Believe in Me
This is a short little Charlie Gillespie x Reader imagine. The reader struggles with her mental health and her self worth and Charlie is there to pick her up every single time.
GIF is not my own- creds to creator
FLUFF, FLUFF, FLUFFY
I sat on the edge of the bathtub, my hands constantly rubbing up and down my thighs, the hot tears leaving trails down my cheeks, I took a deep breath in, shaking my head and wiping the tears away before standing up and observing my reflection in the mirror, turning my head to the side.
I reach into the cabinet for my makeup wipes, scrubbing at my face to ensure that every little bit of makeup was removed, I splashed my face with the cold water from the tap, pulling my hair up into a messy bun, "you okay in there Bub?" the calming voice of my boyfriend, Charlie, spoke from the other side of the door, I didn't reply instead I open the bathroom door and smile at him, nodding my head, "you don't need to lie to me Baby" he says gently, grabbing my hand in his and pulling me into him, one of his hands rubbing the small of my back and the other finds itself in my hair, massaging my scalp soothingly. I could feel the overwhelming emotions come rushing back in the second I felt Charlie's lips come into contact with the top of my head, my body began to shake as the tears spilled out once more, Charlie removed his hand from my hair and pulled me gently to the couch, he sat down and tugged me onto his lap with my legs draping over his, I nestled my head into the crook of my love's neck as the tears eventually ran out.
"I'm sorry" I croaked, my throat feeling hoarse, "I thought you were still on set" I admitted, I felt Charlie's fingers under my chin as he lifted my head up to meet his loving eyes,
"Breathe in for 5 baby" he whispers, maintaining eye contact as he felt my body begin to shake from the sheer panic of him seeing me in this state, "Bub, please.. breathe in for 5 seconds" Charlie even began to slowly breathe in, hoping for me to imitate- to his joy, I did abide by his instructions and slowly breathe in, "good Baby good... can you hold it now? Just for another 5?" I nodded and held my breath in, Charlie tucked a few stray hairs behind my ear and ran his thumb along my cheek repeatedly, "you are doing so good, now just breathe out okay?" I continued to follow Charlie's instructions, my body feeling instantly relaxed as I stared into Charlie's eyes.
"Thank you" I said quietly, I rested my head against Charlie's hand, I kissed his palm repeatedly, just being thankful that I had this amazing man in my life
"Talk to me" he said calmly, "please" I sighed and sat up, shuffling off of Charlie's lap, my legs still over his.
"I just don't feel like myself... I feel like somewhere along the line I have lost who I am and I don't know how to get back to me..." I admitted "and this has been... I don't know- it's been going on for a while and I just didn't want to be a burden on you so I just let myself go through the motions when you're on set and I don't know I'm sorry" I lowered my head just for a moment before Charlie brought me back into his lap, he held my head in his hands before leaving a lingering kiss on my forehead
"You don't need to apologise for feeling like this Bub, I love you okay? More than I have ever loved anyone or anything ever before, I am here for all of your highs and all of your lows, Y/n, look at me please?" He begged as I started to distract myself with the view outside, "come on Love, please" he said in such a soft tone that it broke my heart to hear, I glanced back at him and half-smiled "you are my everything Baby, my absolute everything. I couldn't imagine spending the rest of my life with anybody else. I know you don't know who you are right now but I am going to be here, helping you find yourself again, every single step of the way. Baby, I love you and when you don't believe in yourself, just believe in me... Believe in the fact that I will do everything in my power to make you feel loved and appreciated and I will do everything to help you discover yourself" Charlie said, keeping my head in his hands, he pulled my face close to his and littered my face with a thousand kisses before planting a long and passionate kiss to my lips, exposing every raw emotion he held within his heart for me.
Although I don't know who I am and who I see myself as, there's one thing I will always know and that is that I am madly in love with this man peppering kisses all over my face and neck and that man is incredibly in love with me and he will always be there whenever I fall.
