#sorry about the mess...

[pippinthepenguin]

So the first thing I need when I feel horrible enough  about myself is for my dad to tell me everything I do wrong when I've already been dwelling on it all night long. I'm now going into my seventh semester at a TWO YEAR COMMUNITY COLLEGE! Seriously, what is wrong with me? I'm never going to get out of this place and I've already decided that I'm lazy as eff which is why I don't finish my stuff. And I just found out last night that I got a D in my Chemistry class.... I'm seriously just done with this school and I'd really fucking appreciate it if my dad would just let me give myself a hard time and not have to add onto what I'm already saying and feeling. I'm really just irritated. Plus I found out I don't have to be at the college for my Stagecaft final until 1 so I'm just fucking around right now. But seriously. I hate the fact that I can't hate myself enough alone, my dad has to do it for me... He doesn't hate me. I'm just frustrated right now. I'm a lazy ass college student and there's not a lot I can do about that other than stop messing around and actually study and do my work... I told myself that I'd do my work this semester, did I do it? No. I sure didn't....

[hamfruitcake]

Tom Kha

Well, I tried to make some Tom Kha tonight, it's a popular Thai soup dish which is the cousin of Tom Yum. It's like a coconut broth, and the flavours come from Galangal (kind of pink peppery ginger), lime leaves, lemongrass, birds eye chillis, bit of lime juice and and fish sauce with straw mushrooms and chicken. Anyways, it was a bit of a disaster, used way too much coconut milk, didn't manage to replicate it the way I had tasted it in the restaurant although it smelt perfect. Lame. I know that Thai food all have to incorporate the five core flavours of salty, sour, sweet, spicy and bitter, I kept trying to chuck more of each ingredient in to try and balance out the flavours but failed miserably at beating out the coconut! Lesson learnt for next time. Plus, nothing was burnt or smashed, there were no alarms, I did have a fight with the coconut milk can and it ended up splattering just about everywhere... But apart from that it was ok, and makes me want to go out and get some real Tom Kha from an expert to eat and adore so I can refine my own recipe! A minor goal in my life is to learn to cook without incident, oh and well.