#spinningdreidel

[spinningdreidel]

i can’t stop eating large amounts of shitty food. and like i want to blame it on being sad, but i know it’s just because im a fat piece of shit that has no self control.

[spinningdreidel]

I feel empty and nauseous and i dont remember how to feel decent again. and im so sick of people telling me “it will get better” because even if it does, it’ll just get bad again. nothing seems to be working right and im not sure what to do about it.

[spinningdreidel]

i just want to love and be loved by someone who loves me back

[spinningdreidel]

I’d been doing so well with my mental health for a while and one bad night completely flipped it all around. And now I’m back to feeling like absolute shit.

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[spinningdreidel]

y’all ever get really drunk and remember that you aren’t worthy of love??????? bc same

[spinningdreidel]

lol I drank an entire bottle of champagne on my own and now im drunk af and surprisingly not sad

[spinningdreidel]

this time last year i came to the realization that im unlovable and theres no possible way that anyone could ever love me. this year ive convinced myself that love is a lie or just not real.

i think its easier because then it isnt my fault as much, but idk it still hurts.