Did a little thing the other day!
I decided to compare the evolution of my persona over the last 2 years, I made her back in third quarter 2023.
If you wanted a detailed breakdown:
I remember, earlier in the year I hardly knew what being trans was
and prior, despite identifying as Pansexual, I viewed the idea as weird and gross. Fault of my upbringing I suppose. (Also hi @werestorm)
She came from quite a lineage sonas before her (I say as if there weren't just two prior) and none of them stuck, but this was different. The orginial design was actually based off my headcannon design for my friend @shadow-the-artist-idiot's old sona:
I ended up liking the design so much that I copied it and gave it shorter hair and more color.
She reflected me a lot at the time, nervous, shy, femboy twink, I made her stick thin (inaccurate to me). One of the first things I drew her in was this:
(Spoilers for what happened to her lol)
Over the rest of the year, she evolved further as I narrowed her colors down, basic design elements, and whatnot. As my art improved, I made her more feminine, a bit chubbier, I made her represent me further.
And in late may 2024.
I finally figured it out, my egg cracked.
I tried different pronouns online and found out just how much I preferred it.
I got my own name a month later, off handedly hearing it from a show my parents were watching in the background.
And she reflected the shift, for a few months I was going by she/they because I was getting accustomed to it and trying to beat back my internalized transphobia. My sona was still just a little creature just having tits now.
But I ended up fully accepting it and using she/her and from there I began further exploring my gender expression, coming into styles I enjoyed. This is where the "turns into a whore" bit happens lmao.
Randomly though I started fucking with filters on images and got this:
I adored these new desaturated colors, my friends thought it was nice too.
And its basically been history from there! Only new developments with her have been me leaning into her already demonic design and adding wings after drawing so much Gabriel ultrakill.
Well thats basically my sona's story!
I'm really happy with how mr and my sona have evolved over the years and I'm really happy with where I am right now. While I can't start publicly transitioning for a while (especially living in Florida in the Trump administration) all my friends know my identity and fully support me, calling me by my chosen name and using my pronouns in private. And the upcoming comic convention I'm going to with my transmasc cousin, I'm going to wear a skirt for the first time.
I'm going as Mirage from Ultrakill and I'm going to wear a skirt.
I've never been more excited in my life
Thank you for reading
And have a nice night!
