#sorry i'm confusing

[lattaeyongs-main]

is 01:36 supposed to be angsty or fluffy? because i got a mix of both lmao

I actually meant for it to be fluff, but now I could see it as angst lol

[gaymingvideos]

his name is niall?? why does that make me laugh so much lmao

noo omg i was just joking bc karen and kathryn are such similar names and phil’s dad is called nigel so.... dan’s d*d could be niall

[99marlo]

Hi Marlowe, do you accept commissions?

hello! yes I do!  If you have something in mind or you just want me to draw something for you..feel free to email me (my email is on my page) and we can talk about the details. and if you have a simple request for something you want to see on my blog you can always send me an ask and I might draw it! 

[jembu23]

abbys-jam-jugglerreplied to yourpost:Why are you in the tag if you don’t like the thing...

??? what do you mean like…read in the tag but not tagging stuff? Cause I’m doing that. ?

Nothing you did Abby. This had to do with another fandom I’m in. People who reblog content about a ship but are only negative about it. Even when the original post was only tagged as the ship. Meaning the only way they saw it is by looking through that ships tag. Does that make sense?

[lilyberman-tow]

naoki-tow replied to your post:naoki-tow replied to your post:naoki-tow replied...

I see. Yesh, Lady’s is very bright. So much orange and pink. I see your point. It’s pretty but overpowering?

Sh, no sorry, Lady Anon, Lady isn't mine. Sorry, I've been calling her Lady for so long, it gets confusing now.

[s-ensitivus]

I need someone to hold me and say “calm, i'm here, i'll protect you”.

[lordjspec]

Taking a look in the mirror can be hard sometimes.

I don't suffer from dysphoria all that much.  Yeah, I want my breasts to be LONG GONE, but that's about the extent of it.  That is more-so for comforts sake.  I don't really see myself parading around without a shirt, even after I have surgery.  I grew up around men who typically kept their shirts on.  It's viewed as being a bit rude in my household.

However, some days I feel a bit UNCOMFORTABLE (not triggered) when I look in the mirror.  The only reason being: I never quite anticipated what I would look like once I transitioned.  I know that I have some months to go to get the full effect, but I have an idea of what I'll look like in the end.

Growing up I used to create alter egos for myself.  I imagined what I would look like, and almost all of the ideas I had were the polar opposite of what I actually looked like at the time.  What I'm saying is, when I looked in the mirror, I saw someone with zero features that actually correlate with my genetics (if that make sense).

Now that I'm seen as male 24/7, I look in the mirror and am sometimes shocked by the fact that I don't look as I thought I would when I was 11.  I suppose I feel as though my imagination is dwindling and reality is setting in. 

A lot of the time I find it hard to feel attractive.  I'm not as athletic as I used to be, my head only seems to be getting ROUNDER (if that was even possible before), I'm getting chubby, etc.

I guess when I look in the mirror I see finality, and it can be overwhelming.  My whole life I thought I would change drastically, but at the end of the day, I'm the same.  This isn't all bad.  I don't have low self esteem.  In fact, quite the contrary! I think highly of myself, I am proud to be me, and anybody can attest to that.  But finality is scary, for anybody!

After years of imagining myself in the mirror, I guess it's just hard to actually see my reflection.

[small-elephant-blog]

for some reason i can't wrap my mind around the fact that you see and acknowledge what i post and read and reblog my stuff like for some reason i feel like nobody cares what i post on the internet idk in other words thank you