#sort of depression

[manuelx22]

Nights like this makes me think of how I’ve been repressing my feelings for the past 5/6 years...

[cheesycakeo]

Some days I really super duper want a relationship and someone to just Love and then I think mmmnaaahhhh

[stardust-rust]

When I was a kid one of my biggest pet peeves was eating leftovers, or eating food that's not meant to be cold/lukewarm (e.g. sushi is meant to be eaten cold. Leftover rice that's just on the table is a big no-no). That sounds really spoiled, I know, but to me microwaves existed for a reason, and that was to make food palatable again.

But now, as I've grown older and life has become crueller, I begin to just... not care anymore. I begin to understand why so many adults would come home, slump over the table and just shovel food in their mouths like they didn't care what they ate, it was just fuel for another day in the grind.

It also says something, I think, when McDonald's and instant noodles used to be such a treat, but now it's just a very last resort sort of 'my desire to not cook and need to eat outweighs any health concerns.'

Nowadays I eat what's in front of me, and unless it's actually cold I will get up and reheat it. I feel like I'm beginning that slow slide towards apathy and having the joy of food being sucked out of me just because... I don't know, existential crisis? Not-yet-even quarter life crisis? The general despair of being yet another millennial floundering about for a direction in life?

[cursed-sun]

You died when the  angels were singing,

 and they took you away.

Look to yourself and find the Goddess within you.

Find Her, let her out

she is a part of you.

Remember that and you'll never be put down again.

The Darkness is coming.

Don't worry, it's staying still.

It will never catch you.

[shsl-jaegerbomb]

And it makes me sad thinking that the friends I care about probably don't care about that, either.