💭: when did you realise you were lgbt?
this is kind of hard to pinpoint because i had been questioning myself ever since about the beginning of middle school except i didn’t know i was questioning my sexuality/romantic orientation. middle school was around the time that a lot of my peers were getting into semi serious relationships, and coming from someone who’s only experience with it was during a time that my physical and therefore emotional health was compromised my only thought was to let it go and that it wasn’t important.
so skip forward to a time where emotional security is non-existent and i’m starting to realize that my attraction goes for both girls and boys, i decided that it was because of my previous compromise of emotional health that was making me feel this way and that showing no interest would deflate these feelings. so i knew, but didn’t want to accept, that i was bi romantic since middle school.
jump forward to high school where there was more of a sexual aspect to relationships and that’s when i realized boy was i not comfortable with the idea of sex. still having no experience romantically and still feeling uncomfortable with myself and my attractions i wasn’t really able to explore who i am until i met people like me (most notably you and our little group).
i still can’t really confirm what i am because i have absolutely no experience with this area of my life. all i know is that i am possibly bi romantic/asexual and that i’m still questioning. so yeah. there’s my queer lore.