#something has to give...

[sparrowsong-7]

Her Story pt. 2

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[j-in-the-north]

This morning I had a mental breakdown at work so bad I'm still crying. I even called the crisis home health line provided by our company.

First things first, the millions of questions to get someone and then once i got someone there were more questions, it was almost as frustrating as the fact that I couldn't stop crying. Can't they talk to me first then ask the dumb questions??? Don't worry, I was polite. I know it's not their fault. We spent two hours talking and I've got an appointment tomorrow via phone with a counselor or therapist or something. Oh and I'm aware they aren't dumb questions, but it feels like that when you're sobbing and hyperventilating.

I'm aware that my life might seem privileged and in many ways it is. But I can't keep feeling like this, on the verge of a breakdown/meltdown. This condo is so frustrating. My job is infuriating. I have this headache that won't go away. It's not a migraine, but it's close. And I'm really struggling with my aging lately.

I'm so tired all the time. And it sucks that I can't sleep very well. Because I feel like I need better sleep. And I need to feel better for more than a couple of hours here and there.