this took me so damn long to finish but I did it! It's very self indulgent, even though there's no smut (sorry, may do oneshots at another time) I'm happy with how this story ends and I hope you enjoy! Art in header courtesy of @thepoisonofgod
It all seemed so… surreal.
The memories that you’d brought home were more like a dream you’d been rudely awakened from rather than a death-defying adventure more fitting of a self-indulgent fantasy novel than the life of a waitress. The months in the Etherium had been twice as awful on the way back home with only three bull-headed bitches to sail the Dawnbreaker, but keeping busy had kept your mind clear. Clear of savory gumbo and twangy shanties, free of the memory of lingering mechanical fingers, free of alien jungles and lost treasures and legends that should have remained in myth.
And, above all, free of Ezra.
You’d done a pretty good job of putting it all in the back of your mind, far, far away from where it could break your heart, but it was days like today that it all came rushing back.
Because today was Fiona’s birthday.
The Benbow had never been so busy since the day it had been rebuilt, even with a ‘Reserved for Private Event’ sign out at the end of the drive, the shipping lane was overflowing with all manner of vessels drifting down from Cresentia since the sun came up. Compared to some of the frigates and man-o-wars, the Dawnbreaker almost looked like a toy floating next to her bigger siblings.
You didn’t get much of a chance to appreciate the sight of the beloved clipper getting some much-deserved rest as you were too busy with planning the festivities. The inn was decorated from top to bottom, live music was brought in, and extra food was ordered to be flown in fresh that day. It was going to be the biggest bash the old tavern had ever seen.
“Really, Til, I don’t need anything this extravagant!” Fiona argued affectionately, putting up a half-assed fight against being ushered through the doors. The moment she was spotted by the crowd of invitees a cheer went up so cacophonous she had to cover her ears.
“Nonsense! It’s your special day!” Tillie beamed, planting a big wet smooch on her girlfriend's feathery cheek. “Do you have any idea what it’s like sharing your birthday with three other siblings?! Didn’t think so! Speaking of, Matey you old dog! Long time no see!”
From across the room you managed a smile at Fiona before ducking back into the kitchen, loading up with more plates for all the guests. It made you proud that your own home was where Til had chosen to host the event, and you swallowed that sticky pride like you liked it; trying not to let it catch in your throat that you should be next to the guest of honor, not serving her. But you don’t mind, do you? Of course not. You’d even put on one of your nicer uniforms instead of just throwing an apron over the clothes you’d slept in the night before.
It felt good to be busy, or so you kept telling yourself.
Patrons smiled and thanked you every time you set their plates - though a little loudly, having to compete with the live music - and each one was more polite than the last. It was their captain’s birthday after all, and every immaculately-dressed officer, regardless of species, made you feel appreciated.
It was obvious with the way you waltzed through the crowds and doted on your customers that you loved being back home. Your older sister Sarah certainly appreciated the change in your attitude, though it was several months before she stopped berating you for returning home empty handed after going on such a legendary treasure-seeking adventure; but she was thrilled that you had finally ‘shaped up’.
Your hands she could see, but your empty eyes she chose to ignore.
Setting down two heaping bowls of high-end apollonian chowder, you skirted through the droves of people to fix one of the blue and gold streamers fluttering above the mantle, the shiny foil paper brushing longingly against the solarboard where the old relic had been collecting dust.
It’d been there since you hung it up before setting off on your grand adventure, the hexagonal energy pathways embedded in the neatly-folded sailcloth glittered morosely in the firelight every time you walked by, calling to you with gentle but desperate whispers.
You left it where it hung, aggressively avoiding eye contact with the photo of your grandfather whose eyes bored right into the hole where your spirit had once been. Sorry to disappoint you, Jimbo.
The moment you had the streamers hanging back where they belonged, one of the officers was politely asking for a refill on their porpwine, gracing you with a much-needed distraction. That’s all everything felt like these days, one distraction after another, but in truth, that’s all life really is, isn’t it?
You went back to the kitchen to get a fresh bottle of wine, though you distinctly remember refilling that particular specimen’s glass at least four times now. The wine was imported, needlessly expensive alcohol that had been recommended by somilers from here to the clouds of Magellan; and though it was quite tasty the damned cork always gave you such a ration of fucking crap. Bullshitery.
With the corkscrew as deep into the soft wood as it would go, you strained to pull it free. You were no weakling, these bottles just sucked ass and enjoyed making a fool out of you. Fuckin’ A. As you were struggling with the bootlever slipping constantly off the mouth of the bottle, your mind flashed back to the Dawnbreaker, to the galley, to halfway-decent grog paired with delicious home made sweets. Shit. To barrel chested laughs and deeply crinkled eyes. Damn it! To a particularly deft set of articulated fingers weedling the cork out of a bottleneck easier than an octopus escaping its tank. To those devious fingers doing the same to you.
“Fuck!”
The cork slipped loose with a mischievous pop, your distracted hands fumbling to catch the bottle as it slipped from your grip. You managed to snag it before it hit the floor, but not before it dumped half its bright purple contents all over the front of your blouse.
“Are you fucking kidding me?!” Your sister bellowed from over a simmering pot of bonzabeast that probably should have come off the fire hours ago. “That wine’s not cheap! And I just mopped the floor last night!”
“Sorry,” You croaked, reaching for a towel to at least pat yourself dry and sponge the spill off the floor. “I’ll be right back, I-I need to change.” You didn’t wait for Sarah to argue or retaliate as you hurried up the stairs that led to the residential part of the tavern, not seeing your sister's confusion at the fact that you just… apologized instead of tearing her a new asshole. Whatever space had done to you, she could certainly get used to.
You tracked plum droplets all the way up the wooden stairs and down the hall to your room, tugging wet clothing off as you went. At least you smelled pretty now, the fruity aroma masking some of the sweat and kitchen grime clinging to your sticky skin.
By the time you got to your room you were stripped down to your tanktop and underwear, but even those had managed to soak up a few purple stains of their own. You ambled towards your bed, trying to ignore the nagging devil in the back of your mind telling you to lay down in it and just forget the party downstairs. Not like you were having fun anyway.
The meager cabin had been your room since you were old enough to have one of your own, so it took you by surprise when you pulled your tank top over your head and managed to trip over something in the decades-familiar space.
“Yowch!! Mother fucking shit ball of god damn hell shit fuck!!!”
Had there not been a rip-roaring good time downstairs, your furious cursing probably would have summoned someone to your aide as you stomped about with your throbbing pinky toe, nearly shouting the heavens down in your fury.
Free of the offending article of clothing, you vehemently scanned the floor for what had attacked you, but found yourself unable to retaliate against the monster trying to crawl out from under your bed.
Or, at least what was left of him.
Ezra’s robotic arm, the only souvenir you still possessed that proved you’d even known him, had somehow managed to roll out from under your bed where you’d stashed it. Without the cyborg it’d been attached to, the hunk of metal was as lifeless and dull as you felt on the inside, and how it’d managed to get far enough out from under the bed was a mystery you weren’t sure if you wanted to solve. Probably the vibrations from the party downstairs. Probably not haunted…right?
You hadn’t seen it in a while, though the knowledge of it being right below where you laid your head at night frequently kept you awake, but not out of fear. It hurt your heart to see it without the man it was supposed to be on, flipping appliances in the blink of an eye to serve dinner or scrape barnacles or gently set a coat on your shoulders when you slept. You missed the slight hiss that it would make when he’d fiddle about the kitchen, or the faint creak of the wrist joint when he’d place a hot meal in front of you, the iron digits brushing gently across your back…
No, now that magnificent multitool was dead, just like the man who used to wield it.
Your tears had long dried for Ezra, even after keeping them bottled for months in the Etherium on the way back to Montressor lest your comrades find you weak - though of course they never would. As soon as you’d walked through the Benbow’s doors and into the befuddled glare of your sister, you’d finally let yourself cry.
They’d poured out of you, tears of grief and sadness and fury. Tears of loss and pain, not only of the treasure but also of life. Tears of exhaustion, desperation, every horrid, gut clenching, face-reddening, heart-breaking feeling ever known to the human psyche flowed down from your eyes that day like shooting stars heading for the ground where they would explode into a thousand thousand pieces, killing every lifeform that crawled at your feet like the malevolent goddess of pain and wrath that you were.
And then, after that, you never cried again.
Yet now, staring at the dull steel fingers, slightly splayed from tripping over them, you felt that same pull of heartache tugging on the corners of your eyes. For a moment you felt those old emotions again, the sadness, the grief, and the rage, and your throbbing pinky toe had to remind you that kicking it was a very bad idea.
Picking up the heavy chunk of metal, you set it down on your bed, smoothing it out from the release catch on the shoulder ball, to the coil-spring wrapped humerus strut, down to the massive, gear-laden forearm, and finally to the hand itself.
The arm was long, longer than your own, but it had been a perfect fit for Ezra. And a perfect fit around your shoulders, around your waist. Between your legs.
The dirtier thoughts you had drowned pretty quickly in the depressive riptides of your mind, sinking into the inky black of despair. For a moment you feared you might drown too, and so, as one who is sinking below the waves does, you reached for a hand to pull you from the dark.
Cold, lifeless fingers slotted perfectly between your own, the chilly metal prickling your skin with goosebumps, but you didn’t care. The longer you held it, the warmer it became, and soon the iron palm and steely digits were almost the same temperature as you were, almost like they were alive.
Almost, but not quite.
You sucked in a shuddering breath, composing yourself before pulling your grasp free and finding fresh clothes as you had set off to do before being so rudely tripped by the ghost of a mutineer. Dressed and presentable, you made to leave your bedroom, but paused in the doorway, looking back at the severed arm lying comfortably in your bed as if to call you into its embrace, and a thought came to you.
Ezra was always so good at getting corks out, perhaps he still can be.
The roar of Fiona’s birthday bash carried up the stairs like distant thunder before you cleared the hallway, even with all the doors and windows open to let in the pleasant summer evening. There was the briefest moment on Montressor when the rains came through and thoroughly soaked the dry, cracked soil; whipping it into thick, sticky mud that eventually bloomed with gazillions of wildflowers. Were it not for the crowd, you would have been able to hear the soft rustling of the new prairie grasses and the chirp of summer insects. Sometimes this old dirtball could be pretty. Sometimes.
For now all you could hear was the walls of the inn swelling with laughter and merriment, bad jokes and deep, barrel chested guffaws of some of the officers. Better open some more wine.
Clutched tightly to your chest, Ezra’s arm seemed to hug you from beyond the grave, the padded fingers almost caressing your shoulder. You started quickly down the hallway to the stairs, hoping you could dart into the kitchen to use it as a bottle opener before Fiona saw it. The four-eyed avian had distinctly told you to throw it overboard after spending a good afternoon and a half prying the damn thing from the Dawnbreaker’s hull, and you knew that the fact you’d disobeyed orders wouldn’t be the only cause for her fury upon its discovery.
As your foot hit the first step leading back down to the main dining room, you thought you heard your sister arguing with someone.
“Sir this is a private event, you need an invitation.”
“I don’t have an invitation, I’m uh, lookin’ for someone.”
That voice. You froze on the steps. Years of clambering up and down them had taught you where the creaky boards were, and where your feet would be silent. It’d been a devious trick you’d utilized as a child to sneak up on grandpa whenever he was home, which was rare for the admiral. But now that age-old trick had you hugging the stairwell wall where the boards were silent, holding your breath so you could be the same.
“What’s the name of the party you’re meeting here?”
“Erm… Hawkins?”
“Very funny, sir.”
“This is the Benbow is it not? On Montressor? I have braved enough of Kevva’s obstacles to locate this miserable planet in this nowhere sector and I must see Ms. Hawkins!”
“Sir I don’t know who you-”
“Not you, confound it! The other Hawkins!”
Can’t be…
The drawl of the man your sister was gatekeeping from the party grated like gravel in your ear, missing all the spoonful-of-sugar sweetness you once knew it to have, but it was unmistakable nonetheless. You held the mechanical arm up, waiting for the hand to muppet-mouth back at you and explain the source of the voice, but it only flopped limply against your chest with a faint creak.
You were almost to the bottom of the steps now, and once you made it to the landing you’d be able to see the main entrance.
You’d be able to see the ghost in the doorway.
-Creeaaak-
The final floorboard squealed loudly under your uncaring final step, drawing the attention of your sister and the stranger the moment you stepped off the stairs. Sarah spun on the noise, fixing you with a confused glare, but the stranger in the door looked like he had just seen the dawn for the first time after a month-long arctic night.
“...Starling?”
Silent as the grave you suspected he’d crawled out of, you crossed the distance to the man at the door slowly, wide-eyed and dry mouthed. He was thinner than the last time you’d seen him, face gaunt, coat ill-fitting with his right sleeve pinned closed, though he didn’t need two hands to gently push past your befuddled sister. His uneven steps thump-clacked towards you, a slight squeak in the ball-bearing of his ankle as he crossed the distance to meet you. Though you weren’t sure if he looked like what the cat dragged in, or the cat itself, his disheveled state was no match for the brightness of his eyes.
An enormous dark honeywell watched you unblinking with its golden-lit twin, the mechanical eye as radiant as the heavens as they both took you in. The stranger’s bristly lips were slightly parted, the rosey pink of them dull and faded but still begging to be kissed, and you knew this was no stranger, and certainly no ghost.
“Ezra?”
The cyborg let loose a shuddering breath, caught between a giggle and a gasp that curled his lips into a breathtaking grin. “Starling mine!” He beamed, reaching for you with his single arm, his gaze flicking from your starstruck face to the contraption you wielded. “And you’ve secured my primary weapon! Will wonders never cease?” His human hand brushed against your cheek and trailed down to the mechanical arm. “Please, affix that gadget to its rightful place so I may greet you properly, beautiful.”
Ezra stepped back and pulled the pins from his right shoulder sleeve, tilting his body down so you could slide the humerus strut into the mechanical socket. The moment the fasteners clicked into place, Ezra fell forward with the returned weight. “By Kevva! I’d forgotten how heavy this thing was!” He rolled his shoulders once, twice, getting a feel for the limb. Reunited with its owner, the cybernetic hissed and spewed dust from its vents, obscuring the foyer in a cloud of soot and steam that made the three of you cough.
“Sir, you need to take that.. that thing outside!” Sarah barked through the haze, “And take ~Ms. Hawkins~ with you!”
She didn’t need to tell you twice. You grabbed for Ezra and hauled him back outside before Fiona's officers could get a better look at the newest arrival, shoving past your sister much less gently than Ezra had on his way in. Sarah slammed the door behind you, and suddenly you were alone together on the Benbow’s front porch.
Between your fingers the sharp pinch of metal squeezed for your attention, drawing your eyes away from the tavern’s front door. Your hand - fingers intertwined with steely digits you thought long dead - were pulled until you were pulled with it, dragging you to face the ghost of your beloved scallywag.
And then his arms were around you.
One soft and warm, one hard and cold, both coiling around you like you were the lifeline cast to save a drowning man. Ezra’s scruffy chin burrowed between your neck and shoulder, his skin hot -almost feverish- against yours while he cradled the back of your head, pressing your face as tightly to his own as he could.
For a moment the shock kept you still, frozen as you had once believed his corpse to be. Could this really be happening? Is Ezra really-
“My Starling,” he whined against your skin, his breath hoarse with emotion. “I never thought I would lay eyes on you again, but knowing that I may see you one day again is what kept this old heart of mine still beating! The pod, Kevva be praised, was Terran built. Constructed to survive nigh anything, and though I was cast adrift in the fathomless Etherium, awaiting rescue I knew nought would come, I continued to draw breath in that miniscule pod so long as the hope of reuniting with you again kept the hypoxia at bay. Starling, gorgeous, wonderful, sublime Starling! I am so, so sorry…”
Sorry…?
