this suck rn !!! like holy fuck!!!
mom and her boyfriend had a nasty fight, he put his hands on my brother (15) and my mom AND tried to wind up and hit my sibling (13) so my moms not even in the city rn, staying with a friend, siblings are at dads, im at dorms.
Im so exhausted, I just wanna play the sims and stop being so like??? fuckked up abt everything? will be doing some new art pieces for SHORE i desperately need smthng to hold onto rn, everything has been thrown on its head and I feel like shit !! and there's literally nothing (zero things) I can do about it, I called the cops (bleaugh) and he got taken to cells for a few hrs, and I feel horrible for involving the police but like.. idk I was scared and my mom and him were drunk and my brother was throwing punches and he was throwing punches and I didnt know what else to do!! everyone says I did the right thing, but if I did the right thing why does my stomach hurt so bad??
i shouldn't have done it, but i was so scared and my siblings shouldn't have to see the adults in their lives get so belligerently violent.
I dont even feel bad about the idea that he might hate me. He was the closest thing I had to a consistent father figure. my own dad hates me, I dont care what some dude that was dating my mom thinks.
If slenderman had just taken me when I was a chubby, asthmatic middle schooler (peak proxy btw) this would have never happened.
