I expected more. Got way less.
He lives in a different town you see. An hour away. I was the sucker to always make the drive. I cooked whenever we hung out. Etc.
He never made an effort to even try to make us work. I also made that easy for him. Nevertheless, he's good people and I'm staying his friend. Which means I'll hear from him once a month, maybe. If at all.
So, back to today: I met up with him in a park because I didn't want to go to his place. My cousin explored the small town while I had my little conversation. Oddly enough, that was the first time we really talked and everything seemed to flow just fine. Then I gathered my guts and said, "I don't think you're ready for what I'm looking for." He agreed. I added some more drivel, and he agreed again. Said he was feeling the same way.
He didn't even blink or seem to care.
I feel like I wasted my time on someone. But I don't regret it. Lesson learned.