“You…you should be.”
Ezra froze, fingers tightening against your skin. “I am sor-”
“You should be!!” you roared, tearing yourself from his embrace, the hot sting of tears welling up behind your eyes. “What the fuck are you even doing here?! Captain Fiona is here, and if she sees you she’ll have you drawn and quartered, and truthfully I’m half tempted to think that’s what you deserve!”
Ezra said nothing, though the muscle in his jaw ticked a bit. His huge, puppy-dog eye struggled to meet yours, but he knew he had to accept his lashings.
“What was your plan, Ez, once you got the aurelac and the map? Were you going to kill us? Leave us abandoned on Bakhroma, or just turn us over to your crew?”
“I-”
“Shut up! You’ve got a lot of nerve showing back up here after what you did! Fuck, Ezra! I… I watched you die! Why didn’t you just stay dead?!” Every bottled up emotion poured from your bloodshot eyes, the taste of salt pulling your lips back into a snarl. “Why didn’t you just take your damn aurelac and go?!”
You wanted to punch him, slap him, bite him, anything, but all you could do was stand there, your fists clenched so hard you could feel your nails puncture your palms, arms quaking with rage and sorrow and grief. It was too much at once; the party raging behind the tavern's door, the world-weary weight on your shoulders, the explosion of emotions erupting from your hate-rended heart. You wanted to scream and cry and combust into a column of flame, burn everything around you to ash, make the world look the way you felt on the inside, and take the ghost of journeys past with you to the grave.
It was a surprise, to say the least, when Ezra breached the short distance to you with his still-human hand, the one kept warm by a still-beating heart. A heart that beat solely for you. Rough, calloused fingers alighted feather-lightly on your cheek, the shock of contact suppressing your urge to bite them clean off.
"My sweet celestial beauty, my furiously burning star, whose glory and rage I am not fit to look upon." He whispered in reverence, letting his fingertips coast up your jaw until his whole hand cupped your cheek. "My journey across the stars drove me to seek the most elusive of treasures, and I thought I had found it on that forlorn little moon, lost to time at the bottom of a caldera where it belonged. I followed in the footsteps of many a spacer, surely to my death, and I would have met it, too, had I adhered to the trail already blazed. But the aurelac was a fool's errand, a trick, a trap. Though it certainly would have made me rich beyond my wildest fantasies, my soul would have been left destitute had I not perceived the real treasure hiding in plain sight. It wasn’t until I fell into the darkness that I realized my solisequious endeavor had already been fulfilled"
His cybernetic eye flickered, unable to produce its own tears, but his ageless left eye was already misting over. His other hand -the metal cold in the Montressan night air- joined its twin to cradle your face. You reached up to grab his wrists, torn between wanting to rip them from your face, or crumple into his strong arms. You picked the middle ground, standing there, shaking as the tears fell, only for them to be wiped away by the gentle caress of his thumbs.
“Do you know what that word means? Solisequious?” he asked gently, a smile quirking his lips when you shook your head almost imperceptibly. "It's old, old Terran. It means 'to follow the sun'. A guiding star." He peppered your cheek with kisses, following the line of your cheekbone to your lips, kissing you slowly when he reached them. "A shining light, to save me from the darkness. And it wasn’t until I was swallowed by the dark that I realized I had forsaken the light."
He couldn’t stop kissing you, each press of his lips slow with devotion, even though you were fighting to keep from collapsing into a blubbering mess. Finally, he pressed his forehead to yours, sticky with sweat and grime, and took a deep breath to collect himself before confessing:
"It's you, little bird. You are the light of my life."
You heaved with an ugly sob, your face contorting grossly as the last of your resolve disintegrated into stardust. He pulled you forward, pressing his lips to yours in a desperate, world-erasing kiss. He didn't care that you were still crying, or that he was starting to cry as well, and you didn't care either. It was like nothing else existed in the entire universe but the two of you. His lips pressed against yours, quivering slightly as he fought to rein his emotions in, but to have you in his arms -something he thought he would never experience again- shook him to his very core.
You weren't ready to speak, but you did sway gently with him, a slow, comforting rock, letting the muffled sound of the band inside give rhythm to your dance. He took your hand in his, entwining his metal digits between your fingers just like you had done when the prosthetic was still severed from his body; but with Ezra at the controls again, they felt just as alive as if he had been born with it. The arm still made of meat and bone glided down your side to rest on your hip, and you let him lead you in a long overdue waltz.
The moonlight of Crescentia was the only witness to the pair of you, the icy white light cutting through the velvet summer-dark to frame you in its spotlight. Hushed evening breezes whispered through the prairie grass, stirring luminous insects from their nests, spilling lights into the sky like so many awakened stars. They rose in a glittering cloud around the Benbow, casting the old tavern in living starlight.
A beautiful scene straight out of a fairy tale went unnoticed by the pair of oblivious dancers, their tear-clouded eyes too full of each other to witness the stars join them in their reunion.Over the muted tune of the tavern music, the faint creak and squeak of Ezra’s rusted joints punctuated each graceless step, but neither of you could care. Regardless of his prosthetics, your beloved space pirate waltzed with you across the boardwalk, past the wide-open windows and in full view of anyone who was still sober.
You spun, hand in hand, past the windows towards the garden adjacent to the Inn. The summer roses were in full bloom, their fragrance sweet and sincere; warm against the crisp scent of citrus flowers blossoming in the orchard. Underfoot, the stone pathway went thud-thud-thud-clack in time with your steps, Ezra’s peg scraping slightly with each turn.
His human hand splayed against your lower back, bending you towards him as he dipped you down low, supporting your weights on an old creaky leg. The broad hook of his nose brushed yours gently, teasing a kiss, but denying you the pleasure of his lips before he brought you back up. Then, with your fingers still locked between his irons, he twirled you gently, softly, like if he spun you too fast you would rocket away into space. Once, twice, three times…
And then he let go, letting you spin yourself across the plaza. Had you been wearing anything even remotely nicer than your waitress uniform, your skirts would have flared wide and beautifully, enchanting any who witnessed. Your eyes landed on the tavern windows, on the wild party inside, catching the briefest flash of white feathers.
-creak- SNAP!- “Kevva damn it all…!”
An ugly noise behind you stole your gaze back to your dancing partner of the evening, but he was no longer at eye level to you. Instead he was halfway to the floor, his bone-and-sinew knee bent all the way to the ground, but his right peg-leg was stuck crookedly out in front of him.
“Ezra, are you ok? Did you fall?” You asked, rushing back to him.
“I’m fine, I’m fine!” He deflected, holding his palms up in defense. “This leg has been in dire need of maintenance, but I was hoping it would last me just a moment longer…” He whacked himself in the knee a few times until the stiff joint gave, letting him down all the way into a kneel, and you felt your guts drop down to the floor with him.
“What’re you doing, Ez?”
“What I’m hoping will be the first of many proper apologies. Starling,” he pleaded, reaching into the pocket of his oversized overcoat. “There was a time in my life when the thought of doing anything for anyone other than myself would have disgusted me, but now I can imagine nothing else but pledging my heart and soul to the light of my life.” He pulled his hand from his pocket, producing something wrapped in a scrap of sailcloth. “After my vessel was scooped up by a scrapper, I managed to pry this off of the hull.”
Carefully he undid the little handkerchief, revealing his prize to the night. In his palm sat a familiar hunk of meat, the exterior shell still intact and covered in a thin coat of moss.
“Aurelac? Living aurelac?” You took the living fossil from him carefully, turning it over with your pinkie. It wasn’t much bigger than an egg, and you knew nothing about how they grew or produced their gems, but one little seedling would be all it might take to bring the species back from the edge of extinction. “Why.. why are you giving this to me?”
“Because I have nothing else to give, my starling, except my undying love for you.” He shuffled a bit on his knee, straightening his back and pulling his hat from his head. Moonlight spilled down the blond streak in his ruffled hair, and you remember it once being stained red with his own blood from a wound you had given him. It had healed nicely, though the scars that spiderwebbed out from his optic were still a faint rosey pink. He knew you were staring, but he met your eyes with his own, never breaking away as he said “It is all I have to ask for your hand with. Could…could you ever f-forgive me, my starling, and be … my starling… mine?"
“Ezra..!”
“MISTER GREEN!!”
Before you could say yes or no or what the fuck, an ear-shattering screech tore the night apart from the Benbow’s open windows. Immediately you saw four onyx black eyes glaring at you from the walkway that wrapped around the tavern, contrasting sharply against the raised white feathers of one very angry bird.
Fiona.
“Get that fucking pirate, now! NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!!” The captain bellowed to her officers, though almost her entire company was sloshed from the abundance of wine. A multitude of drunken footsteps clambered down the steps towards you and Ezra, followed by the creak of him springing to his feet.
“I believe I’ve overstayed my welcome, dear heart, and though I would be most inclined to know your answ-”
“Yes!”
“Yes?!”
“Yes! Now shut up and run!” You grabbed his hand and hauled him along behind you, the creaky ‘borg stumbling and tripping as you dragged him towards the driveway that led to the shipping lane. Brightly lit vessels bobbed where they were docked in the waterless canyon, floating serenely and indifferent to the sudden outburst of chaos that seemed almost routine coming from the Benbow Inn. Between the prestigious galleons and graceful clippers you spotted the ugliest, most brokeass lookin sloop you’d ever seen in all your days, and headed straight for it.
“How.. could… you… tell… huff… that-”
“Because!” you panted back at the winded pirate as you jumped aboard the rickety little starhopper. “Looks just like you!”
“Ah.” Ezra followed suit quickly, turning the ignition over with a BANG! Smoke poured out the aft jets like rolling thunder, sputtering thick and black as the tiny ship chugged to life. “Hang on, Starling!” he bellowed over the roar of the engine, his face illuminated no longer by the moon, but by sparks erupting from behind, painting him in the coveted gold that had brought him to you in the first place.
Without the sun to fuel the sails you were blasting off on reserves alone, clunky and unwieldy but enough to get you out of the docks and quickly put distance between you and Fiona’s officers. The ships fell away just like they had the first time you had set off from Crescentia Station, the Dawnbreaker bobbing slightly next to her siblings in your wake. You could see Fiona, Sarah, and Til, along with the group of inebriated officers watch as you flew off into the night.
The Benbow, it’s windows all lit and twinkling where it sat on the cliffside, seemed to watch you as well, but perhaps with less judgement than the rest of your family. It’d seen Hawkins’ come and go for generations, and knew no matter how far-flung their adventures took them, they would always return home one day; perhaps when a certain Avian had calmed down a bit.
But tonight, tonight the stars are calling you, their celestial voices heard in the southern twang of a scrappy old spacer, in the roar of a junky little starship held together with duct tape and bubblegum, in the howl of the summer night air whipping through your hair. You could feel them, too, underfoot in the way the ship threatened to fall apart before it broke the atmosphere, in the wind rushing around you, in the warmth coming from the hand with its fingers threaded through yours.
You glanced over at Ezra, the light of Crescentia ahead and the burn of your jets behind illuminating him against the backdrop of the Montressan night sky. His gorgeous profile turned to you, the wild glint in his eye bright as his smile, and you knew he could hear the siren song of the Etherium calling his name, too.
And when the stars call, you are destined to answer.
You glanced at them briefly, your eyes flicking between his mouth and his eyes, trying not to think too hard about what it would be like to kiss him. Your imagination would have done little justice anyway, because Ezra was thinking the same thing, and decided to lean in and make it a reality.
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Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 9.5k
Content warnings: EVERYTHING BUT THE KITCHEN SINK! Pining, food play if you really squint, gentlemanly Ezra, the best kiss scene I think I've ever written, original scenes, monster fights, KAIJU, death of a side character (sorry), nefarious intentions, SMUT! rushed, rough sex, inappropriate use of a prosthetic, biting, dirty talk, oh it is juicy.
A/N: Thank you guys for your patience with this slow burn! Sorry it came out longer than I wanted it to, but it's pretty juicy, so I hope that makes up for the word count. Special thanks to @thepoisonofgod for the gif help!
The Etherium’s endlessness felt overwhelming, but it was absolutely the most breathtaking thing you’d ever seen; even the most wild, fantastical tales your grandpa had spun about it didn’t do the celestial expanse justice. With nothing to obstruct the stars, save for the curling plumes of cosmic dust, seemingly softer even than spun sugar, the infinite had never been more clear to the naked eye. There’s so… much, and the innumerable twinkling lights of far-off suns seemed almost bright enough to reach out and touch.
Your hands had long since calloused over from a hard-working life, but even your strong palms had started to chafe from the poorly sanded mop handle. The deck looked immaculate, but you suspected that come next watch all your hard work would be erased by a multitude of various shaped boots, and you groaned at the thought. Though you knew this wasn’t exactly going to be a pleasure cruise, the first shadowy tinges of regret were already creeping into the corners of your mind. I hope Sarah wasn’t right about this, I’ll never live it down.
The mental pity party you wanted to spiral into was cut short by the uneven footsteps you were becoming familiar with. “Glad to see you’re still alive and kickin’, staying out of trouble I hope?” Ezra hollered as he ascended the steps to the forecastle deck, a bucket of kitchen leftovers sloshing around disgustingly in his arms.
“If you mess my damn deck up with that nastyass shit I’ll toss you overboard myself!” You spat, aiming the mop at him like a sword. “And I mean it.”
Ezra, always carrying a laugh in his pocket, chuckled to himself as he tossed the chum off the side of the boat; to where, you would never know. “Don’t worry your pretty head, my dear, I promise not to mar your diligence. Scouts honor.” He said, crossing his heart. He slid the empty bucket up his human elbow, adding a handful of fresh stains to his food-soiled apron when he leaned casually against the bulwark; but he didn’t seem to care in the slightest. “Feisty thing, aren’t you?”
A retort bubbled in your throat, but you were tired, and Ezra smelled enough like food to make your stomach groan. When did you miss dinner? You sighed and shrugged, abandoning your weapon to lean against the rail too. “A girl’s gotta be, ‘specially when there’s giant crabheaded lunatics roaming around.”
“Heh, crabheaded lunatic. I’ll have to remember that for the next time he’s gettin’ ornery.” He took a deep breath of the cool Etherium breeze, letting the cosmic miracle fill his ribs fully before letting it go. Elbows draped over the short wooden wall, he turned to look at you with his good eye, the dark chocolate of it glittering with faint starlight from the other side of his well-defined nose. “I, uh, I actually came up here to apologize. You’ve not been aboard a starship before, it wasn’t fair of me to berate you like that, but if the crew saw me showin’ you kindness they’d think I’d gone soft.”
“It’s… alright.” You shrugged, trying not to get too caught up in the sentiment. You’d been mentally preparing yourself for a fight all evening, but Ezra took the hot air right out of your sails. “I mean, you weren’t wrong, I did nearly get myself killed. So, uh, thanks, actually.”
“Of course, us meat bags’ve gotta stick together, right?” He chided softly, flashing you that sweet smile of his. “Oh, speaking of-” He patted himself down, trying to find his pocket to dig out a shiny purple fruit. “Here, you missed supper.”
You caught the treat being softly tossed to you and bit into it eagerly, coaxing an excited rumble from your guts. The skin of it was taut and your teeth punctured it easily with a soft, rewarding -pop-; the juicy flesh on the inside sweet and rich, not a single day past its ripeness. Wiping your mouth off with the back of your hand, you caught Ezra watching you intently, and you couldn’t help the heat that singed your cheeks. “Uh… thank you.”
