spacetimes replied to your post “But if I stop doing opiates how the hell am I supposed to deal with...”
Shit this is a hard one, for me I re-discovered things I liked before. Idk abt ur ease of access but if u just force urself to stay in your room and get through it smoking mad weed and doing dxm as u see fit. Its like trading one addiction for Another but at least ur not hard on the h. Its way less harsh on ur body. Just gotta get thru those cravings. U can do it
Ease of access varies a lot, the guy I pick up from changes his number a lot but there's usually someone who knows it or if this friend of mine comes down and he has some he'll share with me. After the holiday stuff is over I'm probably gonna lock myself in the apartment & block the door or something and like go nuts with all the feelings haha. I don't get physical withdrawl so bad cause I only started shooting about 4 months ago & smoking isn't as intense but the mental part of it is killer.
Yeah it's definitely trading one for another but I'd rather have more of the weed and dxm or even alcohol in my life. Like black is too perfect for me. and i can't even care if i do something bad with it like in October I got a weird spot on my arm where my friend shot me up & missed the vein at first and it was shiny reddish pink and sensitive to touch and it stayed for like a month til it started going away. I thought something might be wrong but I really didn't care enough about it and I'm scared I'll fuck myself over for good with it one day
Thank you so so much for talking about it with me, it means a lot