#somethingyoudidn'tknow

[wisemensayonlyfoolsrushin]

You called me today.

You've only ever called me one other time before. I didn't even ask you to call this time and I don't think you understand how happy it made me that you just called because you thought I might want to talk. 

I'm so very in love with you, dear.

12/19/13

P.S. I get to see you tomorrow and I'm so excited.

[wisemensayonlyfoolsrushin]

I had the best time with you this weekend.

I’m so glad you came to the book sale with us. It means a lot to me. We cooked together last night and I loved it. I love spending time with you like we’re living together. I know I wouldn’t want to be with anyone else. I’m so very in love with you.

11/10/13

[wisemensayonlyfoolsrushin]

I can't sleep because of what happened earlier and I guess there's something you should know about me so maybe you'll understand better.

When I was younger, some things happened to me that shouldn’t have. I was eight when it started. I wanted so badly to play with my brother and his friends, and my mom made him take me. But the one friend wanted to play with me more than he should have, and the other didn’t understand the gravity of what he was doing, and my brother didn’t stop them, he joined them. It went on for a long time even after my parents found out and the one boy got taken away somewhere and we didn’t see the other one anymore either. I didn’t fully grasp it then, but they took a really important piece of my childhood away from me that I was never able to get back. They showed me how important it is for men and boys to respect women and girls of all ages. They showed me how important it is to teach my children not to treat others like sex objects or use them just because they could, because that hurts people, and that kind of hurt doesn’t go away. They showed me how important it is to me to make sure my children never hurt anyone the way they hurt me. I need the man I marry to work with me to teach our kids not to be like them, not to hurt people. I want more than anything for that man to be you. That’s why I get so upset when you use vulgar language, especially in regards to women, and why it’s so important to me that you make an effort to stop.

I know what an amazing man you are already, love, even if you don’t. I wouldn’t be with you if I didn’t. But you need to know why that kind of behaviour hurts me so much. So please try to understand how important this is to me and that I don’t say things like that just because I want to control or change you. I love who you are more than anything. I just need you to know that your words hurt sometimes, and for you to do your best to respect that even though you don’t find them offensive or hurtful, I do, and to try not to use them that way when you know it upsets me. I hope you understand now why I need this from you so badly.

11/7/13

[wisemensayonlyfoolsrushin]

I talked to you for two hours on Skype last night and tonight you're not talking to me because I bothered to tell you that I didn't like something you said.

And you told me you're not mad but you still aren't talking to me and I feel like crap.

Oh, and just so you know, one word answers are like my freaking least favourite thing in the world.

10/30/13

[wisemensayonlyfoolsrushin]

I really need to update the texts I have from you that I've saved because I have about a hundred locked on my phone right now.

Did I mention I love you?

10/23/13

[wisemensayonlyfoolsrushin]

You're doing it again.

Surprising me, that is.

We're listening to classical music on your pandora so you won't distract me while I write my paper. I really love you.

10/2/13

[wisemensayonlyfoolsrushin]

I came home early this week so I could spend more time with you.

I’m so glad I did. I know it’s only two more days, but I love being able to spend them with you. I had a dream last night that you asked me to marry you. I didn’t tell you about it, but it was the best dream I’ve ever had.

10/2/13

[wisemensayonlyfoolsrushin]

This has been the best weekend we've had in a really long time.

I had such a hard time getting through the last two weeks to be able to see you. I was struggling so much at school with trying to feel okay about my decision about school and trying to make Mom understand, and when I got here on Friday morning I thought I'd spend most of the weekend crying because I was having such a rough time and I'd missed you so much and I don't know if I'm coming back next weekend, which means I might have to make it through another two weeks at school before I see you again. But you made me forget everything all over again.

I hope you had a wonderful birthday, because I had the best day with you yesterday. I wish I could do more for you, but I'm glad you liked what I got you. Also, I don't think you know how much I loved playing Dominion with you and Dan and Carson and Will, so in case I didn't tell you, I really enjoyed it. And I know that your birthday isn't that important to you, but it really is important to me. I know you think it's just another day, but for me, it's the day God gave me you. And I didn't know it for the first 18 years of my life, but now that I do, I'm so thankful for it. It's the day my best friend was born. 

You have work today, and you had to go in at 9. We went to sleep sometime around midnight last night, but we didn't stay asleep for very long. I kept tossing and turning, and I kept you up forever, and then I had an idea and you got up to turn the light on at like 4:30 and got me a whole bunch of paper so I could write it down, and when I only wrote a couple little notes, you kept insisting that I write more, even though I was keeping you awake and you had work this morning. And then after I made you turn off the light anyway and I still couldn't go to sleep, you turned it back on and made me write some more, and promised you could sleep through it. And even when you didn't fall asleep, you told me to keep writing so I wouldn't forget, even though I insisted a hundred times that I didn't have to write anymore of it down because I wouldn't forget. I can't even begin to tell you how much that meant to me. I know you said you'll support me in whatever I decide about school, but you didn't even hesitate to encourage me to write, even though it meant that at 4:30 in the morning on a day you had work from 9 to 5, you had to turn on the light and get me paper and a pen so I could work through my idea so I could go to sleep, and even though I guess I should have, I wasn't expecting that much emphatic support in regards to my actual writing. It's so important to me that you're there with me through this, and it means so much that I don't even have to ask you to do things like that. You're right there no matter what. It feels so good having you on my side through everything. I don't know how you do it, but know that I appreciate it more than you can imagine.

Don't you dare ever forget how much I love you, okay?

9/22/13