The tips of his metal fingers drummed a cadence against the bulwark, giving you insight to the gears turning in places besides his arm. “Bein’ the cook has its privileges, rewards for all the labour that goes into it, which you’ll soon be familiar with enough, cabin girl.” The corners of his mustachioed lips curled into a playful sneer when you glared at him, and he couldn’t help but laugh, making the swells of his cheeks roll right up into his eyes. “I’m going to have to teach you a thing or two about being starborne, starling, whether you like it or not. Captain’s orders and all. What do you say, fellow meat bag, do you wanna be a spacer?”
Ezra extended his metal arm to you again, but this time there wasn’t a blade to be seen, just the riveted fingers attached to a heavily articulated palm. You eyed it suspiciously, chewing thoughtfully on a mouthful of fruit. Not much of a choice. “Alright, Ez, show me what it takes.” You said, taking his hand in yours. You were expecting the galvanized joints to snap and bite you, to pinch your delicate skin in between their iron teeth, but Ezra’s grip was gentle, the little rubber pads on his fingertips soft and somewhat warm.
“It will be my pleasure.” He said, clasping your forearm with his human hand. The heat from his calloused palm was strong in the cool night-cycle air, and you were surprised to find warmth surging through your veins to pool in your core at the way the word pleasure seemed to drip from his lips, rising several thousand degrees when he dragged the pad of his thumb over the sensitive skin at the inside of your elbow. You hoped it wasn’t just because he was the only human man you’d seen in a long, long time, but the way the light of the stars shined over his genuine, charming grin made you ache in ways you thought your body had forgotten how to do.
The devilish smile on his face didn’t help either, becoming even more of a detriment when he tilted his head slightly, giving you more of his human side to take in. “Now, lesson one.” he mused, pulling his prosthetic from your grip without taking his eyes off of yours. For a moment you wondered how handsome he had been with both eyes, but the thought was quickly dashed from your skull when you felt a cold iron bucket handle slide off his arm and onto yours. Sneaky bastard! “If you let that sit in the bucket too long you’ll never be able to wash it out, so get scrubbing, cabin girl, Kevva waits!”
It took a lot of fucking work to keep the ship so ship-shape, a fact that you were unfortunately going to be familiarizing yourself with the hard way. Working for Mr. Green wasn’t all that much different than working at the Benbow, but when the other crewmates weren’t looking he tried to make it somewhat fun; well, bearable, at least. Some tasks he was willing to help you with -many hands, he would say, gesturing sarcastically with his prosthetic- but others, especially those in full view of the crew, he would leave you to deal with on your own.
Cleaning house you were used to, but your first real challenge was found on the underside of the Dawnbreaker. Her keel was encrusted with horrible barnacles; big, smelly things that were so stuck to her belly that they’d practically fused with the wood, and you got the lucky job of getting to scrape them off. You tried not to think too much about the consequences of getting out of range of the ships’ artificial gravity as you and Ezra lowered a platform down to the keel. Even harder than trying not to imagine floating away into space was not looking down at the infinite abyss spiralling away on every side, eager to swallow you whole.
“Put your back into it!” He roared, being sure that he was loud enough anyone on deck could hear him bossing you around, but his magnificent multitool had already swapped over to something akin to a spade. “Bet I can get more of them off than you can.” He poked softly, just enough for you alone to hear, followed by a mischievous wink.
“Fat chance, robo-butt.”
The keel never looked so good by the time you were done, but once you were hoisting yourselves back up to the deck, you were both so covered in icky barnacles that even Mr. Skarn couldn’t get far enough away; but Tillie demanded that you give her a sample to study. Dr. Doppler had been managing to keep herself busy cataloging and describing the various spaceborne critters that coasted through the Etherium, running full bore across the deck to snap a photograph before they inevitably got away. You would frequently find her spellbound by one of Captain Fiona’s tales of adventure, the seasoned veteran having run into more wild things than Tillie could hope to write down, and the two of them made for an odd sort of friends; coming together over stories of leviathans and voidworms, the likes of which you hoped to never see.
You tackled most of your tasks with gusto, a feat that even Ezra had to admit he was impressed with. The deck was swabbed, sails were mended, and ropes were tended to on the regular; all according to his guidance. Ezra would parade past you, looking for all the world like the most backbreaking of taskmasters, but the moment the crew wasn’t looking he would slip a fresh baked treat into your pocket with a wink and a nod. “Lookin’ good.” He’d whisper, flashing you that roguish grin. “When you’re finished, there’s more of those in the galley. I’m tryin’ a new recipe and I must know how you like them.”
The food that came from his kitchen was surprisingly good, much better than you expected to eat on a months-long journey between worlds, but you had Ezra to thank for that. The cyborg refused to let you touch his cooking, but he insisted that you sample each and every single thing that he made. The theatrics he’d put on for you on that first day carried into everything he did, and you wondered if he did so naturally or if he was doing it to impress you. Either way, though he wouldn’t let you handle the food itself, he absolutely demanded that you handle everything else.
As his cabin girl -oh how he loved to lord that over you- you got the fun job of doling out grub at meal times, as well as taking care of the dishes and cookware. Not even the Benbow’s kitchen used as many pots and pans as Ezra did, and the stacks upon stacks of dirty dishes made you want to fucking scream; but at least you weren’t lonely. Ez cooked while you cleaned, and his incessant chattering slowly started to grow on you.
“Tit for tat, starling.” He’d demand after regaling you with the most whimsical of tales. “I told you one, now I must hear one of yours.” Try as you might to inform him you had nothing of interest to tell -and certainly nothing as wild as what he’d come up with- he refused to let your conversations be one-sided.
So you told him all you had. You told him about the Benbow and your dumb sister, and all the annoying customers that came through the tavern’s doors. Ezra took a curiously keener interest when you brought up your father, but was respectful enough not to pry when you told him you’d rather not talk about it. He was, however, unbelievably adamant in hearing more about your run-ins with the law, and nearly blown away by your solarboarding flights of fancy.
After about a month of getting to know one another, you started to feel like his stories weren’t the only things you were becoming enamoured with, and you couldn’t help but wonder if he felt the same. Try as you might to wash your thoughts away with the dirty dish water, the charming cyborg’s husky baritone and sweet southern drawl curled through your ears and down your spine like a sinful serpent with that mischievous grin of his in place of fangs. His broad-shouldered swagger didn’t help matters either, dancing around you with lithe, graceful steps that belied the fact that almost half of him was made of gears and circuits instead of meat and bone, but the parts of him that were still organic you were longing to touch.
You were finally given some sort of a hint the night you were so buried by pots and pans and plates to clean that by the time you’d gotten to the very last pot, your eyes could no longer keep themselves open, and you dozed off on top of your work; somehow managing not to fall off your stool in the process. The dream you were having about your scrub brush getting up and doing your job for you was softly interrupted by a heavy weight being draped gently over your shoulders.
Groggily, you stirred yourself awake to find Ezra’s heavy, single-sleeved waistcoat blanketing your back, the oversized garment warm and snuggly and smelling strongly of its owner. Glancing behind you, you just barely caught the bottom of his boot as he ascended the stairs out of the galley without a single word, and the fact that he hadn’t wanted to disturb your sleep made a strange new warmth bloom in your chest.
Devious thoughts itched in the back of your mind when Ezra called you down to the longboat hold, intent on showing you the emergency lowering mechanisms should the situation call for it. Eager to prove yourself a spacer, you followed Ezra’s instructions to a tee, crossing the gangplank over the open exit hole in the Dawnbreaker’s keel to unfasten the last of the knots anchoring the longboat to the ship, but once all the ropes were freed and the little vessel was floating out the door, you watched, sullen and despondent, as Ezra went out with it.
He’s leaving. You heard the voice of your sister whisper from the back of your mind. He’s leaving and he’s never coming back! She was a mess, and you could barely get a clear word out of her, thinking it was some shitty boyfriend of hers again, but once she’d stumbled through the fact that it was your dad, you’d nearly bulldozed her over trying to get to the door. You’d been in bed all morning, hungover from a night of partying that had gotten you dragged home by cop-bots again, and the blinding Montressan noon was almost enough to keep you contained.
Almost.
You saw him then, a man you loved but barely knew, untying his ship from the pier so far down from the tavern. Nauseous and heartbroken, you ran for him, tripping over your own feet, slipping and sliding down the gravelly driveway to where the men in your family so often were dragged away, called to chase a higher purpose beyond the stars. He was gone before you reached the pier, fading away quickly, most likely never to be seen again. But that’s just what men did, you’d started to learn, they left. They left and they never-
“Are you comin’ or what?”
The call snapped you out of your trip down memory lane, drawing your bewildered gaze out the open cargo hold to where Ezra was beckoning you down, imploring you to jump. Realizing you weren’t getting ditched after all, you rolled your shoulders and leapt the fair distance down to the longboat, stumbling into the cyborgs' open arms. You hadn’t expected him to catch you, and the sudden closeness made your guts flip more than the hail-Kevva jump you just made. “You want me to come with you?”
“‘Course I do, you need to learn how to pilot one of these cantankerous contraptions, right?” He said sweetly, patting your shoulders and quickly breaking the physical contact. He took his seat on the passenger side, pointing with an artificial digit at your place in the driver’s seat. “So, here’s your rudder controls and your ionizer thrust adjustment -that dictates your speed-” Ezra began, already prattling away, but you weren’t entirely listening. Instead you were watching the cyborg’s scruffy face and the genuine excitement in his eyes at getting to spend this time with you. However, you’d built and rebuilt enough machines on Montressor to already have more than enough mechanical know-how, and you decided that you’d rather show off than get shown up. “-This rope is for your sail and- wait, what are you- starling wait. Wait!”
You did not wait.
Punching a handful of buttons on the engine controls, you swivelled the steering yoke around into your lap and gunned it, blasting off from under the Dawnbreaker with ludicrous speed. Ezra barely managed to catch his hat before it was ripped from his curly head, his metal fingers digging into the longboat’s rails to keep himself from being blown away as well. The boat’s sail caught the solar winds eagerly, fueling the fire of the heavens into your aft jets and casting you swiftly away into the Ethereal expanse.
There, in the distance, you saw the glacial-blue tail of a comet streaking through the void, burning its way brightly through the cosmic pseudosphere. It’s small, but as you blasted towards it it grew in size until it consumed all you saw, the first flakes of ice already dusting your hair. You stole a glance at Ezra, and were delighted to find him absolutely terrified. He looked your way, shaking his head and mouthing ‘no no no!’ but disobeying orders was what you did best.
The sail snapped shut, almost flush with the boom, streamlining your little skiff. You drove the prow into the luminous tail of the comet, the celestial rapids threatening to toss you back into the abyss. Sub-zero frost burned against your cheeks and made your eyes water, but you were undaunted by the way your tears froze in the corners of your eyes. Your blood was molten, adrenaline searing through your veins, rising volcanically when a wave of ionized gas slapped the bottom of your keel and sent you spinning, but you conquered it with hellbent aggression, spiralling through the radiant wake.
The longboat exploded out the side of the comet’s tail like a phoenix reborn, trailing ice crystals behind it in a wake of glittering stars. Your teeth hurt from the cold of it, and you realized you’d been smiling the whole time, perhaps a little maniacally. Figuring Ezra had probably fainted, you looked over at him, a slew of snide remarks dying on your lips when you saw him staring. His eyes were big, the brown one matched in intensity by his cyberoptic, but the starstruck look on his face was distinctly and undeniably human.
Suddenly warm -and embarrassed- you focused on getting the longboat back into the Dawnbreaker’s hold. Hand over hand the two of you hoisted the little ship up into her rack, anchoring her in place with the knots Ezra taught you how to tie. The second the boat was secure, the adrenaline in your veins took its toll, and you felt your knees gloriously give out. “Whew!” you panted, flopping down onto the boat’s bench seat. “Still in one piece, Ez?”
“I-I think so. Seven fucking hells, girl, you never told me you could fly like that.” He wheezed, readjusting his hat before dropping gracelessly onto the seat next to you. Before you could politely inform him that there was another seat with plenty of room on it, he threw his left arm over your shoulders, the heat of his body cutting through your frosty clothes. “That was amazing, starling! Stupendous! Spectacular! Sensational! ” He cried with a dramatic wave of his free hand. “I was certain we were hurtling to our deaths, but you-” His human arm tightened around your shoulders, drawing you into poking range so he could tap an iron digit against your sternum. “The moment I saw the light in your eyes, I knew there’d be nobody else I’d rather trust at the helm.”
“It was nothing, really! Not all that much crazier than flying on Montressor. Done it loads of times...” You tried to deflect, but he scoffed at you in disbelief and drew you closer to him.
“Bullshit! You know how to fly like that and yet you continue to wait tables? If I’d witnessed you pulling such stunts as those before now I’d have whisked you off to the Etherium myself! The company you keep must be blinder than cave fish, watchin’ you tear off like that and still keepin’ you cooped up. Why, I’d sell myself for scrap if it meant gettin’ to partake in your aeronautical acrobatics. I’d even steal the stars themselves for you if it meant you could fly amongst them, because it’s clearer to me than a crystalline chrysalis that you, little bird, are truly meant to fly! ”
Face hot, you coughed slightly to ease the tension, trying not to get distracted too much by the heat of his body radiating against your side. “What are you saying, Ez? That you’d want to sweep me off my feet?”
“That’s quite a poetic way’a puttin’ it, my dear. But yes, there is nothing that I would like to do more…”
Ezra was close now, really close, his face only a few inches from yours, the wind-blown grin on his face showing off his pearly whites behind plush pink lips. You glanced at them briefly, your eyes flicking between his mouth and his eyes, trying not to think too hard about what it would be like to kiss him. Your imagination would have done little justice anyway, because Ezra was thinking the same thing, and decided to lean in and make it a reality.
The first touch of his lips against yours was feather-light, but electric all the same, and the soft little gasps you both made only furthered the shockwaves crackling through your system like live wires. Warmer and softer than you could have ever fantasized, Ezra’s perfect lips moulded to yours, his bristles tickling slightly under your nose, but the moment you turned your head to chase the kiss deeper, he pulled away. “I-I’m sorry,” He stammered, suddenly sheepish. “I shouldn’t’ve done that.”
“What? Why not?” You asked, feeling like a bucket of ice water had been dumped on you. Is it me? Did I do something wrong?
“It’s not right for me to force my desires on you, and to kiss you without even asking-” Ezra whined, looking distressed, and you felt him try to tug his arm free of your shoulders.
Oh. You sighed at him and all his foolishness, leaning back to trap his muscular arm against the seatback. His distress turned to confusion when he found himself unable to retreat.
“Then ask.”
Realization dawned on him slowly, and he let himself relax around your body, his thumb tracing a tentative circle where it rested against your arm. His prosthetic hissed slightly when he brought it up to tug on his collar, trying to allow some of the heat to escape that was building in his chest. “Um, alright.” He nearly whispered, his throat bobbing with a swallow. “M-may I kiss you, beautiful?”
You managed a half-muttered ‘yes’ before pressing your lips to his again. He hummed with surprise and excitement, delighted that you had accepted his utterance of affection. The soft noise he made curled your lips into a cheeky grin, making it all that more difficult to kiss him, but he was steadfast in chasing the sensation. He shifted in his seat so as to better slot his mouth to yours, and you felt the sudden strangeness of his metal hand brush lightly against your cheek.
