I've made such a mess for myself here, I can't undo what I did. I've never seen my parents so hurt before, and they are truly disappointed in me. I've made more than a mistake, I've changed my own fate into heading in the wrong direction. Now I've made people I care about feel such pain, and it pains me to see them like this. But it's my fault, I've made this mess. And this, this I can't fix. It's too broken to fix. And it will take years to place back together. I've made my parents lose faith in me, and I have to live with this now. I have to live with this mistake. I would say I am sorry, but sorry doesn't help.