#soterion

[hishouse]

THEY SAY : PHRASES TURN TO BLADES , IN THE MOUTH OF A GODLESS THING PLAYING HUMAN. - and surely i would agree . I SEE A FATHER BERATING HIS SON for a small error and everyone looks away . as though the tight grasp over his wrist would not break it. i see a man exerting his demands as though he he is unwatched by anything . breaking a child with unkindness he must have known and so he wants to be seen terrifying .

here i know man is feral : a beast playing himself god . with eyes wide as though wringing the necks of anything they found to be below their station. forgetting that the feeble flesh they call scared turns to rot in every breath. man may , claim himself above beast , but history has the bodies to lay out from under the words of the heretical. running red - eras into the bosoms of mothers who give their. children an OVERDOSE OF BAD LUCK. i observe and I see how uneasy they rest and i am keen to laugh . but my mouth feels heavy - twisted and sour . as though it were grabbed by something .

EMPATHY : IF YOU DO LAUGH HERE WHAT DO YOU THINK WILL HAPPEN ? WILL PEOPLE JOIN IN ? WILL IT BETTER YOUR HUMANITY ? WILL SEEING THEM IN MODES OF SUFFERING AND CONFUSION BETTER YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR OWN GOD ?

i do despise when the internal monologues begin - i know how i fight to be human . fight to hold a route back to the one who betrayed me but alas i know what to say to everything here .

" what god turns his back form his children ? @soterion "

[aicidos]

forcerp?

nanatheo thread when

[aicidos]

hi ily :]

HIIIIII ILY MORE we should write soon🥺🥺

[diegetically]

@soterion​ / ❛ I need to know what’s inside. ❜

FATE IS INFALLIBLE, IMPENETRABLE, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, INESCAPABLE. no matter which road you take, it will always lead to the same dead end. it’s an honor, telman thinks, to know your own fate. to know the end of your story like the back of your hand — to know that the decisions you make and regret will decay in the face of the denouement... why wouldn’t you be ecstatic about that? 

yet, despite — or perhaps, in spite of — the comfort of an end, people change. telman has studied this. the attempted repentance that emerges when confronted with your ending, the simultaneous guilt and rage and sorrow that will never heal... it’s disturbing. in that sense, telman’s happy that people like him and alexey will never change.

after all, the insatiable hunger for knowledge rarely falters. 

“you’ll die.” his tone is flat, as if stating a fact rather than a possible outcome. “it seems as if you’ve already prepared for that possibility. if you would like to continue, i won’t stop you.” but i’m here, if you need me. 

[soulrot]

[  cocktail  ]  theo gives  misha  a  cocktail ... idk why or what the context is but hello ...

     he hates to make things so obvious. not that alcohol sends him into a particular fit, but he still hates it. hates the smell, the taste--it lingers, just like the rot on his skin. he hates when things stay. alcohol always stays. the scent of the cocktail alone sends him back to his childhood days, where his mother would put on her record player and drink herself into a stupor. he avoided her then. he always did. 

     ‘ i don’t drink. ’ he says, and he tips the glass over without a blink.

[soulrot]

soterion asked: aloe + hibiscus

aloe :   how does your muse handle grief ?

misha has never had to grieve for anyone. even when his mother finally died, he felt more anger towards the lack of satisfaction that came from the event rather than grief over losing her. however, if we were to have a hypothetical situation, misha will resort to self-destructive tendencies, if the option to join someone else in death is not a possibility.

[emotionalsupportcorpse93]

[rp-kat]

Elgibbor - Soterion Apollumi Hamartia

2010