The coolness of it made you gasp, but his synthetic touch was gentle, the pad of his thumb tracing your cheekbone, fingers wrapping around the back of your head to pull you into him. He kissed you slowly, nervously, as if at any moment the dream would dissipate like smoke on the wind, and he would be forced to face the waking world without you in his arms.
But no, you were real, real and really here, kissing him, of all people. The most cautious tip of a tongue lapped against your lower lip, and you rewarded him by bringing out your own to taste him back. Everything about Ezra was more intoxicating than you thought possible; the scent of fresh-cut fruit and warm solar breezes, the faint, smokey remnants of tobacco and the sweat of a hard working man, pairing like a fine wine with the flavor of his kiss.
You brought your hand up to comb your fingers through the blond patch above his cybernetic eye, pushing his triangular hat back as you did to card through his curls til it sat haphazardly on his head. He groaned at the sensation of you teasing his locks, unused to being touched in such a way, but he was unable to resist surrendering to your tender administrations.
“My little starling…” he sighed, turning to kiss the inside of your palm. “You don’t know how hard it’s been to keep my hands from you. These last few weeks in your presence have bordered nigh on torturous.” He carefully wrapped his broad hands around the underside of your knees, dragging you into his lap so you straddled his narrow waist. “C-can I touch more of you?”
“Please, Ezra.” you pleaded, anchoring your knees to the longboat’s seat, giving you better leverage against his lap. Looking down on him from your perch, you had the most delightful view of his face. The starstruck look you’d seen earlier had returned, and the most sheepish little smile turned his cheeks upwards right before he kissed you again.
With his lips pressed to yours, he let his hands roam over your body, trailing from your spread thighs to your hips, digging his fingers longingly into the soft flesh. You held onto his shoulders for support, becoming slightly distracted by the feeling of where his prosthetic met his body, thick muscle giving way to hard iron, but another hardness drew your attention even quicker.
Grinding your hips against him rewarded you with the feeling of his cock hardening under you, the length of it trapped by his pant leg. It twitched when you dragged your core against it, making Ezra moan against your lips. He pulled himself from your kiss with a gasp, his sweaty brow arched pleadingly. “If you keep doin’ that I’m certain not to last, and what a shame that would be if I’d not pleasured you prior. Contrary to what the captain thinks, it’s been a long, long time since I’ve felt the touch of another, especially since… this.”
The gears in his arm whirred faintly when he brought it up between you, turning it over to look at his palm. There was pain in his eyes, made worse by the flicker-flick of his glowing laser sight, but that pain seemed to melt away when you cradled his face in your hand, tracing the stubble along the razor-sharp edge of his jaw. “How did it happen? If you don’t mind me asking?”
He sighed, nuzzling into the warmth of your palm, cupping the back of your hand with his own. “You give up a few things, chasing a dream.”
“Was it worth it?”
Ezra furrowed his brow, deep in thought for a moment, but when he came out of his own head, he did so with a smirk so insidious you felt yourself clench around nothing. “It’s about to be.”
You knew right away by the glint in his eye that he was going to rock your world, but only if the world didn’t try to rock you first.
-*SccrRRREAAAAAAAAAAAACHH*-
Something monstrous slammed against the outside of the ship, the noise of it deafening in the quaking hold. The longboat lurched and flailed in its anchorings, nearly tossing you and Ezra out of it as it thrashed, but the cyborg’s iron grip kept you safe in his embrace. Emergency lights and sirens started going off all at once, tearing you both from your moment of intimacy. The Dawnbreaker shuddered and groaned underfoot as you both tore up the steps, Ezra working to adjust himself before stumbling up to the deck.
You flew ahead of him, bursting out of the longboat hold and into a flurry of panicked activity. A horrifying, gut wrenching roar drowned out the sound of the captain bellowing orders, and when you turned to see the source of the noise, you immediately wished you hadn’t.
Where the Etherium had once been now stretched a black, shimmering wall of undulating flesh that made even orcus galacticus look like nothing more than a flea. The creature’s skin blinked intermittently with a trail of pulsating lights -a bastardized mirror of the stars themselves- leading your eyes up a grotesque pathway towards a horrible, gaping maw, filled to the brim with razor sharp teeth.
Void worm.
“EVASIVE ACTION MR. ARBUCKLE!” You heard the captain scream as she hauled ass across the deck. The Dawnbreaker obeyed her command, veering sickeningly to the side just as the leviathan’s colossal jaws snapped mere inches away from the ships’ hull. “Mr. Bolt! Secure all solar sails!”
“You ‘eard ‘er, lads!” The croc roared, finding himself a lifeline to tie around his waist. “Bring ‘em in!” You and Ezra followed suit, securing your lines before rushing to the bowsprit on the front of the ship, flying with surefooted steps along the narrow catwalk towards the jib lines, far, far out over the living abyss. The worm’s seemingly endless body coiled and slithered around the ship, attempting to confuse its prey with a cosmic firestorm of bioluminescence before it struck again.
Side by side, you and Ezra hauled on the lines, your muscles straining in tandem with his steaming prosthetic as if you were in sync. The electric-blue washed sails flickered as they furled, the eyes of the ship closing for what you hoped wouldn’t be the last time, but just as you secured the canvas the creature slammed its voluminous body against the ship’s hull.
“Fuck!” Ezra screamed, his arms windmilling, striving to keep himself upright, but it was too late.
“Ezra!!” He fell before your very eyes, and were it not for your selfless reflexes you wouldn’t have caught his life-line in time. The rope burned your palms as it tried to slip through your grasp, but you -strong and stubborn as you are- hauled him up with all your might. His iron hand dug viciously into the bowsprit where he caught himself, leaving furrows in the wood as he pulled himself up.
“Starling!” he cried, stumbling on his knees into your arms. “Thank you!” You almost let yourself get caught up in the genuine gratitude shining like the radiant dawn on his face, but before you could, the worm had other ideas.
Its massive bulk had coiled around to strike again, colossal jaws spread wide and covered in thousands of glistening teeth; the gates of Tartarus brought alive and intent on ferrying you straight to hell. You watched in horror as it closed the distance to the fleeing ship, oblivious to the canonfire peppering its flesh, but before it could crush your little toy boat to splinters, it screamed, an unholy noise so horrible and deafening you could do nothing more than cover your ears.
You hoped that the canonfire had gotten a lucky shot in, but oh no, you would not be so fortunate. Instead, you were going to learn that no matter whether you sailed the sea or stars,
There would always be a bigger fish.
The Dawnbreaker narrowly missed being caught in the worms constricting coils as it flailed in the grip of an even more monstrous beast. Seemingly dozens of enormous, sucker-covered tentacles wrapped around the squirming worm, hauling it backwards towards an even bigger maw and a horrible, painful death.
“Cephalopoda macrocosmus?!” Tillie screamed from the deck, watching in abject horror as the leviathans grappled for dominance in the ships’ wake. “Those aren’t supposed to be real!!”
“Well it looks real enough to me, Doctor!” Shouted the captain from where she was white-knuckling the wheel, her four eyes narrowed nearly to slits. “Keep firing, men! Blast that calamari cunt to smithereens!” Canon blasts roared from the ships deck at her command, carpeting the flesh of both monsters in glorious hellfire, but neither of them gave a flying fuck, too intent on killing or being killed. “Hawkins!” Fiona roared the moment your boots hit the deck. “Secure those lifelines!”
“Aye captain!” The ropeburns -yank- on your palms went unnoticed as you tightened -yank- all the knots on the mast hitch -yank- the lives of your crewmates -yank- literally in your hands. Your shoulders -yank- burned and your joints -yank- cracked with each -yank- but none would -yank- die on your watch if you had -yank- anything to say about it. “All secured, captain!”
And just in time, too, for right as the very last knot left your fingers, Captain Fiona drove the ship into a barrel roll, skimming the keel over some horrific fleshy appendage and sending crewmates sliding across the deck with the inertia. The Dawnbreaker, with her sails tightly tucked, snaked and weaved more nimbly than a ship of her size should have between the clashing titans, sending the stars streaking by sickeningly overhead.
~
High above where you were holding onto the mast for dear life, Mr. Bolt was losing his grip on the ropes. The Dawnbreaker practically bounced when it struck the worms’ flank, the force of it ripping the heavy croc from his place on the topyard. He went flying, sailing out over the squirming void until his life-line snapped around his waist. It hurt, but it was better than being flung off into space.
Claw over claw, he urgently towed himself in, but when he looked to his ship -his salvation- what he saw instead was the devil himself; with his yellow compound eyes and sneering, bloodthirsty grin, matched only in wickedness by his razor sharp claws.
-snip!-
Mr. Skarn, ever the opportunist, watched in malevolent delight as Mr. Bolt’s horrified face disappeared into the writhing dark, his severed life-line still locked in his hands, never to be seen again.
~
Trying to stop the universe from spinning, you narrowly missed being bulldozed by Tillie as she ran screaming past you. “CAPTAIN!! STOP SHOOTING STOP SHOOTING!” She screeched, stumbling across the deck like a drunk in the Dawnbreaker’s valkyrian flight.
All of you instictivly ducked when some meaty appendage sailed by, but Fiona’s skills at the wheel were unparalleled by any. “It’s us or it, doctor!” She nearly howled, the plumage on her head crested high in defiance. “Don’t let up!”
“No! Captain! You don’t understand! The -fucking shit!!- Cephalopoda are extremely territorial! We need to get away from it before-”
-*CCUuuurRUNCH!!!*-
The annihilation of the voidworm’s spine sent a monumental shockwave across the Etherium, striking your ship with the full force of the creature’s demise. Brilliant blue viscera sprayed from the titan’s broken body, its horrible screams suddenly silenced as it disappeared into the kraken’s maw.
“B-before it runs out of things to eat…”
The tentacled beast slurped the rest of the worm up like overcooked pasta, crunching and gnawing on its colossal bones while shot upon shot of plasma carpeted its writhing flesh; and the moment its meal had vanished completely, the kraken turned its beady eyes on you.
Spreading its arms wide, the monster's tentacles made short work of all the distance the ship had put between it, seemingly stretching to infinity and beyond; all consuming in its presence. In the center of the horrible beast, its cavernous jaws pulsated horrifically, the remains of the voidworm stuck between its innumerable teeth.
“If we can’t fucking shoot and we can’t outrun it then what can we do?!”
“It only has one weakpoint, but it’s not even supposed to be real, so I don’t know how accurate this myth-”
“Spit it out, Doctor!!”
“The uvula! Focus all your fire on the uvula!”
Fiona looked somehow both perplexed and disgusted. “The what?!”
Tillie dangled her finger downwards. “The hangy thingy in the back of its throat!”
Would it have been a less harrowing scenario, the captain probably would have laughed, but over her shoulder the kraken was almost upon the ship. Her multitudinous eyes narrowed in on the squishy pink thing far, far in the back of the monster's throat. None of the canons pointed aft, and the creature was gaining fast. That left only one weapon at her disposal:
The ship itself.
“Everyone hang on! This is gonna be a bumpy fucking ride!” Captain Fiona bellowed before cutting off the rear propulsion jets. “Ceasefire! Divert all power to the main thrusters, on my signal!” The kraken’s monumental bulk overtook the ship in seconds, erasing the stars from sight as the Dawnbreaker seemingly slid backwards into its mouth.
You did as the captain ordered, hugging the mast for dear life and trying not to look up as the Etherium was replaced by a pulsating wall of teeth. Squeezing your eyes closed, you awaited the inevitability of your death, and were surprised when it felt like you were being embraced.
You were expecting a crunch, or a squish, maybe even a pop, bones and guts torn asunder along with the worm; not the warm, enveloping comfort smothering your backside like a protective fortress. Never in any story or legend that you’d read had you ever know the finality of death to feel so much like a warm hug.
“NOW!!!”
In the dark behind your eyes you felt the ships’ engines explode back to life, all her firepower channeled into a final burst of energy. The kraken roared in pain, so loud you swore the ship would be rattled apart just from the sound alone. But then she was soaring, regurgitated violently from the precipice of death and plowing headlong towards the open stars again; and with its throat scorched raw, the kraken took its leave.
You didn’t open your eyes again until you heard cheering, the crew celebrating their captain’s victory. Blinking, you let your breath go, unaware you had been holding it, but the strange bulk against your back was still there, pressing you hard against the mast. You turned your face from where you were smushed against the pillar, looking down at your side to find what was caging you in.
Ezra.
Using his body as a shield, he had you pinned to the mast, his cybernetic arm digging hard into the wood; but his other one was wrapped tightly around your waist, keeping his broad chest flush with your spine. “Are you alright, starling?” He asked right in your ear, his chin grazing your cheek briefly as he finally backed up a bit to let you breathe. You nodded, smiling big when he let his own tense shoulders drop.
The two of you turned to where the captain was receiving her well-deserved praise, joining the crew in cheering her on. Fiona looked for all the world entirely cool and composed, smoothing down her headfeathers with a proud grin on her face. Beside her, Tillie was looking exceptionally green around the gills, nauseous and terrified beyond belief.
“C-c-captain, that was marvelous! How did you -hurk- how did you know how to do that?”
“Was nothing, really. Had to out-maneuver some pirates once, did the same thing.” Fiona huffed, checking the ship’s position with a sextant. “Actually doctor, I should thank you. Without your know-how about the creature’s weakness we’d all be fish food.”
“Please don’t mention food.”
“If you insist. Mr. Bolt, all crewmates present and accounted for?” Fiona clacked, cocking a handful of eyes towards the congregation, but received no answer from her first mate. “...Mr. Bolt?”
Her inquiry was answered, not with the rough, grating voice of the croc she knew, but with the tack-tack-tack of many jointed legs walking across the deck towards her. Mr. Skarn glided solemnly through the crowd towards the captain, someone else's hat held delicately between his claws.
“Missster Bolt hasss been lossst, captain. Hisss life-line wasss not sssecure…” Skarn passed the dead man’s hat to the captain, who took it as if she was being handed Mr. Bolt’s own corpse. She looked to you, the one she had charged -trusted- to secure the lines, with twice as much sadness in her four eyes.
“N-no! I checked them! I know I did!” You balked, feeling the bile rise in the back of your throat at the accusation. Running back for the mast hitch, you felt all your blood drain from your body at the single empty peg where Mr. Bolt’s rope should have been. “I… I know I did.” You whispered to the mast alone, tears stinging in the backs of your eyes.
Blinded by the heartbreak of your own failure, you missed the quick exchange behind you between Mr. Skarn and Mr. Green. Ezra took one look at the smug, vile smirk on the arachnids’ face and knew without a shadow of a doubt that Bolt’s death had not been an accident.
Fiona didn’t see it either, her gaze locked to all that remained of her friend. Her big black eyes threatened to mist over, and would have were she not such a resilient captain. She gently swiped her thumb over the felt of Mr. Bolt’s standard-issue tricorn hat, picking slightly at the gold filaments embroidered along the edge. He always thought it was so tacky.
“Mr. Bolt was an excellent spacer.” She started, not even clearing her throat. “And though he was a salty old crocodile, he was my friend, and he will be severely missed. But he knew the risks, as do we all. Return to your posts, we carry on.”
Ezra didn’t know why he was so… angry.
He should have been delighted, overjoyed, even, but instead he was seething to himself behind a deadpan scowl, gnawing away on the end of a lit tobacco pipe while he watched the stars go by. Not only had he and his crew survived a run-in with a fucking kraken, but Mr. Skarn had done away with the first mate, the big scalie no longer posing an obstacle in the coming takeover.
