#solthoughts

[solaraph]

I expected more. Got way less.

He lives in a different town you see. An hour away. I was the sucker to always make the drive. I cooked whenever we hung out. Etc.

He never made an effort to even try to make us work. I also made that easy for him. Nevertheless, he's good people and I'm staying his friend. Which means I'll hear from him once a month, maybe. If at all.

So, back to today: I met up with him in a park because I didn't want to go to his place. My cousin explored the small town while I had my little conversation. Oddly enough, that was the first time we really talked and everything seemed to flow just fine. Then I gathered my guts and said, "I don't think you're ready for what I'm looking for." He agreed. I added some more drivel, and he agreed again. Said he was feeling the same way.

He didn't even blink or seem to care.

I feel like I wasted my time on someone. But I don't regret it. Lesson learned.

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The many, many styles of art I have used to draw the same character. Cath was my first and will always have a special place in my heart, even if her story is never going to be told how I originally intended it to be. The very first two pictures have a 13 year difference.

[solaraph]

If it's four in the morning

And the need to draw strikes you in the face like a (insert clever simile)... you know what you do? You fucking draw. Even if you can't even type properly or think much by the time you're done. Ugh. Time to sleep because the art has been made. I'll figure out my resolution later.

But it will probably have something to do with communication or art. It won't be a surprise.

Also my sister and I did something silly and nerdy and I'm excited, so I'll explain better and post images of our hard work later. Hint: It involves two zombie games all twisted into one.

[solaraph]

Ambrose

56 Sketchbooks done. Now what? Oh yeah, gotta make more art. Ready, set, go!

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Browning Bananas

I know they are supposed to be better for you... but once they get a little brown, I'm just imagining how good that banana bread will be.

[solaraph]

As You Do

When writing smut: if you're not turning yourself on, how can you expect the reader to enjoy it? Then you know at least one person had a good time. ;)

[solaraph]

Whenever it snows

I sing "It's Cold Outside" and it's the truth.

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That moment when you turn to your cousin and tell them you love them, even though they're your family. And they understand.