#someonefuckinghelpme

[dangerdragoncat]

Psst. Hey you.

You should totally give this not soporific laced candy to Dr Glass before 3:45PM.

What do you mean it’s coincidentally right before my psychological evaluation your totally hallucinating wdym.

[impala-dreamer]

[musicismindcontrol]

i wanna see skyler tonight 

but im just so fucking sad 

i feel like the worst senario 

would be for me to see him 

and make a horrible impression of myself by being fucking lame 

and mopey 

but i just got into a car accident 

my life is all over the place 

and im suspended from school 

i cant even write a decent resume 

what would i possibly have to offer someone

especially someone out there doing all the things i wish i could do 

i wanted to see him last night 

but felix paid me 120 bucks to hang out at the biker club 

and i really needed the money 

my phone was dead so i couldnt text him 

id be surprised if he still even thinks im interested 

i hate my depression 

and i truly and deeply hate myself because of it 

i just want to remember what it feels like to like someone 

like regular people do 

and not feel guilty for liking someone

to not worry and feel anxious about 

being around regular people

to not fear bringing them down into the pits of hell with me 

i hate myself so much that i feel like i pity boys who like me back 

i wonder what the hell is wrong with them to like someone like me 

i wonder if they hate themselves too if they think im good enough for them 

i want to just flirt and not feel disgusting 

i want to get attention and not feel bad about it all the time 

i want to like him but why? 

whats gunna happen when (if we ever get this far) he finds out 

how sad i am? 

noone wants to comfort a depressed person 

and noone ever will really 

and because i think hes an great person 

i wouldn't even want him to 

when i find guys i like i cant help thinking 

wow, your so great, i want you to be with a woman whos also great

remember me fondly 

anyway

im gunna go out to Brooklyn tonight 

and im gunna try to be normal 

im going to try to be a pretty girl 

and be all cool and stuff 

try not to be sad

suppress every way i normally am 

and be something else

[understandtheindescribable]

current situation

I’m just a mess and I don’t even know why.

I feel so restless. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t think, I just can’t.

I’m supposed to be so happy right now? Nothing’s really wrong, nothing bad has happened, so why do I feel so low? I feel as if my room can just suck me up and moment now or I’ll just fall into a big black hole.  I feel like I’m suffocating within my own skin, if that even makes sense?

I don’t feel like going out or seeing anyone, all I want to do is just cuddle up to that one person and be reassured that everything’s going to be okay, and that they’ll be there for me no matter what. Something so simple like that, would just make my whole life. Funny thing is though, that can’t happen. Of course it can’t fucking happen.  Why? Because anything that could make me the slightest bit happy, never fucking works out. That’s just it. It’s like I’m not even allowed to be happy, because it’s just not on the cards for me, because I don’t deserve it.