But Skarn had disobeyed Ezra’s direct order not to shed blood on this ship until it was time, and, worse yet, he had branded you -his cabin girl, his starling- as the culprit. He took a long, thoughtful drag on his pipe, the embers in the bowl glowing faintly, mimicking the orangy-red glow of his false eye while he mentally chewed on his thoughts.
‘My’ starling? When did I start referring to her as mine?
Ezra’s efforts of manipulation were working far better than he had anticipated, winding you right around his little finger with sweets and serenades and seduction. He was playing the long con with you, earning your trust, luring you into a false sense of security, and it was working like a charm. Soon enough all he would have to do is ask you about aurelac, and you would divulge all you knew gladly, just to hear him shower you with praise. He really shouldn’t care what happened to you, an inevitable casualty in the coming mutiny, and someone he certainly shouldn’t get attached to.
And yet.
White-grey smoke billowed around the cyborg when he exhaled, savoring the tobacco one last time before he extinguished the pipe and set off to go find you. He hadn’t seen you since… the incident, feeling that he needed to give you time to breathe after experiencing such a tragedy, but he couldn’t refrain himself any longer from checking in with… his cabin girl.
Ezra heard your furious sweeping even before he began the descent down the galley steps, taking a moment to close the trap hatch behind him as he did. You didn’t seem to hear his cattywampus steps, too intent on sweeping every nook and cranny you could get your broom into, the bristles scratch scratch scratching against the hardwood floor. Your brow was furrowed over your thousand-yard stare, and Ezra couldn’t help but interrupt.
“Starling?”
“I’m busy, Ezra.”
The tone of your voice shouldn’t have hurt his heart as much as it did, the pain seeping into so few words drew him closer until he was reaching out to you with his remaining arm. You jumped hard when he found your shoulder, reluctantly being yanked from your work to glare at him and oh your face!
“You’ve been crying?” He whispered softly, soothingly, his face just as distraught as yours was red and blotchy; but you reacted to his kindness with venom, immediately swatting his hand away.
“I said I’m busy, Ez! Take a fucking hint!” You furiously began sweeping again, but the cyborg stole the broom away from you and cast it across the kitchen. “Hey!”
“Stop sweepin’ and start talkin’.” Ezra demanded, crowding you in with his broad body until the nearest countertop bumped against your back. “Tell me what’s wrong.”
You crossed your arms, trying vigilantly to ward him off, but his amberdark eye cut your defences to the quick, and they fell away entirely when his warm hand came up to caress your cheek. “I… I shoulda stayed on Montressor. Shoulda stayed where I belonged, where I couldn’t hurt anyone but myself! It’s all my fault Mr. Bolt is dead!”
The crack in your voice made everything inside Ezra’s chest feel like it was breaking, and he wanted so, so badly to tell you that it wasn’t true.
It wasn’t your fault, starling, it was that damn crabheaded lunatic. You did nothing wrong.
But, telling you that would ruin everything he’d worked so hard for. Not only would that give the entire sabotage mission away, but it would practically write his death certificate for him once you knew there were pirates afoot. No, there’s too much at stake. He didn’t want to keep lying to you, a fact that he was rapidly becoming distraught with, but seeing you suffering was somehow even worse.
“Starling…” he began, wiping at your eyes with his good thumb. “Listen, what you did out there today, keepin’ your head while the heavens were fallin’ down around you, that was astounding! You could’ve run an’ hid, but you scaled the riggin’ like a real spacer. And, not only were you fearless out there, but you rescued me from certain death! I’m standin’ here, in all my mechanical glory, alive’n well because of you!”
Ezra’s face lit up with a smile so big and wide when you finally met his eyes, though you yourself were nearly in tears again, clearly not having considered that you might have saved a life today as well. He curled his hands around your shoulders, a knowing glint in his remaining eye that matched the spark of his optic’s glow. “Kevva’s light has never shined so brightly until you graced her humble realm, and oh, how lucky I am to be witness to it! Truely, never has there been a wretched creature more fortunate than I, because when the stars called for a champion, you were the one to answer. If’n you asked me where I thought you ‘belonged’, why I’d say that you, starling mine, are right where you’re meant to be. ”
Try as he might to tell you falsehoods that would ease your spirits, not even he knew how much of what had rolled off his silver tongue wasn’t true. It flowed too easily, and landed just as well, making your breath heave and your eyes scrunch from his words alone. His kindness drew you in, and you found yourself wrapping your arms around his waist, pressing your face into his warm chest.
“Thanks, Ez..”
Surprised by your sudden embrace, Ezra’s hands floated briefly behind you, unsure of what to do; but when you sighed contentedly into his linen shirt, he held back no longer, wrapping himself around you as well. “Of course, sweet thing.” He murmured against the side of your head, carefully dragging his human arm up and down your spine and keeping the mechanical one tightly around your middle.
He was beginning to worry that he was falling for his own game of deception, enjoying much too much the feeling of you in his arms, but he found himself unable to dwell on it in the slightest when he felt your lips against the side of his neck. He couldn’t even chide you for not asking permission to do so, his mouth too busy groaning at the gentle sensation of you trailing up his throat, pressing careful kisses to the underside of his bristly jaw. “S-starling...?”
“Ezra…” The way you purred his name against his flesh nearly fried his circuits, causing his optic to flicker along with his fluttering eye. It didn’t take him long to cave, tilting his own face down to kiss at your forehead, your cheeks, and finally your lips, savoring the sweetness of your kiss for himself.
He leaned his weight against you, forcing you harder against the countertop with every inch of his body that he could press to you, only backing slightly when he felt you try to shimmy onto the granite. Ezra lifted you up with ease, his iron digits digging more pointedly into the undersides of your thigh than his broad, calloused palm. The moment you were seated you wrapped your legs around his hips, spurring your heels into his thighs, encouraging him to rut against your core.
The passionate moment you had been building to before you had been so rudely interrupted came surging back, igniting between your pressed bodies with survivor’s desperation. Ezra practically clawed at your leather jacket, pushing it from your shoulders and shirking his own overcoat off quickly before the heat became unbearable.
Free of the stifling outwear, Ezra’s kisses turned from diligent to sloppy, his hands digging under your shirt, roving over the soft skin of your tummy and upwards to your breasts, catching them in his mismatched hands. His breath caught in his throat, a whimpering moan hissing against your lips. “Fucking hell you’re so soft… Stars how I wish I could feel them with both hands.”
“‘S’ok, Ez, f-feels good.” The heat of his left hand contradicted gloriously against the cool metal of his right, but both were well suited to groping at the pillowy flesh, squeezing you gently while pinching the sensitive tips. You arched your back into his touch, grinding your hips into his in time with the rolling of his fingers, your desperate breath getting lost against his lips.
“T-tell me you want this, starling?” He pleaded, nipping slightly at your lower lip. “Tell me you want me?”
Such a gentleman. You fluttered your eyes at him, dragging your hands down the broad expanse of his chest towards his belt, and plunged your hand into his pants. He keened when you palmed his hard length, desperate to keep from making too much noise but oh fuck your hand felt so good.
“Does this answer your question, Ez?” You purred, relishing in the starstruck look on his face that you were becoming an expert in conjuring. “Almost lost you today, might not get another chance.”
“S-still need...oh stars above… still need to hear you s-aaah~ say it, you little vixen.” His thighs shook between your legs when you tugged gently on his cock, the velvety thing twitching excitedly at your touch. You swirled your thumb against his weeping slit, dragging warm precum down his throbbing member.
“Ezra~” you cooed, dragging your teeth along the column of his throat. “I want you. I… need you… Please, Ez?”
The cyborg practically growled his excitement, the vents on his forearm hissing in anticipation at the debauchery of your words. “As you wish, starling, but I warn you, I will not be gentle.” You managed a nod, the affirming gesture swallowed by his hungry kiss. Deft fingers made short work of belts and boots, leaving you sitting on the countertop with your shirt hiked up over your breasts and your pants dangling from an ankle.
In the low light of the galley, you watched Ezra free himself, unbuckling his belt and pushing the hem of his trousers down to let his cock spring out. You licked your lips unconsciously at the sight of him, your cunt clenching at his size. He’s thick, the girth of it throbbing in time with the rapid beating of his heart and drooling with glimmering slick.
You spread your legs wide for him, whining into the crook of his neck when he rubbed the leaking head of his cock against your sensitive little pearl, sliding temptingly against your puffy slit with a feral look in his eyes. “Need to feel you first, beautiful, then I’ll show you what this hunk of hardware can really do.” He didn’t give you a chance to ask him exactly what he meant by that, all your vocabulary knocked from your skull by his cock notching at your entrance and slowly, deliberately splitting you open.
“Ezr-umph!” You tried to cry out from the near-painful stretch of him, but he clamped his good hand over your mouth, shushing you soothingly.
“Shhh, babygirl. Can’t let anyone hear us now, can we? Don’t want to get caught before I get a chance to really fuck you right.” He pulled his hips back achingly slow, making sure you felt every inch of his length before he was slamming into you again. “Oh fuck, pretty girl, you feel exquisite.” He snapped his hips against yours, thrusting himself as deeply into your cunt as he could, gritting his teeth to keep from moaning aloud at the silky slickness of your walls.
Ezra dove to slot his mouth to yours again, snuffing out your cries with his lips and tongue. Distracted by his aggressive kiss, you weren’t aware of his mechanical arm sliding out from behind you to snake in between your bodies, trailing along the inside of your thigh towards where you were joined. His messy thrusts slowed, and a low, villainous laugh rumbled from the back of his throat, catching your attention briefly before a new sensation drew your focus.
He pushed the nubby tip of his thumb against your clit, flashing you that wolfish grin when you convulsed. “Easy, love, let me take care of you. Make you feel good.” He rested his forehead against yours, watching you watch him draw circles against the sensitive bundle of nerves with his robotic hand, grinning like a fox at the desperation on your face. “You like that, beautiful? That’s not all it can do.” He kissed you preemptively to muffle your mewls, but you lost all ability to speak when the damn thing started vibrating.
Every muscle in your body went tight, curling you into a shaking, quivering ball in his arm. Your legs shook and your back arched, your throat nearly closing off from the pleasure of it, slingshotting you towards the edge of ecstasy with blinding speed. Ezra circled his little toy around your nub, and you lost it, cumming so hard you squelched obscenely around his length, soaking everything from his cock to his wrist.
Ezra tore himself from your lips and sank his teeth into your neck, growling from the strength of your walls bearing down on him. He managed to shake his arm out before fucking into you with abandon, your soaking wet hole taking him easily, but he wasn’t kidding about not being gentle.
He fucked you rough, slamming into you again and again, making your whole body scoot across the counter while he carved a space for himself in your core. He coiled his arms around your waist, driving the heel he had left into the floorboards and plowing into you like it was the last thing he would ever do. All efforts to keep quiet went out the window, the steady slap slap slap of skin on skin echoing sinnfully through the galley.
Arms around his neck, you held onto him for all your worth, lost in his all-consuming embrace while he chased his own high. You felt it build in him, his breath heaving, muscles straining and teeth bared, desperate to claim your body in the way only he could. “Gonna… gonna cum, love, c-can I...?”
“Yes!” was all you managed before his hips stuttered, driving himself as deeply into you as he could and letting loose. He snarled as he came, his gorgeous, scruffy face twisted in ecstasy as he unloaded everything he had into you, painting your womb in his pearly conquest. Your fluttering walls squeezed around him, making your combined juices dribble down your ass into a puddle on the floor. I just swept that damn floor.
“My starling,” Ezra panted, kissing every inch of your skin that he could reach. “Beautiful, gorgeous, celestial creature of the stars, I must apologize for my hurried pace-”
“Ez…”
“-but were I destined to meet my death come the morrow, I would do so without an ounce of regret-”
“Ezra…”
“Because I have been blessed with the knowledge, nay, the divinity of your heavenly body, yet I am nothing but a mortal man-”
“EZRA!” You snapped playfully, catching his flush, sweaty face between your hands. “Stop apologizing.”
He sucked a breath in, held it, and sighed, letting himself relax in your hold. “Sorry.” he whispered with a sweet kiss, tugging his softening cock free of your cunt with a groan. “Next time that I am permitted to indulge in your sacred wellspring I will certainly be takin’ my time. I want to pick you apart, starling, I want to know every part of you. Want to make you sing for me.”
“I’d like that too, Ez.” You kissed him deeply, slowly, savoring him one last time before the inevitable tolling of the watch bell. The brassy gonging chimed the hour from high above, signaling the changing of the watch.
“Fucksake, is it that time already?” He hissed, hurrying to put himself back together. “I have to get to my watch, darlin’, before they come lookin’ for me. Forgive me, beautiful.” He threw his overcoat back on and smoothed himself down, making sure everything was tucked out of sight. “Get some sleep, alright gorgeous? I’ll be thinkin’ of you all night.”
Ezra adored the way you giggled and nodded, unable to resist stealing one more kiss from you before dashing up the galley steps to take his place on watch rotation. He felt a little bad for leaving you to clean up after yourself, but the high he was riding buzzed delightfully though his synapses, and he couldn’t help the slight skip in his step as he patrolled the deck, breathing deeply the scent of you that clung to his body like a fine perfume.
Maybe if he had been paying more attention, he would have heard the tack tack tack of many-jointed steps coming from high above, the sound of pointed claws scurrying across the yard. If he’d looked up instead of out across the expanse, he would have seen the enormous yellow eyes and sinister smirk that infuriated him so much; and maybe if he wasn’t humming an odd little tune to himself, he might have heard the venomous hissing of a sneaky eavesdropper laughing secretly to themself as they stole away into the night, suddenly in the possession of a treasure more valuable than gold:
In that short moment between the light and dark the sunless void took its opportunity greedily, enveloping you in its shadowy embrace and leaning in close enough to whisper a secret in your ears.
Look.
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Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 9.8k
Content warnings: Language, Ezra being a fucking dick, side character deaths, in-depth descriptions of aurelac harvesting, tragic backstory. Hurt/comfort, wound tending, lots of pining, secretive kisses. Sad ending for the CHAPTER, not for the STORY.
A/N: That last tag is important! This chapter ends on a cliffhanger so if you don't like the suspense it's ok to skip this chapter for now and wait for the last one. I don't do sad endings, I absolutely will not, promise! One more to go!
Swirling clouds of fog blanketed the forested landscape, concealing the dawnlight that peeped through the mist in spears of righteous gold, flickering elusively across the river's surface flowing below you. Steam rose from the waters as the days’ temperature steadily increased through the morning, curling into miniature cyclones in the wake of the hovering longboat. Gliding through the haze, the skiff flew over the water in silence, looking like something from a ghost story with her keel cutting through the fog and not the waves.
You and Ezra sat in the prow, his arm comfortably around your shoulders since you couldn’t hold yourself to the skiff, your own wrists tied and numb behind you. How unfortunate -ironic really- that it was under this same arm that you’d fallen so hard for his warmth, the fire of it rising with the profession of his affections, his desire for your kiss; yet now it scalded you like you were sitting next to the devil himself.
“How much further is it?”
“I’ll know it when I see it.”
“You said that an hour ago.”
It’d gone like this much of the morning, Ezra reliant on your topographical knowledge and none too pleased about it. You liked the power it gave you over him though, the way his lip scrunched and his circuits crackled. He hated not being in control.
“I’m startin’ to wonder if you actually remember the directions-”
“There!” Finally. As you rounded a bend in the river, the placid waters tumbled over the edge of a rocky waterfall, churning frothy rapids through boulders of black granite. From there it spilled into a basin framed by the mist-shrouded jungle, snaking through a colorful meadow until it disappeared into a canyon carved from the same dark rock. As the skiff coasted over the rumbling falls and the tide-like plumes of fog, the canyon revealed itself until it consumed the horizon, a labyrinthian scar of stone walls and roaring waters.
