#source attached

[purewhitemelody]

Looking at my source and thinking "He's so me" before remembering... He is me...

[harpsichordkeys]

seasonal depression, source attached fictive edition.

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[tetheredgrievance]

being in a subsystem is weird

being in subsystem of just daves is weirder

theres like 4 of us that i know about

ill likely refer to their chumhandle or source name

there's me, dave, alpha dave (TG), and an au dave we made (TT)

were all very different from eachother too

its weird

[aurora-abyss]

Words cannae describe how much better it feels to let myself just.. be.

To be myself, truly.

Not the first time I've brought this up, but I've been frontstuck since september, so around six or seven months now. It's been hard, definitely, and it's taken a long time to get used to. Still get blurry when overly tired or stressed, and the others don't show up often lately for probably several reasons we have yet to name. But me? I'm here, and I think I'm glad to be now.

I haven't really allowed myself the luxury of fully being myself, because there's so many other people in here who deserve their time to shine. Not like switches can be helped or forced, not easily at least. But it's s been.. comfortable. Very quiet, but pretty comfortable. I think a few people are coming back slowly, even as I write this one of my friends is somewhere in co-con, I can see him (he's nonverbal, so he can't say hi, but he's here) and my now husband is always here with me.

Our body doesn't look anything like me, or most of us for that matter. This body is short, skinny, not even the right sex—we're transmasculine as a collective and unfortunately still pre-T and top surgery. But I've been able to cut our hair to look more like mine, I can wear things I like, we have platform combat boots that I'm actually very good at walking in, we even have fake piercings and makeup can do wonders. If anything we look like me when I was an early teen.

But allowing myself to do these things, especially with the support of our system... It's fucking liberating.

I'll scroll through art and fics and get so happy to see source recognition, aye, but also me. Though, it's a case where seeing my own face n hearing my own voice feels weird, a different feeling to seeing the body or hearing our voice. Because I'm me. I know I'm me, and I always will be.

Plus, there's the bonus of hey, I fucking died. This is a second chance at life. Maybe in the wrong body, and never in the same line of work, but it's another chance at living. My friends and team and partner are in here alongside me.

I think.. for the first time, I'm happy to be here.

[bitt3r-pawz]

I just remembered I'm allowed to block people for whatever reason I want. Free will is a thing. I don't have to keep looking at yume shippers who ship with our source attached introjects. I can just block them. That's a thing I'm allowed to do.

[0ujiii]

Source separated as in I fully acknowledge and accept that realistically, I’m not a fictional being and I didn’t actually come from any sort of media, but source attatched enough to go yes. That’s me. I am them. I WILL think and act like them. And if you say I’m not them, then there’s something wrong with YOU not me.

[tavern-get-togethers]

[Image ID: The text: "This system's fictives are not source attached or detached but a secret third thing." inside a blue userbox with an icon of a figure looking at a static tv. End ID]

Made for ourselves but feel free to use. (please like or reblog if you do)

[christmas-cookie-nightmare]

Hey!! This is the host talking and admin of the blog, this isn't directed towards anyone but...

Billy has gotten really uncomfortable on this blog when people ask things like "omg you're my kin" or "omg I ship myself with you"

while he does enjoy the fans he doesn't particularly enjoy being referred to as if he's a fictional character. it would be more appropriate to say "hey I ship myself with your source" or "I kin your source" because he doesn't want to be treated as if he's his source. he's still attached to it in many ways, yes but he doesn't want to be treated like a fictional character which is why he's very rarely come in here recently

anyways, continue on! just wanted to make this post!