Somewhere in there, was the queen.
Ezra’s grumpy sigh could shake the heavens down if it were any stronger. “Pray tell me little bird, is that valley yonder the site of what we seek?”
“Dunno, gotta get closer.” So I can push you off the edge.
He grumbled his acceptance, waving at the helmsman to continue onward. “For your sake, I hope that it is.”
The meadow passed under your keel in a sea of color, dots of orange and vermillion swaying in an ocean of soft greenery that danced with the wake of the skiff, still wet with morning dew. Lush vegetation thinned and diminished the closer you got to the canyon’s edge, becoming a shoreline of onyx gravel that fell away entirely down the vast ravine. Water-filled corridors of streaky sediment branched and forked for miles, cracking the moon’s surface as if it had been struck by lightning.
There were dozens of them.
Ezra huffed at the sight, scrubbing his chin with his good hand in thought. “I must insist that you disclose which of these abysmal gorges are we headed for, Hawkins, because contrary to my affable nature, I am not a patient man.”
“Water.”
“You are not in any position to barg-”
“Get us something to drink, cyborg, or I’ll just let you roam that hellhole for the next decade looking for rocks.”
“Where did you learn to negotiate?” Ezra fixed you with his half-glare, scratching absently at the strip of cloth tied around his busted face. His single eye flickered from where he held you to him to something along the edge of the meadow, a smirk twisting his bushy lips. “Perhaps I’ll no longer require your assistance after all.”
He patted your arm roughly and stood, making the floating longboat wobble dangerously as he let himself out. Surprised that he just… left, you watched him, unsure if the sparks licking his brain had finally driven him mad or not. Where the meadow washed against the dark gravel, between the green and black, a red-brown smear pushed through the thin soil, unnoticeable to anyone who didn’t know what to look for.
“Kevva favors those who are relentless.” Ezra shouted back to the boat, stabbing his hands to his hips and popping his stance. “I believe we are gettin’ closer to the queen than I thought. A pawn of hers has wandered too far from her protective bosom, and so loses the gambit.” You rolled your eyes, sick of his flowery speeches, but he had his back to you and probably wouldn’t have cared anyway. He fluffed his dark olive overcoat behind him to kneel in the gritty earth, brushing some of the dirt away from his prize.
Aurelac.
Items materialized from his pockets, canisters of fluids and field trays that he arranged around himself. He turned and peered over his shoulder, flashing you that wicked grin with a -snick- of his blade, the steel flashing brightly in the midmorning sun. Turning back to his work, he stabbed the pustule and carved it like he was serving holiday dinner, the meaty sound carrying horrifically over the rushing rapids.
“Is that an aurelac?! Let me see! I promise I won’t touch it, I-I just want to get a better view!” Tillie, ever true to her professional passion, wiggled in her bindings to get a better line of sight.
“It looks like roadkill to me.” Fiona, doing better today, clacked wearily at her overly excited friend. “I hope it fucking bites him.”
“Both of you be quiet! I need to concentrate.” Ezra barked from behind the shield of his coat, drawn up over his face to keep the creature's venomous spittle from his last good eye. The ground fizzled and squeaked, gurgling with some kind of solvent that he’d poured down the hole, and when it went still, he snaked his iron arm into the meaty fissure to remove the pearl’s pouch. You were glad to be so far away from it, disgusted by the milky-white bag Ezra was tearing from the ground, slicing through the umbilical with a wet snap.
“Hoo-wee! Lookit the size of it!” He held the slimy sack up for everyone on the boat to see, making Tillie nearly vibrate with excitement as if that wet bag of goop wasn’t justification for her execution. Ezra’s long blade split the bag open and discarded it after retrieving an even nastier chunk of offal from inside. He dropped it in the little metal tray, holding it between the gloved fingers of his left hand, but his right seemed to hesitate.
He cycled through his cutlass and the jointed picks, his five-fingered hand, and at one point a butcher’s knife, his head tilting this way and that with his thoughts. The hand returned to pick at the side of his face, fidgeting with the exposed wires of his cybernetic like he was adjusting his glasses, and the victorious realization dawned on you.
He can’t fucking see.
“What’s wrong, poo-paw? Forget your bifocals?”
“Don’t distract me, damn it! I’ve got it under control.” Ezra settled for the blade, picking away at the squishy exterior with careful cuts. Slow and deliberate, he circumnavigated the ball, nearly reaching his starting point when he exploded in a storm of curses, some of which you’d never heard before. “Seven fucking hells!” he bellowed, rising from his haunches and stomping about like an angry toddler. Your snickering drew his ire, and he fixed you with that bloodthirsty glare. “You think that’s funny?! That was a damn fine gemstone that just melted!” he scuffed his pointy peg around in the sand, looking for another specimen, his face beet red with fury when he found no more.
“Looks like you’re stuck with me then.” You purred, getting as comfortable as you could in your seat. “Sucks to be you.”
“Indeed it does.” Ezra grumbled as he climbed back into the boat, shoving a slower pirate out of the way and pulling a canteen from somewhere on his person. “Drink, and let’s be on.”
“Fiona first.”
Oh that scrunchy face. Ezra was getting wicked tired of being made a fool in front of his crew, but in truth he would have you no other way than the venomous little spitfire that you were. Somewhere in that gear-addled head of his, he was still hoping you would change your mind about his offer, but for now he was going to have to continue playing the beast while you unknowingly played his beauty. Begrudgingly, he did as you asked, giving both your companions a meager sip of water before you, ripping the canteen away before you’d gotten close to your fill.
Dickhead.
The longboat glided on, sliding over the cascading rapids and into the dark walled canyon, the obsidian corridors snuffing out the sun. Cold spray plumed over the rails, slowly soaking into your clothes and forcing a shiver down your spine. As agitated as you were with him, you were somewhat thankful that Ezra’s broad arm was taking the brunt of the chill off your shoulders with the added bonus of cooling his grumpy ass down.
You guided the skiff along the rapids, giving the helmsman your most confident directions, but as the canyon narrowed and the river deepened, you were beginning to worry you may have gotten the boat lost.
Ezra was, as he had said he would, running out of patience. His fingers drummed steadily along your arm where his hand rested, picking idly at the seam of your jacket and grumbling every time the river forked. Eventually the canyon walls grew so close together that the tips of the longboat’s sail would scratch and scrape the gravelly walls, knocking dark sediment down into the howling waters until it was eventually forced to a halt.
The river, furiously lashing against the canyon for eons, had carved its way into the unyielding stone, plunging into the dark heart of the moon and well beyond where light feared to tread. Jagged outcroppings hung like waiting teeth from the cavern’s mouth, hungry for any who dare enter.
You swallowed thickly around a dry tongue, wishing you had the aurelac on hand to double check your heading, but as much as you didn’t want to venture into that abysmal hole, you knew in your heart of hearts that this was the way to go.
“Are you certain of this?” Ezra asked you in a whisper, a slight twinge of doubt added to his twang. You nodded, and, surprised that he would trust you so easily, directed the longboat as close to the cavern as it could get. Along the edges of the river ran a thin ledge where the water had once flowed higher but slower, just wide enough for carefully calculated steps. Ezra demanded a handful of crew to come with him, with the last one in charge of keeping watch over Fiona and Til. “Hawkins, you’re with me.”
“How exactly do you expect me to walk with my hands tied-”
The cyborg cut you off with a growl, hauling you roughly to your feet and practically tossing you out of the boat onto the ledge. Wet with spray, the granite was slick and dangerous, made worse by your lack of arms, but Ezra was quick to follow. “Hold still.” Gripped by your wrists, you were tugged backwards against your instinct to flee from the sound of his blade, and were suddenly surprised by the feel of him cutting through your ropes. He leaned in close, scraping the sensitive skin of your ear with his cheek, the sound of his teeth parting sending a shiver down your spine. “Do not make me regret this, starling.”
Pins and needles spiked through your fingertips when the ropes fell away, and you reflexively brought them back in front of you, rubbing at your bruised wrists. Whatever. The longboat was dismissed, floating back up to the top of the canyon with your friends, leaving you alone with Ezra and his men. As it abandoned your search party you could hear Tillie yowling up a storm, demanding to be taken along to see the fabled aurelac queen.
“Are you absolutely fucking kidding me!? I came all this way to see - don’t you tell me to calm down, Fiona! No! I’m a fucking zoologist you sons of bitches!! You don’t even have to untie me! Just let me watch!! At least take my camera!!! HAWKIIIINSS!!!”
Sorry, Til.
Ezra swallowed his doubts and cycled his wrist appliances to the flame thrower, producing a low blaze to illuminate the way into the dark. What little daylight filtered down from between the canyon walls vanished within a few steps, reducing your world to the shadow of the cyborg before you, and the dewy, fear-filled eyes and uncertain steps of the pirates that followed behind.
Firelight danced over the jagged ceiling as you made the descent, reflecting off the wet stone and fast-flowing rapids thundering mere meters from where you so carefully tread. You tried to focus on where Ezra walked, following in his peg-legged footsteps. If there was a slipperier spot, he would be the first to go.
Or, so you thought.
-crack...splish!-
“Shh!” Ezra hissed for silence, a finger in the air. The firelight danced in his dark eye as he looked for the source of the noise, his ears turned both ways down the tunnel.
….-crick… cRaCK!-
Behind you there was suddenly shouting, the tumble of boulders, the hungry splash of the water swallowing the landslide down as the path behind you collapsed. Clawed hands and gaping mouths broke the illuminated circle of the rapids before vanishing further down the void, taking the pirate’s terrified screams with them.
Rock bit into your back as you were forced against it, watching in horror as half of the designated crew were lost. You waited with ears perked, breath bated for any sound that they had made it to some kind of safety, but you were only met with the roaring of the rapids and the thundering of your heart.
“It’s alright, I’ve got you.”
The affirmation came as a slight surprise, but when you looked down you found you weren't held to the wall by your own volition. Ezra’s strong arm had you pinned as far away from the ledge as he could get you, his eye watching for more of the path to give way. He swallowed a lump in his throat when none presented themselves, and finally met your eyes.
His expression was soft, caring, worried for a moment, a split second of the genuine charmer you had been growing your affections for. The man that snuck you sweets and seared lingering touches on your skin that followed you back to your bunk at night. A man who kissed like it was his last day alive, and loved you when he was certain that it was.
And then he was gone, the creases of his face hardening in a serious scowl, a pirate and a cutthroat once again. Releasing you from his protective grip, he grumbled something about being more careful to the remaining crew, and resumed his journey into the void.
It felt like forever that you were trudging through the dark, your feet becoming accustomed to the slick stone in a way that was more dangerous than helpful, but you made it all the way to where the river ended and split your path in two. On one fork the water dove into the rock, tumbling away towards the center of the moon for all you knew; and the other led away into a dryer cave. With no other choice to make, Ezra plowed down the waterless walkway, a sigh of relief bouncing back to you now that he had more room to walk.
His relief was short lived though, for as the tunnel continued to widen it also started to split. Narrow fissures shot off from your protective halo of torchfire, growing in size every few meters until they were full blown caverns large enough to walk through, and soon they were all that were left of your path - the wheel of fortunes’ spokes as seen from the axle.
Ezra raised his fist, halting your spelunking expedition. He quirked an eyebrow at you, his single eye fixing you with a ‘Well? Now what?’
You spun slowly, taking in each new trail and trying to remember what the map had shown, but as best you could remember it had all been surface level. The river marker, the bends in the forest, the waterfall and the meadow, lush jungle and sprawling canyons, a cavern that you’d expected to be the lair -those you remembered. But nothing like this.
You were just as in the dark as he was.
“Hawkins…” Ez growled, realizing that your double-takes were not just for the picturesque scenery. He flashed that wolfish, dangerous grin of his, a beast in his own dark den greeting prey that had so foolishly wandered through. “I’m not seein’ any aurelac. Actually, I’m not seein’ any anything, except… you. You didn’t just lead us down this hole for the fun of it, did you now?”
Maybe. “No! Not like you can see anything anyway. Give me a moment to think.”
The fire from Ezra’s blazer flared brighter with his agitation, sending shadows flying around the cave. “And why is that exactly? That my vision has been reduced to such a state?”
“Uh I don’t know, maybe because you were going to murder everyone and take over the ship? Ring any bells, metal man?” You jabbed a finger in his broad chest, storming up to him with no restraint. “Don’t make me take the other one out as well!”
He glowered down at you, his remaining eye darker than the void you were consumed by, flashing with the hellfire sputtering from his mechanical arm. “Don’t you threaten me, Hawkins!” He bellowed with a wave of fire, nearly incinerating one of the pirates in the process. “If you’ve sent us on a wild goose chase then so help me I’ll insure that you and daddy dearest meet together sooner rather than-”
The wave of his arm made the firelight sputter just a moment, a faction of a second that let the dark in closer. It’d been held back by the searing flames, but oh how it ached to reach you, to brush your skin and drag icy fingers down your spine, claim you for the inevitable abyss where it would never have to let you go. In that short moment between the light and dark the sunless void took its opportunity greedily, enveloping you in its shadowy embrace and leaning in close enough to whisper a secret in your ears.
Look.
“Ezra shut up and turn your light out.”
“Excuse me?!”
“Turn it off!”
The cyborg snarled at you, his teeth flashing in the glow, furious that he was being ordered around in front of his remaining men, but you were steadfast; and try as he might to put on a ferocious front, the way you stared him down, reduced him from a monster to nothing more than a man, made his heart ache for you.
Reluctantly he obeyed, the bright and hopeful glow of his flame winking out of existence, replaced by a void so black and barren that your soul swore it had been taken to the underworld. You blinked a moment in the abyss, reaching out unconsciously for something to ground yourself on, and found Ezra’s warm body right where you expected it to be. His hand found yours, pulling you close enough that you could feel the warmth of his chest, the slight hitch of his breath giving away his surprise at your touch.
You waited for your eyes to adjust, the darkness behind your lids seeming to hide just a bit more light than the world around you. It was a moment, a few seconds stolen in pitch black privacy, and Ezra took them greedily. You felt the heat of his breath before you felt the touch of his lips, missing your own completely to land on your cheek. Before you could turn and tell him to blow it out his ass, he recalculated and caught your lips, pressing you into a searing kiss.
And damn it straight to hell did it feel good.
The light scratch of his bristles, the plush of his lips, the faint brush of eyelashes when he closed his eye - uselessly still open. His human hand snuck to the small of your back, his hot-iron right kept safely away, but you he wanted to keep close. He inhaled with you, stole your breath for himself - the thief - savoring your shared air in the pocket dimension that had been willed into existence for the two of you alone.
This man made you so angry. He was dangerous, reckless, a literal pirate and mutininer, and yet you gladly melted into him, returning the desire for his kiss with your own. In that quickly stolen moment you felt his entire charade dissipate, writing his truth against your lips. Want and willingness, desire and desperation and something deeper. Something that he kept under tight lock and key when the eyes of others were on you, but still screamed at him from his very core, exploding from its cage in these private little moments like his heart was made of fireworks.
For him, there could be no darkness, as long as he had your light.
“Oi! I seeya lioght down tha tunnal!” One of the pirates chirped, obliterating the quiet tranquilty of your secret embrace. You both opened your eyes and saw it to be true: the faintest illumination coming from what seemed an eternity away, but it was there nonetheless.
You felt more than saw Ezra turn down to you, and heard the crack of his chapped lips splitting into a grin. “Well done, Hawkins. You may yet live to see another day.”
The light came first from the rocks themselves, sprawling swaths of lichen glowing with a soft, otherworldly light - stars twinkling in the twilight zone between the stygian darkness of the cavern and the green-grey daylight filtering from somewhere far away.
You had to shield your eyes as you stepped out of the tunnel even though the light was nowhere near as strong as the surface world, but nearly blinded you nonetheless. With your eyes partially covered, you focused on your other senses, with one in particular coming up front and center on your brain-stage.
Stinky.
Wherever you were headed into reeked of sulfur and brimstone, carrying on the cool cavern air, and if it wasn’t for the pleasant subterranean temperatures you would have sworn you were walking right into an active volcano. When your pupils were brave enough, you let your hand down from your face, blinking as you took in your new surroundings cautiously; a faint gasp escaping your lips at the sight.
“Stars above…”
From high, high above you the light of day shone through the mouth of some crater, a near-perfect circle hidden from the surface by the swaying trees, their roots dangling and dripping into the conical grotto you stood in now. Mineral-rich water trickled and fell for hundreds of feet before landing in the center of the caldera, carving a shallow basin over thousands of years and inviting growth from the surface world to thrive.
Obsidian soil crunched wetly under your boots as you walked into the sanctuary, not watching your step, your eyes too wonderstruck to look down. Thick greenery seemed to grow in piles, mossy and rich, sprawling over the bottom of the grotto and climbing up the walls, reaching for the elusive sunlight reflecting in enormous quartz crystals soaring from the hexagonal basalt walls.
All you saw was beautiful and natural, sculpted by Kevva xerself with more love and adoration than any single star, but in the center of it all something artificial desecrated this holy ground.
Were it not for its obvious straight lines and perfectly machined surfaces, the rusty, overgrown object could have been part of the scenery. It jutted up from the lush green like a middle finger to its surroundings, standing lazily on jointed legs like a drunk that should have gone home hours ago, arguing with the cosmic bartender about last call.
Pretty as it all was, the rank odour was stronger here, making you crinkle your nose. You weren’t really sure what fresh aurelac smelled like, but if it smelled anything like rotten eggs and metallic earth, then you were getting close. Ezra seemed unphased by whatever that stink was, starstruck as he took everything in. He sauntered right past you, trudging through the rivulets of water peacefully carving through the stone towards one of the more lumpy moss mounds. Here, he knelt into the soil and brushed the plush foliage away, and, after a rib-shakingly sharp inhale, he burst into laughter.
“You have got to be shittin’ me!” His baffled roar carried through the volcanic amphitheater, echoing with his own personal laugh track. He leapt up on unsteady legs and plowed towards a second lump, digging happily through the dirt with another excited holler. When he turned around to look at you his face was the picture of delight, big bright eye and an even wider smile crinkling his cheeks. “Aurelac! It’s all aurelac!!”
The remaining pirates flew past you like labradors set loose on the beach, joining their cyborg captain in celebration. A few of them surrounded Ezra to watch him extract the priceless gemstone, but a pair of deviants went right for their own mound. Before Ez could stop them they were plunging their swords into the fleshy growth, eager to get their own share of the bounty.
A meaty slice, a screeching hiss, roars of pain and agony, then silence consumed the cathedral of basalt and brimstone as the overly-ambitious treasure seekers met their deaths in the acidic spray vomited up by the ground dwelling beast.
Ezra only sighed and rolled his eye at the melted faces of his once-crew, their corpses twitching on the warm earth. “If you don’t seduce her properly then she will retaliate with ‘er most wretched defenses, as all women do. Isn’t that right, Hawkins?” He purred with a leer, grinning like a fox at your disgruntled huff. “Worry not, I am a firm believer that no love is too intimidatin’ if’n it be true.”
He settled up to the closest mound and drew his blade, tapping the hollow exterior and listening for the best entry point to carve into. As soon as he made the incision, he poured something from one of his canisters down the hole and covered his face with his coat. “Chem calms the brine, without it, a dry breach will make its claim. Preferably of limbs or life.”
“That how you lost your arm, cyborg?”
“Alas, it was not. Pay ‘tention now.” The aurelac sizzled and squelched for a bit before falling silent, bidding Ezra’s claws into the open wound to retrieve the gem sack. “Oh. Oh Kevva it’s a big one...” He strained a bit, grunting loudly as he tore the opelesent bag from the ground.
It was massive.
“I-I didn’t know they got this big…” he nearly whispered to the bag that was almost as big as his head. He went through the same procedure to remove the meat ball from the center, once again hesitating to make his cuts. “Hawkins, as much as it pains my pride, I do believe I will require assistance.”
There was no room for witty retorts or snide remarks, the object of your quest being so generously presented to you. You knelt in the loam with Ezra, “What do you need me to do?”
“That’s my starling.” He boasted softly, giving you a one-eyed wink. He fished a right-hand glove from his pocket and handed it to you. “The stone is encased in three layers. The first is the formation sack, then the blister, then the membrane. If the blister is punctured it releases carrom acid, and if that comes into contact with the gem it’ll melt and fuck the whole thing sideways. Keep her steady for me’n I’ll free her from her confines.”
Ezra held his blade with both hands, his head tilted off to the right so his bold nose wouldn’t obstruct his singular vision. Worrying his lip between his teeth, he began cutting around the ball, his knife vibrating with the same seductive frequency that had coaxed lucrative treasures from you as well. So that’s what it’s for.
“That’s it, hold it like you love it…” He rounded the ball successfully, nodding at you to pull the empty carcass away while he retrieved another canister, this one of a reddish fluid. “This is fazer, if it touches meat it’ll blow us all to Kevva’s sweet embrace faster’n a bullet to the brain. So I’ll uh, try not to spill.” He dribbled some of the rusty liquid onto the cream-colored glob, humming some indistinct shanty to himself in his excitement, and you couldn’t help but feel it too.
Slowly but surely the tissue fell away, revealing the lemon-sized gemstone and eliciting a unified collection of gasps from everyone present.
It was perfect. Clear as glass with a drop of aurellian sunshine glittering in its heart, the sparkle matching the gleam of Ezra’s eye. “Congratulations, Hawkins. You may have very well made us the richest bunch’a miscreants in the entire known sector. I knew there was a good reason to keep you kickin’.” He pocketed the stone and rose from the ground, dusting himself off and handing trays and canisters to the few crewmates that remained. “Start harvestin’, and under no circumstances may you deviate from my method, lest you plan on joinin’ your face-down friends o’er yonder.”
You waited until the pirates had eagerly dashed out of earshot, loaded down with more gear than brain cells. “You’re brave to trust them with that, Ez.”
He shrugged. “Perhaps, but my eye is givin’ me a helluva fight tryna operate this arm of mine. Need to see to it.” He reached up to fuss with the hole under his bandage, but you stopped him, your hand carefully catching his mechanical wrist.
“Do you want me to take a look at it? I still have two eyes.”
The smile on this man was the kind poets wrote about, soft and sincere and a little skeptical. “Lucky you, huh? Alright, since you’ve so benevolently offered your services, I shall accept.”
“Has anyone ever told you that you talk too much?” You chided, directing him to sit on a tall lump that could have been a boulder as much as another aurelac growth.
“Frequently. Can’t say I understand why though.” He joked, trying to hide his nerves as you approached him. He took his hat off for you, toying with the hole you’d put through it while it rested on his lap. When your hands came up to the bandage he almost jerked away. “You did quite a number on me, starling mine, I can’t promise it’ll look very-”
“Ez. Stop talking, for fucks sake.” Your scolding shushed him, and he sighed dejectedly at your touch. The ratty strip of cloth covering his eye socket was soaked in a multitude of fluids, none of them pleasant. “Damn it Ezra, this is going to get infected. You should’ve let me take care of it earlier.”
“Yes, ma’am…” He closed his remaining eye when the strip fell away, unwilling to see the disgust on your face he believed would be there, but what he didn’t see was your sadness instead. Sure, he’d deserved your attack, your very life and the life of your companions at stake, but his beautiful face was a mess, a delicate, priceless painting marred seemingly beyond repair.
The cybernetic eye was nowhere to be found, probably in his pocket, but the exposed connectors in the back of his empty orbit still needed attention.“Gimme your hand, I need the picks.” You demanded, shuffling closer to him so you were up between his knees. He swallowed and obliged, the jointed tools click click clicking from his mechanical arm. “I’m gonna try not to hurt you, but I can’t promise that I won’t. Just hold still, ok?”
He almost nodded before he agreed verbally, holding his breath while you used his own appendages to debride the wound, clearing chunky scabs and bits of ceramic away from the delicate machinery. Ezra watched you as you worked, torn between closing his eye in comfort and observing the spectacle that was his surprise field medic. Stars, you were so close, literally up between his legs, your breasts grazing his chest from time to time, and he couldn’t help the way his free arm ghosted up to your hip. The moment you felt his touch you scowled at him, but he was quick on the draw. “Just keepin’ ya steady, don’t want you to lose your balance and find my brain while you’re in there.”
“Uh huh, sure.” He was so full of crap, but you had a goal in your hands now, a mission, an objective, the drive to complete it narrowing your focus to your combined hands alone.
Ezra’s brow quirked a bit, studying the spark in your eyes while you fixed his broken face, his lip teased between his teeth as he spotted something familiar. “I recognize that glint… That light behind your eyes. It’s inherited, isn’t it?”
“Don’t know what you’re talking about. I said I was good at fixing things, didn’t I?”
“Nah nah nah, not that, that. That determination. That spark. Brighter’n a supernova, that one. Was the same one I saw in your father’s eyes. You get it from him.”
“I don’t get shit from him! Don’t insult me while I’m digging through your eyehole.” You tried to continue, but now you were both angry and intrigued. “What do you know about him anyway? I didn’t get to know him, why did you?”
Though you were the one dangerously close to his retinal nerve, he was the one that had struck something sensitive. “Hawkins Jr. was a prospector. And a damn good one at that. Took me un’er ‘is wing and taught me all I know in regards to havestin’ aurelac, an odd recompense for shooting me, but it paid well.”
That caught you off guard in more ways than one, and you had to withdraw your tools from his head-hole to meet his subservient gaze. “He shot you?! Where?! Why?!”
“Here.” he said, tapping the humerus strut of his right arm. Your confused glare drew a soft chuckle from him. “I was just a greenhorn prospector, didn’t know the fringeling laws of the territory, and unfortunately I came across an orphaned digsite. Thought it was my lucky day, turns out it wasn’t as abandoned as I’d hoped it was. Took a bullet for it, but I managed to sweet-talk my way out of getting a second. We did our best with the wound but infection claimed my primary weapon, and spread to all you see missin’. Occupational hazard to be fair. Managed to make off with a good couple’a stones though, and your pa helped me pay for replacements.”
The cyborg chuckled nervously through your aghast stare. “Thick as thieves we were, following the rumors of aurelac across worlds, lookin’ for the fabled queen. Never found it, but he never gave up. One day he came upon that map’a yours, whether he stole it, bought it, or drew it himself I’ll never know, but suddenly he didn’t want my company anymore. Was gonna claim it all for himself.”
Ezra’s one eye looked away in shame, unable to meet your piercing inquisition. “The fallout was cataclysmic. Words and metal flew, and before he escaped in the drop ship that he’d spent all our coin on, I managed to get a shot off to her converters, cripping his ship the same way he had crippled me. Ironic, really, but he still got away. Guess he didn’t make it very far after all.”
“Guess not.” Your voice was steely and cold, level as a blade. You began working on his wound again, but he stopped you, wanting to meet your eyes with his own.
“I’m sorry, starling.”
“It’s fine Ez, I barely knew him.”
“No, it’s not fine. He may have been a traitor and a disreputable old scoundrel, but he was still your sire, and to you, his daughter, I truly am sorry for my contribution to his passing. No amount of aurelac is worth the price of life, but I’ll gladly part with all my share of the harvest if it brings you an ounce of solace to whatever grief you still carry, even if it's hidden under all that tenacious ferocity you wield so well. I will say though,” He paused, cupping your jaw, sliding the pad of his thumb along the edge, his touch radiating with pleasant warmth. “That sun-seekers’ glint looks so much better in your eyes than his.”
Ezra may have been a professional liar to his men, but to you, the unexpected light in his life, he told you no falsehoods. You saw it in his beautiful amberdark eye, and the smooth arch of his fine scar, the way the corners of his lips tugged all the crinkles of his weather-worn face into something soft and pliant. He really was sorry.
Probably for more things than one.
“S’ok Ez, let’s just get you patched up and we can figure it out later, yeah?” You pressed a soft kiss to his palm, a ghost of forgiveness that left his heart a little lighter. He gave you dominion over his prosthetic again, his human hand returning to it’s designated spot on your hip. To hold you steady, of course.
Doubling down on your efforts, you tweezed something nasty from his socket, so determined in your operation that the feeling of his fingertips slipping between the hem of your shirt and the top of your belt went unnoticed.
He couldn’t help it. The cyborg’s nervousness calmed at the feel of your skin under his fingers, the warmth of your body, the smoothness of it. He pressed in slightly, testing the give of your flesh, tracing the arch of your hip bone under the plush of your flank. Were he not undergoing such primitive surgery at the moment he might have let his thoughts wander to what else would give under his touch, where else you would spill between his fingers, how you would taste on his tongue...
“Ezra!” You hissed, snapping him from his thoughts. “I can feel your damn dick twitching. Knock it off before I kick you.”
His laugh was as sweet and innocent as the fresh light of dawn. “Apologies, starling mine, I can’t help my wanderin’ thoughts with you pressed so close.”
“Well stop your wandering for a hot minute, I’m almost done. Where’s your eyeball?” His warm touch left you finally to present you the cyberoptic. The moment you had it in your hand, Ezra’s own palm returned to your hip with much less discretion than before. You ignored him. Flecks of dried something-or-other flaked off when you brushed your thumb over the copper colored metal to clean it, knocking another mug chip or two off in the process. “Alright, keep still, and hold your socket open for me.”
You leaned against him to brace yourself, and he accepted you into his space even more willingly, tightening his thighs against yours and drawing his calloused hand up your back, encouraging you into his embrace. The softer metal scraped a bit against the iron of his fingers where he was holding himself open, a grimace twisting his scruffy face when the eyeball popped into place.
He sat back from you, blinking while the false eye went through it’s boot-up, the warm glow slowly returning as if day were breaking for his eyes alone. “Well, I’ll be damned! Hello, gorgeous, aren’t you a sight for sore eyes.”
The pile of aurelac was nearly up to your knees within hours, all shapes and sizes of gemstones to be had and every one of them more perfect than the next. With his eye functional again, Ezra was making short work of every tumorous node he encountered with near-surgical precision and out-digging the others at breakneck speed. Must have had one hell of a mentor.
With him having everything under control, you opted to explore, enjoying the lushious sanctuary before it was pitted with harvesting wounds. The structure in the center drew your attention away from the natural scenery, and you moved to investigate.
The overgrowth was thicker here, lichen and moss giving way to soft, thin-bladed grasses that swayed in the gentle breeze coming down from the crater’s mouth. Water dripped on your head as you went, splashing gently into your hair and trickling down your back. How long had it been since you’d felt rain? It almost never did on Montressor, and you couldn’t help closing your eyes and tilting your head back, enraptured in the soft pitter patter of raindrops kissing your skin. Lost in your guilty pleasure, but still moving towards the pod, you failed to watch your step, tripping dangerously over something hidden that tore you from your aqueous indulgence to glare down at what had reached up to grab you.
Bones.
Human bones.
Whoever it was had been there a while, their clothing long decayed along with their flesh, leaving nothing but a wet, moss-covered skeleton and a scattering of metal fittings from their equipment. Shell-like mushrooms grew in their rib cage in place of their once-beating heart, crawling with all manner of invertebrate life that sought shelter in the absence of it.
You wondered if your father had shot them too.
More careful of your steps now, you approached the little ship, green and silver in the limelight of day, stripped in dark tracts of rust from ages under the drizzle. The thing was surprisingly small, it couldn’t have survived a space journey for more than a few days with barely enough room for two people, and honestly how it got through the atmosphere alone was a mystery. Its struts had sunk partially into the soft, damp earth, the first buds of a new aurelac cluster growing at its feet. It’d been here a while, but probably less than a decade, which didn’t help your suspicions.
You went for the circular bulkhead, the door mechanisms long since grown over, but with a grunt and some elbow grease you got the wheel to turn. It screeched its displeasure as you opened it, years-old pressure finally escaping its prison with a blast of fetid air. For such a pretty place, everything in this cave sure did fucking stink.
Inside the circular drop pod you immediately found a second corpse, though this one was in better shape than the one that’d been left to the elements. In their fleshless hand some kind of firearm pointed away from where they were slouched against the wall, their other hand clutching the hole in their sternum. They had retained most of their clothing, though the decrepit fabric wrinkled and sagged where flesh had once been, but the colorful patches were still as vivid as the day they’d been sewn on. None of them were familiar, though from their bright hues and easy-to-discern shapes you guessed they were sponsor logos, and though all of them were completely alien to you, one of them you unfortunately recognized: a fat, six legged creature wearing a spacesuit.
Something Ezra said clicked in your mind like a pistol’s hammer:
Words and metal flew.
“Anythin’ good in here, starling?” Ezra’s sweet southern drawl snapped you out of your concentration, the cyborg clambering in through the narrow door with a smile on his face. It vanished when he spotted the body. “Poor bastard, but that’s prospecting for you. Not everyone’s as fortunate as I was.” He glanced around the room a bit, taking in the state of things. “Looks better from the inside by a long shot. If I was a bettin’ man I’d say a lil’ bit of TLC would get this bird in the air again, or maybe just as far as the hole in the ceilin’. Be a shitload easier than haulin’ all that aurelac back through the tunnels.” He fixed you with that cockeyed grin, a flash of inspiration in his newly-repaired eye. “Think you could fix it?”
You shrugged, “Worth a shot I guess, though it’s nothing like anything I’ve ever seen on Montressor. There’s no sails on it.”
“That’s because it’s not from Montressor, or even Crescentia. It’s Terran.”
Terran!
The birthplace of your species and his. And your father’s and his father before him. You’d never been, most rumors said it wasn’t even there anymore, but humans - in their unending search for the edges of the cosmos - had settled on so many worlds that Terran would always live on in your hearts after it had long since been wiped from the star maps.
How strange it was - or, maybe how fitting - that nearly every interaction you’d had with your own kind had been thoroughly soaked in blood.
“I’ll see what I can do.”
Leaving you to your own devices, Ezra fixed his sights on the largest of pods, a devious smile skewing his bristly lips. Though he’d harvested enough aurelac to last a thousand lifetimes, he didn’t come this far, sacrifice so much, to leave with anything less than the motherlode.
His canisters were running dry, but it was probably enough for one last harvest. The lump he set his sights on sprouted from the farthest wall, so full and heavy that it swelled pregnantly over the ground, alluding to the biggest root pearl ever grown.
He just had to have it.
Carving with rehearsed precision, Ezra had the queen ravaged within moments, locating the milky white bag deep within the pod. His hunch proved correct, albeit challenging, requiring two hands to pull the monstrosity free; the strain making him giggle like a school boy.
The aurelac squeaked and screamed with the intrusion, a sound the cyborg had long gone deaf to, so focused on his prize. Digging his peg and heel into the soft soil, he braced himself and hauled, throwing his weight backwards against the aurelac’s colossal heft. Kevva’s concubines the fucker must be bigger than a newborn bonzabeast.
Pop!
Ezra fell back on his ass when he finally pulled the gem sack free, nearly crushed under the slimy weight. Excitement kicked in, and he set to work on the extraction, ignoring the queen’s protests as he cut the umbilical line and plonked the pearl pouch into a field tray, the disgusting treasure so massive that it sagged over the edges.
Everything he’d ever worked for was right in his mismatched hands, the disgusting slosh of the meat bag like music to his ears. The wet fleshy sound and the hum of his blade, paired with his own tuneless humming and the imagined jingling of coin in his pocket was all he could hear, and all that he wanted to hear. A siren song of a man’s life’s work coming to fruition rendering him nearly deaf.
So he heard not the gurgling of the queen’s death throes.
Not the crackle as it withered and died, the open fissure of the wound curling into the gaping hole.
Not the faint grit of the volcanic soil slipping ever so slightly into the void created by the creature’s death.
And certainly not the faintest crack as the basalt column above the ancient animal succumbed to its own weight, moving barely a hairsbreadth, but even the smallest domino can topple the greatest kingdoms.
No, Ezra didn’t hear any of these things, too busy washing the last of the membrane off the gigantic geode with the remainder of his fazer fluid. Free of the mucky tissue, he stumbled to his feet and held the aurellian prize aloft, catching a stray sunbeam just as you had done when you revealed the map and oh, what a sight!
All eyes in the grotto turned to their captain and his prismatic light show, the basketball-sized chunk of aurelac washing every surface of the sanctuary in golden light, nearly bringing the cyborg to tears. Fuck, it was bea-utiful.
The glorious enchantment flared and faded with the sudden loss of the sun, and for the first time since tapping the queen, Ezra listened.
And looked up.
“Mother FUCKER!!”
A faint woosh was all that accompanied the massive quartz monolith as it fell, unbelievably bigger up close now that it was plummeting to the ground and heading straight for Ezra’s head. He practically danced out of the way, limbs flailing, white and bright of his eyes flashing as he scrambled to get to safety before the ten-ton crystal crashed into the earth and splintered into radiant shrapnel.
Ezra never moved so fast in his entire life, clutching the heavy aurelac to his chest as he ran from the sudden impact strike. The ground split and spiderwebbed like glass instead of stone, fracturing the delicate sanctuary into shards as more and more of the crystals came loose and toppled to the earth. Pirates desperately tried to get out of the way in time. Some succeeded, only to slip into the growing gorges that grew wider and wider with each cataclysmic strike.
As the walls crumbled around him, the cyborg bee-lined for the aurelac stash, shoveling as many into his pockets before a chunk of towering basalt toppled, nearly pressing him flat before he dodged it, obliterating the remains of the treasure.
All that work, for nothing.
“STAAARLING!! Get that damn engine going, we gotta go!!” Ezra plowed through the bulkhead of the pod, startling you out of your technical trance more than the earthquakes you’d been ignoring.
“I don’t think it can! I-I don’t have the tools to-”
“Tell me what you need! Right now!” Ezra flung himself to his knees next to where you were under the dash, his arm at the ready.
With his help you made split-second work of the wire harness under the dash that had been giving you a hard time, and the shuttle sparked to life not a moment too soon.
-*CRaSH!*-
A monumental quartz obelisk met the ruined ground, breaking through the obsidian as if it were made of ice, splintering the last of the grotto’s resolve. The pod listed dangerously to one side, tilting into the new hole to catch precariously between the edges, finally pulling the curtain back on what smelled so fucking bad.
Crimson flames licked greedily from the worlds’ wounds as the inactive volcano -long hidden by the scab of vegetation - was resurrected from the force of the impact, molten stone bubbling excitedly as demons do when the gates of hell are thrown open.
Sweaty with fire and fear, you threw switches and cranked knobs, hoping some divinity would take pity on you and guide you through the alien craft’s start up procedures on luck alone. Something other than the earth rumbled it’s fury under you, the propulsion jets sputtering to life after so many years in the grave.
You jammed down on the throttle, and the pod nicked clear of its wedging, but not enough to get it fully off the ground. “It’s too heavy! It’s not gonna make it!”
Ezra exploded in a storm of curses and hefted the skeleton out the bulkhead, along with whatever else wasn’t bolted down. It worked some, and the little pod strained away, still struggling under the weight of more than time.
But not enough.
If the pod didn’t clear the rising tide of lava, or the collapsing caldera, you were done for. Ezra’s circuits crackled as his brain did the math, meeting his own reflection in the crystalline surfaces of the aurelac gem that he’d suffered so much to get.
It was heavy.
But, so were you.
‘Throw her out’ said the demon on his shoulder, purring in his remaining ear. ‘She’s gonna turn you in anyway, and you’ll be swingin’ from the gallows in no time. Not like she cares about you. Not like she loves you! Or you her! You love money, you love aurelac! Gold and Glory! Finish what you started, Ezra Green! Take the aurelac and run!’
But Ezra never was a very good listener.
He went for the aurelac in his pockets first, hoping that just a slight lessening in weight would be all the push you needed to get to the skylight, but that did nothing. Pebbles, stones, geodes, and melon sized nuggets of glittering gold sailed out into the hellfire, vanishing under the molten tide.
Until all he was left with was the queen’s crown itself.
One last glance, one last demonic whisper, one last pining look between the two objects of his affections, of a lifelong love and a potential love for life.
Plunk!
The gemstone sank sluggishly into the hungry flames, and the effect on the pod was instantaneous, as if it had suddenly been loosed from its cage. “Hold on Ez!” You bellowed while you tried to steer with levers and fins instead of a wheel or rudder. The little microwave-sized window was all the visibility you had to dodge the incoming chunks of stone raining from above. Falling like a chandelier cut from a ballroom ceiling, the remaining quartz chunks sparkled as they fell, glass shards peppering hard against your steel exterior and nearly throwing you off course.
Now, where have you seen this before…
Breathe in.
You set your sights on the circle of sky above, on the cracks growing on either side like a sleepy giant’s eye slowly opening. Waking up to greet you before having you for breakfast.
Breathe out.
Rocks the size of houses crumbled from the crater, flying past your viewport as you threw your weight into the steering, spiralling the tiny pod between the sinking boulders.
Breathe in.
The caldera collapsed, the lava surged, all was red and black and glittering gold for less time than it took to fill your lungs. You snapped the steering to starboard right as the gargantuan gateway plunged towards gravity, the ship narrowly avoiding being swatted from the sky like nothing more than a pesky little insect.
Free of all that kept it contained, the volcano erupted in a pyroclast of scorn, sending flaming chunks of molten stone exploding past you, trailing phoenix feathers of fire in their wake.
Alarms flared, sirens screamed, and lights flashed their finality on the dashboard as the aft jets sputtered and died, pointing the pod towards the startled jungle and furious earth. With nothing left to lose, Ezra coiled his arms around you and your seat, hoping maybe his reinforced body would be enough to protect you from the coming crash.
But it never came.
Breathe out???
The skull-splitting shriek of metal being torn asunder stung your ears and made your teeth hurt, made worse by the sudden whiplash of the pod being pulled in the opposite direction. Suddenly growing from the thin titanium wall, the biggest harpoon you had ever seen went through one side of the little shuttle and out the other, swinging the shuttle down and under and over a mighty vessel like a pendulum as it was hauled against its inertia and dropped violently into something hard.
The Dawnbreaker, mighty and true, caught the pod with her deck, the monstrosity breaking halfway into the galley and spilling you and the cyborg from the durasteel coffin, landing in a heap in front of the quarterdeck and her captain.
“Tillie?! Fiona?!”
“Welcome aboard, landlubbers!” Tillie, wearing someone else's tricorn, hollered and saluted you from her position at the wheel, the ship’s true captain leaning against the harpoon thrower behind her - the old bird looking a little green. “You’re not gonna believe what happened to us! We were trussed up like hogs for the slaughter when Fiona here-”
“Incoming! Hard to port!!”
The Felinid cranked on the wheel just in time to miss a massive glob of superheated rock as it flew by, the volcano erupting violently behind you, demolishing the sanctuary, the tunnels, the river, the canyon and the meadow in a single quake. Volleys of stone shrapnel hailed against the Dawnbreaker’s sails, punching flaming holes in the delicate sailcloth and turning the deck into a pockmarked ruin.
“Get us out of here, Til!” You shrieked, muscle memory kicking into high gear and driving you to the lifeline hitchpost. You grabbed a rope for yourself and tied it off, then held one out for Ezra. “Ez! Get over here and-”
“CABIN GIRL!” The line in your hand was claimed by the spider in the web, enormous claws threatening to sever your hands from your body when they clamped around your wrists. You felt your blood drain when you were met with the most horrendous pair of big yellow eyes and a mouth full of saliva-slicked fangs. Mr. Skarn towered over you on many-jointed legs, forcing you backwards as he overpowered you. “Where’sss the aurelac?! Give it to me and I might let you-!”
-*BANG!*-
The monster blinked, confusion written in his heinous eyes and leaking from the fresh new hole between them. The tension on your wrists lessened and fell away as Mr. Skarn crumpled to the ground, revealing the figure behind him, firearm smoking from his wrist.
“Never did like that bug much.” Ezra drawled, blowing at the barrel before swapping his prosthetic for his jointed hand. “You alright, starling mine?”
You made to answer when the shifting of the ship stole all the air from your lungs, throwing you hard to starboard as acting-captain Tillie Doppler veered hard on the wheel to avoid the ground coming up to meet you, the moon thrashing its death throes like a drowning victim not wanting to go down alone. You hit the deck, your lifeline snapping hard around your middle, constricting the last of your breath from your lungs but keeping you lashed safely to the ship.
Ezra was not so lucky.
The roll dislodged the Terran pod free from its crater in the deck, tumbling with the pitch of the ship and taking its harpoon line with it as it rolled towards the edge. The cable whipped across the wood - a furious serpent spitting venom and fury - catching Ezra’s iron leg before the pod vanished over the side.
He had a split second to drive his claws into the deck, carving gouges in the wood as he was dragged overboard, the iron in his body the only thing keeping him from being ripped in half as the line snapped taut, leaving the cyborg dangling over the edge, held by nothing but his unyielding grip.
“Ezra!” you screamed and flew to him, digging your heels into the guardrails and pulling with all your might on his cybernetic arm - only part of him you could reach. “Give me your other hand!!”
Ezra, eyes wide with fear and pain, looked from his captured leg to the swinging pod, then up to where his arm was lodged in the Dawnbreaker’s hull, and finally to you. He couldn’t sever the line without his blade, and if the shuttle caught on the trees it would rip the Dawnbreaker from the sky, or rip him in half trying.
There could be no other way.
The fear on his face was replaced with something softer under his wind blown curls and suddenly-missing hat, the ratty tricorn succumbing to the raging storm building over the volcano. One eye a ray of sunshine, the other a sparkling pool of dark earth, met your own with all the placidity of a willing sacrifice approaching the altar.
And suddenly you’d never known as much terror as you did right now.
His scruffy lips quirked, a flash of a smile, a small, gentle laugh inappropriate for such a precarious situation, but nothing ever looked so good on him as the face he had now, his eyes laying lastly on the most beautiful visage he’d ever had the fortune of setting his gaze upon:
You.
“Shine bright, starling mine.”
In a last act of human decency, his free hand came up and dug into his armpit, unfettering his prosthetic from his body. Then he was hurtling to the ground, leaving his arm buried in the hull while the pod dragged him down to certain death, leaving the Dawnbreaker to speed off towards the stars and far away from the dying moon.